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Kai-Sheng aka Kai aka Michael aka Tomonori



Last Updated: 6/2/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 33
Sign: Cancer

City: Southfield
State: MICHIGAN
Country: US
Signup Date: 1/21/2005

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Sunday, September 09, 2007 
The Murmurs is a Brighton, UK-based trio that is yet to be discovered (i.e. signed) by any major record label. The lack of a deal, however, in no way diminishes the fullness and the polishedness of the production (backed by a large group of classical musicians) of the eight tracks they have thus far put out, many of which are available for download on iTune. Two tracks are currently available for streaming on http://www.myspace.com/themummers. One that stands out is "Wonderland," with a long, whimsical Cirque du Soleil-inspired intro leading to a sometimes childlike, sometimes ferocious female vocal that will for sure grasp your attention. The lead singer, who looks somewhat like Norah Jones, sounds across between the early days of Saint Etienne and the more accessible Bjork.
Saturday, August 11, 2007 
I understand that Mika wrote this song as a mocking satire of musicians who try to reinvent themselves to be popular, but in some ways, it also reflects my feeling about my last, short-lived relationship.
 

[The last time we talked, Mr. Smith, you reduced me to tears. I promise you it wont happen again.]

I want to talk to you
Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like? 
I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me
without making me try?

I tried to be like Grace Kelly (Mmm)
But all her looks were too sad (Uhhh)
So I tried a little Freddy (Mmm)
I've gone identity-mad!!

I could be brown
I could be blue 
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door?
 
[Getting angry doesn't solve anything.]
 
How can I help it?
How can I help it?
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on my brink
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older?
Just to be put on the shelf?

Say what you want to satisfy yourself, hey!
But you only want, what everybody else says you should want, you want.

Oooooahh...Humphrey, we're leaving!
kachinga!
Friday, June 29, 2007 

Top Ten

Pan's Labyrinth
Notes on a Scandal
The Queen
The Devil Wears Prada
Borat
Volver
Miss Little Sunshine
United 93
Little Children
Stranger Than Fiction


Most Overrated Movie of the Year

The Departed (Please do yourself a favor by watching the HK original Infernal Affairs, instead.)

Saturday, June 02, 2007 

is not hate, it's indifference.

I guess I've learned it the hard way.

Monday, April 23, 2007 
I picked up my new car this afternoon...yay! The exterior color is called Carbon Bronze Pearl, which is basically light charcoal with metallic finish. The interior is taupe leather seating. It even has a built-in navigation system with voice activation! I can't wait to go on a road trip in it!
Sunday, April 15, 2007 
Where do you start
How do you separate the present from the past
How do you deal with all the thing you thought would last
That didn't last
With bits of memories scattered here and there
I look around and don't know where to start

Which books are yours
Which tapes & dreams belong to you & which are mine
Our lives are tangled like the branches of a vine
That intertwine
So many habits that we'll have to break
And yesterdays we'll have to take apart

One day there'll be a song or something in the air again
To catch me by surprise & you'll be there again
a moment in
what might have been

Where do you start
Do you allow yourself a little time to cry
Or do you close your eyes & kiss it all goodbye
I guess you try
And though I don't know where & don't know when
I'll find myself in love again
I promise there will always be
A little place no one will see
A tiny part within my heart
That stays in love
With you
Friday, April 13, 2007 
Some of you already knew I was hospitalized the past few days and had been really ill prior to that. As many of you have expressed your concern about my current status, for which I am greatly grateful, I thought I'd take this opportunity to offer you a brief explanation.

I started to have fever a week before Wednesday. I went to work as usual, hoping it would go away with a few Advils. The next day I actually felt much better. Thinking it was just a cold, I decided to go ahead and fly to Vegas for my sister's bachelorette party over the Easter weekend, instead of seeking medical help. I was alright until Saturday evening, when all of a sudden I had a high fever and extreme pain in my throat and on my right jaw and ear, and found it difficult to breathe. I also felt my throat and face were swollen. I could hardly open my mouth, let alone talk and eat. Even drinking was next to impossible due to the pain in my throat. Basically, I felt like I had a combination of strep throat and tonsillitis.

Flying back to Detroit Monday morning, I immediately went to my family physician, who thought I had strep throat and gave me a shot of antibiotics and prescribed oral antibiotics. He did warn that I might have an abscess, and that if I didn't feel better in two days, I should go to the ER. In hindsight, I wished he had ordered me to the ER right then. By Wednesday afternoon, my condition was getting even worse, and my fever had returned. I asked a friend to take me to the ER at Beaumont.

It turned out I had a "peritonsilar abscess." In layman's terms, a blister the size of a golf ball full of muddy-color pus had formed next to my right tonsil and reduced my airway to less than one-third. The hospital contacted two ears, nose and throat surgeons to perform the drainage. I was told I was pretty lucky. Had I come in a day later, my airway would have been reduced to one-fifth, and a tracheotomy would be necessary. Frankly, a tracheotomy gone awry would mean the end of my career! Nonetheless, even after a morphine injection and numerous topical anesthesia, watching surgical knives and needles going into your mouth was a really horrifying experience. Moreover, it hurt so badly for a split second, I thought I could have passed out. Miraculously, almost immediately after the surgeons sucked out two four-inch syringes of pus (I am not kidding), I could speak! The first few words I uttered were "Wow, this is unbelievable (or something like that)!" 15 minutes later, I was able to drink fluid and eat JELL-O. I have to admit I had four cups of JELL-O right away.

Right now, I can speak, but not up and about, and I still tire easily. However, I do expect to return to work starting Monday and will have a crazy work schedule ahead after taking seven work days off.

I have to ruturn to the hospital in a week because the doctors strongly recommend a tonsillectomy. I am sure this whole episode will cost me at least $5,000 dollars. :-( However, if it means no more strep throat, tonsillitis or peritonsilar abscess in the future, it would be money better spent than on fixing my teeth or nose, or microdermabrasion.

Since this was also my very first time to spend the night in the ER, while it was not exactly a life-and-death situation, it did force me to think about the real priorities in life as I was recuperating on the hospital bed. Hopefully I will change for the better. For now, though, I am not going to bore you with my internal philosophical rumination.
Friday, April 13, 2007 
Goodbye, No use leading with our chins,
This is where our story ends,
Never lovers, ever friends.

Goodbye, Let our hearts call it a day,
But before you walk away,
I sincerely want to say:

I wish you bluebirds in the Spring,
To give your heart a song to sing;
And then a kiss, but more than this I wish you love.

And in July, a lemonade,
To cool you in some leafy glade;
I wish you health and more than wealth, I wish you love.

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.

I wish you shelter from the storm,
A cozy fire to keep you warm;
But most of all, when snowflakes fall,
I wish you love.
Saturday, March 17, 2007 
I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

And suppose I never, ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never, ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never, ever saw you
Suppose you never, ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Saturday, January 27, 2007 

The Heart of the Matter


I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old, true friend of ours was talkin on the phone
She said you'd found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
Theres a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age?
The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
Theyre the very things we kill I guess
Pride and competition
Cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us
You know it doesn't keep me warm

I'm trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
And the more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I'd figured out
I have to learn again
I've been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

There are people in your life whove come and gone
They let you down you know they hurt your pride
You better put it all behind you baby; life goes on
You keep carryin that anger; it'll eat you up inside, baby
I've been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thought seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me

I've been tryin to get down
To the heart of the matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So Im thinkin about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me
Forgiveness
Forgiveness - baby
Forgiveness
Forgiveness
Forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, you don't love me anymore