Wassup my nigga!

Did you know that this was a word used as a ways to undermind us a people or person? It's a racial slur. The word is ugly. Why the hell do i use it?

I rarely use it as a greeting. When i think about the times that i do use the word it's usually when im describing something that someone did that was kind of dumb example: "Them niggas started shooting and shit" or "That nigga owes me some money" or maybe "imma beat that niggas ass".See the connection?  I could find sometype of justification or "right"   in the way that i used a word that is so wrong. When used in that way.  

but on the flip side

If im out and about and the streets are poppin on a sunny day I might say "the niggas are out today!" is this a bad thing? I've never been one of those guys who get all pissed off about the niggas and bitches thing in rap songs because i get it. Im asking myself the question because today someone came up to me and said "wassup nigga" and i felt a little weird. disrespected even. by the way the dude was black and a good friend of mines that i haven't seen in a long ass time. Instead of going on a rant that would make the guy think that i have gone crazy since the last time he last saw me i responded with the new local slang like "ain't shit bro wassup wit you?' BUT HE KEPT SAYING NIGGA! through the whole conversation. He sounded so ignorant. Nigga this. Nigga that. to make it so bad we ended up disscussing the upcoming elections. wow right?

I really don't have a closing remark to bring this blog to an end or anything. I don't have a solution.  By allmeans though i am certainly not a nigga. the definition of the word im not. A fellow black man yes, a nigga no. I guess i will just wait for another word to come along and take it's place. Then maybe nigga will be used only to describe situations like i mentioned above. i know the word isn't going anywhere. Maybe we can address each other as bookie or something? At least then i would blush.

 Consumer culture generates the fantasy but buffoons believe the cliché.





I grew up in a day and age with video games and talk shows. Toy soldiers that actually talked, along with ,cartoons that all had the same sound effects. I've grown up with music that has went from metal to grunge, back to africa and political booty shake to gangsta rap, no pop music to too much fizz. Madonna and Janet to Britney and Beyonce. I've bought music on records, tapes, compact disks and mp3. Cable has gone from 17 channels to 700. Fashion trends have come back twice. Icons have died. Dialog has changed. Life has countinued to move forward, as it is supposed to. As with all things social, all of these events places and eras have influenced the way i think, walk and talk. Im still finding myself, all while convincing my spirit that I indeed know exactly who i am in the present moment. Who are you and are you apart of The Fake?



Too much TV is a phrase that many of my peers have heard over the years. Our generation is said to be the "lost" generation or "silent" due to our lack of protesting and other things. We text each other and speak in strange new dialog all while actively maintaining the new American persona, upbeat actions with short paraphrasing sentences having exclamation points at the end. We are indeed spoiled but we are far from stupid.



I have made many slightly cynical postings about different topics, mainly complaining about subtle discrepancies in my social life along with things that i see in the media. At one point i was on a hell bent crusade to find some type of peace among the new world of mtv and poetry slams. I was embarrassed by the actions of my peers or lack there of. After the "don't taze me bro" incident i was ashamed that i could see laughter in the background. I have had all sorts of things to say to my african american brothers. I hated the way Caucasian young women spoke on reality t.v. I wanted to shoot my television during my first witnessing of Flavor of love on VH1. I couldn't stand the burbs (well i still don't really like them) and hated Cleveland. I couldn't understand why the hell my generation seemed so......bimboish and fool. Although i still have some of those feelings as i am writing this blog, the love for my country has changed some of my feelings. All the aforementioned things that i talked about are PURELY American and in my quest to find myself I can say that i am proud of every eccentric piece of our culture. I guess i just bought into the madness of it all a little too much.



As much as i call myself down to earth and all of those things, i was falling into the cliché of all things pop culture. A good friend of mine gave me some insight to that social movement of the past called flower power. He said that "hippies were just a bunch of college kids with disposable income trying to find themselves during a time of war". so true. As much as i want to be as far from the norm as possible, there is always some type of media influencing me. I can never be mad at our new version of the hippie which comes in the form of the "urban hipster". I can't rebuke the consumerist angst that they and we all share. Yes i may have many a riot of ideas going on in my head but as I purchase my new pair of Greedy Genius sneakers, I realize that I must look good as I continue my quest to enlighten humanity!



I understand the almighty American dollar and what it means to me and the rest of my country. Honestly, i feel like we might be the first generation to FULLY understand that whole thing of social class. For example welfare is being used as a cushion for lazy minorities. Think about it, get a check every month, a food allowance and not do anything on the back of tax payers and not care about what anyone has to say about it. How American is that? Go to college and take out loans to receive a refund check in the mail? Brilliant! Credit card debt. Awesome! All these things are what are right and wrong with our country. The great thing about all of this is the fact that we have a choice in the matter when other countries don't have one at all. Sure our political system is like a high school student council election, but it's entertaining. We Americans love to be entertained. I think those that fall into the cliché caused by our culture suffer a spiritual death of sorts, remain repetitive and become null. Look at Al Sharpton.

Most of the reason why certain people don't understand what's going on with the countries youth right now rather they are foreign, old or lame is due to a conformity of what's old, a fear of all things new or they are just lame and don't matter anyway. When i stated that on my quest to become a better human being i would start looking at myself as more of an American, It opened the door to many other insights that i didn't think of before. Consumer culture may indeed generate the fantasy, but buffoons definitely believe the cliché and if i call myself an educated and insightful person, I cannot think on one side and not have faith in my countries dreams. Its values may seem wrong to some that don't get it, but it's my country and it's all I got so...

GOD BLESS US ALL!
happy earth day.



Love you country. Take care of your planet. Shop local. Be active.

As a young black man in this country I often ask myself what it really means for me to be a black American.  I’m not talking about the black aesthetic, I’ve pretty much gotten that under control along with the whole urban vernacular thing. What im speaking of is me myself as an American, what role am i supposed to play in the black community? ..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

There was a time when i used to feel like i had to prove my blackness if you will by making the occasional reference to any and all things black in my daily conversations with whites. I realized a long time ago that by doing that i can come across as confused and ignorant.  I also shared some of the same resentments that elders from my mother’s generation had towards whites for various reasons. It’s more of a learned behavior that i had to etch out of my mind. Over the past couple years i have considered myself more of an American and find myself facing the same questions and problems that most young Americans if not all have. You know, what is the meaning of life, how am i going to pay for school, what the hell is this degree for blah blah you get the picture. With that thinking I kinda felt a little uncle tomish , almost like i was selling my soul for not selling myself short and choosing mental enlightenment. I have made countless references to the term keeping it real  over a couple bloggings and convos, what it really means to us and all the  while hypocritically falling subject to my own scrutiny, as if i was on trial for "not keeping it all the way real" with myself. Are you following me?

I know all this can sound just a teeny weenie bit neurotic, but seriously. Now im not saying that everything that black culture has to offer is limited to stabbings, shootings and all that. What im saying is that now there is a whole new generation of young black men and women that you BARELY hear about, even amongst our own, that are completely post civil rights era and are following the path of academia, starting businesses, making an impact in their family bloodlines and starting or continuing first, second or third generation wealth and lineage. All while listening to rap, wearing hoodies and smoking weed. The problem is  a lot of our youth don’t know that this look is indeed OKAY.

I grew up in the public school system. A system that was pretty damn good to me. I’ve seen many of my peers maintaining in a normal light and I’ve seen many of them graduate from college and pursue their dreams.  I’ve also seen the effects of suburban want to be counterparts and how chasing the American dream for them can become much distorted, null and causes an identity crisis. I’ve seen families that have moved out of the perceived hood and actually made it maintaining a black identity. I’ve seen people that don’t.  I’ve seen people that have stayed and become statistics. It goes in a million different directions as most issues do. What bothers me is not necessarily the concept of maintaining blackness or keeping it real, it’s that there is not median. You either are or you aren’t. Although that phenom is VERY American, we as a people still suffer. About 90 percent of us still have ties to the hood no matter how much money you make or how successful you get. That’s just the way that history has panned things out for us. Our music, art, culture is what keeps us together, but among other Americans you have those that perceive us each individually as either a "good" or "bad" negro. A ghetto or non ghetto black man, A sassy or non sassy black woman. In all actuality, we are all the same; the stigma is our own fault. But only we know that. Well....some of us try to forget, including myself at one point in time.

I feel that as a young black man i should be making strides to fill this gap. When i do decided to drop my album and start my clothing line (hypothetically speaking because i can’t sing a lick) i shouldn’t high tail it to the mountains to hob nob with the shirts. I have an obligation to give BACK in some kind of way. Rather it’s opening a shop on the ..:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />livingston corridor or buy up a row of apartments and fix them up to rent back to my community. I have an obligation.

I have an obligation to make myself available to my people so that young black men can see another black role model in a different role of business other than shooting a ball or grabbing a mic. Not that anything thing is wrong with grabbing a mic, I did start this scenario of myself dropping an album.

I have an obligation to my family by bringing them into my life and my business ventures. We are notorious for sticking together through the thick and thin in the hard times, but some of us forget others in the dust when it comes to success.

If i have a cousin who sells dope, i have an obligation to clean his money up before he becomes a statistic.

I have an obligation to raise my kids in and provide my spouse with the love that he/she deserves and become a beautiful black family. Ain’t nothing like a black family.

Most black men feel this way. Unlike how we are portrayed, we are stand up guys who think that we can pick up the earth and toss it where ever we choose. There are glass ceilings. ALOT OF THEM. If we feel like we can toss the earth then shattering glass isn’t that hard is it?

As black history month closes out, i will pledge to myself to not only maintain to carry myself on in life as a strong black man but as  a strong black American as well. I soooo could have devoted this blog to "why white people don’t want us to do this" and "why white people don’t want us to do that". The one thing that i have learned about the other good AMERICANS that aren’t us is that, a lot of them really and truly are not thinking of ways that they can put a black person down. There are many who feel the same way we do! Now there are some who don’t feel this way. Lots. But who cares about them?  There are many stereotypical things that come along with where we all are in this day and age, but we need to realize that those things are GOING to happen when up until now, there really has not been that many black folks venturing out and chasing the American dream. Not that im making excuses for racism, but hell, you can’t complain about anything if you’ve never been north of the hood or east of your comfort zone. Better yourself and then complain. That’s were the new revolution lies. We are now Americans. Confront it and change the status quo.  

As i rant let me remind you that i haven’t forgotten where i came from. (See there’s that Uncle Tom feeling again i was talking about earlier) Honestly though, who the hell wants to be poor? TOO MANY OF US ARE! Like WAAY too many of us. I mean WAAAAAAAAAAAAY too many. As Americans it is our right to the almighty dollar. Yeah a lot of us are hood rich. But come on, there aren’t that many crack heads around anymore and everybody can’t be a king pin in the dope game. There’s only so many who actually use dope so get a day job. Pull your pants up! How gay is it that your ass is hanging out? Act like men! Stand up straight! Don’t apologize for your rims, load music and ghetto swag, but pay for at least some of that shit with your paycheck and not dope money.  Put your money where your mouth is and do something about it.

That was to all the slackers. To everyone else who is doing their thing in school, at a call center, in social services, downtown, djing, mc’s, poets, breakers, clothing designers, promotions, singers, real estate agents and moguls keep your shit together and remember to give back

. Pastors and saved Christians remember that the bible was given to us as slaves to tame us and stop making it your sweat blood and glory, all that you have to show for yourself. "I’m saved". BOO! How about you need to give back too! You’re not exempt.

Gay brothers, it’s a SERIOUS movement going on in our sector. We got it so......give back! Stop believing this DL hype and realize that its just another term for the closet. Don’t apologies to anyone for your hip hop gay swag. Get off of the ball scene and go to school. The check game has dried up so stop stunting. It’s lazy and your as bad as the lame ass dope boy that you read BUT interested in because you heard he’s on the DL. What kind of of circle is that? It’s those types of ties that we need to sever. Forget the Jesus freaks in your family and ACCEPT YOURSELVES!  Too many of us are depressed just for being us.

Single black women keep your head up but also smile sometimes. Alot of you are mad for very VERY good reasons, but it’s going to be alright what’s done is done. GIVE BACK!

and stop all this dog fighting

(sorry for the informality all of a sudden i got a little amped. a lot of this is very personal to me and i really want change)

We are all in the same boat and we need to seriously give back and uplift ourselves. Not saying that everybody’s going to make it, but more need to have some kind of hope.  

So I guess I answered my own question. There is no distinct formula on how to be a black man. It’s mostly common sense. We are Americans now and need to govern ourselves as such. I challenge every black man that reads this blog to stop your own personal self gain for a second and think about some kind of way that you can give back to your people. Volunteering isn’t soft. It’s actually kind of sexy. Cut a neighbors grass or something. It’s what we men do. Call an old relative. Ask an elder about the old days and compare and contrast. Negro you got it MADE! So make sure your kids and your kid’s kids will have it even better. Take your mom out. Spend time with your son or daughter despite your babies mother.  Hell get married! Buy a house. Read a book. You might not be slacking, and you might be doing everything that i mentioned above. There is still more to be done and never forget that.

happy black history month.

Soooo if you have been keeping up with the elections and all this and that im sure i don't have to inform you that Hilary has cried, baraks edgeup has not went away, Romney is still old, Gulianni, is fledgling and the rest of them mofos are still yapping.  For this to be such an important election and for it to matter so much for some odd reason i feel as tho i am about to vote for student council president in  high school. You should too!

This election is one of the most important elections we will have in a while. If you haven't noticed, we are in some age of presidential dynasties it seems. We have had two Bushes in office and can possibly have another Cinton. There is also a black man running. There's not a doubt in my mind that certain things will change regardless of who the hell wins as long as the winner is of the democratic persuasion. Im excited for this change to come.  Im happy that so many otherwise non voting americans feel the need to vote this year. But I myself  am so  undecided. Most of us are undecided as well. Don't let this discourage you tho. It's fine.  I wonder how many people actually vote for someone  according to something other than the clique they run with(republican/democrate) or any other shallow reason and actualy care about what they have to say. Not that many im thinking.  Is it even possible in this country? Do i even care? It's just like being in high school or somthing, and i can go on a rampage about how horrible the american system is or how im not voting because it doesn't matter anyway but why for? Im American! And proud to be one damn it! So why not partake in the fun! Lemme go get you a  beer....

I will have to say as an american citizen we do things a certain way that most of the world doesn't get and i say fuck them!  I like the way that we govern our crooked free country.Where else can you have men and women running for the highest public office in the land based on dollars,cents, public reading sessions and pep rallies.  It's so fun and entertaining! 

I want to vote for the poplular kid (Hilary) because her last name  is clinton and i liked the last Clinton.

 I want to vote for the cool kid (Obama) because he's black.

 I wouldn't mind voting for the band geek (Edwards) because i honestly feel like he's passionate about the position.

 I have seen their posters, read their decrees in the newspaper, watched their pep rallies and seen people adorning their buttons. Does it mean anything when in the end the most popular kid always wins?

Nobody wants a band geek to win just like you don't want some ugly girl to be homecoming queen. Not to mention nobody actualy listens to what this geek has to say because it makes entirely TOO MUCH sence.  Most people only care about what the candidate is wearing, and from my knowledge band kids couldn't dress that well.

The cool kid is indeed cool. Right talk Right swagger.  Only for some people its a little too much tthat the cool kid is black. Who wants to have a black kid in charge. I don't even know if i want too.  It kinda depends on how many black kids are in your school and unless the school is public, there usualy arean't that many. It doesn't matter what he says in the end, we are all shallow in this USA and in the end...he's affirmative action canidate (bussing) and doesn't really know the inner workings of the social aspect of the school because he indeed got bussed from another side of town (hawaii).

The popular kid is just that popular. Everyone likes them and if they don't, they want to be just as popular as she so to feel as popular, they vote for the popular kid. Plus they are almost always, wearing the right clothes. To follow the popular kid is like a religion to some and usualy when this person is a female, the dynamic is increased by 50 percent. It's almost like this chick is glowing. Even when she cries for no reason people watch and say "awww she's so human, that's why i want to be her". Her fan base never dies. She's popular. ESPECIALY if her big brother was all over the papers for leading the school to the state championships a couple years prior. Now the kids who weren't around to even attend the school (vote) now suddenly remember how wonderful this indeed popular family was. How can they go wrong voting for the popular kid anyway?

In this day and age of real world, big brother on t.v. and watching you walk across the street, emo music and hip hop, vegans and poetry slams, cosmos and active live cultured yogurt i wonder is anyone actualy listening to the candidates and plan on voting responsibly. Or is it even possible? American politics is a wonderful thing.  I swear when they say high school never ends i thought they were playing. You can say what you want, and try to sound important or anartic but when it all comes down to it, we all have embeded school spirit so OF COURSE your going to vote. It's what you do in high school right? All the cool kids are doing it! And if you aren't, Your going to sit around in the back hall ways and become your own popular group, still adding to the overall population of the building. Believe it or not you are influenced so you might as well vote anyway. How else would you have known to go to the back hall way anyway? The american machine is a powerful thing . We are all parts rather you like it or not. So don't feel bad if you don't know who to vote for, it's cool, just vote for either the coolest, cutest or most popular one. That's basicaly what we are all doing anyways right?   baby......I feel like im in 10th grade all over again.

only then i was student council president.

GO  BUCKS!

Thanksgiving is here again and i figure i should take the time out and give thanks to the people places and things that have inspired me to be the wonderful person i have been all year.

Thank you meechie for continuing to be a lunatic with me and listening to my banter on politics, racial tension and radical theories on everything from the meaning of life to the birth of our nation. It's bitches like us that make the most out of life so walk it out doll! (i know yall dont get it but trust me he does)

Thank you hasani for being there. i DO love your black ass. As much as i don't wanna, i do. you bastard! You are my buddy. .

Thank you brian for letting me crash at your crib. It is greatly apreciated you have no idea. Brothers for life, and all that robin hood type sounding shit that you supposed to say to your boy lol.

Thank you keith for following your dreams and not letting any bitch get in the way even if that bitch is your own knee cap. werk!

Thank you austin,justin and tom for just being fuckin awesome! shit!

Thank you becky marino for haunting my daydreams with  the spontaneous "bloops" that you used to do at work. You helped me with alot of shit at a time when i was GOING THROUGH IT silently. don't think i ever told you thank you so.......THANX! lol.

Thank you columbus ohio for teaching me how to miss california in my dreams.

Thank you comfest

Thank you Lauren Conrad for letting me know that you can have all the money in the world and still be more pitiful than most poor and homeless folks.

Thank you sarah for the booze and taco. You are my dawg for life and hey, i think your birthday is coming up???

Thank you RavensBlood and LeftOf Center for keeping those thought prevoking blogs a coming. You guys kept me thinking at a time when i thought my mind was shrinking.

Thank you American Broadcasting Network for giving me shows like Grey's, Brothers and Sisters and Big Shots.

Thank you God for.....being God.

 Thank you Buckeyes for beating that late ass Michigan when i didn't think you were. There is hope out there for all mankind after all.

Thank you DJEFEEZY for writing blogs from a black perspective that i had no idea anyone on this earth had other than myself.

Thank you Rachel Ray for making me smile at 2 in the morning and want to take a trip to North Carolina to have brunch.

Thank you Barack Obama for looking so pimpin everytime you sit down in a chair. (pay attention....it's great)

Thank you Jill Scott for a much needed SOUL CD. Grown folks music foreal! I needed that in my life on some real shit doe.....

Sorry i do tend to get a little gushy from time to time. For all my blogging friends, i will post another blog about some type of crazy banter in about an hour.

Have a happy turkey day errybody!

Now that i've vented....

Since i've moved to the south side of town i have to catch a different bus that takes me through a workins class neighborhood by the name of Merion Village. I have no idea if this area was always named this, and from what it seems there has been some effort to clean up the area. It's not a bad area at all, but  im not from the burbs myself. Seeing normal people doin normal things minding there own damn normal buisness does make me shun on anyone,  or cluch my pearls. But for some it's utterly disgusting. This neighborhood made me smile on the contrary. It made me think about all the areas in the country that are like this one that are caught up in the whole "gentrification" issue. Here's my thoughts....

Personaly, being from the hood myself certain areas are a joy to see. I never grew wishing that i lived in the suburbs or went to catholic school and shit like that. I grew up in a lower to working to middle class black neighborhood. The reason why i described it like that is because all of those classes of black were indeed smashed into the area. For us, (well some of us) we want to live around our own. We all have ties to the hood so.....why leave it? Suburbanites look crazy as hell to people like us with there soccer moms and 1 and a half baths. Wtf? we say.  Out in westerville? yeah right.

Alot of folks downtown don't feel that way.

Im all for gentrification as long as it's done in benifit of the neighborhood that your gentrifiying.   For example,  You can move the mayor into the hood, but does it actualy help anyone IN  the immediate area.  Usualy gentrification is somthing that just happens on it's own, but now a days you have local government pushing for this type of stuff. Of course in a perfect world once the mayor moved in the hood, everyone in the area would benifit but.  that will never be. I don't expect alot of these things to happen, but when i read things about the issue of gentrification going on in my old neighborhood and see that there isn't any progress im not surprised.

you can't turn every so called blighted area in columbus ohio into a short north. Especialy if the residents aren't goin anywhere.

my point,

any city needs these areas. There needs to be a place where there are normal people doing normal things on there normal porches with their normal social problems. You are never going to have a city where everyone owns there house. It's not possible. You will never have a city were every child is equaly educated. It's not american. You will never have a city where there is no crime. Again, its not american. Gentrification alone can be looked at as a crime. If i can ride through a working class area and see beauty in the houses, people and stray dogs in the area, and not look at it a just "crime" or "ghetto" (mind you this area im talking about is mostly white) why can't anyone else? Most working class folk just want a steady paycheck to put food on the table. Give these people a say so in whats going on in their neighborhood and stop using eminent domain to throw up condos that don't sell.  Start programs for these people to purchase homes and make them ACCESSIBLE.  There's always going to be a working class. Lets treat them well. They make our country. You can't just piss on the working class and move them around like they are nothing. who else is goin to work in your office cafeteria? Who in fact is going to clean your office? how are they going to get there if they don't live on the bus line?

I get so mad when i hear people say things like "that area is ghetto" or "yeah i heard it's a bad area". One of my friends who lives in an area on the east side that's "half" cleaned up says that her co workers refuse to come to her apartment in fear of their car getting broken into. Mind you, this person lives among gay flags and grandmas. some people hear main street and go "aaauugh". it's not that serious.

give the working class a chance

CRON for president.

lol

are the fuckin devil and i rebuke them in the name of jesus!

Do you know that my job has taken about 15 dollars away from my pocket via vending machine?

Then yesterday i had this hanckering for some cheeze its or however you spell it and i open the bag and there was about 10 little ass chips in it.

i was pissed

so today im like "you what i haven't had some soda in forever so imma just go and get me some coke".........never got it.

not to mention last week my sub got stuck.

Boycott vending machines! They are not to be trusted! They have betrayed human kind by leading us to believe that all we have to do is stick our little money in and POOOF there's some food. They lie and STEAl! This is wrong and we do NOT have to take it any longer!

Take a stand....

PACK YOUR LUNCH!!!!

lol

Im having questions and concerns about what's goin on in my life as far a religion.

As most of you know my mother is a devout christian minister with hippie tendencies so conviction is everpresent in my day to day living. I know there is a god and i know he is powerful and almighty. I believe in the bible and blah blah blaze skip.  Nowadays im having a very big problem with the whole "your going to hell because your gay" thing. 

I've said it before during many of my conversations with friends, religion is somthing that evolves out of a social interaction and interpetation of what god is to a certain tribe or group of people. I cannot hate on some african praising god by pop lockin in the jungle just as i can't hate on a buddist meditating. If there is only one god  and everyone in each religion feels this way then you cannot possibly tell somebody that they are wrong just because they believe in somthing as simple as karma as opposed to believe in jesus.

Then on top of it all......im gay. So many a christian will argue me DOWN with bible this, bible that and tell me things like,  i did in fact choose and why im going to hell. The bible says it.   This in fact is the same bible that slave owners used as a testament  to why my people, black folks should be kept in slavery. The bible said that too.   Also there is the whole decendants of ham thing that follows people of my skin color around. We are damned from birth, dark, light, whoever if you have color in your blood then your cursed.  So it's almost like saying to me "gee you were fucked to begin with". On top of it all........my moms a minister, and black but depending on who youask she's dammned.  It all doesn't make sense.

None of us have the answers to these questions which is where religion comes from to begin with. You choose which one you like the most, or your born into it. The only person that has the answers is god.

I KNOW there is a god. i KNOW he is real. i KNOW there is a holy spirit. I have felt his presence. So what's wrong with me? I  don't know about you but I have a problem with somebody telling me that im damned for being alive. There is no way that my whole point of being here on this earth was to serve as mindless filler, im worth too much.  How can a mere MAN tell me that im going to hell for somthing as simple as how he read somthing in a fucking book? A FUCKING BOOK? not to discredit the bible and not to be blasphemous but A FUCKING BOOK???? A book that has more versions and meanings than a delusional dead mans diary.

You have to think about the seriousness of this stuff . 

1)i am gay so im just all together WRONG and need to be destroyed or repent and be.....straight.  And i tried it and trust me....it was a mess.

2)i am black so im just fucked. no question.....just fucked. might as well just slit my wrist and pay the situation cause it's over for me.

wtf? Not to mention this ain't cartoons we are talking about, this is me a human being. IM ALIVE AND THINIKING AND EATING AND DRINKIN AN SHIT. how can this be? maybe somebody needs to WRITE a new BOOK. shit.  

Maaaaaaann......they will not leave poor little Lindsey alone with her freckled self.  I happen to like the little bitch and her acting isn't that bad from the two movies that i've seen her in (Bobby and Mean Girls). I think she's a rather nice looking girl and i always can apreciate a chick who knows how to party. She has taken it a little over board but the media has WORN HER THIN!

Everyday they are just poking fun at her. Her mother and father are fucked with as well. Seriously, if you look at her parents and pay attention they are nothing that you haven't seen before. they look like they used to party in the past as well. There family is that one family at the end of the cul-de-sac that everyone knew about  the dad  cheating and the mom being  stressed. They always looked anxious and dishoveled at soccer games, and their offspring looked the same i.e. Lindsey. The other parents in the neighborhood always worried about the couples kids and once in high school Lindsey would have been the "bitch" who "made out" with all the guys. If she was in public schools....pregnant or one of them fighting ass girls who got on your nerves.

 I did say that i liked her didn't i? lol i know it doesn't sound like it but i always root for the talented,  demented underdog. I guess i look at myself in such a way sometimes. (correct me if im wrong).

It just kills me how our "pop culture" thing that's going on right now has really focused on her real hard for a good grip now. Somebody should tell her that she is ruining it for herself. Fuck the films and getting roles and shit. The bitch just turned 21 and she's already goin to reahab! She's got another 7 or 8 years of booze and coke before she starts to have heart problems. I want her to slow down for that reason. Your 20's are fun! bless her heart she's gonna be an old cynic by the time she's 24!

 keep her in your prayers. i have a feeling she's going to kill her self by my next birthday.