I realized last week that somehow I'd managed to go without an orgasm since Jim left a month and a half ago.  It wasn't purposeful but really not that surprising, I suppose.  I don't masturbate alone unless absolutely necessary.  The couple of times it felt like it just might be necessary, I realized that the batteries in my pretty pink friend were dead and, well, I was too lazy to consider using just my fingers. ;c)

I'd been debating on my Boobik whether or not I should wait and make it an explosive home-cumming.  Then I got the news that he will be home a couple weeks early so that made the decision easy.  Well, easier.  Since realizing he's almost home, it's actually gotten a little harder to resist.  But I can be a good girl.  No, really!  I can!

I just bought a bunch of Mary Kay!

How is this good news, you ask?  Because I've not had any cosmetics for a while now thanks to a little boy who decided to get up before anyone else one morning and use my makeup case as a coloring kit.

One reason I've been reluctant to take new photos is because I didn't want to go bare-faced so this is really good news for you, too... that is, if you're into my pics.  If not, well.... I'm happy about it, anyhow. ;c)

P.S.  The Mary Kay link belongs to my friend who was attacked in March so if you need anything, please consider ordering from her as she could really use the income.

Ok, so it's not turning out to be such a bad day. 
The kid is in a good mood and I managed to scrape together enough money to pay for the P.O. Box so I got my mail which included a birthday card from a dear friend and notice that my stimulus check should be here soon.  Finally!

No mommy, no husband, no cake, no gifts. 
Whee... what a birthday.

On the up side, I thought I was going to have to spend today at the DMV but because I can't find my social security card, I can't renew.  I guess that deserves a yay. ;c)

I try not to bring my sadness here since this is my "fun account" but I often get asked about what is going on and where I've been so here is a quick run-down.

October:  Mommy passed away. She was the person I was closest to in the world and it shattered me wholly.  It also left me with responsibilities I really was not prepared for such as my grandma's care and a house I can't really afford.

January:  Grandma had a stroke.  She survived but was certainly stressful.  Thankfully she has mostly recovered.  Stepmom's cancer returns with a vengeance and she is not expected to live out the year.

March:  My best friend is attacked brutally with an axe by her significant other and he kills their baby. 

April:  A friend loses her aunt and uncle in a murder-suicide.

May: Another friend is diagnosed with colon cancer and needs a complete iliostomy.  Yet another friend returned home from a weekend trip to find her husband in bed comatose.

And now we are in June where we are a week away from my husband going to San Diego until September for work.  I depend on him for so many things and the only thing which kept me together on his previous trips was having my mommy to lean on.  Now I don't have her but I do have the anxiety of all that's been going on.  This is not going to be a pleasant summer. 

That should sum it up.  It's just been a lot of tragedies.  And not just for me but it seems like pretty much everyone has been dealing with difficult times.  During these kinds of things, I tend to hide away.  So that's where I've been.

Life has been... well, it's been something.
Those around me know that I had the Winter of Misery and so haven't been as social as perhaps I usually am. It was one death/illness/etc. after another and I ended up just wanting to hide away under my blankets from the rest of the world.

But things seem to be improving *knock wood* and the sun is out. Maybe it's silly to see that as a sign since, well, it is summer and all, but it definitely helps improve my mood and remind me that there are brighter, happier things going on which I should get out there and join in on.

So if you've wondered where I was, I've been hiding.
I'm going to stop hiding so much but, along with that, I'm going to try to get out and do more so I probably will still be a bit absent. But I'll pop in here once in awhile I'm sure and you can always try to grab me by email: missangelyss@gmail.com

On March 15th, my best friend was attacked by her boyfriend with an axe. She managed to get away and run to the neighbor’s house, bleeding from the head and upper body. While she escaped, he took their two-year-old and killed him with a screwdriver before dumping his body behind a shopping center.

If that isn’t tragic, I don’t know what is. It takes a real fucking psychopath to kill a child, let alone his own. And in such a fucking brutal way.

I am absolutely heartbroken for her but I know that I can’t even begin to imagine her pain. However, I can help ease the burden a bit by putting the word out. She was a stay-at-home mom who depended on his income and, of course, he’s not sharing that now that she really needs it for funeral expenses, medical bills, etc.

Please consider giving to the memorial fund for the baby if you can:

Andrew Bailey’s family has set up a memorial fund for him. Those interested in contributing can go to any El Dorado Savings Bank branch and deposit funds to the Andrew Bailey Memorial Fund, account 263004173.

If you do not have a branch in your area, you can go to your bank and they can wire funds to El Dorado Savings Bank. Your bank will need the account number of Andrew Bailey’s Memorial Fund (263004173) and El Dorado Savings Bank routing number which is: 321170978. For wires, use El Dorado Savings Bank’s main office address which is: 4040 El Dorado Rd. Placerville , Ca 95667.

Should you need assistance, you can call 800-874-9779 and request the El Dorado Hills Branch.

Or you can donate directly to her via PayPal using the address merrily(at)wholesomegoodies.net

News article on the tragedy for those curious or concerned about this being a scam: http://www.tahoedailytribune.com/article/20080319/NEWS01/80694159/-1/NEWS

I've ordered one.  Can't wait for Jim to get home so I can surprise him with it. ;c)

It was a good day, though pretty quiet.
My mommy has made a ritual of taking me and the kid out on Saturday mornings, usually to the local farmer's market and then to lunch.
So that's what we did.
But it was a special lunch because we went to the Olive Garden, which I've been craving lately.  I don't get to go often because it's a bit of a drive to the nearest, plus the expense of it.  I mean, if I'm gonna go all the way there, I'm not just getting soup and breadsticks so it can get pretty pricy.
In the end, I was stuffed and had leftover yummies for my fridge.  And just spending time with my mommy is always nice.

Unfortunately, no birthday spankings this year. ;c) 
At least, not until Jim gets home which won't be for another month.

I've been sending naughty messages to Jim all weekend.
It's been especially fun today because he's hanging out with his boss who I know is nosy and will ask him what I said.
*innocent blink*