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Last night I had a dream that I was in a forest with a slightly older woman with long blond hair.  I believe she was one of my guides.  We were sitting by a small, shallow, trickling stream, and it was autumn.  There were maple leaves and maple seeds (we used to call them helicopters when we were kids because when they fall from the tree through the air they spiral and swirl around like helicopters) all over the forest floor. 

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We were watching a colony of ants working vigorously to fill the stream bed with the maple leaves and helicopters.  Two big groups of them, in unified choreography, would scatter into the woods, empty handed, then return all at once, in synchrony, each carrying a leaf or helicopter.  Then the two groups would descend to the stream from two different angles, and all at once, place their bounty in the trickling stream. 

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Gradually the leaves and helicopters completely blanketed the stream, and a small pond began to form upstream from the blockages the ants were creating.  I asked the ants why they were doing this.  They replied that they were helping to form the pond so that when it would ice over, the frogs, and fish would have a safe place to hibernate for the winter. 

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I was touched by this selfless service being performed by the colony of ants for the benefit of the other forest creatures. 

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Then the woman I was with brought my attention to a beautiful old tree that was covered with bright green moss.  It was stumpy- the thick trunk only about 6 feet high before branching out into many smaller, slender, twisting branches. The trunk and all the branches leaned away from us at a soft angle, giving the tree a strong presence of being heavily rooted here in this forest, and, at the same time, drifting up into other realms. 

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Indeed, the tree was a sentinel, guarding the heart of the faerie realm that was all around us.  I did not see any faeries, but I felt their presence and the magical powers of the tree.

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By now, it was getting dark, and a full moon was rising in the forest.  I was in a sandbox with another guide, a shorter woman with red hair.  She may have been a variation of the Faerie Queen who visited me once in another dream, for she had very similar energy.  I had with me my “E” tuned crystal bowl. 

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I held the crystal bowl up to the moonlight and I was startled to see it appear to be transparent, clear crystal.  With the moonlight shining through it I could see some small crystals and pieces of crystal embedded into the bowl- still intact from the casting process when it was made. 

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I was excited at this revelation and went to show the woman.  When I held the crystal bowl up to the moonlight again I noticed many hairline fractures like starbursts all over the crystal.  They were all impact damage from people hitting the bowl too hard, and I realized I needed to take more care when allowing other people to handle the bowls. 

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I saw one crack running almost the entire length of the bowl, bisecting it into equal halves.  No sooner did I notice this that the bowl split in two in my hands. 

I didn’t get upset at the loss, because I knew there was always a significant reason for a bowl to break.  In doing so, the bowl releases a massive amount of stored energy.  So I figured I really needed the energy for my Solar Plexus, because that is the chakra that particular bowl corresponds with.  I also noted the symbolism of the equal halves- evidence of duality, and thought back to my present emotional situation where I am trying to discern my emotional truth involving two different people who are very close to my heart. 

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Suddenly, the two halves broke into smaller shards.  My first impulse was to bury them in the pond, but I didn’t want to risk the sharp edges hurting anyone by accident in the future.  So the woman, along with my sister who suddenly appeared, helped me gather up the shards in a cardboard box, along with a couple odd-looking very small, hand-held devices, and carry them out of the forest.

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Yesterday I had a Quantic Healing Session with a woman who recognized me from a past life.  She had a few messages for me afterward.  One of them was that I have an African Orisha Diety with me. 

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I looked up Orishas on the internet, and through muscle testing determined that the particular one who is currently with me is “Eshu.”  Wikipedia writes: Eshu is a god of Chaos and Trickery, and plays frequently tempting choices for the purpose of causing maturation. He is a difficult teacher, but a good one.  

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I won’t go into the details, but this is exactly what I am facing at this moment. 

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Eshu is also “the messenger between the human and divine worlds, god of duality, crossroads and beginnings, and also a phallic and fertility god (a god of Life) and the deliverer of souls to the underworld (a god of Death).” –wikipedia

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Sounds about right.  It seems Eshu is here to usher me through the next phase in my incarnation.  Saturn is just about done with me, finishing up with a last hurrah through its “return,” and I feel naked in my convictions about myself and the possible futures I can create. 

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I am frustrated with the paradox of living in the now while intentionally shaping the future.  I am always receiving pressure from outside sources to “plan” and “decide” for the future.  But I have never really been interested in doing so. .  It seems the key to co-creation is not found in just letting go and living in the now.  I am beginning to see that I must take an active role in shaping my own destiny, eve if it is already written…

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As a creator-being, I must visualize.  I must imagine the next “now” as I want it to be.  I must shape it through orchestration, and I must conduct.  I must breathe the world into being every moment, otherwise I will just be the air in the lungs of another. 

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I temporarily forgot that there is no right and wrong decision.  I got caught up in another tricky dualistic poopie-hole.  Fear of making the wrong choice began to create friction in my flow, dragging me down to a still inertia, away from the velocity of my inner truth.

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Today, after a long yoga session with my body, I began to tone with the “E” Bowl from my dream last night.  I intended to reconnect my Authentic Self with my Higher Self, and create a harmonious union of the two.  I also asked to reawaken my heart center because I felt a sheet of transparent glass blocking me from fully accessing and expressing it for a long time now. 

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The vocal meditation was very powerful and took me to many places of joy and power.  I cried, I coughed, and I received a gigantic multi-faceted diamond jewel from a group of my beloved guides.  I felt all of my guides, from all the different places I have guides from, showering me with love and light, and I remembered that I am not alone.  The angels rejoiced, the Hathors rejoiced, the Ascended Masters rejoiced, the Ancestors rejoiced, and I rejoiced.

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After the sonic meditation was complete, I became aware of a wedge-like gap in my aura, coming down at a steep angle from my left side into my heart.  I used energy healing and sound to seal it up.  When it was almost complete, a not-good Reptilian Presence appeared and tried to resist my self-healing work.  I began to channel a strange language that I can only equate with “Parsel-Tounge” from the Harry Potter tales.  This seemed to work, as I banished the Reptilian with love.

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Then I felt more balanced, and closer to my heart once again.  I still felt a little bit of a disconnected, but realized that I must have been believing there to be one for me to have that experience.  So I rejected that silly belief, and began to believe that I am perfectly in touch with my heart.  The energy shifted, and I felt fully connected with my heart.  And so it was, and so it is, and so it will be.

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Coming Into Our Power:  Self-Love and the Shadow Personality

The Universe responds to us in direct proportion to where we stand with our own self-love.  The more you love yourself, the more powerful you will become.  Because we ARE the universe, reflected back to itself.  The basis of all our abilities, our power, and our potential is sourced from this self-love.

I used to think I loved myself fully.  But because I continually have healing experiences that release more and more self-criticism, shame, and self-doubt, I realize I may never love myself FULLY, but am certainly able to always love myself MORE.

These aspects that interfered with my self -love invariably dwell beyond the mask of the mirror.  We don't see what is blocking us.  We don't see our shadow's true nature.  Indeed, it takes many of us a long time to see our shadow at all.  Once we do, acceptance of its existence is the next step, and then, integration.

Ironically, our shadow is quite visible to others.  It is usually the qualities in ourselves that others find issue with.  The "faults" in our personality, if you will... 

It takes real courage to inquire about one's own shadow, because invariably the reaction to hearing about its characteristics will be defensive.  Likewise, it takes true courage to speak the truth when one is asked to reflect back to another those elusive parts of the personality.  Running the risk of offending the inquirer is quite high.

I believe one quality of enlightenment is being able to see the shadow in others, and embrace it with compassion and non-judgment.  We all have a unique journey to wholeness, and our shadow provides the darkness through which we travel on our path illuminated by faith, trust, and love. 

When we have evolved enough on our own journey to understand this, we no longer experience other people’s flaws as personal attacks against us, but rather as opportunities to shed new light into darkened areas of consciousness. 

Here is one example:

Somewhere along the line we were conditioned that expressing joy and admitting we are having fun is "uncool."  And so we parry down our enthusiasm by focusing on negatives in a mocking sort of way through the lense of cynicism.  I was very cynical at one time.  This was one of my shadow traits I was unaware of.   But I learned that cynicism is a well-masked defense mechanism that blocks your ability to express joy.

Once I shed the cynical perspective, I was able to bring more joy into my life, which improved my life experience, increased the amount of love and light I was conducting, and ultimately increased my power as a healer, and lightworker.

Cynicism, much like any undiscovered shadow aspect, envelopes the aura like a dark cloak, weighing down the radiant light of your true soul.  When the time is right, you will remove that cloak, and you will come more fully into your power.   This is the essence of that journey of self-discovery known as “life.”  Celebrate the process in yourself and others, and harmony will prevail throughout the Universe. 

Inti takes the brain.  Partly away from the monster that resides in my head.  She snatched it right out from the left side.  That lobe that was reflective, now stimulating the lobe that is responsive, tipping and tapping away at these keys.  Hearing the reflection as sound through this recording which is me.  No more no less, only folded upon myself in this twilight of the abyss...

Here in echoes and twin flames, the thoth said and it was so.   So shall it be that we are of love, but not in love of body carnal.  No need to be so inclined when the bird has snatched the prey.  Or is it the Grey who seek to make us mute to our sexual desires?  Who knows how the answer rolls until the double take unfolds and the arms are empty in the mid of the night when cuddling brings such sweet embrace…

So does the careful breath inhale through righteous nostril and lung to fill.  So does the pail fill with the drips of the leaking rooftop water.  From the storm of closing doorways and passages to steal the secret hearts of the dreamtime books.  And still I wonder where it stands.  In vibrato, or in the sustain?  So to my body these currents rain.  Who in the hovering ship does tell the truth of human decency?  

Another breath, and the thoughts of manipulating art to art is what cut the demon loose.  Art to art, dust to dust.  Is this the acoustic revolution?  The goose egg gossip full speed victory?  The caramel still moist on the lips.  Remember the candlelit days and nights of old?  In your warm cozy bed with green sheets and a dino wrap?  Those times of deep envisioning with ink and paper?  Now see, the glory behind the electric tongue.  Flying like the notes of finger fancy fairies on the ivories.  

To float like an herb in a brewing tea.  Nestled in this pool of love.  Meditative and resolute, the eyes soft, the body relaxed.  Stilled in the stillness of the outward nothing.  No virtue in abandoning the inner vibrations…  Crystal tongue.  Inner realm of laughter.  Joy.  Sex.  Israel.  Morocco.  Istanbul.  The 12th Century mystic speaks through the language of sonic technology.  Long lost, the art of feeling recaptured through the mathematical.  In no short lack of transformational properties.

My heavens wrapped in the mist of rolling sound waves.  Brave and resolute armies of trills, arpeggios, scales, and glissandos.

The nearness of the quake so far.  The drops of rainfall hitting where the wetness already seeps.  Her sleep, my dream.  The memory of this moment as the plaster cracks and falls.

It has been a wonderful journey, our waking selves agree to so much.  But just to let you know, the abstract exists right along with the concrete.  Only less formed and more lucid.  Like the tone of old.  The tune of New.  

The way the cosmos unfolds itself to reveal we are both the same.  It
makes the universe seem to be a reflection, as if we are one and the
same person.  Lost, bewhildered.  Split in two.  That you sleep and I
wake.  I sleep and you wake.  And when we are together it is as if we
are apart.   I play the piano, and listen to you play.  I record and
while I am asleep, I dream.  This music you write,  it is exquisite. 
You are the truth of your life.  Pink Narcissus.  Pink flames.   Pink
computer.  Music of the love of the sphere of life.  That is contained
in your yolk.

I , to you, brother same sister same union.

Undo.

At this moment I am sipping a most amazing Herbal Chai Tea with Raw Cacao at a lovely little cafe in Brooklyn.  The day is a drizzly one, where refuge in warm interiors with low lighting and electrical outlets allows the brain to open and the fingers to flit away at illuminated keypads...

My spontaneous arrival in NYC this weekend was made manifest by the dream of a new Urban Retreat Community, the launching of which was seen this weekend.

The gathering was global and cosmopolitan to say the least.  The dreamchild of this endeavor gathered leading visionaries of the holistic lifestyle scene from NYC, Boston, London, and San Francisco (me of course!) to create a beautiful dynamic of expanded horizons for us all. 

Although this first gathering had certain flaws to it's promotion, the bringing together of these great journeyers was an invaluable occurrence.  Who knows what greatness will become of it...

My personal vision, was of course, to cover the costs of my trip and make a little extra long the way.  But the event was unfortunately poorly attended.  If only the masses knew the joy and ecstasy their own bodies can bring them.  If only they would allow us visionaries to bring themn to the oasis of their own inner worlds...  

Alas, I was riding the subway and processing the strangely large amount of stress my current financial situation was generating inside me.  When suddenly, I had a simple realization:

While many of my friends have well paying jobs that allow them certain freedoms to travel, create, and invest free time in collaborative projects, I have been struggling to balance my career with my home life.  The puzzle I was attempting to solve was how to align my career so that I am able to fully support myself by involving myself in these collaborative projects, gatherings, and creative endeavors.

Up until this point, I have been stressed out over not having a relyable source of income.  But it suddenly occurred to me that my employer is THE UNIVERSE.  And that I get paid in many ways, and always, without fail, when I truly need it. 

I have already ascended in a past incarnation, and elected to return to Earth at this time to help others make that leap for themselves.  As such, I am a servant of the New Inner Light, a self-elected servant. 

Whenever I begin to question, or worry, I need only remember my choice to be here.  A choice that would only have been made with the assurance that I will always be provided for. 

And so I released the stress I was carrying.  The illusion of immediate necessity.  For, I know, truly, that when the bills are due, the money will manifest.  And when the trips are needed, the plane tickets will manifest.  And so it has been thus far.  Lest I forget.  So it shall continue to be.

My service is in being and doing.  Here with an open heart and an angelic voice.  It would be foolish to think the universe would disallow me to opportunity to spread my wings and fly...

So, for you, dear reader,  If you feel similarly about your position,  remember your true intentions, and look upon your present moment.  The gift of abundance is ever present, and presents itself when you are ready to embrace it. 

Making the Shift:
Considerations for the New Earth
By Awyn D’Aniki (Bradford W. Tilden)

Everywhere I look and with everyone I talk to, there is a common sentiment pervading:  Something big is happening, and it’s not going to stop!  This planet and all sentient beings upon it are living in an unprecedented time.  We find ourselves on the brink of destruction and at the same time, poised on the launching pad of conscious ascension.   On the esoteric front, there is increasing excitement about the end of the Mayan Calendar, and much speculation about what will happen next.  Environmentally, we seem to be past the point of no return with the “threats” of global warming and topsoil erosion, overpopulation, and mass extinctions.   Yet, scientifically, we have begun to develop technologies to tap into the infinite energy source of the Zero Point Field (the essential fabric of reality that pervades all existing and non-existing things) that provide solutions to the industrialist/destructionist paradigm.  Many people are becoming aware of our galactic neighbors waiting to usher us into galactic awareness.  Many more people are waking to the truth of their own origins and discovering they are incarnated angels, extra-terrestrials, wizards, and fairies.  Time itself seems to be unraveling, as we begin to understand that the past and future are all part of one continuous, infinite “now.”
In all the fantastical happenings, mass extinctions, psychic awakenings, cataclysmic disasters, global peace movements, wars, spiritual rememberings, Akashic accessibility, and more, one may ask how is this happening?   Well, that’s an easy question to answer.  Anywhere you look there’s an explanation.  Physically, the Earth is shifting poles and the solar system is entering a denser band of the Milky Way, aligning more directly with the Central Sun of the Galaxy. Our own sun is growing hotter, whiter.  Astrologically we are entering the Age of Aquarius.  According to Hindu cosmology we have reached the apex of the Kali Yuga, the darkest point in creation, and are now moving again toward the light.  Indeed, all world religions have foretold of an end time, and , frankly, this is it.  And it is also the beginning of the new, the return to Oneness, the leap to a higher plane of consciousness, to higher dimensions of existence.  
This article is intended to alleviate some of the fears and anxieties about this time of rapid change, and to offer some considerations that will help make the shift easier for individuals and for humanity as a whole.  It will also emphasize the importance of upholding higher, love-based vibrations in all that you do, and the significance of even the simplest acts of gratitude.

Choose Your Own Adventure
The physical universe and the human mind are becoming interchangeable. The number of people attaining enlightenment is growing exponentially with the worldwide phenomenon of Oneness Deeksha plugging more and more people into the Human Group Consciousness Grid. The “Secret” is out, and more and more people are beginning to discover that they CAN and DO create their own reality.  The reaches of science and philosophy have completely overlapped into each other.  Scientists have documented that intention determines the outcome of experimentation.  “As above, so below” is more accurately stated: as within so without.  That said, we are discovering that we are far more powerful creators than we thought.  
Every choice we make creates reality anew.  EVERY choice!  The implications of this are astounding!  What I find fascinating is how millions, if not billions of people are still choosing realities based on fear instead of love, lack instead of abundance, and dis-ease instead of health.  In theory, creating a golden age of global peace and unity is quite simple: just choose for it to occur.  The complexities arise because this Utopic state of being will only be possible once EVERYONE chooses this reality FOR THEMSELVES.  And the legwork to get there is a little more complicated than just choosing for it to come into being.  The choices we must make as individuals involve a fundamental paradigm shift in ALL areas of existence.  The food we eat, the clothes we wear, the way we transport, the way we generate electricity, how we build, what we build, and what we use to build with, how we relate to others, how we relate to ourselves, what we think, why we think it, what we feel, why we feel it, who we help, why we help them, what the truth is and what to believe in, what the past is and how it can serve us, what death is, who is on the other side and why they are there…
This may seem like an insurmountable challenge, but the grace of the universal order and the divine orchestration of the symphony of creation have set it up so that these changes are already happening easily, effortlessly, and joyously for those who are welcoming them.  All you have to do is choose to believe what feels good to you, what excites you, and what causes no harm to others (be they animal, plant, or mineral).  Then open yourself to receive the beautiful and exciting reality you dream into being.  

Take Me Higher
     As the shift continues, the fundamental vibrations of all levels of existence are rising.  It’s like completing a level in the game Tetris.  Suddenly your pieces disappear and new ones can be seen, but the playing field is the same.  In this next level the music plays faster, the pieces move faster, and the colors are more vibrant.  We are not the only ones who will shift.  The Earth, Sun, and Solar System are also raising their frequency.  In fact, all of creation is shifting up a notch, increasing in vibration, along with all other creations as well.  
    Many beings have already made the shift:  the “disappearing” bees are simply transitioning to a higher plane of existence.  The whales are beaching themselves in order to leave their bodies to do work in higher realms of consciousness. On a spiritual level, we are expanding to anchor our Higher Selves in our physical bodies and conscious awareness, becoming “Cosmic Humans” with universal consciousness.
    You can readily observe this core concept everywhere you look in current philosophical, scientific, spiritual and religious trends.  All the available channeled materials and spiritual masters approach this same subject differently. They speak in metaphors and synonyms, appealing to different people through different means.  The underlying message is the same: we are returning to source/God/ the creative well beyond, (or whatever you choose to call it) by awakening to the spark of source/God/creator within us.  In this way we are creating a unity of multitudinous individuality.  Every possible expression of Self will become fully manifested simultaneously so that we all know everything to be one.   
    We are transmuting the dualistic viewpoint of reality by unifying opposites and lifting the veil of opposition.  The illusion of separation is being dispelled as we discover all things are but mirror images of each other to varying degrees.  Every good is linked to a bad, every up to a down, and all is based upon a sliding scale of perspective.  The light and the dark have merged, so that we may all be One.  Having done so, we learn there is no real good or evil, only what we choose to perceive as such, and only so much as we allow fear to enter out hearts.
    One of the changes occurring for us as we raise our frequency is an increased sensitivity to vibrations and subtle energies.  This is partly because we are expanding at the atomic level.  As we raise our vibrations, we create more space within us.  This is making us more finely tuned instruments, able to recognize and tune into more subtle frequencies.   Interest in Color, Sound, and Crystal Healing is on the rise, as well as other vibrational healing modalities.  These modalities have existed for millenia, but now is the time when they are coming into their full power on this planet.
    There are wonderful growth opportunities with this phenomenon.  One example is food allergies.  Food allergies are a manifestation of a person’s physical body moving up to a higher frequency that no longer benefits from consuming a particular type of food with a lower frequency.  The challenge is to cleanse the emotional body that holds the strong desire attached to that food source.  Interestingly enough, the new diet solutions for people with food allergies are always in alignment with the movement toward more sustainable agricultural practices.  Eating healthier is healthier for the planet too…  

Fear & Love
    Contrary to popular belief, fear and love are not emotions.  They are states of being.  They are levels of vibrational existence.  Fear is simply a lower, heavier, denser vibration than love.  When you experience fear you are experiencing a drop in your level of vibrational integrity.  Likewise, when you experience love you are feeling an increase in your level of vibrational integrity.
    Part of the shift we are all experiencing, and the work many of us have incarnated here to do, is to raise the vibration of the collective consciousness from the vibrational level of fear to the vibrational level of love.  It is simply a matter of free-will choice.   
    We all have the tools inside ourselves to rise above fear.  Picture it like a layer of fog covering the land.  Within the fog you are only able to see directly around you.  Everything else is an uncertainty.  Doubt about what might be even just inches beyond your perception allows fear to creep in.  But trust in the unknown dispels the fear, gives you the courage to move forward, even so with your path obscured and only revealed to you each step of the way.  
    Love, however, is like raising your head above the layer of fog.  Suddenly, you see everything for what it is, and the sense of belonging and knowingness gives you infinite potential, unobstructed by doubt.  All you need to do to get there is think ”up,” and in your heart and mind, you will be lifted.        

Looking Beyond the Other
This is all fine and dandy, but what does it mean? What’s all the excitement about?  Why is the Earth the hottest destination in the Universe right now?  Let me offer this simple consideration: In the beginning, there was the One, and it knew itself to be everything.  This everything, however, only existed in potential.   All possibilities were already conceived, but none existed other than the One.  So this one created another One.  A separate self so that it could know itself outside of itself. This created a dynamic relation: a yearning to reconcile, and a repulsion.  This is the creative impulse of the physical universe.  It is both expansion and contraction, and through it, all known things come about.  Now, the expansion has spread the farthest it is able to at this time without losing its fundamental connection with itself, the One.  It is time for phase three of creation: Now that the One has diversified in every possible way, experienced every possible perception, it is time for something completely new.  It is time for the One to know itself as itself AND as its other.  Unification through individualization.  The goal is to preserve individual identity while simultaneously experiencing interconnectedness with all.  It is this that has never happened before, and the reason for all the excitement.  For in attaining this state of consciousness, all possibilities will not only be conceived as possibilities, they will become manifest as realities as well.   This One I speak of is YOU.  

The Excitement
This is a pivotal time in creation.  We have now entered the transitional phase to the “New Earth.”  Many people incarnating on the planet at this time are retaining a greater percentage of the knowledge of their past incarnations.  These include past incarnations on Earth, elsewhere in the Universe, in angelic realms, other dimensions, and beyond.  The unique nature of our third dimensional reality combined with our rapidly expanding consciousness has created a singularly unique condition never before seen in creation.  As we learn how to create our own realities we discover that we are literally creating entire new worlds, galaxies, universes, and dimensions.  
The imagination has always been the template for creation.  It is simply becoming a bit moreso, and quite literally.  “Normal” people are already discovering they can bi-locate, levitate, and create objects from thin air.  This is just the beginning.  We will reach the point where each one of us shapes reality exactly as we choose.  Do you want to fly?  With or without wings?  The world will exist as an interwoven matrix of different dimensions and realities that create even more realities as they combine and harmonize with each other.  
Is your head spinning yet?  Now is a good time to remind you of the importance of staying grounded!  Of course, this kind of manifestation requires discipline and responsibility.  Otherwise we’d be in quite a mess!  The good thing is these powers are not fully on.  We are still held by the denser vibrations of the physical world, and still a bit bound to the fear vibration.  The solution?  Release the fear, and expand your capacity to resonate with love.  And that is essentially what we are all here to do, now.              
        
The Conditioned Lack of Wholeness
There is not one person incarnated at this time who does not have any healing to do.  (I define healing as releasing lower vibrations of fear to embrace higher vibrations of love.)  We all came here at this time to heal ourselves, and in turn heal the world.  All of the fear we carry around inside us is there from conditioning.  When you were born into this dualistic world, you knew everything to be you.  You were your Authentic Self.  But as you grew older, you forgot.  You created separateness.  You created your Ego and personality, and you let them become your totality.  But just as the One created its other, so too did you.  This is the person you thought you wanted to be, the person you were expected to be.  And so you were.  But you were not whole.  You cut off part of your being in order to meet the requirements you thought you needed to function in your community and in this world.
  This energetic block of soul-essence eventually manifested as dis-ease in your mind or body.  And so here you are, wanting to heal.  To do so, you must re-align your Ego and personality with your Authentic Self.  To know yourself as who you are to yourself and to others, and to know that all others are different expressions of you, and vice versa.      
You are the Earth, and the Earth is You.  The Earth suffers from dis-ease.  From strip-mining, oil-spills, atomic bomb testing, deforestation, and other imbalances…  But the Earth heals herself.  No-one thinks the Earth cannot heal herself.  She’ll do it with or without us.  I invite you to consider her example.  She doesn’t need anything other than herself to heal, and you are the same.  You have inside you all the resources and capabilities you need to heal whatever dis-ease you may be suffering from.  Take time to consider that statement, for it is the most powerful statement that can be made at this time about your state of health.    

Healing
You came here at this time to heal and to help the Earth heal.  The benefit to this healing is expanded consciousness, and the result will be a New Paradigm, unlike anything there has ever been before. 
My definition of healing is restoring harmony.  Once there is harmony there can be a shift.  Harmony cannot exist without individualization and unification.  When one of the strings on a guitar is out of tune, you are not able to strum the proper chord without deforming your hand position.  Many of us are walking around in various states of deformation and dis-ease.  The goal then, is to re-tune the strings, to bring them back into harmony.      
      Dis-ease occurs on a number of different levels.  Long before a condition manifests in the physical body there is an imbalance in the energetic bodies and spiritual bodies.  One does not have to be suffering a physical condition to be imbalanced. Each and every incarnated being on this planet at this time has the same job to do: bring your energy back into balance, by healing past imbalances.  These imbalances may have developed in this life-time, but from my experience and observations, these imbalances have origins in both our spiritual and genetic ancestries and past lives.  These imbalances are concentrated in us now, giving us a tremendous opportunity for growth.
Why must we heal? Because bringing ourselves back into harmonious alignment is the key to conscious expansion.  Dis-ease occurs when parts of the body/mind are vibrating at dissonant frequencies to each other and/or to the soul/authentic self, and are thus, unable to communicate and function properly. 
The body knows itself with infinite intelligence. It will display symptoms of pain and discomfort when there are energetic blockages.  It will neatly store away toxins until it is able to safely release them. It is the mind that creates and maintains energetic blockages by holding onto vibrations that are dissonant with its fundamental frequency of soul-resonance.  You may recall the Buddhists referring to this phenomenon as attachment.  The dissonant vibrations caused by these blockages assume the forms of unexpressed emotional frequencies and foreign, lingering thought forms.    
Over time the build up of these dissonant frequencies weakens the aura, the mind, and the physical body, leaving you susceptible to psychic attacks, mental disorders, physical illnesses, unnatural emotional outbursts, and entity attachments.  Oh my!

Emotion As Sound
As emotional imbalances are the most tangible and easiest to relate to I will discuss them in more detail.  One thing all emotions have in common is that they are expressed through sound.  Laughter, crying, shouting, etc…  The tone of inflection in a person’s voice is an emotional barometer.  Whatever emotional state the person is in, its corresponding frequency is carried along the voice as a vibrational quality.
When an emotion is not expressed through sound, the frequencies become lodged somewhere in the body and create dissonances that will ultimately lead to dis-ease.  I know of many people who healed after releasing held grief, fear, anger, loss, sorrow and similar emotions, but I equally know of people who had healings after releasing pent-up laughter, joy, ecstasy, and excitement.

Resonant Emotional Responses
People who carry these dissonant frequencies around in them are continually given opportunities to heal these imbalances.  These opportunities present themselves through either resonance or triggers. 
Resonance is the phenomenon where one vibrating body causes a similar body in proximity to vibrate as well.  A practical example of this is when you pluck a string on a violin the same string on a nearby violin will also begin to vibrate.  This holds true for humans as well.  Consider for a moment, emotions as violin strings, and we, the violins. If you have ever experienced a sudden inexplicable emotional mood swing, you may very well have simply picked up on that emotional frequency from someone around you. 
I recall a moment when I was walking down a street.  I suddenly felt extremely sad, but there was no reason for feeling that way at all.  I realized I had picked up the sadness from a passerby. 
    This event showed me that I had some blocked sadness within me, enough that my body was able to noticeably sympathetically resonate with the sadness that came into my field.  The insight for me at that moment was to look within and clear whatever sadness was lurking inside me.

Staying Clear
The way to master your emotions is to continually clear them.  The clearer you are, the less you will be susceptible to resonating from strong emotions from other people.   At the fundamental level, our subatomic particles are held together by vibrating strings of energy.  Our natural state of vibration allows emotion to pass through us swiftly like wind through a chain-linked fence.  Emotional blockages are like debris caught in the fence.  They too have their own frequency.  When we are near someone who is expressing an emotion that is blocked in us, our bit of debris picks up on it like a violin string. 
There is a whole school of though dedicated to crowd consciousness and mob mentality.  From this perspective it is all quite easily understandable as sympathetic resonance.  The more you clear, the freer you are from being caught up in the emotional dramas of those around you, and the better you will be able to remain present, focused, authentic, and conscious, especially in crisis situations.

Triggers
  Emotional triggers are a bit challenging to work with, but very rewarding when you resolve them.  Anything that causes you to stray from your heart center can be considered a trigger.  The challenge is to recognize the opportunities when they present themselves.  When something or someone triggers us, we often get caught up in the moment and fail to recognize that we are being triggered, often reacting disproportionately to the situation at hand. 
Anytime someone “pushes your button” you are shown a reflection of an aspect of yourself you wish to express but that you have blocked somewhere along the way, or an aspect that you deny and you must accept and release.  It is absolutely crucial that you recognize the person or event that triggered you was not intentionally doing so.  Taking it “personally” completely squanders the golden opportunity you have been given to search within yourself for the core cause of your reaction and to heal it.  These core causes often originate from childhood or past lives.   The same goes for undesirable situations you may find yourself in.
The best way to address a trigger is to consciously return to your heart center and radiate as much love as you possibly can.  Doing so often turns the situation right around, but more importantly it provides you the opportunity to see the situation clearly and to let go of any attachments you may have involving it.  The key is to look deep within yourself to locate and release whatever the core cause of your reaction was.  
 
Healing With the Voice
    As I have stated above, all blocked emotions are also unexpressed sounds.  Therefore, the easiest, and most efficient way to release blocked emotions is by expressing them through sound.  This is no new concept, but one our current society conditions us to forget from an early age.  How do we address a crying child?  We tell it to “sh-sh” until it stops crying.  That is but one example.  In contrast, a few examples of voice healing that have remained in some western cultures are the Italian Mourners, women hired to sit there and make grieving noises at funerals, and the act of keening, which is a celtic tradition where women let out a deep gutteral cry from the abdomen in response to various tragic events.  Note how both these examples apply to women because clearly, “real men don’t cry,” and perhaps that in itself is an attitudinal indicator of why our society is so imbalanced.  It is outright socially unacceptable for a man to express any sort of sadness.  Perhaps that’s why there are so many men engulfed in anger.  It’s a substitute at least…  However, I am not interested in analyzing our society in these pages, rather I am interested in giving you simple practical methods to free yourself of your emotional blockages to bring yourself back into balance. 
    That said, it is important to understand the theory behind this simple method of self-healing and empowerment I call Sonic Release Therapy, or SRT.
    The theory behind SRT is that we can utilize the power of self-produced sound to release blockages from all levels of our bodies, and to raise and sustain our vibrations in the higher frequencies of unconditional love, light, and truth.  It’s really quite simple to do.  The most basic approach is to produce the corresponding sound to the emotion you wish to release, or wish to experience.  If you are feeling sad in the moment, make sad sounds.  Your vibrations will carry the sadness out of your field with the sound.  If you want to feel more happy or joyful, take a few minutes to laugh.  It’s okay to force yourself at first.  It tricks the body into responding accordingly, releasing hormones that will induce the positive emotional state you are emulating, etc. 
    Because emotional blockages are sound-based, they can be detected in the voice with the voice.  A clear and balanced emotional body will manifest as a smooth continuous pitch range in your voice.  By slowly sweeping your voice through your frequency range, up and down, several times, you can detect any emotional blockages you may have.  They will show up as glitches, or gaps in your range where your voice will jump around or waver.  Once you detect a blockage, you can single out the frequency range with your voice and sound the corresponding pitch like a sustained note with a full breath.  Allow for your voice to get rough and choppy.  You may even cough, or gag.  These are all signs of a good deep clearing.  It’s not meant to sound heavenly, you know.  Clearing grime is a dirty business…   After a few minutes of toning the corresponding pitch, sweep through the frequency range again.  You may be surprised to find it is now smooth.  The glitch is gone, because you released the emotional blockage. 
    This technique is powerful and fun.  It can be done in a matter of minutes too.  Two of my favorite places to do this sort of emotional self-maintenance are in the shower, and in the car. 
Emotional responses are a normal and integral part of the human experience.  No amount of clearing will ever stop you from experiencing emotions, but with willingness, openness, and practice, you will be able to process your emotions easily and quickly.  The best teachers for this are animals and babies.  They both immediately express their emotions and then move on.  We, in our “mature” society, have been taught to repress our emotions to our great detriment.  I invite you now to live vulnerably, and laugh, sing, sob, and scream whenever and wherever you need to. 
    When you begin to use your voice as a tool for healing and conscious expansion, you tap into the creative power of sound.  Sound organizes the energetic structure of the physical world into geometric patterns.  These geometries are the vessel through which the light of consciousness is expressed.  When you begin to use your own voice intentionally, you are creating a more geometric order within your own field and sub-atomic matrix.  This allows you to harness and translate a greater bandwidth of the spectrum of light, which is the intelligence of the Universal source of creation.  You literally expand your capacity to contain consciousness. 
    This begins to manifest on the physical level by an increase in your vocal range.  You may find you can hit continually lower and higher notes with your voice the longer you work with sound.  Your voice will also become fuller and more powerful, as you learn how to use your mouth as a more efficient resonant chamber.  Your lung capacity will also expand, giving you more awareness and control of your breath.  Breath is linked to consciousness, and using sound on a regular basis dramatically increases your pranic intake, which in turn increases your vitality, life-force, etc…
    Using your voice as a tool is free, and always accessible.  It is also extremely liberating.  Opening your throat chakra to its full potential is like rubbing the genie’s bottle, but even better.  You get an infinite number of wishes with every sound you make.

External Factors- In the Problems, the Solutions
    We have talked about imbalances originating from within, now we will discuss imbalances from without:  toxins and the environment.  One of the things that came about from the illusion of duality was forgetting our relation to Mother Earth and all other sentient beings.  We lost sight of the interconnnectedness of all life and how to maintain the balance.  I do not judge this phenomenon, for our very plight, as it is perceived in one way, in a different light creates the impetus and opportunity for transformation and ascension.  Would we be developing renewable, sustainable, clean power sources if everything was hunky dorey with fossil fuel usage?  We know now it is not.  It is harmful to the environment, to our own health, and not sustainable.  And so we evolve to something better.  But we must pick up after ourselves along the way.
    The most interesting thing though, is that for every “problem,” the perfection of creation’s answer is before us. For example, the foods that people are developing sensitivities to, the ones that are proving to be unhealthy for us, and the ones with heavier energy are also the foods that are extremely inefficient to produce, use tremendous amounts of resources, and contain little nutritional value.  The foods that people are tuning to instead, are extremely nutrient dense, sustainable, and efficient.  This is a natural process of dietary evolution as well as a response to the needs of the moment. 
    As the vibrations and frequencies of the Earth and atmosphere continue to increase, we will require less and less dense food.  Foods that have a higher vibration, more energy, and lifeforce, will be naturally favored as we utilize more and more pure lifeforce energy from the light of the sun.  Superfoods, raw foods, and fruits will be favored.  As you incorporate more of them in your diet, you will maintain a more harmonious balance with the increasing energies of the shifting world.  Continuing to embrace a heavier diet will create energetic imbalances that will manifest as dis-ease simply because of the changes in the vibrational environment around us. 

The Joy of Cleansing
    The need to cleanse and detox ourselves and the environment is great indeed.  The toxins that enter our bodies and the environment are only toxic because they are out of place.  We must approach the cleansing process with a positive attitude first and foremost.  Even just the simple act of sending love to oneself, or to a polluted lake, is enough to affect positive change.  Dr. Emoto has captured the essence of this concept with his intriguing pictures of the effects of thoughts on the shape of water crystals.   This is possible because of the vibrational interconnectedness of the unified field everything is a woven part of.
    Because of the environment we’ve created, we all have some amount of toxins in us.  Toxins are like lead weights on a balloon.  We want to go up, but these particles are holding our frequency down.  The more you cleanse, the lighter your vibration, the easier it is to rise with the flow.  Let your body inform you of any need to cleanse.  Symptoms of dis-ease are simply your body sending you the message there is an imbalance.  Heavy metal toxicity is probably the most wide-spread and under-addressed condition.  Thankfully, it is easily handled with any number of modern bio-medical devices, the Amethyst Bio-Mat being at the top of my list.
    When you begin cleansing, be prepared to peel the onion.  Remember that you are clearing a lifetime of accumulation.  Once one layer is clear, a deeper layer will surface.  Most pharmaceuticals address the symptom of an illness instead of the cause.  They actually drive the cause deeper into your body, and bury it.  The body bottles it up and tucks it away for safe keeping. 
    I used antibiotics for years, managing recurring tonsillitis when I was younger.  Once I stopped taking antibiotics after being poisoned by them, my tonsils began periodically displaying expressions of tonsillitis.  Echoes that would surface, allowing my immune system to complete it’s interrupted natural response to the original cause of the infection so many years ago.  This is one example of cleansing sickness.  Sometimes when the body is ready to release stored toxins, the process produces temporary “sickness.”  Most people mistake this cleansing process as the cold or flu, and take over the counter medicines to repress it.  This is exactly what should not be done.  It simply drives whatever your body is trying to naturally clear deeper inside, until it manifests as a more significant illness.  It is important to develop more body awareness so that you will be able to listen to it better and determine whether you are experiencing a release and cleansing sickness, or a true illness.
    If you are experiencing a cleansing reaction, embrace the process with joy because you know that your body is becoming stronger, and healthier.  Maintaining a positive attitude while sick also accelerates the recovery time.    

Concluding Concepts
    Making the shift is simple in concept, and challenging in application.  It happens continuously, one choice at a time, and one person at a time.  One thing is for certain.  Change is afoot.  It is time to transcend from the old and embrace the new.  How this will all ultimately manifest is yet to be seen.  We have a collective opportunity to create a new and better world.  The utopic dream of the past is the tenable future of the present.  Simple things create profound reverberations.  Stay in your heart.  Embody the Love vibration.  Shift your perspective to find the positive in every situation.  Treat all obstacles and triggers as learning opportunities.
    Your mission is to rediscover your Authentic Self, to cleanse and purify your body and energy field.  Focusing on maintaining a higher vibration will ensure you maintain balance with the rapidly increasing vibrations that permeate everything.  This is a tricky time indeed, but one filled with the excitement of limitless creative potential.  All is in order.  Remember that. All manifestation that is in alignment with your Authentic Self is able to happen with grace and ease now.  When you’re feeling out of the flow, take a step back to see what’s knocking you off course and release it.  Be prepared to discover who you really are and embrace the beauty of your full being.

Completed 4/10/09 1:46am Full Moon in Libra
By Awyn D’Aniki (Bradford W. Tilden)
    Awyn is a multi-dimensional muse of Divine Inspiration.  His music transmits higher dimensional codes that activate the awakening of your Quantum Galactic Identity and Higher Self.  He teaches classes and workshops in Sound Healing and Crystal Healing as tools for vibrational health and conscious evolution.  He is available for private instruction in developing the voice as a self-healing tool, sessions and distance sessions in multi-dimensional vibrational healing with crystals, sound, Angels, and Ascended Masters.  Heal, Awaken, Activate. 
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Spring is in full force, and all those seeds we planted along the way are beginning to flower into enchantingly beautiful and unexpected manifestations.  Last night's full moon was as smooth as it was powerful.  My Lemurian Dream Goddes Crystal, Gaia'Ha was literally plugged into the mountain side in the Santa Cruz Mountains, activating and connecting the region to the Crystalline Grid that is being built around the Earth.  A few nights before, my own identity folded in upon itself, and I was able to listen to my own music as a pure observer.  I was carried away on the cosmic tones through journeys of incredible splendor.  When I came back to my body, it was as if I had awaken from a long, long dreamless sleep.  I finally "got it."  I finally understood the power of my own music.  And somewhere deep inside me, where there was always a tiny little black hole of doubt and insecurity, there now shines a new crystal star of cosmic bliss.  I have weeded out the insecurities about myself by witnessing myself as another through the portal of my own music.  Trippy, to say the least.  And POWERFUL!  I feel as though I have awakened into the fullness of my Soul, understanding the capacity of my full integrity.  I am now plunging full force into my creative endeavors and spreading the joy-energy as far and wide as I can.  Be ready to receive many new pieces of music and inspiring writings...

     I lost my mind the other night
     I had it safely tucked away in a small box with a tight lid
     But inthe bleak middle of the dark night
     I stubbed the box with my foot while stumbling to the bathroom
     The lid flew off and my mind flew out,
     Cackling in its freedom and flapping around like a trapped bat in a small 
          room
     But before I could contain it,
     It slipped out the window into the wide night of possibility     
   
     Ever so often it comes back to me
     Like a nesting bird wanting to lay eggs in my brain
     I let it in and then let it out again
     It's better this way
     Because now there are no obstructions in my darkness,
     And no confinements
     In the daylight of my thoughts
 

Building The God/Goddess Dome of the Pantheogenesis Grid
and The Birthing of my "I Am" Presence.

Conclusion to the Dream of the Red Jewel.


In the fall of 2001, I had a dream that would change the course of my life forever. This was the dream of the Red Jewel. In this dream, I came down to Earth with a few other people on a space-craft that resembled a small set of side-line bleachers, the likes of which can be found at any little-league baseball field. In my hand I carried a large Red Jewel. When I got to Earth I placed the jewel in the top apex of a geometric structure. Upon doing so, all the other jewels in all the other vertices of the structure ignited with beautiful light. Then I received the message that something big was going to happen on Tuesday.

That Tuesday I found myself in the campus center (I was a senior in college at the time) and there was a free Psychic Fair. The air was abuzz with stories of a red gaseous form hovering in the background of every person's aura photograph taken that day. Many of these pictures were hanging on the walls and I was able to see the red gaseous form in the background.

I decided to get my aura photographed as well. As soon as I went to stand in line, my right arm began to tingle. As I progressed farther and farther in line toward the camera, the tingling increased in intensity and began to spread over my whole upper body. The moment I stood before the camera and my aura photograph was taken, I felt a huge surge of energy infused into the very vibrational matrix of my being. Each and every one of my molecules was alive in an ecstatic dance of bliss. It was an incredible sensation of being electrified with spiritual energy. It felt like my life-force battery had just been completely re-charged. The feeling stayed with me well into the day, fading slowly over time.

Once the aura picture was developed, we could all see in amazement that my head was completely obscured by a spectacularly radiant white light. Everyone around was in awe, including myself. No one knew what to make of it. I left the campus center in a daze of bliss, and wandered into the freshman quad, a grassy knoll surrounded by trees. I was greeted by a huge murder of crows, the likes of which I have not since seen on that campus. They were everywhere and seemed to surround me with their presence, trying to urgently communicate something to me I could not consciously understand at the time. After an hour or so, I returned to the campus center on the whim of having another aura picture taken to see what it would look like after the integration. I learned that after I had my picture taken, the red gaseous form had disappeared. It was no longer present in any pictures, or anywhere in the room. It was as if that energy merged to become part of me. The subsequent aura picture revealed a perfect harmony of the spectrum of colors surrounding me. I was in beautiful balance with myself and the divine.

Since having the dream and the subsequent spiritual light-body integration that followed, I was ever vigilant on my search to find the Red Jewel and contextualize the experience into something that I could understand. I never fully comprehended exactly what took place, or what I was integrated with. Now, seven years later, after many a transformation and healing, I was gifted the true insight and meaning of that peak experience.

Through various synchronicities I came to become involved with the most ambitious project for conscious spiritual evolution ever to be created at the Burning Man Festival in the Nevada desert. This was the Pantheogenesis Temple Project. Through a series of serendipidous meetings with remarkable people who were involved with the project, I stepped into the role of co-leading the manifestation of the Crystal Grid for the entire temple complex. The crystal grid would create an energetic framework through which the cosmic forces of creation could connect with Mother Earth to influence and expand human consciousness, awakening the crystalline aspects of our collective consciousness grid. In short, we were building a stargate portal to merge with our ascended consciousness and activate our light bodies.

I felt a very strong resonance with the vision for the project right away. The Kabbalistic Tree of Life had already been chosen as the outline for the temple complex's grid structure. I was brought on board to utilize my knowledge of crystals and gemstones to choose which stones to place along the vertices of the grid. This felt like destiny to me, since in my desire to understand the Red Jewel, I came to realize that the geometric structure in the dream that I placed the Red Jewel in was the Kabbalistic Tree of Life. So there I was, finding myself literally placing crystals into the apexes of the Tree of Life, just like in the dream.

When it came time to have our final meeting for the grid-activation ceremony, I realized, with great emotion, that the people surrounding me were the very people who came down to Earth with me in my dream several years earlier. And when we actually activated the grid, I had a primary role activating the top crystal of the apex. For, I was soon to discover that I was the Red Jewel.

The crystal that was positioned in the top apex of the grid was itself, not red. It was, in fact, a gigantic Lemurian Record-Keeper that has been used by the Q'eru Shamans for thousands of years in their temple ceremonies high in the Andes Mountains. How this crystal came to us is another story that is out of the scope of the present narrative.

This Record Keeper was placed, as the symbolic Phallic Energy of the masculine polarity of the creational force, inside a beautifully designed and hand-crafted geometric glass vessel representing the feminine polarity. The two were unified in the divine adrogeny, blossoming out of a gigantic mirrored lotus flower representing the Unity of all Consciousness.

Each aspect of this project has manifold layers of significance holographically related to the whole. Just as an example: The Lemurian Record Keeper represented the masculine energy, yet it was also the embodiment of Lemurian Wisdom, emerging from the ancient Matriarchial Civilization of Lemuria, and forged by Mother Earth Herself. The vessel it was contained in, representing the feminine energy, was physically conceived and built by a man, utilizing the ancient Atlantian Wisdom of light, shape, and form embodied in the sacred geometric form of the container. It was forged by the advancements of human technology from the Patriarchal Civilization of Atlantis.

What we created, in essence, was a complete merging of the masculine/feminine polarity as it had manifested throughout the annals of pre-historic Human existence. Only with the complete compliance of each, were we able to Ascend to the Divine Androgeny. Unity. This was the apex of our grid. Our intention was to create a portal through which an awakening Cosmic Human could unify the masculine/feminine polarity within itself, and ascend to the Higher Octave of the Divine Androgenous Light-Body. This was the journey I had to undergo on a personal level to prepare myself to be ready for the Grid Activation Ritual. I had to activate my own Androgenous Light-Body by healing the masculine/feminine imbalances within me. Of course, I didn't know this was what the Universe had in store for me until it happened.

The day before activating the grid, I experienced a deep physical cleansing. My right eye began to tear and detoxify, shortly followed by my right nostril gushing blood. A friend appeared with a nasal irrigation thingy (that is the technical term), and I released a gigantic blood clot from my sinus. It was quite a sight. I had blood all over my face and hands, but I was in total bliss, laughing and laughing as people passed by with the strangest expressions on their faces. They didn't know what to think, but that didn't matter. I was embracing the joy of cleansing gracefully and effortlessly.

After the purge, I washed up and laid down to rest and meditate in a small geodesic dome we referred to as "Ohm." It was a nice break from the duties of the day. My task was to complete the crystal placements in the God/Goddess Dome. This was the dome where the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine were honored, as we embraced out individual god/goddess-like qualities. This was the Temple that people passed through before entering the Unity Dome. It was the place of release and transfiguration.

The layout of this temple was to consist of two thrones: one for the god and one for the goddess. These thrones would have at their backs, two chakra columns with small gemstones embedded in them at each chakra point. The idea was to sit in the throne, have your chakra system activated through the crystal energies, and receive insights and wisdom as a conscious channel for the myriad of deities that were represented in the many altars surrounding the thrones. This Temple was going to be linked into the whole of the Crystal Grid through two Big Lemurian Crystals placed under the thrones, and fourteen sculptures made of tree roots and crystals, hanging above the thrones in two seven sided geometric shapes.

This was the part of the Temple complex I had invested most of my time and energy into. It was the part that had the most complicated crystal grid configuration. As such, I took on the role of making sure it was successfully built and activated. I spent several months choosing which stones would best represent the masculine and feminine chakra systems, and then finding large enough specimens within our budget that could be embedded into the root sculptures. The problem we faced, in that moment, was that one of the boxes of finished root sculptures had disappeared. It was put on a truck in Reno, and was not to be found once the truck got to the playa.

After an entire day of fruitless search for the missing sculptures, this was the stress that I was gladly taking a respite from after my sudden nasal purging. Just as I was about to drift into meditation, two other people entered Ohm. These two beautiful souls were going to do a Tarot Reading. I encouraged them to stay, ensuring they would not bother me in my restfulness. We three then sank into a deep meditation for about half an hour. When we emerged, it was silently known that we all participate in the Tarot reading.

The reading itself was poignant for our collective needs and urged us to continue expanding and growing in our conscious pursuits of the divine. It illuminated challenges and areas of strength, as well as possibilities for success. We were using the Ascended Masters Oracle deck, taking turns reading the name and description of the Master and his/her representations and messages. When we were finished, we were all guided to each draw one more card for a personal message. The card I drew was Avalokitesvara, the masculine counterpart to Quan Yin. Drawing this card was integral to my initiation that would come the next day. The card one of my friends drew was a card that also appeared in our general reading spread. This occurrence brought our attention to the card. The card itself was the "Master Teacher" card, represented by Mahachohan Ragoczy. I had never heard of this Ascended Master before.

My friend picked up the card, looked at it, looked at me, and said, "Look, Brad. This is a portrait of you!" She showed me the picture, and what I saw unleashed a huge wave of catharsis. Tears of joy, sobs of gratitude, tingles of deep unfathomable understanding. There I was, portrayed in the Master Teacher card, with a big Red Jewel adorning my forehead. I had found the Red Jewel.

The profound insight I received in that moment defies articulation through words. It was like coming to the end of a long and arduous search, where the object I was seeking was itself only revealed to me when I found it. It was me. I found myself reflected back to me through that card. Suddenly all the pieces of my life puzzle began to reassemble to reveal a grander, more beautiful picture than I had previously envisioned. And everything was clear.

I knew that I had been shown my "I AM" Presence. This is the aspect of the self that vibrates at the level of the Christ Consciousness. All Ascended Masters have attained this level of consciousness. Every human being who is alive at this time carries threads of many aspects of this level of consciousness, but we all resonate most strongly with a particular aspect of the I Am Presence. That day I learned that the primary frequency I carry from the I AM level of consciousness, or World 4, according to White Time, is that of Master Ragoczy.

I said it out loud several times, "I am Ragoczy. I am Ragoczy. I am Ragoczy." Nothing has felt truer passing through my lips. They say people inevitably find themselves on the playa. I can surely attest to that phenomenon. The magnitude of divine ordering for that moment to come together was staggering, to say the least. And as always, it was beautifully orchestrated by the wonderful Universe that knows no bounds or limitations for the possibilities and magical workings of the world.

It was time to embrace my full power as an incarnated master teacher. Time to open up to the flow of divine truth that pours through me unimpeded by rational intervention, hesitation, or doubt.

I returned to the God-Goddess dome, having surrendered to the divine will of the higher beings who were working just as diligently as us humans to create the most powerful temple of conscious transformation possible. I examined the six root sculptures we did have with us. Then the inspiration came. Again, I blessed the Universe with immense gratitude for providing the opportunity to be the vessel for such amazing work. Here is what I received:

The six crystal-root sculptures that we had were representative of both the original God and Goddess sets I had chosen. This in itself was an intruiging fact. As I sank deeper into the synchronicity of the moment, the unseen guidance broke through the veil of my individual consciousness, and I saw the larger picture. The Universe was asking for a single, Divine Androgenous Chakra Column in the center of the temple that would merge and transcend the individual embodiment of the masculine/feminine polarities of creation. Those individual polarized chakra systems would still be represented by the smaller stones on the columns behind the thrones. They would function, instead, as conductors, channeling the energy of the person who sits in the throne into the ascended light-body chakra system in the center. Once activated, that person would pass through the abyss and reach the Unity Temple, ready to become enlightened, literally, in the physical-energetic-vibrational sense of it. Divine androgenous light-body activation. No more. No less.

As I pondered this new possibility, each of the six stones that were present spoke to me their true purpose. I could not have planned it better myself. This was the new Androgenous Chakra System:

At the root was a Garnet/Jasper Sphere. The combination of two stone energies in one sphere condensed the metaphysical process of merging duality into a single solid structure on the physical level. Both stones are neutral in terms of any possible gendered assignation. The Red Jasper is a strong cleansing stone, used to purify the digestive system. As the Root Chakra is essentially the energy center through which excess energy is released, this stone energy will strengthen, purify, and fortify the higher octave of this chakra. The Root Chakra is also the center where we connect with Mother Earth and receive her life-sustaining support. Without the connection through this center, we would not be able to survive on this planet. The Garnet energy acts as a strong filter for this energy, healing all imbalances and improper survival techniques mankind had adopted through the challenges of living throughout history. It further circulates the energy of all the crystals in the Chakra system throughout the physical body on a sub-cellular level.

The next stone is a Carnelian Sphere. Originally chosen for the God's second Charka, it's placement at the Sacral center in the ascended chakra system allows for a deep and profound healing of the sexual energies that pervade the dualistic reality of sexual attraction as the force of creation. Through this stone in this center, all abuse and misdirection of creative force is healed and transcended. All negative energy generated by humanity's thirst for power and dominance is transmuted.

The third stone is a Golden Quartz Sphere, originally intended as the Goddess's second chakra. Elevating this stone to the Solar Plexus in the Divine Androgenous Light Body brings the power of pure Quartz to the center of the will-power. Quartz is the great amplifier, strengthening all intentions and thought forms. As the Solar Plexus is recognized as the true center of information exchange, the alignment of our intentions with our will-power will receive stronger force and more momentum toward manifestation in a co-creative context. The Golden Color further enhances the ties between to Sun's energy and the Solar Plexus, allowing our center of courage and strength to shine like a solar body itself. We are star seeds after all…

At the heart of the Ascended Chakra System is a Citrine. This stone is traditionally placed at the Solar Plexus for an individual because it gives strength and courage through it's golden rays. It now imbues the power and strength of each individual into the ascended heart, gracefully creating an expression of divine compassion and understanding for all of humanity in this center. Citrine is also the crystal placed at the center of the Heart Dome, the center of the entire Temple Grid Structure. It is the heart of Pantheogenesis. Therefore, the entire grid consciousness is holographically transferred into the heart of each individual who passes through the activation portals in the temples. Citrine is also coming into its true power as one of the leading stones of the Aquarian Age. The color that citrine reflects causes it to absorb the frequencies that correspond almost identically with the color of the Blue Creation. The energy of Citrine offers an indirect experience of the energy of our entire Universe, and it now strengthens our experience and understanding of the color of our creation in our hearts.

At the position of the Throat Chakra was placed a large piece of Malachite. This stone was originally intended for the God's Heart Chakra. In it's new position, it could perform the necessary function of allowing us, as individuals and collectively, to process and release our grief, sorrow, regrets, and all other stifled emotions caused by the human condition. This stone allows for the most graceful and powerful expression of long-suppressed emotions. It allows us to heal our emotional body. At this time, that is what we need to do. We must recognize that our words create. We must forgive and release all the misfortune of the past before we can co-create a new world of infinite abundance and eternal peace. Even though this stone is mostly green, it has a blue aura, thus stimulating the Throat Chakra through color resonance. We must open our throats, let out the cries of pain to make room for the new love and light, and begin to speak and act in truth, and only in truth.

Lepidolite was the stone that the Universe thought would be best for the Androgenous Chakra System's Third Eye. Lepidolite is the stone that Lithium is derived from to treat psychosis. Lepidolite offers extremely strong psychic protection and fortification. It is unfortunately true that there are powerful forces working against the conscious evolution of humanity. Psychic attack and really icky beings with bad intentions exist. This stone will strengthen the Third Eye so that discernment is strong, protection is powerful, and the mind will remain stable in periods of rapid growth nad expansion. Apart from intentional attacks, people can become unstable simply by experiencing universal truths and aspects of reality that exist outside their current scope of possibilities. Not everyone is ready to meet an ET in the flesh and not be shaken by the event. Lepidolite will smooth out turbulence caused by the growing pains and challenges we are beginning to experience as our concepts of the world expand.

The seventh, and final chakra stone was going to be Apophylite. Each of the thrones was going to be adorned with a large Apophylite at the top, serving as the geometric link bringing them into the Crystal grid. I had two large apophylites for this purpose with me when I arrived at Burning Man. I showed them both to the man in charge of the visioning and construction of the thrones. I remember leaving them with him to contemplate. But later, he had no recollection of me ever even showing them to him. They too disappeared without a trace. I still don't know what ever happened to them. It was as if a fold in the space-time dimension occurred that swallowed them up. Was it a dream or a reality that I gave them to him? I may never know, and it doesn't matter anyway because the larger truth revealed itself in the absence of those two crystals.

By that point I had fully surrendered to the Universe's hidden design of the God/Goddess Temple, and I took their disappearance with grace in the flow. It was obvious what the Universe wanted: The entire Unity Dome itself would serve as the Crown Chakra of the Ascended Chakra System. It already had the Lotus Flower in place, and that temple was solely adorned with white and gold fabric. It made complete sense to me. It was perfect.

This new rendering of the Crystalline activation structure of the God/Goddess dome served a fuller outpicturing of our collective intentions better than any one individual was able to conceive, and better than our collective human intellect could design. It was truly a co-creation with the divine, and the first time I've ever experienced the divine taking and active and physically noticeable role in the process.

When all this information came to me, several people appeared and gathered around me. They all sat down while I explained the divine insight unlocking the deeper meaning of the crystal correspondences. It was a spontaneous Crystal Healing workshop. The information streamed out of me in a ceaseless flow, and the above information is my best attempt at recreating that divine flow of inspiration. One woman in particular had a very high vibration, essentially angelic. She sat down, smiled a huge smile, listened and nodded, and then disappeared as soon as I was done. I am convinced she was an Angel stopping by to make sure I got the message right. I never saw her again.

The new Chakra column was hung in a clockwise spiral from the ceiling of the center of the dome. My two Lemurians Gaia-Ha and Ipsellion, flanked each throne surrounded by seven Quartz Generators. They both pointed to the base of the Androgenous Chakra Column. When someone sat in a throne, their polarized (masculine or feminine) chakra column would be activated through the stones in the backs of the thrones, and the Lemurians would redirect that energy into the Androgenous Chakra Column that essentially turned the entire temple into one giant pranic tube.

Once the central Chakra System was put into place the Temple was almost complete. We still needed to assemble the masculine chakra column that sits behind the throne for the God. I had been asking Kim, the throne visionary, for it for days, but he still had not assembled it. The absence of this integral component came to be a reflection of the inner work I had to do within myself in order to be able to shift consciousness for the collective. I realized I had been chosen to be the archtypal "god" and that I had to fully embrace my power as a God-Being to be able to bring it all together. Suddenly, the card I drew in the Tarot deck made perfect sense. It was required of me to embody the masculine counterpart of Quan Yin's unconditional compassion. The God needed to heal.

I went over to the woodworking station and took matters into my own hand. Kim handed me a pile of wood scraps cut into various different shapes and I let my higher guidance flow as I began to assemble the God's Chakra Column. The resultant sculpture exceeded all expectation in beauty and power. It was an incredible feat. From the scraps of previous endeavors, a new vision for the archetypal God has come into being, both physically and symbolically. I was literally recreating the concept of what it means to be a God with my own hands. Such power is seductive, and I was sure to keep it pure of all negative aspects of masculine potency that have run amock on this planet for far too long as it is.

As soon as I had fastened the seven smaller crystals for the God's Chakra Column onto the sculpture, Laurel Kitten, a ceremonial goddess in her own right, appeared dressed as the embodiment of Mother Nature. She said she had blessed the Goddess Chakra Column with ceremony when it was completed, and it was now time to bless the God's Chakra Column as well.

I picked up the sculpture and followed her to the Krishna Camp's sacred altar. We ascended the staircase and began to bless the sculpture with the grace and power of the Tibetian sanctity. Tibet, I remembered, is the single most concentrated portal for where the Divine Masculine energies enter the Earth Field. It is balanced by Macchu Picchu in South America as the central vortex of the Feminine energies.

Suddenly, a group of people appeared singing a perpetual chant to Krishna. It was a mobile kirtan, bestowing blessing upon blessing to us and the sacred Chakra Column. We descended the staircase to be surrounded by these people singing and playing instruments. Water was sprinkled on us, incense filled the air. I shook the Chakra Column and waved it around with ceremonial reverence. This was the ritual blessing of the Chakra Column. Only Krishna could devise such a serendipitous flow of grace. I was both completely clueless as to what I was doing, and profoundly aware of the deeper significance of it all. It was an intersection of the mundane and the sacred. That's the best was I can describe it.

Once the spontaneous and powerful sacrament was bestowed upon the God's Chakra Column, I brought it over to the God/Goddess dome. However, it took three men, including myself, to get it through the small circular doorway. Even in the most commonplace moments of this journey, I could feel the sacred significance of it all. I kid you not, it was as if we three were literally inseminating the sacred womb of the Divine Androgeny with that Chakra Column as we thrust it through the portal into the space. Three men, each embodying a different aspect of the Masculine Archetype. Somehow, this symbology was significant.

Once the Chakra column was in place, my work in setting the crystal grid of the temple was near completion. All that needed to happen was for a nail gun to manifest and fix the septagonal crystal sculptures that would tie in the God/Dess dome to the grid for the whole complex to the thrones. Impatience overcame me as this simple task seemed not to be able to be performed. What seemed like hours rolled by. For the first and only time on the playa, I fell into a state of frustration and attachment. The transition was so smoothe and subtle, I didn't even realize it had occurred.

As if on cue, Rose, one of the Temple Guardians, flew into the Temple and flung me into his arms. I swooned and he pulled a spear out of my back. I died in his arms, and as he lowered me down to the floor, his knee popped my L4 vertebrae back into alignment for the first time since I dislodged it in a childhood accident. For a moment I was in a blissful state of surrender. I had just healed countless past-life deaths that involved breaking my back. When I opened my eyes, Kim, and Venkat, a woman I nicknamed Quan Yin, were leaning over me. Venkat asked me when the last time I broke my back was. Before I could answer, she said, "You never have to break you back again." And so it was.

I sat up and saw that all the crystals had been anchored in place while I was lying down. The Temple was complete, and my death-trauma release was the sacrificial offering to activate the vortex.

The next night was the group activation ceremony for the entire Pantheogenesis Temple Complex. I cannot begin to describe the scope and multi-dimensional significance of that ceremony. In fact, I am still processing what my conscious mind experienced, let alone what my superconscious and the collective consciousness experienced. Let's just say it was VERY powerful.

We all began in the Unity Dome. Many people were present, as well as many higher beings. The energies of the cosmos were brought down and anchored into the dome through the I-Ching, the Lemurian Record-Keeper, the Unity wands, and the male and female creation forces, generated by DreamTiger and myself.

When we completed the grid activation in the Unity dome, we all processed to the God/Goddess Temple. Here I was chosen to be the representative for the masculine consciousness force for the planet. Veleda was representing the feminine consciousness force. During this ceremony, I passed the reins of MotherShip Earth back to the women. It was an extremely powerful ceremony that has planted the seed to restore harmony in the imbalance of power that has been manifest in the world for over 2000 years. I am awed and humbled to have been able to be of service in that way.

Inside the Heart Temple, I took a more passive role in the ceremony as a holder of space, intention, and energy, while others did most of the activating. Continuing through to the Earth Dome, we collectively activated the anchoring crystals of the grid, and then began a silent procession onto the Playa toward the Central Temple of the Festival. During that procession I had a direct experience of effecting the weather around us. Through chanting and waving my staff I created a sphere of protection that circled around our entire group as we traveled through the playa. All around us on all sides there were strong winds and dust storms whipping about, but we remained unscathed for the entire duration of our procession. What an experience!

Once the procession was complete and we circumambulated the Temple, my "work" at Burning Man was complete. There is now a permanent Temple Comples on the Astral plane, and anyone who knows how can visit it and walk through the Temples to receive the activations and blessings our collective group of visionaries created.

What lies beyond this vision is yet to be revealed, but I can assure you next year's Temple will pick up where this one left off. And that's a pretty high place already!

Love and Light,

Bradford Ragozy, Keeper of the Red Jewel

Her hand was a molten flower
Roaming the waste lands in search of a jewel
Lost in the folds of society's tapestry
The loom mistress forgets her weave
As our ghosts censor humanity

It touched upon my brow,
The cold kiss of an icy meadow
The sun's joy bleakly blew by

In eyes of apricot kernel
The knots of old oak wood turn
Wizened thought: a monsoon or a drought?
It is enough that something is being carried out

Whether idle or obtuse
It amounts to the same
That inertia clearly loses the game