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fairy tales ain't true.. WHY..?

July 24, 2007 | Permalink | Comments (0)

naranasan mo na bang maglaro ng taguan..????

at maging isang taya..???!

nakakainis di ba...

lalo na kung isnag oras ka ng nagraranap s amga kalaro mo'y hindi mo pa rin sila matagpuan..

nakakaasar yun,..

madalas nauuwi sa iyakan..

pero may mas masakit at mas mahirap pa dun..

yun ay kapag, halos isang dekada ka nang nagtatatago'y hindi ka pa rin nila natatagpuan

feeling mo tuloy hindi ka na kasama sa LARO..

para bagang kinalimutan ka ng mundo..

ikaw..??!

alin ka sa dalawa..??

sa taguan ng buhay, alin ka..??

ano naman ang role mo..

ikaw b ayung taya na naghahanap s ataong ayaw naman talagang magpakita

nag aapuhap ng mga sagot sa tanong mong simple lang naman ngunit pinagkakait pa sa iyo ang katotohanan..

o

ikaw ba yaong tago ng tago..

nagkukubli sa dilim...

pilit inililihim ang tunay mong saloobin

naghihintay na may isang taong makatagpo at umunuwa sa kalunus lunos mong kalagayan..??

simple lang ang nais kong ipahiwatig..

nakakapagod maghanap sa taong sadyang nagtatago

nakakapagod habulin and sadya namang lumalayo..

kaya sana

iwasan mo ang magtago

magpakatotoo ka!

wag kang magbalatkayo

wag na wag mong solohin ang pagpasan sa daigdig

(andito kami

handang ilibre ka  ng sanmig at red horse..)

ikaw din..

baka sa kakakubli mo'y tuluyan ka na naming hindi matagpuan

naka dahil sa kaiiwas mo'y matutunan ka naming kalimutan..

lagi mong tatandaan

sa tuwina'y may karamay ka

hindi mo kinakailangang mag isa

matuto kang tanggapin ang bawat mong kahinaan

matuto kang magtiwala

ikaw din,

baka mapagod na kami sa paggalugad sa bawat sulok ng posible mong kalagyan,,,

baka...

magsawa na kami sa kaantay kung kailan ka muling masisilayan..

maniwala ka

malungkot ang nag iisa

kung may problema ka

anuman ang bigat ng iyong dinadala..

wag na wag kang magtatago

magpakatotoo ka..

sa lahat ng mga taya..

wag mo ng habulin ang sadyang tumatakbo

pakawalan mo na ang sarangolla mong inagaw ng hangin

maniwala ka

walang kwenta ang paghahanap sa mga sadyang ayaw magpahanap

ngunit

wag na wag kang basta basta na lang bibitaw

maglaan ka ng sapat na panahon lng sa paghahanap sa mga kaluluwang pilit nagtatago sa pighati at naghihintay ng isang diwatang sa kanya'y  tutlong at makikidalamhati..

wag labis

wag kulang

sapat na oras lang

maghanap ka naman

bahagi yan ng laro

at kapag nahanap mo na siya..

matuto kang umunawa..

at makisimpatiya

marahil

may sapat siyang dahilan upang sa iyo'y lumayo..

basta

magtago ka na sa lahat

pero wag na wag kang lalayo sa Kanya

ikaw din

kapag di ka niya nahanap

saan ka pa kaya pupunta..?

..

when things go wrong

we, humans,

tend to blame others except ourselves..

which is not appropriate..

for we are the ones responsible on our lives

we are responsible for our own happiness..

our satisfaction should never lie on other person....

wes hould never depend our joy on  someone else

nor rely our lives unto them..

like anybody else, i'm no perfect

just a typical lass who always finds an alternative to heal the pain

when my heart is torn into pieces

tendency is , i divert my attention to things that would improve my life

when tears are flooding world,

i  focus my attention on my studies

the wounded i get

i more I am inspired to engaged in worthwhile activities

believe me..

it works..

when you're so busy

(as busy as i am right, you'll have less time to cry and regret)

you'll have less time to feel the bitterness

when im in torment trying to escape thousandds of barricade, i don't run as fast i could

rather

i stop somewhere

pause for a while

reflect and then pour my heart out on my pen and journal...

an dwhen the pain gets into my senses,

when the aching heart is too unbearable

i just let my soul be enveloped with numbness

i savor tha pain for i know it will soon last

when things ran out of control

the best thing to do..

enjoy the adventurous disaster that follows.

it's no use cursing others

better mend our lives and prove to our critics we aren't that trash they thought we are..

let life to the fullest

that even pain and heartaches are just a tamarind -flavored candy..

and of course, dont forget to pray!

for heaven gives the best prescription for the wounded heart..

GLOOMY SUNDAYS..??

THEY SAY THIS IS THE SONG THAT CAN
TRIGGER SOMEBODY TO COMMIT SUICIDE..

I WAS SO TOTALLY UPSET TODAY,,
MY ADVENTUROUS MING WAS SO INTRIGUE
WHAT IS IN THIS SONG THAT IT CAN
CREATE SUCH EMOTION. I SEARCH THE NET
AND DEVOTED AN HOUR LISTENING TO THIS
SONG..

I HAD GOOSEBUMPS..

EVERY INCH OF M Y SOUL WAS SO HAUNTED
BY EVERY WORD IN THIS SONG..

BUT HONESTLY
I ENJOYED TH EFEELING
I ENJOYED LISTENING TO THIS SONG..

FOR WHATEVER REASONG, ALL OF THE
NEGATIVE VIBES, ALL OF THE NEGATIVE
EMOTIONS INVADING MY SOUL
AL OF THE UNWANTED MEMORIES
UNWANTED THOUGHTS
BITTER TRUTH
PAINFUL REALITY
SEEM TO OCCUPY MY ENTIRE EVERY NEURONS
OF MY BRAIN..

I LISTENED TO DIFFERENT VERSIONS AND
IT SOMEHOW RELIEVE THE EMPTINESS I
FEEL INSIDE

BUT EVERY MELODY IS A CURSE
IT BRINGS HEAVY FEELING TO MY HEART

EVERY MELODY HURTS..

EVERY PINCH SEEMS TO TELL ME HOW
UNKIND LIFE IS
HOW UNFAIR LOVE COULD BE..

BUT HELL..

OPTIMISTIC AS I AM..

IT HAD NEVER OCCURED IN MY MIND THAT
SUICIDE COULD END EVERY MORTAL
SOMBERNESS I'M EXPERIENCING..

BUT STILL THEY SAY THIS SONG HAS A
CURSE

THAT WHOEVER LISTEN TO IT WILL SOON BE
TAKING HIS OWN LIFE
WILL SUBCONSCIUOLY COMMIT SUICIDE..

AND I HOPE THIS AIN'T TRUE,..

BUT IF TOMORROW COMES AND
YOU'K FIND ME LYING LIFELESS AND
BLOODY SOMEWHERE IN THE DARK AND
TRANQUIL ROOM..

KINDLY TELL HIM HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM..

AND THAT I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT'S
GOING ON NOW..

THAT I AM WONDERING WHY ALL OF THE
SUDDEN , EVERYTING ELSE TURNS INTO
BLUE AND FADES INTO GRAY..

TELL MAMA AND PAPA
SORRY FOR MY STUBBORNESS
AND THAT I AM SO BLESSED FOR HAVING
THEM IN MY LIFE
AND THAT I LOVE THEM MUCH

I AM STILL WONDER...
WILL YOU BE CRYING IN MY FUNERAL..????

IF TONIGHT I'LL PERISH FROM THIS
WORLD, I KNOW IT WILL DEEPLY PAIN MY
BELOVED MOM..

AND MY SkY-HIGH DREAMS WILL NO LONGER
BE REALIZE..

SO WHY COMMIT SUCh  IDIOT ACT..??

IM NOT A FOOL TO DO SUCH...

BUT OH..!
THE SONG sEEMED TO HAVE TAKEN my LOGIC AND
REASONS..

I DON'T WHY I FEEL SO DEPREsSED AS I
AM..

O MY GOD..!

I BETER LOG OUT AND PRAY!
I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE MY LOVEONES
BEHIND..

I LOVE MY LIFE..

IT'S SPICY
AND COLORFUL..

BUT SAD TO SAY

SUNDAYS REALLY SEEM TO BE GLOOMY..

SO NOW I AM BIDDING ADIEU

BUT NEVER GOODBYE

FOR I'LL BE HAUNTING YOUR MEMORY...

gHOLD ON BABY

The rain is pouring

the night is darker

days are too somber..

tears keep on flooding

you and i amidst this conflict

things keeps on changing

it's always painful honey

every pinch is a curse

yet we have to hold on..

i bet the sun will shine soon

don't worry, evil deeds never win

an dheaven always ;isten sto the plea of an honest heart..

and if worse comes to worst

i'm always here to share your burden

hold on baby

for giving up will only give her satisfaction...

fight for what you believe is right

as long as your walking on the right track

your conscience will be free of guilt....

im always here honey..

studying hatd

burning candles in the night

(i wannna be  a cumlaude)

i understan dthat we don't have the time nor the chance to be together always..

but keep on holding on..

this mess will be over soon...

you said you luve me

you said you'll stay

you said you'll be waiting for me     .

i'm holding on too honey

despite the pain

despite tha teardrops

the rain is pouring hard still

and we are both soakin wet in here

it's cold baby..

and the situation between us gets colder

but we have to hold on

hold on as best as we can

we best need each other now

we have to be strong

side by side we can brace the storm

so please.. keep on holding on...