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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 44
Sign: Cancer

City: Somewhere safe in the mist of my dreams
State: Iowa
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/10/2006

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Friday, July 03, 2009 


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Jennifer Lopez If You Had My Love (C) 1999 SONY BMG MUSIC ENTERTAINMENT

Wednesday, June 03, 2009 
Monday, May 25, 2009 

Category: Life

You ever wonder why things happen in life? Why one thing can change everything. And it leaves people wondering WTF? I dont know about everyone else, but I hate that
WTF feeling. Maybe its because I think to much, dont know, but the WHF feeling will stay with me for days sometimes longer. Of couse its always accompanies anxiety attacks. For some reason death creates major anxiety attacks for me. When people I know die or get killed long before their lives are really over. It reminds me how uncertain life is. I can deal with the fact that people grow old and die, That is the natural order of life. I dont like the idea that someday I will cease to exsist, And I know that when its my time I will fight it every step of the way, even though I know I will lose that fight.

There have been so many deaths in the area I live in. So many that have died long before their lives were truely over. Some that I have known in passing, some that use to be neighbors, some that have been a friend at one point in time or another. Over the last 5 years there have been more young deaths than I had ever seen in my life.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009 

Category: Life
Today things are a little clearer, I just need to stop believing in people thats all. I have to remember that the only person I can count on is myself. And I just need to starting writing people off as a lesson learned, and not let it happen again.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009 

Current mood:  confused
Category: Life
I hate feeling up in the air about things. Maybe I should just leave it alone. Maybe it dont really matter anyway. I dont know why it bothers me so much but it does. Yeah, I do know why it bothers me, it feels like history repeating itself. Its like an endless cycle.
Saturday, April 25, 2009 
Thursday, April 16, 2009 

Category: Life
My youngest has decided to go to his Junior Prom, he is going by him self, I am scared he will be embarrassing himself. He wants to wear the $20 gangster suite Halloween costume he wore Trick or Treating this last year. I am telling him no. The tickets were $25 for just one person. He had to borrow that from me.

Think thats bad? Next year both of the boys are going cuz it will be their last year. They plan on renting an old fashion hearse. I never went to prom. I never have been the kind of person that went places alone. Plus I had a 2 month old baby.

So hey I need some advice here. What do kids wear to prom these days, do they still wear tux's?

Friday, April 10, 2009 

Current mood:  nostalgic
Category: Writing and Poetry



Tears of my heart

Silently I sit at my window
Gazing upon the moonlight
Memories of yesterday
Fill my heart and mind
Thirty years have passed
Since I have felt your touch
Life is so very unfair
You were stolen from me
During a time I needed you so
How my life would be changed
If you could of stayed with me
So deep was the pain and grief
I acted out with anger and rage
I have never been the same
Since the day that your death came.
I hated those that I loved
Wouldn't let any one get close
I wanted death to stay away
So never again would I lose
Someone I loved like I loved you.


© Cuba Cerene Lane 2009

Written and dedicated to my "mom"(my greatgrandmother)







Thursday, March 05, 2009 

Current mood:  annoyed
Category: News and Politics


How many of you out here has checked to see what their state plans on doing with their stimulus money. It was my understanding that this money was intended to stimulate our economy. Do you think beautification projects should be included in ways to spend this money? I dont think that with the problems people are having finacialy, they really care how pretty something looks. Am I right?

I live in Iowa as many of you already know. This is how Iowa plans on spending the money.
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Description CityStateJobsCostProgram TypeVote Ratio
ADA Sidewalk RampsDavenportIA56$5,200,000Streets/Roads-46
Alley ReconsrtuctionDavenportIA29$2,900,000Streets/Roads-89
Davenport Sewer Projects, Including West Diversion TunnelDavenportIA606$56,100,000Water41
Urban Waterfront Floodplain Management Demonstration ProjectDavenportIA99$9,200,000Water2
Lagoon RestorationDavenportIA7$650,000Water-35
Transit GarageDavenportIA55$5,100,000Transit-49
Street ResurfacingDes MoinesIA30$2,000,000Streets/Roads6
Riverpoint West Street Improvements, non-rise portionDes MoinesIA25$1,500,000Streets/Roads-23
McKinley Avenue Widening from South Union to S.E. 5thDes MoinesIA25$1,400,000Streets/Roads-16
Curb & Median ReplacementDes MoinesIA20$750,000Streets/Roads-27
Pleasant Drive Bridge over Cummins CreekDes MoinesIA25$700,000Streets/Roads-28
Southwest Area Diversion Facility, Phase 22, Segment 3Des MoinesIA25$8,000,000Water-13
Flow MonitoringDes MoinesIA25$6,000,000Water-30
West Des Moines Outfall, Phase 13, Segment 6Des MoinesIA25$6,000,000Water-26
Lower Union Park Sewer SeparationDes MoinesIA25$5,000,000Water-12
Southern Tier Pump Station ImprovementsDes MoinesIA25$5,000,000Water-8
Lining Sanitary Trunk and LateralsDes MoinesIA25$3,000,000Water-7
Riverpoint Trunk SeparationDes MoinesIA25$2,500,000Water-12
Southeast Ridge TrunkDes MoinesIA25$2,000,000Water-14
West Des Moines Outfall, Phase 13, Segment 5Des MoinesIA25$1,750,000Water-15
East Army Post Road TrunkDes MoinesIA25$1,500,000Water-18
Little Four Mile TrunkDes MoinesIA25$1,500,000Water-19
Twelfth Street Sewer SeparationDes MoinesIA25$1,000,000Water1
Southwest Area Diversion Facility, Phase 22, Segment 7Des MoinesIA25$750,000Water-11
Terminal Modifications for EDS DeploymentDes MoinesIA30$6,200,000Airport-28
Consolidated Rental Car Service FacilityDes MoinesIA40$6,000,000Airport-129
Terminal Concourse EnhancementsDes MoinesIA40$3,500,000Airport-47
Wetlands MitigationDes MoinesIA25$1,300,000Airport-38
Access Control Field Equipment Purchase/InstallationDes MoinesIA10$800,080Airport-22
Franklin Library Renovation and ExpansionDes MoinesIA71$6,100,000CDBG-53
Recreation TrailsDes MoinesIA6$2,000,000CDBG-97
New SidewalksDes MoinesIA6$1,200,000CDBG-37
Parks Improvements to playgrounds, basketball courts, tennis courts, skate parks & sheltersDes MoinesIA6$1,000,000CDBG-42
LEED Certified Construction of Fire Station 1Des MoinesIA40$8,000,000Energy-11
Grandview Golf Course Clubhouse built to LEED standardsDes MoinesIA50$1,300,000Energy-187
Expand Trail System to provide alternative transportation options.Des MoinesIA25$1,300,000Energy-29
Retrofit Parking Garages with LED lighting and Motion Sensors.Des MoinesIA5$1,000,000Energy-25
Citywide interconnection of all Traffic Lights.Des MoinesIA25$500,000Energy-17
Energy Conservation ProgramDes MoinesIA6$100,000Energy-2
Forensic DNA LaboratoryDes MoinesIA3$2,100,000Public Safety15
HLS Support Equipment - EOD/WMD/CBRNEDes MoinesIA0$1,800,000Public Safety-26
Communications Interoperability EffortsDes MoinesIA0$1,500,000Public Safety-29
Narcotics Complaint Response TeamDes MoinesIA9$1,200,000Public Safety-34
HLS Response TeamDes MoinesIA9$1,200,000Public Safety-15
Intelligence Driven Street Crimes UnitDes MoinesIA9$1,200,000Public Safety-15
Fugitive Task ForceDes MoinesIA9$1,200,000Public Safety-16
Mobile Data System EnhancementsDes MoinesIA0$1,000,000Public Safety-28
Automated Field Reporting SystemDes MoinesIA1$650,000Public Safety-27
Wireless LAN in all DMPS school buildingsDes MoinesIA10$2,370,000Schools-86
Installation of security cameras and electronic card keys on all DMPS buildingsDes MoinesIA10$1,580,000Schools-47
Metronet Shared Fiber Optic Wide NetworkDes MoinesIA10$215,000Schools-42


Total amount submitted by Iowa is $185,815,080

All I see is a bunch of short term work for our construction companies, while yes they need the work, But I just dont see how these projects are going help in the long run. I think this money need to be used to help keep our factories operating, to create long term jobs to keep people from losing their homes and everything they have worked for their entire lives.
These projects are centered around Des Moines and Davenport, What about the rest of the state. While statistics say that Iowa is amoung the top 10 states that has the lowest unemployment rates, we are slowly slipping. People are scared, they are not traveling as much, many have already lost their jobs, you know what that effects my job. People dont travel we dont have motel guests, Which mean cut in hours for us. Currently its so bad that I am lucky if I get to work 2 days a week and I am use to working 5 or 6 days a week.

Check out this link  http://www.stimuluswatch.org/project/by_state

Click on your state and see what they plan on doing with the money that is suppose to help our econamy. On this site you can voice your opinion on the projects and vote whether or not each project is really nessessary.
2 million for recreational trails, Give me a break, $650,000 could of saved The Echo/Traco factory here in Red Oak and could of saved approx 140 jobs. We need to save the places that are closing and leaving the people without jobs. Do you think they are thinking well I may not have a job but hey whats my job compared to recreational trails. We need to speak up and do something about this.

Let your voice be heard.




Sunday, February 08, 2009 
Tuesday, January 06, 2009 

Current mood:  creative
Category: Writing and Poetry
After months of writters block, I finally wrote something new.

Broken

Shattered and broken
A heart on the mend
Not at all sure
If I can do it again
Years of suffering
Beaten and abused
Tortured by the ones
Who's love was not true
Longing to feel safe
Protected and new
Can I place my trust
In loving you

© Cuba Cerene Lane 2009


Tuesday, January 06, 2009 
For years I have dreamed of writing. All I seem to be able to squeak out is poems. I have all these ideas for stories, but I am clueless on where or how to begin. I have tried many times to write it all down. once the thoughts hit the paper. I am like where do I go. When i write letters they are always very long and expressive. I want to be able to put that in to a book. I feel that if I could ever get those thought put together and written down. It would be totally awesome. I feel I am capable of producing a timeless work of art. I just havent been able to figure out how to go about it.
Its in my bloodline to write. The famous relative link on ancestry.com shows that I have these people in my treee.

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RID=71510818; UP=12; DN=5 Stephen Crane (1871-1900)
American Author
Stephen Crane began writing at the age of 8. His most famous novel, The Red Badge of Courage, was about the American Civil War. He died at the age of 28 of tuberculosis

Relationship: 4th Cousin 7 times removed
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RID=4159538; UP=11; DN=8 Edgar Lee Masters (1868-1950)
American Writer
Edgar Lee Masters is the author of several biographies, books of poetry, plays and novels. His most famous work is "Spoon River Anthology" which was inspired by his experiences growing up in Illinois.

Relationship: 7th Cousin 3 times removed


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RID=12031768; UP=13; DN=6 Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803-1882)
American Author
American author, poet, and philosopher Ralph Waldo Emerson first formulated the philosophy of Transcendentalism. His essay "Nature" expresses this philosophy. He also wrote "The Concord Hymn" and coined the phrase "the shot heard round the world."

Relationship: 5th Cousin 7 times removed
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RID=23278059; UP=11; DN=9 William Randolph Hearst (1863-1951)
Newspaper magnate
William Randolph Hearst was a newspaper mogul who was responsible for inventing yellow journalism. His reporters often invented scandalous stories to sell papers.

Relationship: 8th Cousin 2 times removed
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RID=7796354; UP=13; DN=7 Nathaniel Hawthorne (1804-1864)
American Author
Nathaniel Hawthorne was a key figure in the development of American literature. He wrote such classics as The Scarlet Letter and The House of Seven Gables.

Relationship: 6th Cousin 6 times removed
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RID=16616847; UP=16; DN=4 Jonathan Swift (1667-1745)
Anglo-Irish Priest and Writer
Jonathan Swift is well known for his satirical prose such as Gulliver's Travels and A Modest Proposal. Swift, was also an ordained minister in the Church of Ireland.

Relationship: 3rd Cousin 12 times removed
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RID=10472973; UP=13; DN=7 Emily Dickenson (1830-1886)
American Poet
Emily Dickenson is considered one of the most influential poets in American history. During her lifetime she published only a few poems, though her writing career produced over 1700 poems (all published posthumously).

Relationship: 6th Cousin 6 times removed
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RID=96993368; UP=15; DN=10 Truman Capote (1924-1984)
American Author
His works have become film legends, such as Breakfast at Tiffany's. Born Truman Persons, he wrote the screenplays of many films, as well as creating the short story "Miriam" which won an O. Henry Award.

Relationship: 9th Cousin 5 times removed
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RID=21027079; UP=15; DN=12 Elizabeth Browning (1806-1861)
English Author and poet
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. These famous words were penned by English poet and author Elizabeth Barrett Browning, one of the most respected writers of the Victorian era.

Relationship: 11th Cousin 3 times removed
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RID=28583912; UP=12; DN=8 Jane Austen (1775-1817)
English Author
Jane Austin was well educated and began writing at a young age. Though she wrote with a man's alias, many of her novels, which include Pride and Prejudice and Emma, have become widely popular.

Relationship: 7th Cousin 7 times removed
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These are just a few of the many people that show up for my relatives.



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Monday, May 26, 2008 

Category: Blogging

This is my Great Uncle Keith Edmund White's senior picture

 

Keith was the only son of Art and Minnie White. He was born Sept 12 1920 in Henry County Iowa. He graduated from Lockridge Iowa. He enlisted in the Army during WW2 on July 15 1942 and was killed in action November 9th 1944.

U.S. World War II Army Enlistment Records, 1938-1946
about Keith E White

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Name: Keith E White
Birth Year: 1920
Race: White, citizen (White)
Nativity State or Country: Iowa
State: Iowa
County or City: Henry
 
Enlistment Date: 15 Jul 1942
Enlistment State: Iowa
Enlistment City: Des Moines
Branch: Branch Immaterial - Warrant Officers, USA
Branch Code: Branch Immaterial - Warrant Officers, USA
Grade: Private
Grade Code: Private
Term of Enlistment: Enlistment for the duration of the War or other emergency, plus six months, subject to the discretion of the President or otherwise according to law
Component: Army of the United States - includes the following: Voluntary enlistments effective December 8, 1941 and thereafter; One year enlistments of National Guardsman whose State enlistment expires while in the Federal Service; Officers appointed in the Army of
Source: Civil Life
 
Education: 4 years of high school
Civil Occupation: Geographer
Marital Status: Single, without dependents
Height: 69
Weight: 133
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Keith was kileed in Metz France crossing the Marcel river. He was originaly buried in Limey France. August 1948 his remains were dug up and shipped home to be buried at the Grant Cemetary outside of Rome Iowa.
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Name: Keith E White
Gender: Male
Race: White
Religion: Protestant
 
Cemetery Name: Iowa
Disposition: According to next of kin
 
Service Branch: Army
Rank: Sergeant
Service Number:

17105976

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008 

Current mood:  creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

I hate the way you make me feel
I lose grip of all thats real
Slipping into a fantasy land
Where you and I walk hand in hand
I find myself falling for you again
Knowing my heart will break in the end
I fight the urge let my heart be true
And packing up my life to run to you
I cant give in to my desire
And the height of ecstasy that would transpire
So I sit and quietly suffer
Always to wonder
What if

 

© Cuba Cerene Lane 2008

Monday, April 14, 2008 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYENO6r5vVo

Martina McBride Independence Day (C) 2003 BMG Music

This song really makes you think