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Age: 44
Sign: Cancer

City: Somewhere safe in the mist of my dreams
State: Iowa
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/10/2006

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Friday, July 03, 2009

Jennifer Lopez - If You Had My Love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sK0DjYE-GVA

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Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Forever Gone, Forever You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=twSYGWn3Co4

8:16 PM

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Monday, May 25, 2009

WTF?
Category: Life

You ever wonder why things happen in life? Why one thing can change everything. And it leaves people wondering WTF? I dont know about everyone else, but I hate that
WTF feeling. Maybe its because I think to much, dont know, but the WHF feeling will stay with me for days sometimes longer. Of couse its always accompanies anxiety attacks. For some reason death creates major anxiety attacks for me. When people I know die or get killed long before their lives are really over. It reminds me how uncertain life is. I can deal with the fact that people grow old and die, That is the natural order of life. I dont like the idea that someday I will cease to exsist, And I know that when its my time I will fight it every step of the way, even though I know I will lose that fight.

There have been so many deaths in the area I live in. So many that have died long before their lives were truely over. Some that I have known in passing, some that use to be neighbors, some that have been a friend at one point in time or another. Over the last 5 years there have been more young deaths than I had ever seen in my life.

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Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Things are getting clearer
Category: Life

Today things are a little clearer, I just need to stop believing in people thats all. I have to remember that the only person I can count on is myself. And I just need to starting writing people off as a lesson learned, and not let it happen again.

7:27 PM

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Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Not sure what to think
Current mood:

confused
Category: Life

I hate feeling up in the air about things. Maybe I should just leave it alone. Maybe it dont really matter anyway. I dont know why it bothers me so much but it does. Yeah, I do know why it bothers me, it feels like history repeating itself. Its like an endless cycle.

2:18 PM

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Saturday, April 25, 2009

Brian at after prom 2009 Red Oak

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3Ls52O4zjI

10:25 PM

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Thursday, April 16, 2009

Prom
Category: Life

My youngest has decided to go to his Junior Prom, he is going by him self, I am scared he will be embarrassing himself. He wants to wear the $20 gangster suite Halloween costume he wore Trick or Treating this last year. I am telling him no. The tickets were $25 for just one person. He had to borrow that from me.

Think thats bad? Next year both of the boys are going cuz it will be their last year. They plan on renting an old fashion hearse. I never went to prom. I never have been the kind of person that went places alone. Plus I had a 2 month old baby.

So hey I need some advice here. What do kids wear to prom these days, do they still wear tux's?

3:40 PM

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Friday, April 10, 2009

Tears of my heart
Current mood:

nostalgic
Category: Writing and Poetry

Tears of my heart

Silently I sit at my window
Gazing upon the moonlight
Memories of yesterday
Fill my heart and mind
Thirty years have passed
Since I have felt your touch
Life is so very unfair
You were stolen from me
During a time I needed you so
How my life would be changed
If you could of stayed with me
So deep was the pain and grief
I acted out with anger and rage
I have never been the same
Since the day that your death came.
I hated those that I loved
Wouldn't let any one get close
I wanted death to stay away
So never again would I lose
Someone I loved like I loved you.

© Cuba Cerene Lane 2009

Written and dedicated to my "mom"(my greatgrandmother)

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Thursday, March 05, 2009

How does your state plan to spend the Stimulus money?
Current mood:

annoyed
Category: News and Politics

How many of you out here has checked to see what their state plans on doing with their stimulus money. It was my understanding that this money was intended to stimulate our economy. Do you think beautification projects should be included in ways to spend this money? I dont think that with the problems people are having finacialy, they really care how pretty something looks. Am I right?

I live in Iowa as many of you already know. This is how Iowa plans on spending the money.
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Description	City	State	Jobs	Cost	Program Type	Vote Ratio
ADA Sidewalk Ramps	Davenport	IA	56	$5,200,000	Streets/Roads	-46
Alley Reconsrtuction	Davenport	IA	29	$2,900,000	Streets/Roads	-89
Davenport Sewer Projects, Including West Diversion Tunnel	Davenport	IA	606	$56,100,000	Water	41
Urban Waterfront Floodplain Management Demonstration Project	Davenport	IA	99	$9,200,000	Water	2
Lagoon Restoration	Davenport	IA	7	$650,000	Water	-35
Transit Garage	Davenport	IA	55	$5,100,000	Transit	-49
Street Resurfacing	Des Moines	IA	30	$2,000,000	Streets/Roads	6
Riverpoint West Street Improvements, non-rise portion	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,500,000	Streets/Roads	-23
McKinley Avenue Widening from South Union to S.E. 5th	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,400,000	Streets/Roads	-16
Curb & Median Replacement	Des Moines	IA	20	$750,000	Streets/Roads	-27
Pleasant Drive Bridge over Cummins Creek	Des Moines	IA	25	$700,000	Streets/Roads	-28
Southwest Area Diversion Facility, Phase 22, Segment 3	Des Moines	IA	25	$8,000,000	Water	-13
Flow Monitoring	Des Moines	IA	25	$6,000,000	Water	-30
West Des Moines Outfall, Phase 13, Segment 6	Des Moines	IA	25	$6,000,000	Water	-26
Lower Union Park Sewer Separation	Des Moines	IA	25	$5,000,000	Water	-12
Southern Tier Pump Station Improvements	Des Moines	IA	25	$5,000,000	Water	-8
Lining Sanitary Trunk and Laterals	Des Moines	IA	25	$3,000,000	Water	-7
Riverpoint Trunk Separation	Des Moines	IA	25	$2,500,000	Water	-12
Southeast Ridge Trunk	Des Moines	IA	25	$2,000,000	Water	-14
West Des Moines Outfall, Phase 13, Segment 5	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,750,000	Water	-15
East Army Post Road Trunk	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,500,000	Water	-18
Little Four Mile Trunk	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,500,000	Water	-19
Twelfth Street Sewer Separation	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,000,000	Water	1
Southwest Area Diversion Facility, Phase 22, Segment 7	Des Moines	IA	25	$750,000	Water	-11
Terminal Modifications for EDS Deployment	Des Moines	IA	30	$6,200,000	Airport	-28
Consolidated Rental Car Service Facility	Des Moines	IA	40	$6,000,000	Airport	-129
Terminal Concourse Enhancements	Des Moines	IA	40	$3,500,000	Airport	-47
Wetlands Mitigation	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,300,000	Airport	-38
Access Control Field Equipment Purchase/Installation	Des Moines	IA	10	$800,080	Airport	-22
Franklin Library Renovation and Expansion	Des Moines	IA	71	$6,100,000	CDBG	-53
Recreation Trails	Des Moines	IA	6	$2,000,000	CDBG	-97
New Sidewalks	Des Moines	IA	6	$1,200,000	CDBG	-37
Parks Improvements to playgrounds, basketball courts, tennis courts, skate parks & shelters	Des Moines	IA	6	$1,000,000	CDBG	-42
LEED Certified Construction of Fire Station 1	Des Moines	IA	40	$8,000,000	Energy	-11
Grandview Golf Course Clubhouse built to LEED standards	Des Moines	IA	50	$1,300,000	Energy	-187
Expand Trail System to provide alternative transportation options.	Des Moines	IA	25	$1,300,000	Energy	-29
Retrofit Parking Garages with LED lighting and Motion Sensors.	Des Moines	IA	5	$1,000,000	Energy	-25
Citywide interconnection of all Traffic Lights.	Des Moines	IA	25	$500,000	Energy	-17
Energy Conservation Program	Des Moines	IA	6	$100,000	Energy	-2
Forensic DNA Laboratory	Des Moines	IA	3	$2,100,000	Public Safety	15
HLS Support Equipment - EOD/WMD/CBRNE	Des Moines	IA	0	$1,800,000	Public Safety	-26
Communications Interoperability Efforts	Des Moines	IA	0	$1,500,000	Public Safety	-29
Narcotics Complaint Response Team	Des Moines	IA	9	$1,200,000	Public Safety	-34
HLS Response Team	Des Moines	IA	9	$1,200,000	Public Safety	-15
Intelligence Driven Street Crimes Unit	Des Moines	IA	9	$1,200,000	Public Safety	-15
Fugitive Task Force	Des Moines	IA	9	$1,200,000	Public Safety	-16
Mobile Data System Enhancements	Des Moines	IA	0	$1,000,000	Public Safety	-28
Automated Field Reporting System	Des Moines	IA	1	$650,000	Public Safety	-27
Wireless LAN in all DMPS school buildings	Des Moines	IA	10	$2,370,000	Schools	-86
Installation of security cameras and electronic card keys on all DMPS buildings	Des Moines	IA	10	$1,580,000	Schools	-47
Metronet Shared Fiber Optic Wide Network	Des Moines	IA	10	$215,000	Schools	-42

Total amount submitted by Iowa is $185,815,080

All I see is a bunch of short term work for our construction companies, while yes they need the work, But I just dont see how these projects are going help in the long run. I think this money need to be used to help keep our factories operating, to create long term jobs to keep people from losing their homes and everything they have worked for their entire lives.
These projects are centered around Des Moines and Davenport, What about the rest of the state. While statistics say that Iowa is amoung the top 10 states that has the lowest unemployment rates, we are slowly slipping. People are scared, they are not traveling as much, many have already lost their jobs, you know what that effects my job. People dont travel we dont have motel guests, Which mean cut in hours for us. Currently its so bad that I am lucky if I get to work 2 days a week and I am use to working 5 or 6 days a week.

Check out this link http://www.stimuluswatch.org/project/by_state

Click on your state and see what they plan on doing with the money that is suppose to help our econamy. On this site you can voice your opinion on the projects and vote whether or not each project is really nessessary.
2 million for recreational trails, Give me a break, $650,000 could of saved The Echo/Traco factory here in Red Oak and could of saved approx 140 jobs. We need to save the places that are closing and leaving the people without jobs. Do you think they are thinking well I may not have a job but hey whats my job compared to recreational trails. We need to speak up and do something about this.

Let your voice be heard.

3:48 PM

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Sunday, February 08, 2009

Tigers Game Blooper

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHVL-M3pL_Y

11:14 PM

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Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Broken
Current mood:

creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

After months of writters block, I finally wrote something new.

Broken

Shattered and broken
A heart on the mend
Not at all sure
If I can do it again
Years of suffering
Beaten and abused
Tortured by the ones
Who's love was not true
Longing to feel safe
Protected and new
Can I place my trust
In loving you

© Cuba Cerene Lane 2009

9:59 PM

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Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Dreams of writing

For years I have dreamed of writing. All I seem to be able to squeak out is poems. I have all these ideas for stories, but I am clueless on where or how to begin. I have tried many times to write it all down. once the thoughts hit the paper. I am like where do I go. When i write letters they are always very long and expressive. I want to be able to put that in to a book. I feel that if I could ever get those thought put together and written down. It would be totally awesome. I feel I am capable of producing a timeless work of art. I just havent been able to figure out how to go about it.
Its in my bloodline to write. The famous relative link on ancestry.com shows that I have these people in my treee.

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	Stephen Crane (1871-1900)
	American Author Stephen Crane began writing at the age of 8. His most famous novel, The Red Badge of Courage, was about the American Civil War. He died at the age of 28 of tuberculosis
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Edgar Lee Masters (1868-1950)

American Writer
Edgar Lee Masters is the author of several biographies, books of poetry, plays and novels. His most famous work is "Spoon River Anthology" which was inspired by his experiences growing up in Illinois.

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	Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803-1882)
	American Author American author, poet, and philosopher Ralph Waldo Emerson first formulated the philosophy of Transcendentalism. His essay "Nature" expresses this philosophy. He also wrote "The Concord Hymn" and coined the phrase "the shot heard round the world."
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