Got a call from an old buddy, he's about to start training in MMA (mixed martial arts aka UFC style fighting).

He gave me a ring cause I used to train with some old buddies, dam those were great workouts.

This is my second buddy to ask me to step back on a mat, gotta say i'm a bit interested - sitting behind a computer 24/7 plays havoc on your cardio. Plus it was always a great way to get some aggression out, gawd knows i've got some pent up after the last couple of gals i've dated - lmaos

Who knows maybe hitting something again, might be just what the doctor ordered - woot :)

The darkness falls upon the trees at night.
My voices say it’s time to feed my own sight.

Further from sane I cannot move again.
Engulfed in the dread it’s breaking up my life.

Going forward. I learn from my mistakes.
Division of my own self, leaves me wondering what I’ve become.

When I’m alone to thnk of my torture.
I never have to pretend I love you.

I have no conscience: Or Compassion.
I’d lie to replace what I imagine.

You don’t have to watch me fall.
Just one more time dear, You know I have to.

I never wanted to hurt you.
Division of my own self leaves me wondering what I’ve become.

When i’m alone to think of my torture.
I never have to pretend I love you.

I have no conscience: Or Compassion
I’d lie to replace what I imagine.

You don’t have to watch me fall.

Whatever’s pulling keeps on pulling me much closer to my heaven.
When I am with you i can feel my goodness it’s like im in heaven.

The shock of waking up in fear that death in near will never happen.
I’m coming down; I’m coming down for you.

When I’m alone to think of my torture.
I never have to pretend i love you.

I have no conscience: Or Compassion.
I’d lie to replace what I imagine.

When I am with you,
My game is over.
I am comatose with my flase lover.

Nothing can break me, I have no conscience.
Nothin will stop me,
until i stop this.

I think this song lyrics pretty much sums me up in a nutshell - what do you think :)

I was sitting down last weekend with a friend at a bar reflecting on the past few years of my life. It's weird to say that i've never been more happy and more upset with how things have turned out in my life...

I remember fondly the days of highschool & college, having roomates, losing Michelle (i truly believe the one I let get away), and close friends "my boys" whom were around literally every day if not every hour due to work. I just find it funny how when you grow up you find silly things like going out and getting drunk or partying no longer matter to you as much anymore, and how quickly we all fall apart and no longer do simple things as hang or joke around anymore because we are starting our lives.

I know for a fact  that I regret never finishing college which led me to an intense focus on learning, practicing, and teaching myself coding, programming, anything with computers that i could get my hands on. Unfortunately, because i was so obsessed with "learning" i ended up neglecting my friends, in which i took for granted that i'd see them "next weekend" or later.

This is without a doubt my biggest regret of neglecting those closest to me, but I hope they someday understand that I had to finally start this road and feel as if i had accomlished something in my life. I used to always be content in skating by in life, but now that i'm in my 30's I want so much more than just the stigma of the "party guy".

I've had many ups and downs... With old friends now gone, and new names & faces introduced to fill the void - but nonetheless i still sometimes remember those days of hanging with my boys and sharing not only a beer but great laughs thru both thick and thin.

All those whom have popped up in my life i truly cherish and thank each and every one of you, you've each had an impact in my life - some good, some bad. But nonetheless an impact.

I wish upon all of you, that your dreams and goals come true - but don't wait for them to come to you - claw, fight tooth and nail to get what it is you truly want!

aug :)

Just for fun, take time to answer these question in a a reply - make it serious or funny as hell as ya want :)

1.) What's the best thing to ever happen to you?

2.) What's the worse mistake you've ever done?

3.) What's the biggest regret you have?

4.) Who is the one person you truely can't stand - or never want to see again?

5.) Would you get mad if i motor boat ya, you sexy ass vixen ya??? LMAOS

Here are my answers....

1.) Breaking outta my shell and just hanging out with folks...
2.) Catching meself with my zipper - lordy lord give me the strength
3.) Hell no, I've got no regrets - but, how bout ya let me be one of yours ;)
4.) I'm too shallow to hold a grudge, oooorrrr is it that i dig awkward situations - LOL
5.) I'll get ya my pretty, and your two friends ya have there too - woot woot :)

FUk yeah the NY Giants Win!!!! While it's not my team, i'm still happy as hell that the NE fell short....

WOOT WOOT.

This is a shout out to everybody i partied with this Thanksgiving weekend, my hangover is finally wearing off :)

Dam it was hella fun weekend!!! woot woot

I haven't drank like that since i was a young college buck.

For my boy's that we chugged a beer,
My friends I lauged with,
The gals whose boobs i spidered, LmAOS
The shots that were slammed with many,
And the good company I met as we raised some hell

Cheers, to you all...

Huggs & Kisses,  LOL

aug :)

In case you missed it - I'll be putting a video screen capture post up of it later.

But a buddy of mine Paul was on Miami Ink getting a logo I designed for him tattooed on his thigh.

Unfortunately, they almost fukked it up by tattooing it backyards but was caught early and corrected

Woot Woot!!!!

Aug 

I've been hitting up some new bars and Kristen and Julie intro'd me to the Whiskey River.

Anybody down for some heavy arm curls of the 12 oz. kind?