THE TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON trailer

So, the countdown begins! 8 days 'til I leave for home.

I'm looking forward to it with varying parts of excitement, dread, acceptance, terror, and happiness.

Boise has been awesome, and I know several people who don't think I should come back, and I can understand because there are parts of me that still think that maybe I'm gonna fall back into my old rut. At the same time though, I'm missing my roots, and I know its going to be extremely hard to grow more here.
I wont regret moving, even though things didn't work out with Joey and I. ::shrugs:: In the long run, I think the relationship was going to end no matter what we did...

Anyway, I've got all my business and personal stuff organized and ready to go. Now I need to figure out about what to do with all my shit.
So, here's how it looks...

My shit. (The only thing not in the picture is one rabbit cage)



My car.


Now, to get all my shit (and pets) into my car, and still be able to drive safely.

Can I do it?

So, at what point can you tell if what you're fighting for is really there, of if its really just something that you wish was there?

At what point do you sound the horn of retreat?

Eh...

So!

Joey has had this three-wheeler that he’s been putzing around with for the last several months but hasn’t had a chance to take it out and see if it actually works. Last weekend we decided to try it out. I was looking forward to it because we went on a quick ride once while we were in VA and it sparked my interest. So, we drove south....south....south of Boise to the middle of nowhere with his creation. He had just gotten new tires and found out that his axle is slightly bent. There wouldn’t be much riding because of that but he’s been chomping on the bit for a while now. Anyhoo.

We get this area where there were a bunch of other riders and unload the "blingin’" three-wheeler and he immediately takes off and does a bunch of wheelies and turns etc. Its at this point that I notice he’s spending more time on only two wheels then he is on all 3, weither it be the back two or the front and one side....Reasurance? No.

He eventually comes back and smacks the only helmet and goggles on me and says we’re gonna go out a ways and see whats there. I think, cool, but of course don’t forget to mention that there will be no tricks or speeding while I’m on the bike. No sireee.

And of course, he nails it as soon as my ass touches the seat. Jerk. We went about a mile into the trails area with me screaming at him to slow the fuck down or let me off. We passed several riders and they gave us weird looks. And oh my god were there bumps. Several times we’d crest a hill and there would be this HOLE in which you could lose a large dog in, and we would just barely skim over it! And then there were mud puddles! And I forgot to mention that is was really fucking windy. Like, New Mexico prairie windy. I hate wind. Thought I had gotten away from it....Ick. And every time we’d even start to approach a steep hill he’d start to gun it! But right, so, my back is covered in mud, I’m frozen, and my muscles felt as if they would never be normal again from trying not to fall off.

So, I finally get him to stop and I get off to the tune of "I wasn’t going fast!" and I give him the helmet and tell him to go play. He gave me this look. It was cute. You know? The one where he really really wants to go but is afraid of the Girlfriend Feelings trap? Yeah, that one, but he eventually danced off and zipped  beyond where I could see.

So, here I am, in the middle of nowhere, beyond where anyone else was, can’t hear Joey, or any other bikes anymore, and I realize that the holes we were going over on the trail was actually giant fucking burrows of some equally giant fucking  creature! Seriously, 2 to 3 ft in diameter. What the hell? And I’m surrounded by them. Only these are obviously occupated. Right, and then I remember hearing my mom say there were wolverines in Idaho? in one of those conversations I wasn’t really paying attention to. And I’m like, Shit. How fast do wolverines move? And I start hearing chirping!! Like prairie dog warnings.

By this point I’m losing the fight to  ignore my over active imagination and lookie there! Joey is back! So, he gets off the bike and is all animated and tells me how he came across these two guys farther up and one had drowned his bike in a mud hole? So, I was like, are we gonna help him get his bike out? Joey’s like, "Nah, but I blew out the spark plug in the bike and need to go back to the truck to tighten it" So, we switch with the helmet and I get back .. making him promise to not go over second gear. It was still really fast, but I stopped yelling.

It was fun, we ended up not doing too much after that because the wind started to pick up and we didn’t want to fuck up the bike because of the bent axle.

The other thing that was cool was that I got new shoes! They’re Merrel’s and really good hiking shoes so that I wouldn’t bust up my dress shoes while riding. I don’t have any other ones.

But yeah! I want summer to be here already!

Damnit

So, I don't really like sports. I mean, I enjoy playing them, but the whole watching them and obsessing over teams just isn't my thing. So, when Joey said that his boss wanted him to go to a hockey game with him and to bring me, to tell the truth, I was totally not looking forward. Ick
But after the first fight broke out 10 minutes into the game, I was totally into it. It was really fun. The Idaho Steelheads beat the Utah Grizzlie's 7-1. Suckers. And, there was a grand total of 6 fights. It was awesome. And at one point, the ref wasn't paying attention and totally got dog piled by 3 players and a puck. Spectacular. =)
Still don't think I'm gonna watch hockey on TV, but I deffinitely want to go to more games in the future. Also want to go ice skating now. There's multiple skating rinks in this area and I think there might even be an outdoor one in the winter. Sweet!

So, I've finally reached Idaho! Yay!
    Took me a while. I left Albuquerque to go to Alamagordo on Tuesday of last week. Stayed the night at my cousin's and then on the way thru Albuquerque we stopped for a little while so that Dawn and them could say bye to my grandma. Then we found out that where they were moving wasn't gonna be ready until Sunday! but we were already on the road and there wasn't much we could do about it. So we decided to spend an extra night in Durango. We couldn't do a straight drive because we had 3 cats, 2 dogs and one rabbit in my car, and two screaming baby boys in Dawn's. We stayed at a KOA, which had a cabin! It was pretty cool. It was still like camping only without the freezing tents and pebbly ground.
    On the way through Moab we stopped at the Hole In The Wall which was this guys house that he built into the side of a rock. Pretty cool. You can't tell its a house until you notice that there's windows where the wind ate into the rock. AND! they had a petting zoo which was awesome! I got pictures but my phone is being gay and wont send them. I will probably update this entry or make another one when I get the phone to working. Stupid gay phone.
    At this point we were thinking that they would be reimbursed for all the extra lodging charges and even make them pay rent because they closed on the sell of the house on Thursday and it was legally Dawn and Jeff's. But then the agent that Dawn and Jeff were going through chickened out. Basically it just sounded like that since he got his money he didn't want anything else to do with it. Pussy.
Anyway, we had to stay at this hotel in Ogden UT that resembled a prostatute hangout, drunks and all. Anyway, that was a nightmare, but the agent said we could show up Saturday and get the keys, so we did, and the people had just started moving out all their furniture and didn't want us there but it had started to rain and snow and I wanted to be out of there.
    The drive to Boise was hell. God. I kept dozing off and had to eventually just pull over and sleep for half an hour. But I made it.
    Finally got internet hooked up and will begin job hunting ASAP. Already have an application to a call center/cable company. Apparently Idaho has the fastest growing economy in the states. Sounds good to me. However the apartment is the pits. Its really nice but the people that run it are bitches. Charge for every little thing. Joey asked about pets before he moved in, but I guess didn't ask for specifics because the $500 pet deposite and $25 per pet rent took him by surprise. Wallet rape. Only $250 actually gets back to him. Fuckers.
    Anyway. I've been sick. Again....need to get back into the swing of things.
So tired...

So, I keep thinking I want to get back into blogging. I enjoy it. Or at least I tell myself I enjoy it, and maybe I do, but when it comes to getting on the computer and making the decision of which blog to blog in and if I want to copy said blog to all my other blogs...Yeah, I quickly lose motivation. So, does that mean I need to get rid of all my other blogs and just keep one? Eh...I like all my other blogs for seperate reasons....

    Anyway, as I was thinking about this the other day I was reminded that I used to keep a DeadJournal back when it was free. There was so much teenage angst in that blog! OMG. And I remembered that the group I was hanging out with at the time always prided themselves with not going through the normal drama that other teenage kids went through. Boy were we wrong. So yeah, I was thinking I might transfer the blog to my Blogger, just so I can laugh at myself when I feel the need.

      I also found the tape Nicole took of all of us one of the times she was out here. There's Outlandish, Swing Dancing, hanging out at the Dodd's house, IHOP parking lot, Renee's house, Blue Hole and Santa Rosa. Nicole kept saying while she was here last time that she missed those times....But the more I think about it the more I don't. Sure, I don't regret them, but they were full of shitty times too. Nicole just didn't have to go through that part I think. Yep, can't really miss back stabbing and cruel jokes now can ya?

    So, while I do miss the fun times, there is no way I would ever in a million years be at all willing to experience them again.

    That also might have to do with the fact that I'm all sorts of ready to get out of dodge. The moments I have when I starting thinking that I might miss it here and maybe contemplate staying a bit longer to finish something, my family always finds some way to remind me that I hate this fucking state just because of them. I've been held back in just about every way and I'm tired of it. The time to get on with my life is way past.

    I also need to get back in shape. Will work harder. Think I might take Buffy and go mess around in the foothills tomorrow. I really want to join a gym, but I'm not making enough money and finances are a drain already since I'm trying to save up to move.

    I miss Joey! Desperately. He and David are currently stranded in Bum-fuck, Tennessee. Who saw that coming, hm? I hope that I will get to see him on their way to Boise but I'm seriously doubting it. Damnit.

    Everyone this last couple of weeks has just been going on and on about how relationships suck. I think it's because they're in the wrong relationship. I mean, really. If it sucks, why the hell are you putting yourself through it? Relationships are to help you through life and help you be happy. Not make life worse.

    My rabbit is cute! And he's kinda potty training him self. It's weird. He found the cat litterbox and was utterly thrilled...Seriously. Don't think I've seen him that excited about something except when he finds bags full of his dirty bedding. Weird rabbit. He jumps up onto my bed now when he gets lonely. I think he's grown attached to Buffy for some reason. Still doesn't like to be picked up though.

    Anyhoo, Zelda is calling. 

This has been a hella hectic week, I'm tellin' ya.

Joey was able to come visit over the weekend which was awesome, and he got me a bunny! It's a dwarf rabbit, so it's small. Which is cool. I'm feeling bad about having it in the house because we're only supposed to have two animals and we have 4 now. Oh well. It's not like it's the cat. I should make Aric take Kato back. Anyway, I haven't really figured out a name for him. First, I was gonna call him Jax because Jumping Jax came to mind, but then I had a dream that I named him James Bond, and after careful consideration, that kinda fits his personality. So, unless something else jumps at me, he name is James! I miss having rabbits! and animals! But I guess it's a good thing we didn't have many left when we moved.

AND! While Joey was here he helped me stick the last three peacocks in a cage and drive them to Moriarty where we were going to give them to this lady. There were two females and one male. The male freaked out and dropped 75% of his feathers when I caught him. Have you ever seen a naked peacock? He looked really pathetic. The females weren't too great either, but they weren't as panicky as he was. Anyway, so, we get to Moriarty and we meet up with Patty and we're transfering from one cage to another and I'm putting the last female into the new cage when she flips out! And i'm trying to giver her space so she'll calm down and she twists just right and I lost my grip! So she flies up to the top of the old beaten down CarWash that we're parked next to and we're all like, fuck, and I'm thinkin' we're doomed.
However I had forgotten that Joey has mad monkey skills and so he climbed up to the top and scared her off. Only problem was that she didn't just fly down, she flew AWAY. So we had to drive about 4 blocks over and really had no idea where she had gone, but luckily enough she flew into a trailer park and a guy living there saw her so we went and found her. Joey spotted her first and when we got her unstuck we saw that she had gashed herself open pretty good. Poor thing. Stupid bird. So, they're all together now. That's a relief. And I'll be able to contact the lady about getting babies and feathers and stuff, which is great!

Joey left Sunday, I was sad =(. But I really enjoyed him being here. Hate it when he has to leave. I just wish I could pick up when ever I wanted to and visit him. I'm the worst girlfriend ever. Damnit.

Monday I took Mom and Grandma out to the house to pick up some stuff and Buffy got into anti-freeze. We were able to get her to the vet inside 45 minutes and they then held her over night. They had to give her a charcoal flush to bind up the anti-freeze in her gut and make her A) vomit and B) have massive diarreah.  Ewww. She's never been the easiest dog to get to take medication. I guess she spit it all back up all over the tech and herself so now she's mostly dyed black. Looks really weird, but at least she finally got some in her and she's back to being her usual bouncy self.

I got my server's lisense in the mail! Gonna go job hunting now. Still waiting for my transcript for the GED. Hopefully I passed. Eck.

Ok, ran out of things to say.