You stay up for 16 hours

He stays up for days on end.
_________________________

You take a warm shower to help you wake up.

He goes days or weeks without running water.
__________________________

You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.

He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.
__________________________

You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.

He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.
__________________________

You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.

He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.
__________________________

You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.

He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.
__________________________

You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.

He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.
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You complain about how hot it is.

He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.
__________________________

You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.

He doesn't get to eat today.
__________________________

Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.

He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.
__________________________

You go to the mall and get your hair redone.

He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.
__________________________

You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.

He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.
__________________________

You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.

He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.
__________________________

You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.

He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.
__________________________

You roll your eyes as a baby cries.

He gets a letter with pictures of his new child, and wonders if they'll ever meet
__________________________

You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.

He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers why he is fighting.
__________________________

You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.

He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.
__________________________

You see only what the media wants you to see.

He sees the broken bodies lying around him.
__________________________

You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.

He does exactly what he is told.
__________________________

You stay at home and watch TV.

He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.
__________________________

You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.

***

He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.

***
__________________________

You sit there and judge him, saying the world is probably a worse place because of men like him.

If only there were more men like him
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"i remember when"



And here is where we end up.
You went this way and I went that
Yet as if we were in one big circle,
I meet you some where in the middle
And now we're so close, yet so far away
Far away from where we started from
So I'm hanging on by one single thread
The same thread that carries all the memories
And it's funny to think things will never be the same
I'd even say it's a tragedy, and a shame.

I remember when the memories were our moments,
Things were good then.

Again I end up here,
In a place I don't belong in.
For I am not that strong
Not enough to face what has become
Not enough to face my fears and regrets
There are too many in such a dark lonely place
And for some reason escape is no longer and option
Because there are not more exits left for me

I remember when you were my escape,
Things were good then.

All those wishes that were made
On all those stars on the sky,
And all those times on the clocks
Must have never made it
I don't know why exactly,
Perhaps those stars weren't facing my way
And all those clocks were off time
But I'm through with 11:11's and first stars at night.

I remember when wishes came true,
Things were good then.

I guess I becam an option
One that was thrown on the bottom of your list
Or maybe was it that i was forgotten
For something better had struck your eye,
I guess I'm long overdue.

I remember when it was me,
Things were good then.
Yeah, things were good.

Credit to Unconfinedxx, aka Kristen, from LSI for making this amazing poem <333

I am Megan. I'm VERY loud. I'm outgoing and crazy and random and a dreamer. I'm blonde and I act it. And sometimes I'm just plain annoying. I'm not usually a jealous person unless something means a lot to me or I'm afraid of losing it. And most of the time, I don't give a flying fuck what people think of me. As long as I'm with good friends having a great time.
I like writing, reading, and analyzing poetry and trying to understand it. I dress how I want and act how I want. I'm not a prep, emo, goth, etc. I don't have a label and wouldn't be able to define myself even if I wanted to. I don't fit into a "click" and i don't have a certain group of friends. I love ALL my friends. (If you think you're my friend then you're probably right. If you have doubts just ask and I'll tell you. I don't bite. I promise = P )
I can be very shy and quiet (believe it or not = P ) when around new people I don't know if I'm not with friends or when I am in an uncomfortable situation.
Sometimes I am too happy for my own good and I smile WAY too much.
I can't hold a grudge worth shit and it's hard for me to stay mad at certain people. I truly hate only one person and she knows it.

I am insecure. I have trust issues. I can't make a relationship work to save my life because of that.
Sometimes I don't want to. . .
But I've also lost friends because of the insecurity and lack of trust. At times, good friends try to help me or convince me to let them in. I understand that they can only push so far and try so hard. And take so much. Some stop caring. Most simply give up. That's when they become mediocre friends. And sometimes they fade away completely.
Sometimes I trust the wrong people and pick the wrong friends. But I learn and grow. The people who earn my trust and respect are my closest, most valued friends and I'd give the world for them.

I want to be THAT girl. Not that girl just in case. . . I've almost always been the latter.

I am an ocean of secrets. Both ones from myself and ones friends have told me. Knowing these secrets makes me feel significant in that person's life.


Still reading??? GOOD. . . because I'm getting back to my original point. My true friends mean the world to me. A lot of this comes from a dream I had the night before last about myself and friends. And I wanted to let my friends know that, even though I'm difficult, I'll always be here for you. And I hope the same from you.

And last but not least, I am a puzzle to my friends. Everyone knows something different about me, but no one person knows EVERYTHING about me.

I AM A PUZZLE WITH MISSING PIECES.

So here's a question for you to ponder. Now that you know a little bit about me. . .  who are YOU?

1. List twenty things you wish you could say to people but can't. You can list the same people repeatedly.

2. Don't say who they are.

3. Never discuss it again.

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+ I feel like it's my fault even when everyone says it's not. . . always have.

+ I don't know why I'm still friends with you. . . i guess i don't have the balls to tell you to fuck off just yet = /

+ I miss how things used to be. the jokes and the never ending conversations

+ I'll ALWAYS be here for you. Even when i'm mad at you and we're not talking. Just message me and i'll reply. i promise

+ You bring too much drama to my life. i want to be done with you and let shit go

+ I have never hated someone so much in my life. YOU, my dear, take the cake and i hope you burn in hell for all the lies you've told and all the lives you've TRIED to ruin = )

+ I'd date you. . .  but i'm scared to. . . 

+ We're not really that close anymore but i still consider you my best friend. i just wish we'd talk more often

+ you know almost EVERYTHING about me and that scares me. you've told me things about myself that made me break down crying. no one's ever done that or gotten that close. that makes me feel insecure

+ Sometimes i wish circumstances between us were different

+ i honestly think you've never been in love. . . when you actually are tell me. I'll be the first person to congradulate you

+ the only reason i talk to you is because i know if i didn't you'd be even more annoying than you are now = / (and no. . . i'm NOT adding you to my myspace so stop trying)

+ I've known for a while that i'm much better off being independant and free. . . i honestly don't know why i dated you. sorry i never told you

+ you're so immature it pisses me off. . . i want to knock some sense into you most of the time = / 

+ i don't know why i care about you honestly. you don't care about me and you've made that plainly obvious. so i think i'm done with you = )

+ Your friendship means more than the world to me. Id' never tell you that though bc i think i'd look weak to you

+ i can't trust you. never will again. i'll never get close to you like we once were, even though we're still friends

+ i know she likes you but i'm not allowed to say anything = P

+ sometimes you care way too much. i can't handle it so i try to push you away because i think you're trying to run my life. even though i know you're just looking out for me.

+ i look up to you more than you know. even though we barely talk, you're my idol. you always have been but i'm embarrassed to tell you because we've never really been close.

+ for knowing me as long as you have, you know NOTHING about me. . . it makes me want to scream and yell at you. . . but i won't. i don't care what you think of me. you're just a stupid bitch = )

So i was reading through bulletins, like I usually do when i get bored, when i came upon one that really made me think.

My friend, Tabitha, is pretty much the most amazing person ever because she can do that to you. She'll say ONE thing to you and send you into a tizzy thinking about everything.  As i read her survey, there were parts about loving someone that I wanted to share with everyone

1- What's worse- Physical or Mental cheating?

they both are the same to me.. if you see yourself doing it and you want to do it... you have pretty much already done it.

2- Is it easier to forgive or forget?

I don't think you can forgive until you forget... it's a part of the process... in order to completely forgive someone you have to let it go..

3- Can men and women be "Just Friend"?

yes... but most of the time single men and women can't just be friends.

8- When you are "In Love" do you notice other people?

nope... you aren't in love if you do... because no one else is as good as what you have.. so they all just don't really exist in that aspect anymore.

9- Is flirting cheating?

ehh... flirting with intentions maybe? sometimes people take 'being nice' as flirting.. but if you are all up on someone and trying to get them bothered, it's no good.

12- Are you ok with your significant other being friends with an ex?

yes, but we follow the rule, 'don't do anything you wouldn't want me doing'... so haha you know.

18- Friends with benefits?

nope

51- Would you date an already attached man/ woman?

no way.

rockon

tabitha

makes you think about your current relationship. . .  doesn't it?

Read This: and think about it...

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.

And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
 
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Carpe diem!! Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped
make you the person that you are today.