so yea not alot has been on my mind so i have not been writing. went hiking at ringing rocks. was great. im not a big fan of peeing outside but hey when ya gotta ya gotta. i miss hiking with my dad. ok so i miss my dad ALOT. sucks cause my first fathers day without him passed. was harder then this pass xmas. i think that was because it did not hit me or something. just dont know. anyways.....

i want to go camping soooooo freaking bad. want to go boating sooo freaking bad....  want to go dancing so freaking bad... and noone to do it all freaking with.

went to play ground on hill. was great fun. not just fun but great fun!!! im beat. im going to try to get up early to go to easter egg hunt. then off to my moms to dye more eggs.
where did cows come from? i mean were they always in the us or did someone bring them over? there are wild horses and dogs... but i dont think there were ever wild cows!! so how did they come to be in the us?

went to the playground on hill in the ville last week. took k, gi and dylan. courtney came down. we threw the tire crap thats cut up at each other. when i got home i found it all in my pants and shirt. it was a lot of fun. i love playgrounds. this one is small but it has the tire stuff. so it wins points with me.
we did easter eggs with gi and k. well i did. what a mess. i think thats the fun part. hope to make it to the egg hunt this weekend.  we shaall see.

happy easter!!!! cant believe its here already. i love to make easter baskets. its fun to dye eggs. i love acting like a kid. lifes to short to always have ones panties in a bunch. go out and have fun.

im sick of getting emails for porn. ive signed up to get coupons and i get porn things sent. i dont mind porn but this type is animals and people. i checked my email today and have 400!!! the hell??  thats gross!! why would people do that? why do i keep getting emails for it?? it pisses me off.

friday k and i went to feed the ducks again, then played wiht the lttle girl next door. we went for walk on towpath. we threw rocks in water. that water was gross. k has skates that go over shoes so we went up and down lane. good day.
sat. we picked up cousin dylan and went to philly. just the 3 of us. we went to please touch museum. it was only 15 to get in. they have so much there. dylan got a little bored cause its for younger kids. k loved it. she could have stayed all day. when we go back i, taking gi. then we will stay all day. we went on the merry go round. we had a tea party and all kinds of things. when we left there we drove past the zoo. they are so close to each other. we went. we had 3 hours before they closed. the animals were really close to the glass. there was a bear on his belly touching the glass. it was cool. i loved the monkys. they were close to the glass. i took lots of pics and have to add them to the page. we went into the tree house. i love it there. i could spend all day playing in there myself!!! we left at 530. then stopped at olive garden but there was a hour wait. so we went to unos. dylan was not feeling good and wanted to go home and not sleep over. so we went to get kim and bob. they were not at the elks but other one. k had to poop and i was carrying her in and fell on the step. i was worried about her falling and getting hurt i took the fall on my knee. so thats all yucked up. but shes ok. now k is at my brothers with gi. she will have fun. i might go to dinner there tonight.

i loved the weather last weekend. sat k and i went to the play ground in french town and had lunch outside. then we went to my cousin,dylans, house and hung out. the 3 of us went to playground in town. we were there for about 2 hours. there were 3 moms there who were stuck up. they acted like they were better then all the other moms there. im not like that. i like to talk to everyone. well not them.  oh well. we had fun. maybe they thought i was not cool enough cause they were all sitting down and here i was running around and going down the slide. im trying to lose weight. the playground is a great spot to.
sunday k and i walked to milford to feed the ducks. there was so many there. they came right up to us. if i had to be an animal id be a duck. really. they can walk,swim and fly. plus they are happy animals. give them water to play in and yucky bread and they have it made. they think life is great. anyways. we walked home had lunch outside and then we for another walk on the canal path. it was a great day. i love being outside. well not today. it was cold out. but we were out.

today was a hard day for me. my dad is no longer in a box. hes free and happy. it was hard to let him go but i know hes where he wants  to be. i feel at peace with it and know he does. its a feeling.

ive been thinking about my home on long hill. i miss the area. the woods and the brook and the yard. i dont miss the house or my parents fights. i miss looking at the yard and seeing where things took place.
when i was growing up there was my mommoms house. it was big and white and near a big pine tree. the tree was right outside my mommoms bedroom window. it was pretty in dec when xmas lights would be up the tree. and when it snowed i would lie in bed looking out the window at the lights and snow. the house burnt down in the 80s and was rebuilt then burned down in 90s and was torn down. that was my fav place in the world. so when i looked at the yard i could picture so clearly everything about my fav place. i can still think about that house and see it so clearly. where things where in each room. im sure im getting the house fromthe 80s and 90s mixed up so its like one house but still. that was my comfort zone. my best friend of all time was there. mom dad fighting? thats where i ran to. my mommoms would never let anything happen to me.
when the whote house was there the living room looked out into the garden. which i guess was a garden at one time and the name just stuck. cause all i remember was a field of danilions. it was so pretty. thats where the new house sits. someone bought it. anyway.
when i was young and my cousins came over we would play in the yard. it was fun when it snowed cause we got alot. not like the snow we get now. when they say 2 inches it was always more. alot more. we would get all dressed up and be out there for hours. we would write sos in the snow and yell at planes that we needed help. hey we were young. summer time was great. when i was really really little i would dance ontop of my poppops truck. no music just dance. that was outside the living room windows. so my mommoms would watch me. the living room had the whole wall full of windows. you could see everything. plus as my mommoms would say she never missed a pickle.
when i was bored my mommoms would say run around the house. meaning the outside. i would always think thats dumb and no fun but looking back...i did and always found something to do,look at,collect and play with when i did that. i had so many toys but i just wanted to be outdoors. or with my mommoms.
i know shes happy. shes with my poppop and dad and son she lost when he was little. one day i will be with them but only when the time comes. i know they watch me and are happy im here for now.