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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 37
Sign: Cancer

City: Somewhere between Sodom and Gomorrah
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 2/20/2006

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August 15, 2009 - Saturday 16:23

Current mood:uncertain
Category: Writing and Poetry

I got your letter today

Two weeks old

The envelope slightly scuffed

The writing a little faded

But clearly

Addressed to me


It started out

“My dearest love,

I hope to see you soon

My leave is coming

And I’ve been told

That we get to have a full three.”


I could feel the tears

Begin to fall

And my throat tighten up

As visions of your sparkling eyes

And gentle smile

Went dancing through my head


Memories of our times together

Came swiftly pouring in

The passion filled nights

Tender mornings

And the joys

Of a well used bed


It continued on

“I just can’t wait

To feel your arms

Hold me close

As your soft lips

Carry me through the night”


“It’s thoughts like these

That see me through

And keep the despair away

And belief in the truth

Of the love we share

That keep me in the fight.”


My thoughts began to spiral

As my emotions built

This missing peace

Found in the words

Of this precious letter

From thousands of miles away


It ended with

“So until I’m home

I leave you with

A hug and a kiss

And the undying love

Of your soldier wife”


The weight of my emotions

Brought me to my knees

As visions came unbidden

Of the many moments we'd shared

The dozens we missed

And the ones we’ll never have


Slowly I gathered myself

Your letter in one hand

And in the other

A funeral program

With you in your uniform

Right there on the cover

Currently playing:
Mirror's Edge
Release date: 2008-11-11
August 9, 2009 - Sunday 10:53

Current mood:  tired
Category: MySpace
Ugh! Why do I keep joining these inane wastes of time and energy? Okay maybe not all the groups are that way but most of them sure seem to be. Every time I join one it seems to devolve into some asinine pissing contest to see whose e-penis is bigger. At first it seems fun and even amusing to watch people blast each other over the most ridiculous little things. A thread is posted and if it doesn't simply fade into the background then it's probably kept alive by some asshat who insists on being argumentative and insulting. Then some moron decides to give attention to the asshat (which is exactly what he wants) and a flame war ensues which may or may not drag other group members into it. Insults are thrown, history is dredged up, secrets are revealed, feelings are hurt, shit is dragged into other threads/groups, and the group dissolves only to be formed in some mutant form(s) with many of the same people finding their way there at which point the process starts all over again. Feh! Often there will be some troll who comes along and starts spam posting which just creates confusion and frustration amongst the group members further fueling the exodus to the new group(s). GAAH! Why, WHy, WHY DO I ALLOW MYSELF TO BE DRAGGED INTO THIS SHIT?! I'd managed to walk away from the groups. Stayed away for quite a while (a little over a year I believe). Then I got an invite and figured 'what the hell'. Could be fun to interact with some of my friends on a more regular basis again. Man was I wrong! Don't misunderstand. I enjoy interacting with my friends, but doing so in MySpace groups is beyond irritating. There have been times when I've thought of starting my own group and only inviting those who I would enjoy spending time with but I really don't have the energy I deem necessary to moderate a group. At least not to my standards (think benevolent dictatorship). Anyway, just needed to get that off my chest. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to go remove myself from this group.
/rant
July 18, 2009 - Saturday 08:50

Current mood:  sad
Category: News and Politics


Walter Cronkite

November 4, 1916 – July 17, 2009
"That's the way it is."


The news media, in all it's forms, has lost the last true voice of integrity it had. Our world is a lesser place now for his passing. You'll be greatly missed Mr. Cronkite.


May 21, 2009 - Thursday 12:33

Current mood:  sad
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
May 10, 2009 - Sunday 14:58

Current mood:  awake
Category: Life
There is no doubting that mother’s are important people. They sacrifice their bodies for 9 months (more or less) allowing us to grow until such time as we are able to potentially survive the transition into this earthly environment. Face it, babies (in vitro), are parasites. We usurp a portion of our mothers food supply, we set their natural body chemistry all out-of-whack, and we provide little or no benefits in return. Not only that but then they are told that in order for us to born healthy they may need to make some significant lifestyle adjustments (those potential benefits usually show up here). Then, on the day we are born, we often put them through some of the most excruciating moments they may ever experience in their lives. Through all this they provide us with the opportunity to experience life and all the wonders of creation. For all that they do, I am grateful to the mothers of this world. However, I don’t believe that this day should be for mothers. I believe this day should be for moms. Please allow me a moment to elaborate.

I have, over the years, used a quote I once heard which (with a gender substitution and some slight alteration) may shed a modicum of light upon the meaning of my previous statement:

“Any man can father a child. It takes someone special to be a dad.”


How I would alter it:

“Any fertile woman can mother a child. It takes someone special to be a mom.”


Now I added the fertile because I know that some women deal with this issue (as do some men). Notice though, that’s it’s only in the first sentence. The reason for that is that I believe the ability to bring a life into this world is not ancillary to the ability to be a good parent. Being a good parent is far more about what one does AFTER the child is born. That’s where being a mom is determined. Your mother may have brought you into this world, but your mom helped you learn how to LIVE in this world.

While many of us may have had a mother growing up, not all of our mothers were moms. Sometimes they were aunts, cousins, grandmothers, teachers, friends, friend’s moms, mom’s friends, neighbors, or even dads, uncles, or grandfathers. These are the people who should be celebrated this day. Those people who gave of themselves to teach us how to hope, how to believe in ourselves, and mostly, how to love. Without them we would not be the people we are today. So to all you moms out there I say HAPPY MOM’S DAY!! May your children recognize the blessing in their lives that is you and let you know it today, and every day after, for the rest of your lives.


Much Love,

~Alex



P.S.: If you feel the need to debate anything I have stated please keep it civil.
February 14, 2009 - Saturday 14:23

Current mood:  thankful
Category: Writing and Poetry



Today is a day
When we celebrate love
And all its wondrous ways

Where we open our hearts
And express what’s within
To those who brighten our days

To our family and friends
And the many others
Who bring us both joy and pain

Whose lives we’ve touched
And presence we cherish
And our love for never wanes

So to all of you
Both far and near
I raise a glass on high

That you may know
My commitment to you
Will never ever die




Blessings and Bear Hugs to you all,

~Alex




Currently listening:
Home
By Blessid Union of Souls
Release date: 1995-03-21
January 29, 2009 - Thursday 12:52

Current mood:  sad
Category: Music
Currently playing:
Halo 3
Release date: 2007-09-25
January 21, 2009 - Wednesday 09:32

Current mood:alive
Category: Writing and Poetry
Push
Push through the barriers
Of our own creation
Let the strength of our faith
Our hope
And our yearning
Drive us
Ever forward
Towards the trust
Laid down by our forefathers

Let the burden of freedom
Be borne with love
Respect
And the belief
That we are the bearers of a promise
Not just of our nation
But to all people
That all are truly created equal
That all are deserving
Of those same inalienable rights
And that our declaration
Is not for just us
But for all mankind

Let the people of this nation
Stand together
With the people of the world
To strive as one
For a future
Where all may know
Their full measure
Of life, liberty, and happiness



All thanks to President Obama for providing my inspiration.

January 19, 2009 - Monday 17:38

Current mood:  hopeful
Category: Life



I am happy to join with you today in what will go down in history as the greatest demonstration for freedom in the history of our nation.

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand today, signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.

But one hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languished in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. And so we've come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.

In a sense we've come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the "unalienable Rights" of "Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note, insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked "insufficient funds."

But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation. And so, we've come to cash this check, a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice.

We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of Now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God's children.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. And those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. And there will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges.

But there is something that I must say to my people, who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice: In the process of gaining our rightful place, we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred. We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again, we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.

The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. And they have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom.

We cannot walk alone.

And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall always march ahead.

We cannot turn back.

There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of the unspeakable horrors of police brutality. We can never be satisfied as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as the negro's basic mobility is from a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long as our children are stripped of their self-hood and robbed of their dignity by signs stating: "For Whites Only." We cannot be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until "justice rolls down like waters, and righteousness like a mighty stream."

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow jail cells. And some of you have come from areas where your quest -- quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive. Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to South Carolina, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed.

Let us not wallow in the valley of despair, I say to you today, my friends.

And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal."

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia, the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.

I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

I have a dream today!

I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of "interposition" and "nullification" -- one day right there in Alabama little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.

I have a dream today!

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, and every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight; "and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together."

This is our hope, and this is the faith that I go back to the South with.

With this faith, we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith, we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith, we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

And this will be the day -- this will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with new meaning:

My country 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing.

Land where my fathers died, land of the Pilgrim's pride,

From every mountainside, let freedom ring!

And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true.

And so let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire.

Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York.

Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania.

Let freedom ring from the snow-capped Rockies of Colorado.

Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California.

But not only that:

Let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia.

Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee.

Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi.

From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

And when this happens, when we allow freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual:

                Free at last! Free at last!

                Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!




December 25, 2008 - Thursday 03:13

Current mood:  blissful
Category: Life
Currently watching:
The Polar Express (Two-Disc Widescreen Edition)
Release date: 2005-11-22