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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 20
Sign: Aries

Country: UK
Signup Date: 3/9/2006

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Thursday, April 12, 2007 
Take your eyes off of me, darling
I can't figure out if you know
I'm hiding behind past form but it won't hold
Why are you so damned honest?
It just makes it all seem worse
Rip up my insides and free me of this curse

One night spent out of your arms
Doesn't seem worth this harm
Nothing will work and nothing will render this calm
Colour me into freedom
It'll force me back into this
Nothing as bad as feeling her breath in your kiss

Some more to come on these when I get the time and inspiration, haha

Wednesday, December 20, 2006 
My gut vibrates, this thudding train,
running over envy,
brain, shudders past my hands
They shake
As my feet, insane, tap,
the window rattles,
a perfect metaphor, and a portal

Unsure of itself and rushing by so fast
it leaves a cloud of fumes around my head
I want to stay

To think,
I left the all-ins and the cheques behind
Change is crippling my mind

Everything I ever knew is ripped
from a bleeding socket
prosthetic, this startled rocket starts
to feel the pressure,
when I cry, leak a tear from my eye

Your phone calls ask why things change
and the answer is collosal:
my past is out of range
And the road, littered, empty bottles beside cracks
line the way

We will

We'll meet again some day,
straight to an empty house
filling up along the way
Just smile, a white one with an old friend at my side,
take a breath and look inside

I'll lose my voice despite you
and regret the times I lied
I love this place, I love this city, your arms open wide
But now memories forgotten,
there is nowhere left to hide.
Saturday, November 25, 2006 
Over the Sheffield nightlife there were grey and black clouds gathering. He could see them rolling in, forming shadows on the empty roads and roundabouts.
The days had turned dark quickly this winter. More quickly than he'd expected. Not that it was a bad thing - it meant things could happen more quickly - but they hadn't been ready and it had been a stressful week. He looked to the street beneath his office, seeing a couple of drunk girls stumbling and falling on the pavement, and turned away in disgust.
This was what the country was becoming and had been turning into for a long time. Litter-strewn streets, poverty. And with one cause, one reason for everything wrong with this God-forsaken city. This city could be great. The lights were there, the clubs were there and the people were there. But so were they.
He slammed his fist on the desk as he had a sudden resurgence of what he'd once felt as a teenager. His veins pulsed with a certainty that he was right and that things in general were wrong. It couldn't work the way they wanted it to. It wasn't working!
He stood at his desk for a while, staring blankly at the wall to its side, pondering his options, his scruffy, black hair ruffled every once in a while by the breeze from the window. He sat down and put his head in his hands.
Things weren't going to plan. He'd known there'd be problems, but not this early. Darren in hospital and the kid would be in jail by Friday. Things needed sorting.
He reached for the right-hand side drawer of his desk, finding newspaper articles from the last 12 months charting the progress of his masterpiece. In those terms, he thought, he's just finished the first layer. The canvas and foundation were in place. It just needed to happen.
He sat uneasily, typing an email to somebody he hoped would be awake. He'd have to be, after a day like this.
Halfway down page 1, he fell asleep and his head crashed onto the keyboard. Outside, the clouds had assembled. The rain was beginning to fall.

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Thursday, November 23, 2006 

This is slightly longer, but it's Chapter 1 so it would be - enjoy!

 

I

 

Jack Spane sat at the window of his badly lit English classroom daydreaming of God knows what. With the faint sound of Coster's droning voice drilling slowly and painfully through his skull, the line of trees and miserable skyline were blurred, unimpressive. He could see the compound, empty and litter-strewn, and the steps, and, through a gap in the trees, the place where he'd kissed her.

Friday afternoons were an impressive replica of Hell itself. Double English as the last lesson on the last day of week required some definite malice by whoever organised the timetables. This was just a waiting game, and one which had started to lose the concept of winning and losing.

His eyes started to close and his brain started to switch off like the power had been switched off from his life support machine. All until he was instantly revitalised by a shuddering smash on the table beside him.

"Mr. Spane! You are not here in this class to go to sleep, nor are you here to stare out the window! You are here, whether you like it or not, to work! Now sit up and pay attention or I'll write you a slip."

Jack sat up sharply, bringing the classroom back into some sort of focus. Apparently the topic was something along the lines of genre-based writing. Exciting stuff.

It wasn't that school didn't interest him. It was just that things had become so repetitive over the last few years that sometimes he just wished he didn't have to do it any more. Carnborough wasn't even too boring a school. Sure, the lessons were sometimes tedious, and the building could sure do with a paint job to liven the atmosphere up a bit. But the teachers tried their damnedest to inject life where possible.

Jack shook life back into his head and started to smile as he heard his classmates' chuckles. He turned around and directed a smile towards the person to his right.

He found himself smiling at, and blushing towards, a stunning blonde girl, Katy Prince. As blonde girls go, it was fair to say that most people saw Katy as a nailed on stereotype. She was an airhead, materialistic, and surrounded and hounded by a very protective army of followers day in, day out. As shallow as a shower, he'd once heard.

But Jack wasn't sure…there seemed something more to her than that glossed image. The way she sometimes smiled compared to the way she usually did. The way she ate. He thought sometimes he saw a glimmer behind her eyes, a glimmer of realisation that her life was so hyped up and sparkly. Hell, maybe it was just wishful thinking. He wanted to think that because if it were true she might actually like him in some weird, twisted, fucked up way.

By the time school turned out that day, what had been a dull afternoon had turned somehow even less inspiring. There was no glint to the clouds, no colour, and no shine. It wasn't dark and chilly, just a very simple and normal 3.30pm. The thousands of youngsters dragged themselves and their bags out of the gates.

The second school bus was the one most of the idiots in their GCSE years caught, but it also meant there were nearly always seats downstairs. Today, though, the first bus wasn't parked in its usual position, and there was a queue formed outside the second. "Great fun", he thought.

He guessed it was just down to tradition, but he always caught this bus with Chris. They barely even talked any more, but they'd been through school together, played sport together, that sort of friendship which gathered a sort of silent momentum that kept them connected. They sat together in almost all of their lessons, and were rarely seen apart outside them, either. Jack couldn't even remember a time when it had been different.

As the bus pulled away, Jack caught a glimpse of a fight breaking out a little way down the side road that ran past the school. There was a massive crowd of excited bodies swarming around them, but through the jumpers and blazers he could just about make out that one of the boys was Tom Green, and concluded that the other guy was probably losing. He didn't know anyone who'd ever gotten the better of Tom - most of the time, people didn't even bother trying. It was sort of a foregone conclusion.

He turned around and rested his head back on the seat frame. A weekend to look forward to, at least. Not that it would hold anything spectacular, but it did mean he could relax a little more, which he'd come to think was what he needed – a little time to unwind.

Jack sat up sharply as a huge bang sounded out from somewhere above him, shaking the roof. The irony of what he had been thinking hit him, and  another bang quickly followed, even louder, and then a series of scraping sounds. By now, almost everyone's attention was on the commotion above them.

The scraping sounds continued, coupled with the sound of people moving around frantically. Raised voices followed, but there were so many of them it made it impossible to hear what was being said. Another deafening bang, directly above Jack's head, and the bus screeched to a halt. Panic ensued.

Tens of people were on the stairs trying to see what was happening, and others were just trying to get away. Jack could hardly breathe as somebody pushed past him and barged their way through the crowd. His eyes were starting to become red with dust and his body was sweating from the heat. Chris had disappeared into the masses.

There was a terrified apprehension as many more shoved towards the front of the double-decker to ask the same questions as the last person. 'What's happened?' or 'What the hell?'. No answers to anything.

A girl twice his size fell back onto Jack, winding him and sending his head crashing into the window. From his cramped position, Jack saw the driver emerge from the stairwell. He breathed what he could of a sigh of relief.

"SHUT UP! EVERYBODY! Calm down, just, be quiet, everything's fine. You're going to have to get off the bus, there will be another one on its way to pick you up soon. Everybody off, please!"

Everybody headed towards the door at once, but the noise gradually died down to the normal murmur, leaving Jack's ears ringing. There was a patter of feet upstairs too, which picked up as Jack found Chris in the crowd outside.

The people who'd been sat upstairs began to descend onto the pavement, immediately assaulted by a barrage of questions, none of which anyone knew the answer to. There was a sense of confusion to the whole scene, like nobody had actually seen anything happen but everybody knew that something had. But of course someone had seen something. Someone must've at least turned around. They just didn't want to be the only ones talking.

The stragglers were exiting the bus. Predictably, the last ones off were the oldest. The ones that sat on the back of the top deck, smoking - the ones you'd rarely, if ever, see in school, and most of that time was spent in truancy meetings. Jack saw Mike Lanley and his girlfriend walk off down the street. Then Simon Tyroe, pushing through clusters of bemused kids.

He froze.

The cogs took a little while longer than usual to start to turn. Jack stood, staring into space as ends began to meet, his expression seemingly but disguisedly vacant. 

Chris tapped him on the shoulder. "Come on bud, we can't hang here all day. We need to be getting off. Match tonight, remember?" Jack didn't hear him, still staring straight ahead into nothing but a blur.

Chris prodded him again, and this time Jack was stunned back into the real world.

He turned and began to walk home, with his head spinning and his legs fighting him, screaming at him to turn back.

Because for a second, Jack could have sworn he saw Simon Tyroe carrying a pistol away from that bus.

 

If you've read this far, PLEASE comment on this chapter. I need criticism to improve my work. Thanks.

Saturday, March 11, 2006 

Prologue

 

With loud bass music thumping from a bar across the street, Andrew kept his eyes down as he went and moved briskly to keep warm. The air was cold and there was a sharpness to it that scared him slightly. This was a popular part of time, a busy street of nightclubs and bars full of students and couples, but removed from the neon there was a sinister edge.

As he passed an alley which was forgotten by the dazzling light of the neighbourhood, he heard voices but carried on through the night. A teen couple, no doubt, both convinced they were getting the better deal. His face burned from the cold and his eyes watered. The voices behind him grew louder, but now they seemed angry. One less teen pregnancy there, then.

"You Paki bastard, you fucking CUNT. I'll kick your fucking head in, come on, come on!"

Andrew froze in his stride, startled more by how wrong he had been than by what he had just heard. It wasn't uncommon to hear racism in London, but there was something about the man's voice that sounded wrong. What was it?

He edged towards the entrance to the alley and peered his head around. He thought for a second he could hear whimpering, and almost started around the corner before the possibility that the attacker could still be close hit him. Torn, he stood there. It had sounded a vicious attack, but the whimpering had now stopped and he couldn't see anything in the darkness.

There was nothing he could do, he decided. He turned around and settled himself for a second, then walked with a fake confidence into the safety of the night life.

 

I am fully aware there are racist remarks and bad language in this prologue. It is meant to offend and shock. Comments are appreciated: I'm going for 50 before I release chapter 1.

Saturday, March 11, 2006 

Well this is my new blog, welcome.
The primary use of this blog is going to be to post installments of my novel. It's free, and I just hope to get some constructive criticism from this whole thing. And hopefully some dedicated readers :)

I'd ask anybody who reads this to make a comment on the story so far, as it can only help. Thanks :)