MySpace http://blog.myspace.com/ktmac_83 http://c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/73/m_12daa2cea3610052a29303990af50995.jpg http://blog.myspace.com/ktmac_83 en-US Thu, 07 Jan 2010 17:42:04 GMT http://myspace.com blog.myspace.com 60 105284753 my dad is really and truely dead.  gone forever. http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=340485227 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=340485227 Sat, 22 Dec 2007 15:30:00 GMT I don't want to hurt tonight.I don't want to miss a boy.I don't want to miss my dad.I'm so incredibly concious that my whole life is about to change drastically.I approach this as silently as possible... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=333644481 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=333644481 Fri, 30 Nov 2007 19:16:00 GMT Some days I just feel like a doormat.  Yes, step on me, yes use me.  I have a conscience, I care, take advantage of me.I long for the day; if it'll ever come when someone who truely loves me... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=329940987 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=329940987 Sun, 18 Nov 2007 22:19:00 GMT Seriously.....did I do things right?  Have I handled my life right?  I've stayed clean of all but my thoughts.  They are just so hard to control; they slip back to places I don't want t... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=329308747 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=329308747 Fri, 16 Nov 2007 19:02:00 GMT I really struggle serious hardcore with faith/God/Christianity.  I feel like so many declare God in their own image.  Yes you read that right.Today, while prepping fabric to sew I had some t... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=328888717 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=328888717 Thu, 15 Nov 2007 10:54:00 GMT I fear that people hate me.I fear that people talk about me behind my back.I fear that people think I'm a drama queen and that's why they don't like me.Yes I fear that people don't like me and only to... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=324952814 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=324952814 Fri, 02 Nov 2007 21:16:00 GMT It's times like these that I really really need someone.  Someone older and wiser, someone I can go to, vent to, unload on and not hurt or discourage in the process.  I feel like such a jerk... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=316936415 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=316936415 Sun, 07 Oct 2007 17:10:00 GMT I used to, only a few short years ago, have these moments, where I'd let my imagination go a little crazy and i'd pretend I lost a parent; it usually was my dad.  I'd think about how it'd happen,... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=314319180 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=314319180 Fri, 28 Sep 2007 20:10:00 GMT So I'm realizing right now: gone are the days where I know i'm understood.  Maybe it'll resurface again.  And I'll have that relationship with someone again.  But right now?  non-e... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=308354974 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=308354974 Sun, 09 Sep 2007 15:10:00 GMT It's really easy to cry these days.  And I don't bother to stop the tears.  They're the closest thing that I can get to hug.  I wish I had a trusted shoulder to cry on.  I know lot... http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=308310043 http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=105284753&blogId=308310043 Sun, 09 Sep 2007 12:32:00 GMT