Gender: Male
Age: 34
Sign: Aquarius
City: ADOC
State: Arizona
Country: US
Signup Date: 8/13/2007
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September 11, 2009 - Friday
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September 8, 2009
It was
1988 and my sister and I lived with my father in a small duplex in
Sunnyslope. I'd been locked up in Juvy a couple of times for truancy,
incorrigibility, petty theft, and running away from home was a habit
for both my sister and I but we had stayed this time.
I'd been
enrolled in Royal Palm Jr. High School, but most school days I spent
smoking pot, shoplifting and hanging out with neighborhood kids.
Blond
Kenny, Red-head Kenny, Cinnamon, Sammy and a few other older teens my
sister's age I hung out with, mostly. We were truly a motley, stoned
bunch of kids.
One afternoon, on another stoned school day, my
sister, me and Sherman (Cinnamon's 18 year old brother) decided to walk
to the park on Dunlap and 12th St., so off we went. My sister carried a
boom box blaring Ozzy Osborn as the three of us mobbed to the park.
After
about 20 minutes I had managed to thoroughly piss off my sister who
abruptly stormed off toward home. Like most little brothers, I had fine
tuned my ability to push her buttons. A minute or two behind her,
Sherman and I followed.
"Hey Shannon, wanna stop and smoke a
joint?" Sherman asked me. "Yeah" I responded, as we headed behind a
church a block from home.
As soon as we were behind the church,
Sherman began to rough house with me. Still a tiny kid it took very
little to pin my shoulders to the ground. With Sherman's nearly 200
pounds on top of me, I was completely defenseless. With his knees
pinning my shoulders to the ground, I managed to say, "I give", before
the first punch landed on my right cheek, instantly blinding me with a
bright flash. For what seemed like twenty minutes, I felt blow after
blow pound me in the face and head, as he ranted at me "I'll kill you!
Stay away from my sister!" over and over and over.
"Look at me!"
I heard him yell, as I became conscious. Somehow I had ended up on my
stomach, partially curled into a ball, my arms protecting my battered
face. "No, you'll kick me" I gurgled through the blood. "Just look at
me!" he yelled. Afraid he'd continue his assault, if I didn't, I looked
up at him. Although I saw nothing, I felt his hard foot land on my
right cheek and everything went black.
I don't know how long I
was unconscious. Crawling from behind the church into the parking lot,
I was in and out of consciousness. Coming to, I heard my sister yell my
name. Looking up, I could barely make out my sister running toward me
before passing out again. Again I came to, this time I was being
carried by my sister and I could see the fear in her face.
Waking
up on the couch at home I could hear my sister talking frantically on
the phone about me. I was completely confused, disoriented and afraid.
Suddenly my sister looked me in the face, "hang in there Shannon", I
heard her say to me. Tears erupted from my swollen eyes and I sobbed
hysterically.
I learned later, after I'd returned home from the
hospital, that my sister had gone to Sherman's home and hit him in the
face. Much of that was hazy for me for many years afterwards. It was a
very traumatic experience with consequences that stayed with me
throughout my life. I refused to go to school or leave the apartment
for a month. I was terrified.
Days later, both Sherman and
Cinnamon came knocking numerous times, attempting to apologize, but I
couldn't get up the nerve to answer the door. I could only hide just
inside the door, my father's shotgun in my hand. Strangely, although I
could have shot Sherman in fear, the gun was more for comfort and a
brief suicidal thought.
Ironically, it turned out that Cinnamon
had lied to her brother about me calling her a slut, not expecting him
to nearly kill me.
Over the years, that memory of my sister has stuck with me. I've never doubted that she loves me, even in my worst times. Thank you Big Sis! I love you!
September 3, 2009
It was
an uneventful move to ASPC Lewis, Sunrise Unit. The unit itself is
actually leased by ADOC from the Arizona Dept. of Juvenile Corrections
and sits behind the ADOJC's Eagle Rock Unit. A small 100 bed facility,
it's obvious that the unit was not prepared for the 70-something ADOC
inmates that arrived yesterday and today.
Sunrise Unit, even
with all of it's flaws and unpreparedness is far better than Manzanita.
I am much more at ease and feel that I am getting more of the
privileges, trust and freedom that I've earned through years of good
behavior and proven change.
I suspect Sunrise Unit will only
improve in time and I for one am willing to give it just that, and
enjoy my new found freedom and responsibilities that come with it. For
the first time, I finally feel my release date getting closer and I'll
be free soon.
With a busy routine here, a couple of regular
phone calls and visits with people I love, and my mail, time will fly
by and I will soon be home.
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September 6, 2009 - Sunday
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August 23, 2009
Yesterday I learned that I (and all Manzanita
Unit minimums) will be transferred to the Lewis Complex in Buckeye, AZ
within a couple of weeks. My address will change for those of you
writing to me.
The move is part of ADOC's plan to make the
Tucson Complex a medical / mental health complex. A smart money-saving
action but lets hope ADOC improves the medical care at the complex.
Currently it is severely lacking (in my opinion)... but then who am I
to judge? Oh yeah, I'm the guy who has witnessed and experienced it
first hand for around 4 years! What's a few dead bodies, permanent
injuries, pain and suffering? We are only convicted felons (sarcasm).
eta:
Shannon has already transferred to the Sunrise Unit at Lewis Complex in
Buckeye, AZ. His new address is posted on his profile page, under contact. ~
Moderator
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September 6, 2009 - Sunday
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August 24, 2009
Tonight I was randomly selected along with 20 or so others to be given a UA. COII Coffee led the charge, as usual, in this attempt to crackdown on drug usage at Manzanita
Unit. As mentioned in an earlier post, CO II Coffee's mission seems to
be to rid the unit of dope - and this tough, but fair, CO is
essentially the only "effective" obstacle for drugs and users on this
unit.
"Clark to visitation" the House 1 CO announced in my dorm. I then heard him call 5 others.
Going
up to Visitation I listened to the others gripe about how they'd just
pissed. So did I, but I kept it to myself. What good would complaining
do? If I didn't produce within 2 hours I'd be on report for failure to
produce. No ifs, ands or buts about it.
Entering the visit room, I saw COII Coffee and two other COs at a table. About a dozen guys sat in chairs around the visit room, Styro-foam cups in hand.
"Clark,
here's your cup. Have a seat." Coffee greeted me. "Thank you", I
replied cordially, accepting the cup and heading straight to the
drinking fountain.
After ten minutes of idle chatter, joking,
and a couple cups of water, I was ready to go. The guy before me wasn't
able to produce, a medical condition, he explained. I was ready,
waiting and on deck until it was explained to the guy before me that he
had to pay for the UA. $20.00!!!! Now, I wasn't sure that I could produce. (Ha ha ha ha ha - stage fright! ~ moderator)
Entering
the inmate restroom, for once it seemed warm. Brightly lit, but warm.
"Strip", the CO that accompanied me told me. Pulling off my shirt I
asked, "can I leave my socks on?" "Nope", he replied. Stripping
completely naked - years of being strip searched has made me 100%
comfortable being seen nude - I went through the typical search
procedures.
Tearing open the sealed package containing the urine
specimen cup and lid, "remove the cup and lid", the CO directed,
extending the open metallic package toward me. I reached out, withdrew
the cup and lid.
"Please don't touch the cup with your penis",
He told me. I couldn't help but chuckle. The words spoken out loud
sounded so funny to me. Without too much anticipation, I provided the
sample requested.
Getting dressed, I watched the CO seal the lid
of the cup and walk off. I hurriedly dressed to watch the new test cup
at work. I walked to the table where Coffee sat, filling out the UA documents for my sample, which sat before her on the table.
"Were
you able to find it to piss in that cup, Shannon?" A guy joked with me.
"Yeah, I might not be able to touch the bottom of the cup but I can
touch all sides", I responded, playing along.
"So how does this work?" I asked Coffee, crouching down to check out the UA
cup. Crouching down next to me, she turned the cup so I could see the
litmus strips built in the inside of the cup. "If a purple line appears
on each of these, you're doing good", she explained, pointing at four
points on the cup with tiny letters printed on it (OPI: Opiates. THC: Weed. BRB: Barbiturates. AMP: Amphetamines, BNZ:...??? ALC:
Alcohol). "This test is extremely sensitive and accurate. See how all
your lines are dark? That is excellent. If they are light it means
you've messed around, but not in the past couple of days. If you've
used in the past couple of days, no line appears. I'll usually let
people slide if I can at least see a shadow of a line." Coffee told me.
"This is interesting shit!" I told her. "Isn't it?" she agreed.
"What's a BNZ?"
I asked, pointing to the letters. "Those are like the date-rape drugs,
I think", she responded. "Well it's good to know I haven't been
date-raped lately", I joked. She laughed and said, "You're good, go
ahead and head back to your house."
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September 6, 2009 - Sunday
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August 26, 2009
The road seemed to vanish. A streak of bright
light snaked before me as my eyes tried to focus on the center divider
of the secluded black-top. The stolen Mustang violently shaking around
me wasn't enough to snap me from the trance I was in. My mind was
racing. "Follow the light, keep it between the front tires. What are
you doing, just crank the wheel and end it all." The thought flashed in
my head... the song, "Goodbye to Romance" blared. Ozzy Osbourn usually
didn't depress me but this song...
My thoughts tapered off moments before I gripped the steering wheel and turned it hard to the right, then to the left.
The
world around me instantly swerved and then the streaks of light spun
around and around me. The smell of melting tires filled my nostrils,
then dust. Everything went out of focus and my eyes and throat burned
as the screeching and scraping of metal hurt my ears. Then everything
was still and silent followed by a bone jarring crash that brutally
threw me around the inside of the car.
I
felt warm liquid streaming down my face and my head throbbed. A
metallic taste filled my mouth and world abruptly stopped spinning. I
threw up all over myself.
I was sixteen years old then. It
wasn't my first wreck, stolen car, suicide attempt or drug induced
emotional breakdown. I was hell bent on ending my pain. Consequences be
damned. By this point in my life, I saw no future for myself. I'd quit
looking forward. Meth
was a reliable friend. A little coke, a little weed and heroin took the
edge off. Dulled the feelings that hurt. Some does I handled it well.
Most days I was a mess.
More than 18 years has passed. I often look back and think of those times. I've questioned how I managed to survive. The answer is always the same... I was meant to live. I now know that I have purpose.
My
life still has twists and and turns and pain, but I have plans written
in the stars for the future. No, I'm not a religious fanatic, but a
much higher power than myself can be the only answer. I was a wild
child without any sense of what I wanted, needed or could obtain
without stealing it.
Now... I am a human being... who cares.
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September 6, 2009 - Sunday
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As many of you know, Shannon's
clemency hearing was September 3rd. A very dear friend of Shannon's and
I attended. I would like to thank him for being there and I must say
that he spoke passionately, honestly and eloquently. I found myself
choking back tears, several times, as I listened to him speak about
Shannon and how far this sweet, compassionate, smart young man has
come. We were made aware of the verdict immediately and I will leave that for Shannon to share: to be posted at a later date. ~ Moderator.
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August 18, 2009 - Tuesday
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August 17, 2009
Today my
best friend stepped through the prison gates. No handcuffs or chains.
No guards escorting him. No orange garb. Today Tony became a free man.
For years, other orangemen
were amazed that two people so different got along so good. We don't
know how or why this is so. It just is. My general pessimism. His
general optimism. His strong faith in God. My fragile trust in the
intangible and the faith-based. My rocky history. His fruitful history.
Our differences are apparent. Yet, we are so well matched and
inseparable that is is uncanny.
Contrary to our obvious
differences, Tony and I share much in common, and our personalities
really compliment each other. He is my first and only male best friend.
I've always had female best friends, which for the most part were
always emotionally draining. I'm heterosexual, thus heartache was
always the result. But I never let many women close to me, let along a
guy.
I am happy that Tony has gotten out. I truly am.
Unfortunately, he left me here. Although I have friends, none I confide
in and can openly communicate with regularly like I did with him. This
is two best friends I've lost while in prison. First Pixie, now Tony.
"I'll write you ", "We're still friends", "I won't forget you", are all things I've been told. All bullshit lipservice,
which has proved to only irritate me and leave me hurt and jaded. I
hope that Tony will be there after my release, and I'll try to trust
that he won't forget me and move on without me.
I'll do all I
can to make sure Tony succeeds at restarting his life, just as I'll try
to give him the benefit of the doubt. I will worry about him, because
that's what I do...worry and stress. Similarly, I know he will worry
about me.
If you're reading this, Tony, you're my best friend
and the brother I never had (or thought I wanted). I've been lucky to
have met you and I WILL see you again when my time
comes to join you in society. Don't be a stranger and if you need
me...I've got your back. Oh yeah, don't forget...I want a small BBQ
with a couple of friends. If you bring the vegetables-I'll bring the
turkey hotdogs! LOL.
Chris, take care of our friend and help him re acclimate
back into society. It's a big culture shock switching instantly from
prison life to life outside. I know this from experiencing it
first-hand. Keep him busy, even if it's shooting darts every night and
karaoke on weekends. Get him some work to do. Try not to suddenly
surround him with new people. Socializing immediately with throngs of
people after nearly 5 years of prison's social atmosphere is shocking,
too. Again, I know this first-hand. It's highly stressful and very
uncomfortable. Gradually help him come out of his shell. And finally,
teach him how to get online and to locate fantastic websites. Namely
mine! LOL.
July 17, 2009
Earlier tonight there was a major power outage at the Manzanita unit. A potentially catastrophic failure.
At around 7 PM, the power on the Manzanita
unit went out. No lights. No air. No computerized door locks. No power
gates. Nothing! The entire unit went black! Not even a perimeter fence
light illuminated the 500 man unit.
Approximately 120 prisoners
were on the recreation field, on smoke breaks, in religious services,
and working in the kitchen when the power failed. The back-up generator
sputtered and chugged laboriously. Then nothing. the power went on and
off four or five times within the first 20 minutes. Strangely, the yard
wasn't placed under lock-down immediately.
At around 7:30 pm, the unit was placed on lockdown and all prisoners were locked into their dorms.
Problem:
There were approximately 500 prisoners locked into dorms, built for
half that population. With NO air! NO lights! NO televisions! NO
nothing! It was so hot (humid) and dark in the dorms. Guys were
succumbing to the heat, and secondary emergency responses were called.
In addition, the water was off too due to the electricity. NO toilets!
NO showers! NO drinking water! And the guards failed to bring us water.
This situation turned out okay, in that nobody died, was killed or assaulted, or escaped. However, ADOC's response to this potentially catastrophic incident was one of confusion, panic and negligence.
Coincidentally, Cimmeron unit has had similar outages in the past month or so. Is it truly wise for legislators to cut building maintenance budgets, staff, etc, and continue to warehouse prisoners unnecessarily in these unconstitutional conditions?
I
guess they (lawmakers) are just too blinded by their own agendas to see
the serious threat to the public and the prison system THEY are
creating with their deliberately indifferent lawmaking. When I say
"THEY", I mean the Republicans and select Democrats who recently shot
down the "idea" of releasing "some" prisoners early.
I am biased
though. I'm one of those who could have been released early. Maybe AZ
taxpayers would prefer this ridiculous spending and putting the ax to
all other agencies (K-12, State Parks, etc.). What do you think?
July 12, 2009
Today
Tony's friend Chris came to visit him. It was a surprise and Tony was
just dozing off when the guard called for him to report to visitation.
Since his ex-girlfriend suddenly quit writing and visiting without any
explanation, he'd given up on receiving mail or visits. Luckily, his
daughter often visits Tony's mom and he's been able to keep in touch
with his baby girl. It's such a harsh, heart-breaking way to do a
person, I can assure you! (bygones)
Tony needed this visit
badly. Aside from his missing ex stresses, prison stresses, again
stresses (He turns 41 tomorrow), he has growing stress about his
release. He has 45 days left! Chris helped alleviate some of his
worries about him getting out.
It's been nearly 5 years since he
has been out, and has no clothes, no job waiting, no money, and will be
at his mom's home temporarily.
We've tried the best we can from in here to get him ready. He's currently in Mr. Jeffrey's Pre-release
class and I've arranged fro him to have some money to help him get on
his feet. He still needs some clothing to be released in, a ride form
Tucson to Phoenix, and a couple of good friends to be there for him,
like I've tried to while we've been locked up.
After Chris' visit today, Tony knows that Chris is going to make sure he has
a ride home, will help the best he can to get him a job, and he'll be
there for him when he needs a friend, just like he use to years ago.
Tony still worries, but it's unavoidable. Only somebody who has been
locked up- can fully understand what it's like getting out and all of
the worrying before that day you walk out the gate. I know it.
If
anybody out there would like to help Tony with clothing for his release
he could really use anything you'll donate. His sizes are as
follows...Pants: 36/34, Shirts: XL, Shoes: 9 1/2 Sox
& boxers-shorts. To obtain his mailing address for a donation,
please email my blog moderator and she will privately send it to you.
*Chris* Take care of our friend Tony. I get out in about 2 1/2 years and he owes me a good BBQ cookout for my release party.
July 9, 2009 Legislative Lecture with Phil Lopes Written by inmate Shannon Clark, Manzanita Unit, ADOC Tucson On the web, http://shannoninprison.blogspot.com
Today
Representative Phil Lopes, a Democrat from Tucson’s District 27, came
to the Manzanita Unit to offer the prisoners a lecture on Arizona’s
legislative process, the budget crisis, and the ADOC’s budget woes.
Rep.
Lopes, a 7 year veteran of the Arizona House of Representatives, and an
energetic, enthusiastic and straight-shooting speaker did an excellent
job getting through to the two dozen or so inmates and answering
questions. Two ladies from our programs department, and Dr. Shapiro
were also there and asked their own questions. Dr. Shapiro, our
Creative Writing Instructor, helped set up the lecture.
Rep.
Lopes was down to earth, and helped us put a human face to Arizona “law
makers”. Many of us imprisoned picture an old, fat, white guy in a suit
and tie, stuffy and narrow-minded when we try to imagine a legislator.
We imagine somebody who fears and despises convicted felons. This
stereotypical mold in our minds was shattered by Rep. Lopes.
In
short, Rep. Lopes explained his job in the House, the process itself,
his Republican counterpart’s role in the process, the disastrous state
we are currently in, how we got here, Napolitano’s role in our current
situation, as well as Brewer’s.
In my opinion, the Republican
dominated House, and Senate, since 1966, have put us in a downward
spiral with their preconceived ideas and ideologies, which have not
been effective for decades. To the Republican Majority’s disbelief and
outrage, Governor Brewer stood her ground this year and defied them in
vetoing their budget bills for vital Arizona agencies, and called a
special session to fix the budget, which will be nearly 8 billion in
deficit next year.
Republican lawmakers ideology prevents them
from two key budget fixes. Releasing some of the prison population and
changing Arizona’s criminal sentencing statutes, and raising taxes.
Both of these things would be an effective fix to our state’s financial
crisis. Income taxes being raised slightly would boost the General Fund
and sentencing reform would significantly decrease spending on
Corrections, while still protecting public safety. Unfortunately, those
in power bullheadedly won’t consider these true fixes, let alone put it
to a vote. They’d prefer to cut, cut, cut, and cut some more, and “fix”
nothing.
Rep. Lopes reaffirmed my belief that Republicans in
Arizona’s House and Senate are too stubborn to waiver from ideologies
that are proven wrong when he said that they believe “that criminals
can’t victimize the public if they are in prison”. This statement is
the Republican’s ideology of lock them up and throw away the key.
What
I understood from this lecture is that AZ’s Republican lawmakers want
lower taxes, a smaller government and to lock up everybody who commits
a crime. Three things that are counterproductive to one another, as
well as economically destructive to the state.
The state’s
General Fund is mainly supplied by Arizona tax dollars. The General
Fund provides the budgets for the state’s governmental agencies,
including ADOC, and other state funded programs. Arizona has one of the
lowest tax rates in the US and Republican lawmakers have vowed never to
raise them. Although they have and will attach “fees” to certain
activities, which for all intents and purposes are a taxation. In
recent times, Arizona’s citizens are being layed off and forced to seek
work elsewhere due to many businesses, agencies, companies, etc.,
down-sizing and/or going under. Less tax revenue is going into
Arizona’s General Fund.
Lawmakers continue to stand by their
terrible triple tenets, as the General Fund declines, in turn forcing
them to cut budgets and funding, causing more job losses, less tax
revenue, etc.
Keeping with their “lock them up” sentiment, the
prison population continues to expand rapidly, as does the ADOC’s
budget. With few areas left to dole out budget cuts, without completely
shutting down agencies and vital programs, lawmakers shave ADOC’s
budget-which is nearly $1 billion-but instead of releasing some
non-dangerous, minimum custody prisoners a few months early, ADOC is
forced to let go some of its employees, again, more tax revenue not
going in the general fund.
I know Republicans, Democrats and the
fabled Independents, are all human and fallible. I respect them as my
fellow man. But I don’t understand how and why Arizona’s Republican
lawmakers continue to wear blinders while their constituents and fellow
citizens lives continue to spiral downward into poverty and desperation
because of their choices to ignore the three pink elephants in their
chambers.
Rep. Lopes’ lecture was fantastic and very much
appreciated by Manzanita unit prisoners. I was impressed with the mere
fact that he was willing to come inside a state prison, on his own
time, without compensation, to teach a few dozen men who have in
essence been deemed inconsequential and disenfranchised. Maybe next
lecture Dr. Shapiro can arrange for a Republican lawmaker to visit his
local state prison.
Thank you, Rep. Lopes, for taking the time
to come down to Manzanita unit. Thank you, Dr. Shapiro, once again
you’ve come up with another fantastic lecture for your students and
Manzanita prisoners.July 9, 2009
July 8th, 2009
Today I was called into Deputy Warden Aguilar's office again by Sgt. Abelowitz
and Aguilar. It was about my blogging again, but had a different tone
this time. Both the Sgt. and Deputy Warden were cordial and
professional.
The conversation began with recognition that the
meeting was not intended in any way to attempt to infringe on my
constitutionally protected First Amendment right to write the blogs,
and they further acknowledged that it was not regarding "how" I was
posting my blogs-as previously they suspected I was posting from a
computer "inside prison" instead of via 3rd parties outside utilizing a
pen, paper and postage stamps. This time it was a reasonable and
cordial request or suggestion.
In a recent blog, I mentioned that I found a Food Factory COII to be "hot". Although it was an offhanded comment and not the subject of the blog, it ruffled ADOC
feather a bit. It was my opinion, but after I'd been politely
confronted, I agree that her true name should not have been used and
I'm taking steps to correct this oversight.
D.W. Aguilar and Sgt. Abelowitz
also let me know that comments were intercepted from my mail from this
posting and others. This was done so without any notice to me, as
policy requires, and was not returned to me or returned to sender, as
also policy says. I suspect that it was simply an oversight on ADOC's
part and my U.S. mail will be given to me, but I will pursue this
further as a grievance unless my mail is given to me because THAT is
another constitutionally protected right I have, also guaranteed under
the 1st amendment.
As for the comment about COII W. and today's meeting with the D.W. and Sgt., I was and am impressed with their concern for COII W. and their willingness to call on it. My apology to her.
One thing which I tried to assure Mr. Aguilar and Mr. Abelowitz is that like the other females working alongside the orangemen
in the Food Factory, in brown or white, Ms. W. is safe with our crew.
Myself and the crew are opposed to hurting women and would defend them.
Brown and white shirts alike. Not all of us in the orange are rapists
and many of us love, respect and will defend women. I,for one, would
never sit by while anybody hurt a woman. I have a mother. Sister.
Niece. And many women friends. I couldn't sit by idly...
My
apology to all those who left comments to the past two or three entries
which may have required a response. I never received the hard-copy of
your comments, and don't know whether this mail will be found and given
to me.
All comments are cut and pasted into a document and
sent to Shannon every couple of months. It is a time-consuming detail
to being a blog administrator. Perhaps some of you might consider snail
mailing your comments to Shannon to save me the trouble of resending or
causing a problem with ADOC. Thanks so much! Blog administrator
June 27, 2009
The facts are still unclear, but what is clear is that my warnings on this blog of serious consequences of short staffing, over-crowding, tensions, etc. continue to come to fruition daily.
Today the Tucson Prison Complex is back on lockdown. Actually, the entire complex has been under lockdown since yesterday evening. Only hours after being off lockdown from the violence at Rincon
unit, with additional staff there from all other units leaving those
units undermanned, the Santa Rita unit exploded. Based on news reports
and word of mouth, here's what happened at the Santa Rita unit. Another
unit housing hundreds of Medium custody prisoners with crimes ranging
from Theft, Burglary and Drug dealing to Assault, Attempted Murder and
Murder.
The Mexican Nationals and Mexican Americans are warring. They have been for years. That's common knowledge amongst ADOC
and its population. The nationals, for all intents and purposes, have
been separated from the Mexican Americans for some time. Recently, that
practice was stopped by ADOC. Due to legal and financial reasons. (Over-crowded units cannot afford empty beds due to ethnic segregation practices).
The tents on Santa Rita unit erupted in ethnic violence yesterday. Approximately fifty orangemen began fighting amongst each other, some wielding home-made weapons (shanks, broken bromm sticks, etc.). After some time, about 30 prisoners were injured and six seriously. No correctional
officers were injured, but I suspect this is only because none were
willing to put themselves in harm's way this time. That and they were significantly out-numbered. I hope that the future uprisings; and there will be more, are met with little resistance from CO's. before their reinforcements
arrive. It's only a job! I hate it when their bravado or ignorance gets
them hurt of even worse. Fifty angry inmates fighting with
weapons...cannot be stopped by a handful of CO's! Let them fight until sufficient back-up arrives! Don't play super CO! Run!
It's
painfully obvious that these incident will continue to happen more and
more on medium and maximum prison units state-wide until ADOC,
the Governor and lawmakers fix the over-crowding and short staffing
problems by freeing the non-violent, minimum population early. Not only
would this free up thousands of beds and save the state millions of tax
dollars, it would free up COs to staff understaffed units that could potentially explode in violence any second.
Rumor has it that Gov. Brewer herself ordered the statewide lockdown of all prison units for the weekend. An acknowledgement of her knowledge of what is happening. Also, an indication of her disregard if no changes are ordered by her!
June 23, 2009 Today the entire Tucson prison complex was on lock-down. There was a significant uprising at the Medium Security Rincon Unit. The following is based on local television news reports, correctional officers' statements, and witnesses' accounts. At around 7:30 am in the Rincon
Unit dining room, multiple inmates (Mexican Nationals vs Mexican
Americans) began fighting with each other. The violence spilled out of
the chow hall onto the yard increasing in size. It's believed weapons
were involved as well. Prison guards were forced to get involved. Witnesses
at the Tucson Food Factory and the local news spied a convoy of Tucson
Fire Department trucks and Ambulances enter the prison complex and
later exit. Many were injured in this unfortunate incident. Nine correctional officers and three orangemen needed medical attention and were transported to the hospital by Tucson Fire. Once again, incidents like this are, and will continue to be, on the rise in ADOC. I blame overcrowding, short staffing, tensions, and just plain stupidity and ignorance. It's sad that orangemen and brown shirts are paying dearly for certain peoples' bad decisions and piss-poor ideologies. I blame orangemen, top ADOC Administrators and Arizona law-makers. Something has to give...changes are needed. It should be noted that Shannon has predicted this state of affairs for a long time now. Blog Administrator
May 22, 2009 In response to an anonymous commentator wanting more prison war stories ("The Dirt") and less advocacy and correctional facts ("Politics"): I
created this blog to: (a) speak my mind, (b) show society where, what
and who their tax dollars are going to, (c) advocate for rehab, reform
and change in corrections, courts and society regarding felons,
prisoners and the views many in society have about them, (e) prevent
others from following in the footsteps that landed me in prison, and
lastly (f) entertainment (Mine, not yours! LOL). (But I'd have to say we are entertained, Shannon...blog administrator).I would like all who read to get something from what I write, but I can't and won't attempt to please the few and turn my back on the many while compromising my intentions and
cause. I'd be no better than many of today's politicians, were I to do
this. I don't want to lose any readers, but if it's only war stories
you want to read, then you'd be better served elsewhere. Buh-Bye now. Special thanks to Pixie, pUnKhair2 Nv (so we meet! hello), Jeff, Jennifer, and Chris for your comments and support. You are all great and much appreciated.
July 17, 2009
Earlier tonight there was a major power outage at the Manzanita unit. A potentially catastrophic failure.
At around 7 PM, the power on the Manzanita
unit went out. No lights. No air. No computerized door locks. No power
gates. Nothing! The entire unit went black! Not even a perimeter fence
light illuminated the 500 man unit.
Approximately 120 prisoners
were on the recreation field, on smoke breaks, in religious services,
and working in the kitchen when the power failed. The back-up generator
sputtered and chugged laboriously. Then nothing. the power went on and
off four or five times within the first 20 minutes. Strangely, the yard
wasn't placed under lock-down immediately.
At around 7:30 pm, the unit was placed on lockdown and all prisoners were locked into their dorms.
Problem:
There were approximately 500 prisoners locked into dorms, built for
half that population. With NO air! NO lights! NO televisions! NO
nothing! It was so hot (humid) and dark in the dorms. Guys were
succumbing to the heat, and secondary emergency responses were called.
In addition, the water was off too due to the electricity. NO toilets!
NO showers! NO drinking water! And the guards failed to bring us water.
This situation turned out okay, in that nobody died, was killed or assaulted, or escaped. However, ADOC's response to this potentially catastrophic incident was one of confusion, panic and negligence.
Coincidentally, Cimmeron unit has had similar outages in the past month or so. Is it truly wise for legislators to cut building maintenance budgets, staff, etc, and continue to warehouse prisoners unnecessarily in these unconstitutional conditions?
I
guess they (lawmakers) are just too blinded by their own agendas to see
the serious threat to the public and the prison system THEY are
creating with their deliberately indifferent lawmaking. When I say
"THEY", I mean the Republicans and select Democrats who recently shot
down the "idea" of releasing "some" prisoners early.
I am biased
though. I'm one of those who could have been released early. Maybe AZ
taxpayers would prefer this ridiculous spending and putting the ax to
all other agencies (K-12, State Parks, etc.). What do you think?
July 12, 2009
Today
Tony's friend Chris came to visit him. It was a surprise and Tony was
just dozing off when the guard called for him to report to visitation.
Since his ex-girlfriend suddenly quit writing and visiting without any
explanation, he'd given up on receiving mail or visits. Luckily, his
daughter often visits Tony's mom and he's been able to keep in touch
with his baby girl. It's such a harsh, heart-breaking way to do a
person, I can assure you! (bygones)
Tony needed this visit
badly. Aside from his missing ex stresses, prison stresses, again
stresses (He turns 41 tomorrow), he has growing stress about his
release. He has 45 days left! Chris helped alleviate some of his
worries about him getting out.
It's been nearly 5 years since he
has been out, and has no clothes, no job waiting, no money, and will be
at his mom's home temporarily.
We've tried the best we can from in here to get him ready. He's currently in Mr. Jeffrey's Pre-release
class and I've arranged fro him to have some money to help him get on
his feet. He still needs some clothing to be released in, a ride form
Tucson to Phoenix, and a couple of good friends to be there for him,
like I've tried to while we've been locked up.
After Chris' visit today, Tony knows that Chris is going to make sure he has
a ride home, will help the best he can to get him a job, and he'll be
there for him when he needs a friend, just like he use to years ago.
Tony still worries, but it's unavoidable. Only somebody who has been
locked up- can fully understand what it's like getting out and all of
the worrying before that day you walk out the gate. I know it.
If
anybody out there would like to help Tony with clothing for his release
he could really use anything you'll donate. His sizes are as
follows...Pants: 36/34, Shirts: XL, Shoes: 9 1/2 Sox
& boxers-shorts. To obtain his mailing address for a donation,
please email my blog moderator and she will privately send it to you.
*Chris* Take care of our friend Tony. I get out in about 2 1/2 years and he owes me a good BBQ cookout for my release party.
July 9, 2009 Legislative Lecture with Phil Lopes Written by inmate Shannon Clark, Manzanita Unit, ADOC Tucson On the web, http://shannoninprison.blogspot.com
Today
Representative Phil Lopes, a Democrat from Tucson’s District 27, came
to the Manzanita Unit to offer the prisoners a lecture on Arizona’s
legislative process, the budget crisis, and the ADOC’s budget woes.
Rep.
Lopes, a 7 year veteran of the Arizona House of Representatives, and an
energetic, enthusiastic and straight-shooting speaker did an excellent
job getting through to the two dozen or so inmates and answering
questions. Two ladies from our programs department, and Dr. Shapiro
were also there and asked their own questions. Dr. Shapiro, our
Creative Writing Instructor, helped set up the lecture.
Rep.
Lopes was down to earth, and helped us put a human face to Arizona “law
makers”. Many of us imprisoned picture an old, fat, white guy in a suit
and tie, stuffy and narrow-minded when we try to imagine a legislator.
We imagine somebody who fears and despises convicted felons. This
stereotypical mold in our minds was shattered by Rep. Lopes.
In
short, Rep. Lopes explained his job in the House, the process itself,
his Republican counterpart’s role in the process, the disastrous state
we are currently in, how we got here, Napolitano’s role in our current
situation, as well as Brewer’s.
In my opinion, the Republican
dominated House, and Senate, since 1966, have put us in a downward
spiral with their preconceived ideas and ideologies, which have not
been effective for decades. To the Republican Majority’s disbelief and
outrage, Governor Brewer stood her ground this year and defied them in
vetoing their budget bills for vital Arizona agencies, and called a
special session to fix the budget, which will be nearly 8 billion in
deficit next year.
Republican lawmakers ideology prevents them
from two key budget fixes. Releasing some of the prison population and
changing Arizona’s criminal sentencing statutes, and raising taxes.
Both of these things would be an effective fix to our state’s financial
crisis. Income taxes being raised slightly would boost the General Fund
and sentencing reform would significantly decrease spending on
Corrections, while still protecting public safety. Unfortunately, those
in power bullheadedly won’t consider these true fixes, let alone put it
to a vote. They’d prefer to cut, cut, cut, and cut some more, and “fix”
nothing.
Rep. Lopes reaffirmed my belief that Republicans in
Arizona’s House and Senate are too stubborn to waiver from ideologies
that are proven wrong when he said that they believe “that criminals
can’t victimize the public if they are in prison”. This statement is
the Republican’s ideology of lock them up and throw away the key.
What
I understood from this lecture is that AZ’s Republican lawmakers want
lower taxes, a smaller government and to lock up everybody who commits
a crime. Three things that are counterproductive to one another, as
well as economically destructive to the state.
The state’s
General Fund is mainly supplied by Arizona tax dollars. The General
Fund provides the budgets for the state’s governmental agencies,
including ADOC, and other state funded programs. Arizona has one of the
lowest tax rates in the US and Republican lawmakers have vowed never to
raise them. Although they have and will attach “fees” to certain
activities, which for all intents and purposes are a taxation. In
recent times, Arizona’s citizens are being layed off and forced to seek
work elsewhere due to many businesses, agencies, companies, etc.,
down-sizing and/or going under. Less tax revenue is going into
Arizona’s General Fund.
Lawmakers continue to stand by their
terrible triple tenets, as the General Fund declines, in turn forcing
them to cut budgets and funding, causing more job losses, less tax
revenue, etc.
Keeping with their “lock them up” sentiment, the
prison population continues to expand rapidly, as does the ADOC’s
budget. With few areas left to dole out budget cuts, without completely
shutting down agencies and vital programs, lawmakers shave ADOC’s
budget-which is nearly $1 bil
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June 4, 2009 - Thursday
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May 16, 2009 The following computer generated posting was affixed to the bulletin boards in all Manzanita unit dorms above the microwaves: MICROWAVE ETIQUETTE Please do not allow the microwave to "Ding" or "Bing". Remove your item BEFORE the time has run out. Please clean up after yourself EACH AND EVERY TIME you use the microwave. Please cover ALL OF YOUR FOOD to avoid making a mess or damaging the microwave. Please DON'T SLAM THE DOOR as there are people who must live right next to the microwave. Please do not attempt to dry your boxers or socks in the microwave. (ESPECIALLY YOUR BOXERS). Please BE RESPECTFUL in the way you treat the microwave as that it will last. THANK YOU!!!!!! ROFLMAO!! I live in the bed right next to the microwave. It's literally two feet from my head! I've yet to see the micro-drying, but I've seen stranger things in prison.
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May 28, 2009 - Thursday
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May 14, 2009
Today, the Manzanita unit awoke to a complex-wide lock-down. Within minutes we orangemen had the story. Whether the details are accurate, only two orangemen involved know for sure.
Around 8:30 pm last night (inmate headcount) guards noticed that two inmates were missing from the Cimmaron unit, a High Medium Unit located inside the Tucson Prison complexes' perimeter fence. Ironically, for this reason, AZ's sex offenders, murderers, violent offenders, etc. are supposed to be kept behind no less than two security fences, such as inside the complex. VERY SMART.
Hours later, the pair was found hiding out in a ditch. Still inside the complexes' perimeter. Due to the large size of the complex, with its open fields, marsh-like swaths of land and its own wildlife, including water fowl, I suspect they thought they'd escaped. LOL
Last I heard, Former Manzanita Deputy Warden Bradley was now at Cimmaron unit replacing Manzanita unit's current Deputy Warden after fatally violent incidents occured there.
Manzanita unit, despite not being inside the complexes' perimeter fence, has 300 plus medium securitys, including sex offenders, murderers, lifers, etc., being housed with 80 plus minimum security, non-violent or dangerous short-timers, including myself.
Apparently, based on statements by Manzanita staff and Director Ryan made to me and other minimums here, this breach of inmate and public safety is former Director Schriro's doing and due to budgetary reason is not likely to be remedied.
*NOTICE TO PUBLIC*
Manzanita unit administrators, Tucson Complex administrators, and ADOC Central Office top administrators have been formally and informally informed of what's going on here. For months now they have all failed to act, with deliberate indifference.
Arizona Civil Liberties Union Legal Director, Daniel Pochoda, is apprised of the situation here too.
Who is responsible for insuring public and inmate safety??
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May 22, 2009 - Friday
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In prison, I've spent many hours thinking of the past. I've tried not to dwell on it and beat myself up. I wasn't always a good man. I have my regrets, as well as misfortunes.
I've noticed lately that the more I've been able to forgive myself and deal with my ghosts and skeletons, the happier I am-even in these conditions-and the more fond memories I recall. Recently, one such memory came back. It was nearly 25 years ago.
It was 1985-86. It was a 5th grade dance. The Snowball. Grandview Middle School. Her name was Kristen Fincher. My first crush. She was popular and the prettiest girl in school in my eyes. I wasn't in the popular crowd and was shy.
I was so nervous when I asked her to dance. She looked so pretty in her dress and I was sure I'd have a heart attack when she accepted.
Never had I danced before, let alone slow danced. I had only seen it done on tv. It was nothing like that. Kristen immediately recognized I had no clue and sweetly showed me what to do, gently placing my hands on her hips and resting hers on my shoulders.
After showing my briefly how we step, we danced the rest of the song.
She was so sweet to me that day. I remember it clearly. I wonder what she's doing these days. I wonder where her life led her. I hope that her life was far less complicated than mine was and that she is successful and happy today. What would she think of the shy little boy she taught to dance today?
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May 19, 2009 - Tuesday
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May 3, 2009 I was beginning to think I was not meant to have a Food Visit. Since earning my way to minimum custody a few years ago, I've continued to try to arrange to get a food visit. I had given in to the possibility that it was never going to happen, when to my joy and surprise it all worked out.
"Clark, you have a visit!" The guard announced in the dorm. Sitting up in my bed, I quickly dressed and headed to the visitation room after Tony, Ironman and a couple of other friends wished me a good food visit. After signing in and a quick pat-search, I entered the crowded visit room, greeted by my good friend Doug's smiling face. A lobbyist in Arizona, Doug is usually at work at the Capitol, on business trips or any number of things that keep him ultra-busy. His visit was a very great gesture for me, as well as a great opportunity for me to hear what's going on in AZ politics, get financial advice, and to shamelessly stuff my face with ridiculous amounts of great food. Seriously, I ate like it was my first meal in over six year! Oh wait...it was. LOL A big bowl of chicken fried rice, 20 shrimp pot stickers, homemade fruit salad, 4 slices of blueberry pie, a pound of trail mix, strawberry fruit bars, a pound of beef jerky, 2 big sticky buns and 2 pounds of fudge. Doug left a couple of fruit bars, a handful of trail mix and a couple squares of fudge. In only 1 1/2 hours time span I tore into it. I must apologize to some of you readers who had to witness my feeding frenzy in visitation, but a guy's gotta do what a guy's gotta do to get fed around this camp. LOL It was also surprising and great to meet and learn that my blog has loyal followers with loved ones here. It was an excellent visit, grand feast and a very good day. I'd like to thank Doug, Tony, Ironman, Sue and all of my friends. I know I am a pain in the ass sometimes, but you guys all got my back and I appreciate it. Now lets get to work on my next food visit. September is closing in...LOL (I hope that these visits aren't cut, but it's not looking good).
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