I'm really happy right now. Things are good all around and I'm not tied down to anyone thing. The world is mine for... No, not the taking... For enjoying.

That's all I have to say. It's good.

Come have a look with me.

I found this picture just now on one of my websites. I don't remember when it was taken or who took it. I am just posting it here for tracking purposes so I can see who reads my blogs.

This was some funny shit! Thought I'd share.

That is all. =)

I haven't been blogging much. Haven't had much to say lately and have been far too busy with work and being out of town with limited or no internet access.

I just wanted to write something here with some stupid bit of trivia.

The interrobang is a type of punctuation mark. It combines the questino mark and exclamation mark together into one.

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I have a lot to think about. So until next time, I'll just keep on keepin' on.

Love is a crazy thing. It makes us do both stupid and courageous things. It affects our lives in many ways that we can never see possible. All my life I have either never known how to truly love someone or have been to afraid to show it. I've built a wall or a facade around me that keeps most people at arms length.

That wall has come down now and I am not afraid to show love to those who have loved me or still do now. But I am afraid to give or start new love with someone else. It's going to take a huge effort on that next persons part to gain my trust, but once they do, it will be one of the best things for the both of us.

Because I'm pretty fucking stupid, but courageous none the less. ;-)

So I met up with my old school friends tonight. Just got back. It was pretty fun playing pool and talking about all the stuff from back in the day. The people we once knew and used to hang out and play with.

It has been 20 years since I've seen them and it seems like yesterday that it all happened. Sometimes I really wish I could travel back in time.

I'm not going to do my daily four today. I'm just in an overall good mood and want to keep that rolling along.

On a side note, my blog has shown nearly 100 views today alone. Since I started blogging daily I was getting around 20 to 30 a day, but 100? That's kind of a lot relatively speaking. So either people out there are reading, or someone is going through all my past blogs and reading stuff I posted long ago. I wonder what they are looking for and what they will find. All in all, I've had 10001 blog views since it's been active. Not bad I guess. Someone out there is interested and not just the people on my friends list.

As I sit here waiting for my plane, I think about what happened over just a few hours.

The girl. The beloved girl that captured my heart is truly gone now. But I still don't want to give up. If not for her, then at least for someone else out there.

I was planning on proposing to her on New Years. That never panned out the way I had hoped and then all of this stuff happened. But I still wanted to show her that I really wanted to spend my life with her.

I was planning on having her pick me up from the airport on thursday and ask her there in front of all the crowds. In my mind it would have been a romantic sight to see.

Unfortunately for me and my stupid choices, I decided to tell the other guy she has been seeing in this short amount of time. I wanted to let him know that there's a guy out there that really loves this woman and wants to spend the rest of his life with her, so look out. I sent the message to him having never talked with him before and started thinking. What if he tells her and spoils it for me? I wanted it to be man to man and have everything work out on it's own.

So, I called her up only a few hours ago and told her everything. She said I only made things worse and never wants to hear from me again.

So I changed my flight and am heading back home in a few more hours. Who wants to hang out when I get back? And more importantly who wants to help me start my new life? And does anyone want to buy a never been used engagement ring? Heck, anyone want to try it on for size? =)

P.S. I wrote the title to this blog years ago. Love Alacrity. Although I know what the two words mean separately, I never really understood what they meant together. All of a sudden it makes sense to me.

It was kind of an interesting thing to see occur today. When we left work
for the day, the streets were being blocked off, there were about 5 or 6
helicopters in the air and two cops in full riot gear on every corner for
about a 5 block radius. There were also constant patrols of cop cars and
cops on dirt bikes constantly going up and down the streets.

I hadn't heard much of anything about Oscar Grant before coming up here the
beginning of last week and all of a sudden I am in the middle of it.

I added some pictures to my photo set here on MySpace. They were hastily taken with my cell phone, so don't expect anything fabulous.

I don't want to be here. I'm bored, the work kind of sucks and it's just been a hard beginning of the year for me overall.

There were riots near where we were working yesterday. It was apparently only a few blocks away from the downtown post office where we work, but we were already back at the hotel when they broke out. Here's a link to some video footage on youtube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HeDjJf02fac

I don't know if it's being away from home or what, but I just don't feel too good about things so far this year. I was hoping on making a bunch of changes in myself this year, and was starting those changes at the end of the year, but it just doesn't seem to be working out the way I'd hoped.

Those of you that know me would probably never expect me to ask for anything. But right now, I need to. Just a hey, hows it going, what are you up to, something. Maybe when I get back home we can all get together and hang out. That's something I know I really need right now. I miss you all. My family and friends.