A dream is a portrait that paints itself
Like water poured in different cups
Or droplets splashing against the ground
Everchanging and indefinite
Intangible emotions
Obediently unbridled
Satisfying, but insatiably so
Frightening, but sweet
It knocks every night
Breaks down doors
Gradually creeping away
Only to swoon you again
An ocean's receding shoreline
Then advancing
The container bobs up and down
The lid closes gradually
Darkness takes over
Will hope fight?
It strikes again
Avoid it's leer
Run off the shore and search
for shelter
You think you're safe
But it's walking towards you
Then retreats quickly
Amazingly fast
Stunning
Stop and stare
Stop and think
Make the unreal dream shrink
Make reality true

You say this Friendship is the best thing going for you.
You say you’d be lost without me by your side…
And baby, I’ve stuck with you through and through…
But something isn’t right…
Why am I so uneasy?
Why do I feel battered and bruised?
You come running to me, I am your strength or so you say,
And I try to catch you when you fall.
I dry your tears, when the world is too much to take…
Or so I thought...
Yet, somehow, I try to do this all from afar…
I can never reach you, even when you open the door with the words, I love you.
You ask me to mend your wounds, make everything alright, yet you fight me…
You rip off any bandage I have surrounded you in, for your protection.
And you watch yourself bleed, pushing away any hand that comes to feed.
I don’t understand…
This is me.
I am not your enemy.
You won’t ask for help, as you crawl across the floor, helpless.
As, I stand there, strong, full of life and ready to be your everything.
Instead, you cut me off short like the pathetic worm that I am.
Shut your mouth, don’t say a word…
They are meaningless to me.
So am I just another body to just fill that void?
To fill that lustful fuck you’ve been looking for?
Or am I just another scream in the night as your body quivers?
None of it matters...
As long as I keep my mouth shut, keep my feelings and emotions to myself.
As long as I stop acting like a little sensitive bitch, right?
Sometimes, I never know what you want from me.
So I back off, lock myself away…
And give you the only key.
I guess now the test is, will you ever come and find me?

The Whispered Words In the Dark, That Call,

Pages Stained With Tears, That Fall,

Silent Torments In The Mind,

What Is That You Wish To Find?

Just Say Goodbye And Leave Me For Dead,

I Can’t Handle All This Shit, That Runs Through My Head,

The Amount Of Times She’s Fallen, The Amount Of Times She Lost,

I Didn’t Care, I Helped Pick Up The Pieces No Matter What The Cost.

So Say Goodbye And leave Me For Dead...

I Can’t Do This Anymore.

Allowed Myself To Drown In A Fake Personality,

Forced Myself To Pretend Everything Was Okay,

Pushed My Way Through A Deprived Insanity,

I Did It All To Protect Her And The Rest Of My Family.

Say Goodbye And Leave Me For Dead...

I Can’t Do This Anymore.

Go Ahead, Carrying On Blaming Me For Things I Don’t Do Right,

You Were Never There To Watch Me Cry Myself To Sleep At Night,

You’re Not So Perfect Yourself, You Know,

Never Looked Around To See The Weakness And Woe.

Say Goodbye And Leave Me For Dead...

I Can’t Do This Anymore.

Thought You Were There To Catch Me When I Fall,

You Weren’t There And You Know Something, That Was Your Call,

Chose To Keep To Yourself, Block Away Reality,

Why Won’t You Listen? It’ll Drive You To Insanity!

Forget It, Just Say Goodbye And Leave Me For Dead...

I Can’t Do This Anymore.

Even When People Have Let Me Down,

There Was One Person Who Wouldn’t Let Me Drown,

Kept Me Above The Water And Saved My Life,

The One Person Who’s Always Been There For Me.

So I Won’t Be Saying Goodbye,

And I Won’t Let Myself Die,

Because I Have The One Thing I Need,
                                          And That Is You.