i haven't been around much since the boy's mom passed - it was pretty bad and - well..still is ...but a little shiny appeared when i came into the room and glanced over the boy's shoulder and he was on here....just for the hell of it i went to look up Black Lab because i fell in love with this band when i bought "Passion Leaves a Trace" - granted i bought it for the music i heared on the FX commercials for "The Shield" ...i had "This Night" on my profile forever , until they disappeared - just happy to see them back - and this song availabe..there was a time i couldn't listen to this song with out breaking down - yeah ..it sounds like a really pretty song ..and it is....but the lyrics...are sort of gutting, if you have ever been *there*
i"m not anymore - yet sometimes i still tear up listening to it, when i think of what *might* have happened that didn't - so sometimes it's happy tears ..i guess

however ...megacon tomorrow ...we'll see...AND!! Mad props to "zander" (Robin) for being a good little sheep and running to see REPO - The Genetic Opera! And i think she liked it!! so there - people i am serious - don't even call me..until you have at least watched the trailer on my profile - there's just NO excuse for that - come on people..TESTIFY!!!

http://www.repo-opera.com/







untill you see this we have nothing to talk about so GO OUT AND RENT IT ALREADY ...geez....

I HAVE BEEN "NET NAPPED"
that is the only conclusion i can come to -
 i already did a very genuine post about this and then i got a bit pissed during it ....then i realised people will think i am an idiot becuse the solution is so simple....and that made me MAD
problem:
remember that cute little
"buy and sell your own friends" app that we all sorta just got tired of...
well at some point - COMPLETE strangers started buying me....and ..okay..i goyt curious..so i would go to their profile ..anf low and behold..i would be BLOCKED
not just a "private "friends only" but FUCKING BLOCKED
and then it started to happen with disturbing regularity that i would be given as a "human gift" to YET ANOTHER TOTAL STRANGER....who would also have me "coincidently" blocked as well
well..i construe that to be the internet equivelent of being fucking hijacked!
solution: "Well, duh...why don't you just dump that app.."
thanks to all you *smert* people out there (props to bic for the usage of the word "smert" - even though his ass hasen't helped me one bit) that is excellent advice...and i will be doing that promptly
right after i find out
JUST WHY THE FUCK THIS IS HAPPENING
i usually don't get this all ranty with caps on post - but remember , i am also pissed that i already wrote this post and it dissapeared
so PLEASE PARDON THE FUCK OUT OF ME
what i want to know is...
did i "miss" out on some cool new trend i'm not hip to?
and i gues what it really comes down to is
A: is this happenning ALOT out there? cuz if so ...i wanna know - at least it wasn't "just me" pissing off the wrong person....
B: what do these people expect to accompish by doing this....HEY..maybe there *is* a reason behind it that i don't get and i could maybe even get behind....IF it was actually accomplishing...well..anything...other then pissing people off...cause..hey i know how to play that game just as well as anyone - but i don't rank it as an accomplishment - more of just a hobby really.....so talk to me people..ANYONE???
I ask you in  the name of all that is unholy ( cuz me an the sky bully - we just don't seem to groove)
please tell me WHY THIS IS HAPPENING????
then i will pull that app and quietly go away
but i want to know WHY first....gawdmammit
 

i ripped off Lynx to put this song on my profile just for you , sweetness - you are an inspiration ..even if i have to remind you of most of the major events in your life...and just think...somewhere ....out there ...it's....all...on....VHS
kinda scary,huh?
OH! also the exacting of fresh vengance is also for you, in your honor, if i may.....i may even get creative....
oh, girl...if only i had known.....if only....
and ...hey...
NO more of the "robin what's wrong...?
" "nuthin ..i'm fine"
because you know that i always know
it's my job , man
and if this post is read by anyone else and they don't get it ..or they completely get it
but in their own way..hey i'm down with that too....but you gotta know
"zander"
this one was just  for you
Can i get a witness!!???

"And if i never see your face again, well, i don't care...cause i know 100 games of solitaire"

as usual , Johnette sings my life..and apparently a lot of others as well....this song got me thru some very rough times so, now new profile song for my girlies with hurties from those bad bad boy things...

just listen to the message and feel empowered

i know it works for me

and, hey, imnowallflower..i know we don't really know each other - but glad i could sort of ..i dunno, was it help..well, i was just glad it meant something to you..........

my profile song is for you - nothing like Johnette to say it just right

remember...Zander (robin) , Lynx...i love you with all my heart

 

it probably is

was just wishing i could have this song on my profile - so i just thought i'd share it here...unfortunately it can't be appreciated as well musically this way - but maybe the lyrics will intruige someone enough to check it out - they had some "top 40" songs ..a couple..but this was always my favorite..being how Kaos and i are old "friends"..so ..i give you...

"Daughters Of The Kaos"

No no no the kaos never lets you go
Daughters of the kaos
In the house of god
Love you with my six guns
Then i move along
Like a gangster keeping the family strong
With the mission of kaotic song
Of the kaos
Semi-automatic sisters
I might be strong
But don't call me mister
Playing with the status quo of the soul
Enjoy babylon
Kaos
K.o.
No no no the kaos never lets you go
I don't act too cool
Cause i'm not that weak
Accept respect for the havoc i wreak
My evil is good, this i believe
Daughters of the kaos making history
Always give shelter to man in need
In the face of kaos i give up my greed
Insane and unknown is my only creed
Enjoy, destroy, then set you free
No no no no no no no no no the kaos never lets you go
Never leave a child alone in a world like this
He'll play with bombs that always miss
He'll make a girl pick up a gun
So she can show him how it's done
Angela's angels forever on the run
Walking in the rays of the beautiful sun
Give it to ya one time (*bang*)
Give it to ya two times(*bang bang*)
Give it to ya three times(*bang bang bang*)
Kaos
You lose yourself
Then forgive us
You probably never
Gonna get out
No no no the kaos never lets you go

*Luscious Jackson*

when i found this option on here ..i just *had* to change  my music - i guess i'm just feeling very Hungarian right now..if you don't know the origins of this song - it's worth looking up -

even better ...watch the movie "Gloomy Sunday" - it's beautifully told story of it's origin...i guess it just stirs my gypsy blood-

but , guys please don't read anything into it...i just happen to really like the song - particularly the Bjork version - i just wish it didn't have the "pop song" ending tacked on -

i'm really more interested in how it makes *you* feel...so please, if it's working and you feel the urge to comment ..please do so-

if it's not working, i'm going back to Black Lab - that song is just too fucking cool

 

BTW the Bjork version is not working for some reason - so i added the Billie Holiday version (not my favorite) - but if you do getthe chance to hear the Bjork version Or The Diamanda Galas version (she insists on removing the "happy ending" I love that scary scary bitch ;)

on youtube they have a lot of versions of the song and they discuss the origin and Diamada Galas Preforming it live - which, well most of you know ..with the speaking in tounges and dramatic piano it comes across more as a threat then the harbinger i believe it was .....but listen to the billie holiday version - it has the sort of sweet sadness that is the whole meaning to the song - if you can find the bjork version ,please listen!! it is the version i imagine was meant to be..you know - even before the lyrics ...