that we cannot control.
Like who we love.
Or what it means.
Or if it is wasted.
Or if they are worth it.

We can only control what we do with it.

The whole premise that we should be "thankful" on Thanksgiving is really a load of bullshit.

I mean, are we not supposed to be thankful every day and treat our life and those around us in a way that is reflective of that?

On Thanksgiving we  "celebrate" the crimes committed against our brothers who choked down food at gunpoint while being robbed of their land and lives. Really, is quite disgusting, actually.

As for the "idea" of being  thankful.....that is just something you should do every morning when you open your eyes.......when you look at your children......when you kiss your lover.....or hug your mother.......to know your friends.....or have a talent......see a sunset......smell the rain.......feed the birds......
and grab your life by the balls.........AND APPRECIATE IT ALL EVERYDAY!

I am pretty excited about this "writing workshop" I am starting tomorrow.
It's been a while since I have done much of anything for myself. So much to do...so little time.

This place has an amazing reputation for being one of the best workshops in the country and I am grateful to have this opportunity.

I hope that I learn alot....maybe it will even light a little flame under my ass to get me doing more of something I love to do - write.

Yea, me!

WE'RE GETTING THAT DUMBASS MONKEY FUCKER OUT OF OFFICE!!!!!!!!!! YEA! YEA! YEA! YEA! (I AM DOING A JIG!!!!!! YES I AM!!!!)........BYE BYE G.W.B.!!!!!

Ummmmm.......

What's with the "advertising" on the myspace homepage and the, "I LOST 10 POUNDS LAST WEEK" AD........with two pics of two young girls holding babies??? That is really fucked up!!!

I think it is a right wing anti-abortion tactic to promote celibacy among young girls saying if you have one of these (A BABY) you will ultimately get FAT and lose your girlish figure INSTEAD of a weight loss ad. LOL!

Man........time to move.........

It is true......
..................after many many years of well, figuring shit out..............

it seems that i have ended up on a dock over the ocean with  a boy (THE BOY) on his knee, one question, and a ring on my finger.

i am not so sure about the fairytale ending but i can assure you in 30 years i will be kicking his ass in "walker races" at some old folks home in Boca.......

and from THIS point until then i think i will have a good time getting there.

what can i say.......i fucking love this boy (i can't help it) and i could live without him, but i don't want to.........things have a way of working themselves out......LOVE IS A CRAZY THING, I SAY.......

Did you ever meet anyone with no sense of responsibility or accountability for pretty much anything that happens in their life......?????

From losing a job to their best friend and everything in between......and then blames everyone else; their boss, their ex-best friend for the results of THEIR own behavior?

It reminds me of a person dousing themselves in gasoline, striking the match that sets them aflame and then throwing the matchbook in your purse, so they can "go out" blaming YOU for their demise........shit that is fucked up.

Disclaimer:
This is my opinion based on life experience.
You can also replace the word man with woman or mankind.

To judge a man:
The question is not , "did he have passion?" The question is, "did he have love?"
If passion and love were sitting on a scale love would outweigh passion ten times.
Passion is just an inflated version of love losing touch of the reality, permanence, respect and commitment of love- the things that are complex.. Passion is simplistic- it lacks depth, but has intensity. Passion is also temporary where love is more permanent. When we feel passionate about something, we make time for it because we get immediate gratification out of it. But when we "love" something it is all the time, and it does not need to fight for the spotlight at any given moment. Even if we feel we "hate" a person, you can only truly hate what you love -it only exists because it has love supporting it. And most people misuse the word "hate" all the time. Love and hate go hand in hand. I have never heard passion and hate oppose eachother because it cannot- it is not equal. Love and hate can be both emotion and action. But passion and love, that is different. "Passion" is an emotion with an object of affection. It is a gauge in which to measure the depth of your feelings and the intensity to which you feel them. It is a flamboyant version of love without truth. And often times passion is a driving force to a false sense of love. Passion lives on the edge. It is the most "extreme" emotion. Even more then "rage" because passion can fuel rage and rage is a secondary emotion fueled by others first. And when I think about people who were most passionate, they are all driven by some "purpose." Love has no purpose, except to just exist. It exists the same way as oxygen. We need it , and need to give it (some more then others) or we will die. Love is not a "manic" emotion looking for some kind of pay-off the way passion does. Hitler was passionate about an "Arian Nation." Manson was passionate about his beliefs. And every "cult" in the history of the universe was driven by passion. But, the reality of the real world and real people are gone and where is "real love" in mass human extinction?" Just like a relationship driven by passion is destined to fail, so is the fact that it lacks "real love." Love is the oxygen to anything we do. Love is the thing that makes things "stay". There is no guarantee that "love" will stay, but I guarantee if it exists in anything at all......anything that you do, whatever it is- your heart will be full. Do not ask, "did he have passion?" Ask, "did he have love" (in his heart). That is the only way to measure a man. With love in your heart, you can perform miracles.