Ok before I turn in for the night I need to get this off my chest.

What do you do, when a person you fear still haunts your dreams?
What do you do when you don't think of that person and then all of a sudden smells and taste remind you of them?

I don't know what to do anymore. I am sick of all the shit, I mean for goodness sakes. JUST LET ME BE!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER YOU!!!! I WANT TO FORGET YOU EXIST!!!!!! I WANT YOU OUT OF MY MIND!!!!

It's just a little bitty pissant country place
Ain't nothin' much to see
No drinking allowed, we get a nice quiet crowd, plain as it can be
It's just a piddly squatin' old time country place
Ain't nothing to hide at all
Just lots of good will and maybe one small thrill
But there's nothing dirty going on
Nothing dirty going on
We get simple farmers, local business men
Congress folks from Austin, young boys looking for sin
Now we used to get a lot of rough necks, when the oil boom was high
But pay day would get a little rowdy, thank God the field ran dry

Chorus:

It's just a little bitty pissant country place, nothing much to see
No drinking allowed, we get a nice quiet crowd, plain as it can be
It's just a piddly squatin no time country place, nothing to hide at all
Just lots of good will, and maybe one small thrill, but there's nothing dirty going on

I don't hire no married girl, they're not on the ball
They got homes and husbands, they're not stable at all
You know they don't understand a thing about a proper business day
Now what's the point in opening up the store if you give the goods away

Repeat Chorus

Keep your language clean girls, keep your bedrooms neat
And don't hang around the town cafe and say hi on the street
Mind you P's and Q's and manners, and you don't need no other tools
Cause every girl that lives here knows my special no-no rules

Yea every girl that lives here knows Miss Mona's no-no rules

Ruby, Ray start em!

Beds are not to be wallowed in
That's the kind of thing that big fat lazy hogs do

And it don't make money!
Betrix!

I won't tolerate no tying my telephone with other peoples business

Eloise honey!

And please don't show us no tattoos
No hearts and flowers on your thigh

It's downright tacky

Brands for the cattle and that ain't what we're selling at Miss Mona's

Do you catch my drift?
I pay the food and the rent and the utilities
You keep your mind on your work responsibilities
Don't let your mouth overload your capabilities
And we can get along
Dawn!

Any bad habits you come in with, get rid off right now

Tatty Joe!

I can't stand no chewing gum it looks just like a cow

Lindy Lue!

Any one taking sick leave for to make real sure their sick

And every time you hear that bell...
You better get here double quick

And as for pimps
Pimps are something you don't need
To get your daily business done
Are you listening good?
Keep them leaches and blood suckers of the bathrobes
And I know how to use a gun
And nobody messes with my girls

And any questions you might have about the way I run this place
Don't grip and whine behind my back
Just tell me face to face, I'm open-minded, say it all
Then go upstairs and pack, the door's that way

She pays the food and the rent and the utilities
We keep our mind on our work responsibilities
Don't let your mouth overload your capabilities
And we can get along

Repeat Chorus

It's just a little bitty pissant country place, nothing much to see
No drinking allowed, we get a nice quiet crowd, plain as it can be
It's just a piddly squatin no time country place, nothing to hide at all
Just lots of good will and maybe one small thrill
Just lots of good will and maybe one small thrill
Just lots of good will and maybe one small thrill
But there's nothing dirty going on
Nothing dirty going on

Ok well I have officially decided I hate being single, and for me it is vital that i get a new boy friend. One thats tall, cute and goes with everything. I want him to be sweet, well versed, and educated. One who is willing to argue with me and yet willing to shut up, but also able to just call me out when i am wrong and doesn't make me feel like a fool.

 

Dream guy if you are out there, I AM HERE WAITING!!!!!!!!!!!

Found an amazing song that I wanted to post its lyrics.

 

The wilted flowers that I gave
Were not as nice as your bouquet
All the lyrics that I wrote
Not as smart as the words you spoke
The starlight above my hometown
Ain't as bright as the star I've found
Every drawing that I drew
Was never ever as cute as you

Serious as a heart attack
I'm looking in my almanac
I gotta find out all the things
And find out where she got her wings
Shimmy shimmy quarter turn
I feel like I will never learn
How can I check lost and found
When I'm too busy getting down

(Wasn't ready for that one)

(Take it back to square one)

[x2]
Gotta get it back to
A backup plan to find you
Start acceleration
Take it back to square one

I swear that I'm not kidding
We're just looking to fit in
With all the other answers
Questions never confirmed
States that keep us far apart
Track the beating of my heart
Mark the places in my book
With photographs we never took
I swear that I'm not kidding
The night time is so pretty
With all the stars above your eyes
I'm sneaking out and making ties
States that keep us far apart
Track the beating with a chart
Mark the rhythms that I shook
Everytime I caught you look

[x4]
Gotta get it back to
A backup plan to find you
Start acceleration
Take it back to square one

Ok so I am now in Kingsville!!!

 

woohoo!!!!

 

NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

someone shoot me

Well for those of you who don't know......

 

My mom got a transfer and a promotion..... So I'm moving before I move to Denton. I'm moving to Kingsville. OMFG I'm gonna hate it there. I hate corpus what the hell am i gonna do in kingsville. I think I need to find a huge alcohol supply so I can slip into a coma and not remember a damn thing when I'm there.  

I would like to quote the movie saved:

"So everything that doesn't fit into some stupid idea of what you think God wants you just try to hide or fix or get rid of? It's just all too much to live up to. No one fits in one hundred percent of the time. Not even you."

I would like to say I know deep in my heart I know God and Jesus still love me!

DIERKS BENTLEY LYRICS

"Settle For A Slowdown"

I must look just like a fool here
in the middle of the road
standing there in your rearview
and getting soaked to the bone
this land is flat as it is mean
a man can see for a hundred miles
So I'm still praying I might see
the glow of a brake light.

But your wheels just turn,
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

I held on longer then I should
Believing you might change your mind
And those bright lights of Hollywood
would fade in time.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign
that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
if it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
your just a tiny dot on that horizon line come on tap those brakes
baby just one time
I know there's nothing stopping you now
Im not asking you to turn back around

I'd settle for a slowdown
come on just slow down
I'd settle for a slow down.

This song I heard with some friends and I love it!!!!! Its really good!!!!

Ok so I was at Summer's house right, and we were at her pool and I was being kind and sweeping it and using one of the pool nets to gather all the leaves from the pool. Well, I was dumping out the crap that I gathered into the net, into the canal. Her house is on the canals on the island. Well the net thing fell in, and it sank. I had to have her sit on my legs so I could try getting the thing out without getting into the canal. Im from corpus and I dont go into the water at teh beach so I for sure wasn't going into the water. Well, i couldn't find the damn thing and my face was so close to the water and i was upside down that i started getting water in my nose. So I said "fuck it" so i jumped in the damn water to try to get the damn net thing and still could'nt feel it in the dark murky water. It was GROSS, I had silt under m y feet as well as barnacles on some of the large stones under the water; luckily, my feet were not cut or anything so i can dance. Anyway I gave up so if you live on the canal and find a pool net thing call me, so i can give it back to Summer. Anyway long story short (even though its too late) I got dirty and salty from the damn nasty canal/beach water.

 

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Ok well today im kinda tired idk why, i think im becoming more of an anemic but anyway today i feel as if its a gershwin day. GERSHWIN ROCKS!!!!!!! please feel free to agree, if you disagree thats too but whatever. If you need to do any kind of look up to see who Gershwin is I am ashamed to know you!!!!!!!!!

 

 

Chris