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Monday, December 14, 2009 
I am really touched by the number of people who have been inspired by The Misunderstood God.  It amazes me how many people write me and say, “Thank you for putting into words what has always been on my heart.” It is being confirmed over and over in me that thebookrevelation of The Misunderstood God is something that is already alive in the hearts of people everywhere.  
There are several areas in the book that I knew would be a theological challenge for people who have been steeped in religion. I expected criticism in these areas and my critics haven’t let me down.  
On page 97 and 98 under the heading “Love is Not Self Seeking” I talk about why Christ died. I basically make the statement that a “sin offering” is not made to God, but to sin. I go on to describe sin as a beast who wants to devour you. Imagine camping with your family and you come across a grizzly bear. You had better have bearan offering for that bear, or it’s you he will devour. Christ basically threw himself in front of the beast of sin and allowed it to devour him instead of us. He saves us from sin.  
Modern day Christianity has twisted the story around to mean something entirely different. Today we’re told that God was so enraged over our singifts that He had to kill someone. That someone was gonna be us because we deserved it. We had it coming. Because God also loved us, He sent His only Son so God could kill Him in our place. Jesus supposedly “paid the price” to God for our sins. 
With a theology like that it’s no wonder people cower away from intimacy with God. We’re told that He wants to be our loving Father, but that rings pretty hollow when you look at what He did to his first Son. I’m not sure I want a Father who killed His one and only Son so that He could forgive us.  
The critics have an issue with me giving sin an identity in the illustration of the beast. Speaking about sin as though it’s a living beast that could require an offering to appease it and keep it from killing us doesn’t seem to be biblical. They’ve said that sin is, “Missing the mark,” and nothing more. You can’t bring an offering to that. 
In Genesis 4:7 God told Cain, “...... sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it.” 
In John 8:34 Jesus said, “I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin.” 
 
In Romans 6:14 Paul says “For sin shall not be your master, because you are not under law, but under grace."  
In Romans 7:8-11 Paul says: “....For apart from law, sin is dead........... but when the commandment came, sin sprang to life and I died............For sin, seizing the opportunity afforded by the commandment, deceived me, and through the commandment put me to death.”  
Paul takes it a step further in Romans 7:14 and says that we’re actually, “Sold as a slave to sin.” 
Each of these passages clearly gives sin an identity that far exceeds our simple definition of merely missing the mark. When you look atJames 1:14-15 it gets even more descriptive. 
“Each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.” 
The next point that the critics make is that I say that a “sin offering” is not made to God, but to sin.  
Usually they’ll use a bible program and pull up a thousand verses in Leviticus where all the sacrifice procedures are given for the temple. They’ll see the words, “bring it unto the sinLord” or something like that, and immediately take that to mean that the offering was  to God so that He would overlook their sins and refrain from killing them one more day.  
If you really think about that theology, it doesn’t follow through very nicely. What we’re saying is that God set up a system where people could pay Him off when they sinned. It’s like God was selling indulgences long before the Catholic church ever came up with it. This is silly on several levels. First off, it implies that there is a price in God’s mind that would make sin worth it for Him. If that price was paid to God, He would be satisfied and the sin wouldn’t matter anymore.  
Know this; to God there is nothing in this world that would ever make sin worth it. Sin takes from people. It depletes them and leaves them hollow and empty. It strips people of their identity and basically devours their bodies. God would NEVER put a price on that because there is no price that would make it okay for Him. It would be like me agreeing tome allow a man to molest one of my children for the right price. There is NO price that I would accept for that.  
Yes, it appears that the people in the Old Testament brought their “sin offerings” to God, but it wasn’t an offering that was “for” God. The sin offering was “for” sin. In other words, God didn’t accept the offering and overlook sin because the price was right. He took the “sin offering” and gave it to sin. 
It's interesting to note the amount of times in the Old Testament where it says to take the sin offering outside the camp and burn it. It’s almost as though God were saying, “I don’t even want it mixed in with my stuff, take it away and burn it.”
The real answer as to whether a sin offering is for God or for sin, is answered when the truth is revealed in the New Testament. When we read that “when sin is full grown, it gives birth to death” we begin to see that it was sin itself that kills and therefore the slaying of the animal in the Old Testament was to the one who required your life; sin. If scripture said, “when sin is full grown, God will give the sinner the death penalty,” we would know for sure that the Old Testament “sin offering” was meant to appease God. It wasn’t that way though.  
The issue wasn’t how to put God’s inevitable wrath on the sinner off another day. It was, how to keep sins inevitable devouring nature satisfied until the time of Christ in order to save the life of the person. This is almost the complete opposite of what most of us have been taught.  
 
So who was it that killed Christ? Was it God or was it sin? 
After reading that several people had labeled me a heretic for believing the way I do, I said to my wife, “Where were these people when The Chronicles of Narnia movie came narniaout?” Surprisingly, I didn’t hear any Christians picketing or bashing, The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe movie, and it literally depicted exactly what I stated in my book. If you saw the movie, you’ll recall that Edmund had screwed up with the witch and she reminded Aslan about her right to have the boy’s life because of his offense. Aslan met with the witch and agreed to take Edmund's place.  
Who was it that killed Aslan? Was it God? NO! Aslan went to the dark side and the witch and all her evil creatures tortured and killed him. That was a perfect picture of what I’m stating in my book. The bible says, “The wages of sin is death,” not “The wages of God is death if you sin.” The wages are paid to SIN; not to God. 
The rest of Scripture points this way as well. If we look at theJames 1:14-15 verses it clearly shows the progression of it. 
“Each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.”   
It is SIN that gives birth to death. It was SIN that killed Christ; NOT GOD.  
Romans 6:10 puts it so simply and beautifully: 
“The death he died, he died to sin once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God.” 

Monday, November 23, 2009 
I have found that the scales and measuring rods that we relied upon in the past are of no use in this new world of the wild. It’s kind of like when a bus driver asks a pilot how many miles it is from Arizona to Kansas City. The pilot naturally thinks in nautical-miles whilescalethe bus driver listens with a street-miles mindset. When he drives for twelve hours and passes the number of miles the pilot gave him and realizes he is still in Colorado, he feels deceived and lied to. 
What is true and right in one world may be silly in another. One of the major keys to finding truth in this life comes through knowing what world we are speaking from and from what world the person we are speaking to is listening from. Sadly, I’ve found that most people cannot identify either.  
I was once informed by a specialist that I was a heroin addict and needed treatment right away. The person who diagnosed me asked if I thought I had a problem with heroin. I said, “Definitely not!” He gave me a knowing look and explained that denial is one of the first signs that a person is a full-fledged addict. It also happens to be the first response from someone who has never taken heroin in his life, which was the case with me. When people attempt to translate life with the measuring devices from their personal world, they become a spiritual bull in a china closet.  
I think one of the funniest passages in the New Testament was when Paul informed the Corinthians that Satan masquerades as an angel of light. Not many angel sightings happened after that comment, did they? I’ve always felt sorry for the angels who happened to overhear Paul’s unfortunate analogy two-thousand years ago. I picture them rolling their eyes and saying, “Gee....... THANKS A LOT PAUL!” Yes, Satan may masquerade as an angel of light, but angels of light also appear as angels of light. At least they used to. 
The world of religion that I grew up in was measured by principles that were created by and applied to a group of people who held to a bunch of ideas but didn’t know for sure that any measureof them were true. That was the religious world of institutional Christianity we all lived in. Everything about God and Jesus was stuff we all read about and passed along stories about, but none of us had ever actually met either of them in person, so we didn’t know any of this stuff first hand. Home group meetings consisted of people throwing out their latest ideas about God and trying with all their might to present them in a way that fits with the stuff the rest of the folks hold to.
Because of the condition of our religious existence, we measured things like humility and maturity by a specific set of principles. We determined whether or not a person was teachable, arrogant, haughty, rebellious, argumentative or closed-minded based on that same set of principles. If a person claimed to know anything about God for certain, they were considered to be arrogant and close-minded because of their unwillingness to open their hearts to other possibilities of truth that people had to offer. To speak with any degree of certainty about something that no one else in the room could know for sure was a clear sign that a person had an unteachable, haughty spirit. If person “A” made a claim about God and person “B” said,scals“You are wrong about that”, it was considered closed-minded and spiritually immature for person “A” to stand up for what he said and not back down.  Anyone who disagreed with something the pastor said about God was immediately labeled as "not submitting to spiritual authority".   
Because everything was subjective in the religious world and based on interpretation, the scale in which we judged people’s spirituality was marked by the amount of hours they spent studying and praying. Also, the measurement of time that a person has pastorbeen a Christian is taken into account. In a world where no one knows anything for sure, these are fair measurements of rank and seniority.    
The only way to measure such things as who will lead and who will have authority over others was through these methods. At the end of the day it came down to one question; who knew the most about the bible and the doctrine of the church. The person who kept up with their studies and purposed in their heart to memorize large amounts of scripture, was eventually the leader of everyone else. He who studies, leads. 
I said all that to say this: 
Today we live in a completely different world as Free Believers. Today, I sometimes feel like a guy who grew up in Roswell, New Mexico and believed in aliens my whole life, and then finally, one day I was actually abducted by a real alien space ship. You would thinkalien that if you were ever abducted by aliens, Roswell would be the best place for it to happen because everyone there would be more likely to believe your story. I would at least think it would be better than if it happened in Santa Fe or Albuquerque. At least Roswell is full of believers. Surely people there would be ready to listen to and embrace your account of what happened. 
The problem is that Roswell is very much like religion, or that church I used to attend. Everyone believes in aliens like there’s no tomorrow, but no one really knows for sure if they exist. Because of this, you can be certain that the believers in Roswell measure their level of respect for each other by how much they’ve studied, how many books they’ve read, what abduction sites they’ve visited, how long they’ve lived in Roswell and most of all; how many friends they have who actually claim to have seen a UFO. In that environment, these measuring tools are perfect. In fact, there is no better way to measure UFO believers in an environment like that.  
HOWEVER 
shipIF YOU ARE ACTUALLY ABDUCTED by a space ship full of aliens, the people of Roswell CANNOT use ANY of their measuring tools on YOU. Those tools work only for the specific crowd of people they were created for. They only work for people who’ve never been abducted, but believe nonetheless. The measuring tools used for non-abducted believers do not apply to abducted-believers.  
If you were abducted by aliens and you did live in Roswell, I can guarantee you that you will wish you didn’t. People would be furious if any of your experience didn’t match the stuff they’ve read about. They would require you to explain your abduction in the exact same language and dialect as the farmer from 1923 used when he wrote about his abduction in the corn field. If you veer from that in any way, they won’t believe you. There is also going to be a lot of jealousy among believers in Roswell that you won’t find in Albuquerque. In relating your experience to people, you would be held to the same standard of communication that people who had never been abducted hold themselves to when they talk about aliens. If you dare to stand on what you saw with your own eyes, you would ultimately be blackballed from the entire town for not being more humble in your presentation.  
I’ve had people accuse me of being an immature Christian because I won’t back down on certain things. They’ll size me up as being argumentative and as having a spirit that “always has to be right and won’t even consider the opinions of others” when it comes to certain subjects in reference to God’s heart.  Back in my religious days they would be EXACTLY RIGHT. The tools of measuring arrogance work very well for the world of religion christianbut I am no longer in that world and therefore cannot be measured by it’s scales. Unfortunately, many people are still living in those religious days so they have no other tools with which to measure the abducted-Christians.  
Unfortunately, there are many people who are still measuring themselves and others by the pre-abduction religious scales of the past. An abducted-Christian will weigh in as unteachable, arrogant, haughty, and closed-minded when standing on a non-abducted scale. Sadly, we live in a world where there are more non-abducted-Christians than there areabducted-Christians, and because of this we have abducted-Christians trying to speak the language of the majority in order to tilt the scale and get a different reading.  
I sometimes feel that there is a conspiracy among the religious, to shut the mouths of abducted-Christians. Through the use of political correctness, people who have been to the Father are peer-pressured into not speaking from that perspective. They’re made to second-guess what they have seen and what they know, and trade it in for an unsure attitude. At what point are we who have been to the Father going to stand up and unashamedly speak out what we’ve witnessed first hand? I honestly believe that until we do so, things will never change.  
I know what I know, because I’ve witnessed the heart of God first hand. The only thing I will remain unsure of is the thing I’ve not witnessed with my own eyes. When I have witnessed something however, I will stand on what I’ve witnessed and proclaim it loudly, without shame or fear of being perceived as arrogant and unteachable by others. I doknowbelieve that the day is quickly coming where the abducted-Christianswill outnumber the non-abducted. It was that way when the Church began and it will be that way again someday.  
I’m glad that Paul and John never took on the politically correct attitude of today when they spoke of the heart of God. Neither of them ever presented their knowledge of Him as though it may or may not be right. They didn’t act like what they knew was just an idea that they came up with on their own. They stood up and strongly proclaimed what they saw. That is what I am looking for in this generation of Free Believers. Please don’t allow the scales of the religious past to intimidate you or to cause you to re-word what you know about Him. You’re being measured on completely different scales in the wild.

Darin Hufford
Saturday, October 31, 2009 
Several years ago, a young lady who was friends with my wife and I, flew out to Arizona to meet with me personally. She informed me that she felt like God had told her to come to Phoenix and Darin would give her a “word” from the Lord. I’m sure you can imagine the pressure that this type of a set-up puts on someone. Immediately, my mind begins to search frantically for something super spiritual and profound to tell her that would make her trip worth it. In my early years of being a pastor, something like this would make me want to quit my job and move out of the country.
Unfortunately this is quite a common thing in the Pentecostal world. People will travel from conference to conference chasing the latest “prophet” or evangelist in the off chance that he or she might have a “word” for them. Our friend was no different. She wanted to know what God wanted her to do.
As she and I walked through the grocery store picking up food for dinner that night, Istoreinformed her that God had given me the answer to her question. He had given me the “word” that she came for. I told her that I could give it to her right there in the produce section of Safeway, or we could wait until we were home in a more private setting. She immediately got a look of nervousness on her face. She had spent about three hundred dollars on a plane ticket, countless hours in prayer and meditation, and now she was about to get her answer. It all came down to this. She didn’t want to wait. She told me, “Give it to me now - I want to know what God wants from me.”
We stopped by the eggplants and I reached out and took both of her hands in mine and looked deep into her eyes. She was quiet with anticipation. I said;
“Nothing.”
“He doesn’t want anything from you.” 
I have found that a common concern that people have when they’re first introduced to the grace message is whether or not it’s okay to stop “doing” stuff for God. When they hear that our relationship with God is not based on works, they worry that they might become lazy and unfruitful for God’s kingdom in the name of grace. I’ve watched many people sloth“play it safe” and continue their works lifestyle while trying to embrace and understand the grace message. It just feels so free-riding and irresponsible. It feels like you’re taking advantage of God and using His grace as an excuse to do nothing. Many people spent most of their lives talking down to people who don’t do as much for God as them, and now the prospect of becoming slothful and lax, is more than they can bear.
Many people prefer to believe that it’s not about works, but they still want to do the works, just in case. Their works soothe them when they feel especially sinful and undeserving. Works are like a security blanket for the Christian who isn’tblanketcomfortable getting something for free. It washes that humbling and vulnerable feeling away and replaces it with a self-deserving sentiment. I have found that for many people, works is like that secret pacifier they don’t even know they’re addicted to. Like the alcoholic who says, “I’m not addicted - I can quit whenever I want.” Once they try to quit, however, they find a different reality exploding in their face. 
Most charismatics will tell you flat out that “salvation is not by works,” but by grace. They’ve memorized the verse and have learned to quote it boldly and powerfully, but the reality of their religion is that they don’t believe a word of it. I have yet to meet an Assembly of God pastor who wouldn’t tell you that salvation is by grace alone, but interestingly they will say in the same sentence that they can’t wait to get to heaven and hear those wonderful words from Jesus’ mouth...
jesus“Well done, my good and faithful servant.” 
The truth is, the works mentality is like a poisonous fog that has infected the surface of every aspect of institutional Christianity. Once I left the Institution and had a few years away, I began to see how much of my religion was works-based. I was astonished to find that the performance-based belief system accounted for about 99% of what I was taught. It is so prevalent in Christian thinking today, that most of us don’t even see how inundated with it we are. This is why some Free Believers living in the wild sometimes go into an all out panic attack when they find themselves doing nothing.
It has been my experience that a person cannot fully comprehend the truth of God’s love and grace until they intentionally stop doing everything.lazy
They have to stop witnessing to others. They have to stop fasting, praying and having fellowship. They have to quit worshiping and cease all serving and volunteering. They have to put down their bibles and stop reading and studying. They have to quit giving or paying their tithe, and in many circumstances they need to quit attending church altogether.Everything they feel they need to do in order to be a strong Christian and pleasing to God, needs to be put down, given up, and completely abandoned. It all has to go.
I have found that people literally have to become intentionally lazy and idle before their eyes can be opened to the beauty and simplicity of God’s grace. Any amount of works will not only hinder the process of grace, but it blurs the vision and makes it impossible to see or understand. Our need for works is the very thing that causes one to fall from grace. It’s that serious!grapes
Once a person breathes in the grace of God and understands that they are loved unconditionally and they are forever safe with Him; they begin to produce things that look like works to the untrained eye, but in reality it’s not work at all. It’s fruit. It happens naturally and without effort because it blooms from love and grace.
Darin Hufford

Saturday, October 31, 2009 
I was talking with an old friend of mine the other day and the subject of witnessing came up. She bashfully admitted that though she loves the Lord with all her heart, she has very little desire to run around telling people the story of how salvation was brought to us through Jesus Christ. I understood the guilty feeling she was going through. It messes with your head because you’ve been taught that if you love Jesus and people, you’ll be happy to witness to others.  
The whole world of witnessing was such a turn off to me that I could barely stand to have it brought up. After sitting through hundreds of sermons where the pastor would shame the hell out of me for not telling the world about Christ, the guilt and condemnation finally took its toll. I pretty much decided to throw the whole witnessing thing out the window altogether. So when my friend opened up to me about how she felt about witnessing, I understood her heart completely.  
So what’s with that anyway? Why would we feel insecure about telling someone we meet on the street about Jesus? Why does it feel so weird to give the whole Gospel script to people? Are we holding back? Is it really because we don’t care for people as much as we should? What is it about us that is so hesitant to witness? Are we embarrassed of Him, or are we just not believing enough in Him? Why is it that this subject seems to condemn most Christians?  
In the last forty years I’ve heard no less then a hundred different pastors stand up and reprimand their congregations for not witnessing enough about Jesus. I’ve been to conferences, work shops, Sunday school classes, and weekend retreats designed to encourage and equip Christians to get out and be a witness for Christ. It’s the age-old problem that pastors have bitched and nagged about for as long as I can remember. It seems that no matter how many sermons are preached on the subject, people don’t get any better at it. The best anyone’s ever been able to do is to encourage their congregation to invite others to church so the pastor can do the witnessing. In fact, this is what witnessing has become in today’s church.   
I recently had a pastor friend of mine ask me my opinion as to why Christians never witness. My answer is simple. 
For the most part I think Christians don’t witness because they haven’t witnessed anything.  
I believe that we have lost sight of exactly what a “witness” is. Church people use that word wrongly. It amazes me how often we mistranslate that word in today’s Christian world. I honestly believe that most honest Christians think the word “witness” means something totally different for us than it does for the rest of the world.  
We are taught that witnessing is a commandment. That’s impossible. Witnessing is not up to you. I can’t command you to be a witness for the OJ Simpson case. No matter how much of a law I make it, being a witness is not up to YOU. You were either there and saw something or you weren’t there and you didn’t see anything.  
When the OJ Simpson case was finished, did you feel guilty for not being a witness for that case? Probably not, because you didn’t witness anything. You would have absolutely no reason to be there. Being a witness is not something you can decide to do. You can’t walk into a random court case going on in your city and ask the judge if you can take the stand because you were commanded to be a good witness. Amazingly, that is EXACTLY what most Christians do every time they “witness” because they’ve been taught that a witness is telling people everything you’ve learned about something. 
If you read the papers and watch CNN religiously in an attempt to gather as much information as you can about an upcoming high profile murder trial, you still are not qualified to be a witness. No amount of knowledge or memorized information about a case is the equivalent of witnessing what actually took place. Ironically, Christians today think that because they read about something in the Bible and listened to a sermon on it, they’ve witnessed it. That doesn’t even make sense.  
Pile on top of that, the fact that we are constantly pressured to take the witness stand and do a good job. It’s no wonder Christians come across to the world as being insincere and hypocritical. We are insincere because we are calling ourselves a witness to something we’ve never personally witnessed. The best we can do to improve our witness is to study theater. I honestly believe it is not by accident that drama teams have popped up in churches all across America. The more realistic we can make out time on the witness stand, the more convinced the jury will be. 
We are taught to, be a “good witness”  and no one ever stops to think what in the world that means. It doesn’t  even make sense. In fact, the very wording of that statement is evidence that the whole thing is a concocted lie put together to deceive the court. There is no such thing as a “good” or “bad” witness. It’s impossible to improve what you’ve witnessed without exaggerating or outright lying while on the stand.  
A witness is asked to do one thing and one thing ONLY; tell the court what you witnessed. Don’t tell the court what you think or what your theory is as to what happened. Don’t even give your opinion as to whether or not the guy on trial is innocent or guilty. What did you actually see?  
If you saw the defendant drive by your house in a red convertible at around 2:15 am, THAT IS ALL YOU CAN SAY. The court is not interested in where you think he went or where you think he was coming from. All they want to know is what you saw! If you were up at 2:00 am reading the Bible, or if you were up looking at pornography matters NOT. If you had showered or if you stank to high heavens when you saw this, matters NOT. Tell the court what you saw. THAT and only that is what makes a “good” witness. A good witness is also someone who doesn’t exaggerate or embellish what they saw in an effort to make the story more exciting.  Truthfulness about what was actually witnessed is what makes a “good witness.”  
I think Christians feel nervous about witnessing because they’ve been taught that they have to include a bunch of information that they read about or learned, but didn’t actually see. We feel like we’re reading someone else's script. It feels unnatural because it is unnatural. It’s unnatural because it’s not our true testimony.  
You’re not commanded to be a witness for Christ. You’re commanded to tell what you’ve witnessed, AND NOTHING MORE! For most Christians, I am finding that if they told “the truth and nothing but the truth,” their time on the witness stand would last little more than a few minutes. I honestly don’t say that to shame anyone. In fact, I don’t think it’s their fault. Unfortunately, because so many of us have been taught to sell the story to the courts as though it came from us, we find ourselves getting so twisted and spun around that we can’t distinguish the difference between what we memorized and what we actually witnessed. Our actual experience gets buried beneath a mountain of scripts and screenplays we’ve spent a lifetime studying and rehearsing.  
I’ll never forget watching the OJ case on television many years ago. I quit my job a few weeks before the court case began, so I was glued to my television every day from the beginning to the end. I think I learned more about being a witness and giving a testimony by watching that court case then I did after more than twenty years of being a Christian.   
What amazed me most, was how the D.A. was able to string together a bunch of seemingly insignificant testimonies and form an accurate timeline and picture of what happened. Each witness who testified, told only what they witnessed. One guy looked out his window late at night and saw a white Ford Bronco speed past his house and disappear into the night. That was all he witnessed. That was all he told. He didn’t explain the whole story of the murders and try to convince the jury that OJ was guilty or innocent. He just told what he witnessed. Another guy saw a dark figure run across OJ Simpson’s lawn and enter through the back of OJ’s house. The second witness told only what he saw and nothing more.  
There was a couple who found Nicole Simpson’s dog wandering aimlessly through the neighborhood. They said he was nervous and agitated. Their testimony was only about the dog and what they witnessed. They offered no opinion on what might have happened that night. They weren’t qualified to. They were good witnesses because they told the court exactly what they witnessed. They told the truth, and nothing but the truth. 
One by one, the different witnesses approached the stand and testified. Slowly, but surely, the entire picture of what happened came together. Amazingly, there were some people who’s testimony didn’t seem to have anything to do with the murders whatsoever. Some people testified about the handling of blood after it was collected. Others testified about police procedures in collecting and protecting evidence. Another person testified about whether or not actors in movies get to keep the clothes they wore in the film. There were multiple witnesses that came from hundreds of unique perspectives. No two stories looked or sounded alike, yet together - they all pointed to the truth.  
It is not a witness's job to convince the jury of anything at all. It’s a witness's job to tell only what they witnessed. If Christians could get this concept, I believe an explosion of freedom that they’ve never known would rock their spiritual worlds. Contrary to popular belief, I have found that Christians don’t have a problem witnessing at all. When something happens in their life between them and God, they immediately run around like giddy school-girls telling everyone who will listen. People don’t have a problem testifying about what they’ve actually experienced. It’s human nature to tell everyone around you when something exciting happens in your life. Even Jesus couldn’t get people to keep their mouths shut after they encountered Him. He told them over and over not to tell anyone what had happened to them, and every single time they ran around and blabbed it to the world. When people actually experience something, they can’t help themselves. They have to tell everyone they know!  
Christians have a problem with reading a script that someone else wrote and trying to make it look like it’s their testimony.   
If people could just get this concept I truly believe they wouldn’t be so hard on themselves for not performing up to standards. Some people’s testimony is nothing more than, “He showed me that He loves me today,” or “He’s showing me how my mother felt when I said what I said to her,” or “Today, God finally explained something to me that I’ve been asking about for months.” Our testimonies will be random snippets of intimate encounters that we’ve experienced with God. There may never be two incidents that look alike, or that compare with other people’s snippets. Remember, it’s not our job to form anything out of what we witness. It’s not our job to convince anyone of anything based on what we’ve witnessed. It’s only our job to be truthful about it and trust in the D.A. (God) to put the pieces together and reveal the true picture.  
Many Christians feel that being a “good witness” means that they have to embellish their personal moments with the Father when relating the story with others. We exaggerate about what happened in an attempt to make it sound more spiritual and exciting. Rather than tell it like it is, I find that many people are afraid to admit how unspiritual some of their moments with God really are. They give their testimonies a full body make-over, and after awhile, even they can’t remember which version of the story is true.   
If we understood this concept, we wouldn’t even be tempted to compare what we’ve witnessed with what someone else has witnessed. The two have nothing to do with one another. How much sense would it make if OJ Simpson’s limo driver started competing with the couple who found the dog wandering the neighborhood, because he liked their testimony better than his? Ridiculous isn’t even the word for it. It would be outright stupid.
 
Sunday, September 27, 2009 
I once heard a story of a plane that crashed in the Antarctic and the survivors had to hikecrash back to civilization over a period of months. They survived by eating the people who died in the crash. One gentleman actually told of how he carried someone’s arm in his back pack and “snacked on it” as he hiked along. That’s creepy! I suppose if it meant eatsurviving to see my wife and kids another day I might chew on some dead guys arm. I probably wouldn’t refer to it as a “snack” later in life, but that’s just me. 
I’ve watched about five different reality shows where people were competing for huge sums of money and one of the things they had to do was eat disgusting things. We’re talking spiders, crickets, grasshoppers, roaches, dead rats, and even buffalo testicles! I watched one guy on “Fear Factor” eat three-week-old moldy, maggot-filled cheese. I do believe it was the sickest and funniest thing I’ve ever witnessed. When people are desperate, they’ll eat almost anything. 
I personally hate the dark meat in chicken. It makes me want to throw up. But put me on an island for a month with nothing but rats and bats and I promise you I’d not only eat dark meat chicken, but I’d love it! I don’t care for okra in the least. It tastes like Vaseline-pellets to me. Offer me fifty thousand dollars to eat it and I promise you that I’d develop a taste for it real quick. 
I’ve been a Christian for about twenty years now, and in that time I’ve experienced the four corners of denominational thinking. I’ve been to Catholic churches, Methodist, Episcopalian, Baptist, Nazarene, Assembly of God, Four Square, Calvary, Victory Outreach, Church of Christ, and about fifty other denominations that range from cold to hot. You name it, I’ve been there. I’ve seen formal gatherings, informal gatherings, contemporary, traditional, charismatic, and just plain dead gatherings. 
The one common denominator that I’ve noticed in this vast religious landscape of Christian beliefs is that they are all full of hurting and hungry people. Not just hungry people - starving people! Over the years I’ve watched different Christian “Fads” come and go. I’vestarve seen twitching, barking, laughing, shaking, falling, hopping and dancing. I have found that you can always gauge the level of spiritual starvation in people by what they’ll ultimately accept as food. What will they put in their spiritual mouths, chew up, swallow, and call food? I do not believe that there has been a time in my entire life quite like the one we are living in now. There has been a famine in the Church for so long that people are showing signs of extreme spiritual malnutrition. Christians today remind me of the little starving Ethiopian children we see on the “Feed the Hungry” commercials. Their spiritual bellies are swollen from a lack of nutrition, their bones are showing through their skin, and there are flies buzzing around their faces. 
At this point I believe that most Christians, out of sheer desperation, will eat just about anything that’s given to them. Gone are the days of meat and potatoes. Anything will do for today, as long as it fills the stomach. I watch sincere-hearted people running from dumpster to dumpster eager to find just a scrap of whatever to ease their spiritual hunger pains. People will literally travel hundreds of miles to attend a conference where supposedly the fire of God is being poured out. They’ll wait in line for four hours and give away money that they don’t even have, only to leave blaming themselves for not having received the fire they had heard so much about. 
I recently watched a series of videos of a popular preacher in Florida whom everyone is raving about. After watching about an hour of clips I was mortified by what I was seeing. Iseriously thought it was a clip of some wacky character that “Saturday Night Live” had come up with to make fun of Christians. What astonished me was how easily all the people in the audience were led astray by something so obviously screwy. The things this guy said, the claims he made, the ridiculous things he taught, and his silly slap-stick antics were so unbelievably whacked out, it was astonishing to see how blindly people followed him. 
This guy is a convicted sex offender. He’s covered in tattoos (of terrible things). He has piercings all over his body and he claims that God tells him to punch people in the stomach and kick little old ladies in the face. He also talks about these insane visions he claims to have had that go against ALL of scripture. The supposed visions are so positively wacky and off the wall, that they remind me of something my three-year-old daughter would make up when she is in an extra goofy mood during story time. It would be hilarious if it weren’t for the audience full of spiritually emaciated people believing every word of it. 
This is just one of many examples that I’ve found in recent days where evidence of starvation is running rampant in our religion. I understand these people because I used to be one of them. I remember my non-Christian friends trying to lovingly talk sense into merevival when I was following another popular “healing evangelist” of the day (the other guy). Even they knew that this guy was a crazy charlatan. My friends asked for verified proof that people were really getting healed, and I remember secretly not wanting to investigate that because I wanted so badly to believe it was really happening the way he claimed it was. I felt that asking for proof would be a lack of faith on my part, and I feared losing a blessing from God if I went down that road. It was honestly more fun to just believe it was true. It was fulfilling. I suppose I knew in my heart that things were grossly exaggerated, but I didn’t want to lose that excitement I was feeling in my spirit. 
I remember that giddy feeling that would come over me when I would hear the crazy stories about visions and encounters with God that my evangelist guy claimed he had. Though it did sound a bit “off” to me, I was just happy that something was happening somewhere to someone; even if it wasn’t happening to me. I think that’s where the giddiness came from. There had been drought and famine for so long that my heart would leap at the mere suggestion of rain. Also, in a twisted way, it both gave me hope and took my hope away at the same time. It gave me hope because I thought, “Who knows, if this is happening to him, it could happen to me.” It took my hope away because when I came back down to reality, I knew that it wasn’t ever going to happen to me. It was just too big and, quite frankly, too crazy. 
I remember driving for three hours and waiting in line for another six hours just to get a nose-bleed seat at one of his crusades. I didn’t want anything else other than to know that God was real and He noticed me. I remember driving home after the service feeling like I missed it. I totally understand spiritual starvation to the point where I can recognize that hollow look in someone’s eyes from a mile away. It’s an unfulfilled hungry look that is clouded with desperation and self blame. This is the look I see in most modern day Christians. 
The institution of Church, in my opinion is a watering-well business. They dug the hole, wellthey attached the bucket to the rope, and they set up the pulley and crank system so people could get water, and they distribute it to all who come. It’s a great business because everyone needs water. The problem is that when people actually encounter Jesus, he causes them to overflow with living water from within and they never thirst again. That’s not good for business! 
I think institutional Christianity ultimately survives on keeping people in a constant state of starvation and dehydration. “Living Water” cannot be distributed to your customers when you’re in the business of selling water. That’s suicide. Arrowhead wouldn't last a day if people got wind of this Jesus guy who could make them not thirst anymore. 
I remember pondering that “Living Water” verse in the Bible years ago and secretly wondering why I was still thirsting. That passage alone was evidence that I was missing something, and I think it’s evidence that most of American Christianity is missing something. People don’t travel three hours to hear a popular preacher speak if they’re not thirsty. They don’t pool their money together and send their pastor to Florida in hopes that he’ll bring home the fire unless they're starving to death. People also aren’t ready and willing to believe any crazy thing when they are well fed and satisfied. These things are the result of severe hunger.  
When people don’t know how God feels about them, or they suspect that He has less than favorable feelings towards them, they begin to hunger and thirst. When people don’t know where they stand with God at any given moment, or they attempt to calculate exactly where they stand based on their performance or lack thereof, their spiritual stomachs beginwater to growl and their lips become dry and chapped. When people think that Christianity is about NOT SINNING, their spiritual bellies begin to swell from lack of nutrition. When they believe that they were put on this earth to complete a job that God created for them to do, they ultimately find themselves crouched down waiting for the food truck while flies buzz around their lips. . 
The moment I realized that He loved me just the way I was, EVERYTHING left me in an instant. My hunger and thirst were gone immediately and I never again attended another conference or "how to" workshop that the watering-well system of Church had to offer. I never even searched the book store for a Christian book to read. Every single behavior that I had lived with up until that point, ended the day I realized He and I were fine. I can honestly say that I thirst no more. Jesus was right.
 
Darin Hufford

Saturday, September 26, 2009 
I remember as a young Christian reading about how Jesus rebuked the Pharisees for following their traditions over their hearts. I would think to myself, “I’m glad we don’t do that today.” It wasn’t until about fifteen years later that my eyes were opened to just how much of my religion was based on nothing more than tradition. The more I studied into this subject, the more I found that almost 90% of the Christian religion is all based on stufftradition we’ve made up over the years. More than half of the stuff we take for granted is not found anywhere in Scripture; it’s just something we’ve made up. After it’s been spoken so many times by a bunch of people we respect, we begin to believe it actually exists in the Bible, and amazingly, no one can tell us any different. I have found that most Christians today honestly don’t know the difference between tradition and what is actually in the Bible. Amazingly, most of the claims we make about the Bible aren’t even in the Bible.
I think one of the biggest traditions in Christianity today is the idea that we have to back up every single statement with a Bible verse. I can hardly get through some Christian books because in an attempt to be politically correct, the author has cut and pasted so many Scriptural references in and out of every single statement he makes. It absolutely biblebewilders me every time someone demands a Bible verse to prove something I’ve said. It’s become a Cardinal rule in our generation. It’s as though people have been convinced that they are as dumb as a post, and they can’t tell on their own whether something is truth or not just by thinking about it.
I have found that the Scriptural reference mentality actually stupefies people. If you have to look in the Bible to find out if murder is wrong, there’s a major problem. If you need a Bible verse to prove that loving one another is a good idea, you’re already dead. Because of this mentality we have about the Bible, we’ve not only become a generation of radically insecure people, but we’ve alsoheart become a generation of people who don’t even think to consult our hearts in any given situation.
Most folks will argue that if we don’t demand a Bible reference to back up every statement, we could all be lead astray and fall into heresy. I personally feel that the exact opposite is true. In my opinion, when I look at the history of Christianity, and focus particularly on the last hundred years when this mentality become popular, I see more heresy, division, and outright apostasy taking place because of this mentality. When you list the atrocities that have taken place on our earth because someone found a Bible verse to support their cause, it’s rather disturbing. Everything from the KKK right down to the Holocaust were the aftermath of someone believing they found a verse that backs up their position. 
People will always disagree on the meaning of a Bible verse, but remarkably when it comes to the truth and heart of love, people from all backgrounds and circumstances recognize it immediately. Even tribes of people who have been secluded in the rain forest for thousands of years understand love's truth. They recognize it the moment it is spoken. 
There are reported to be over thirty-eight-THOUSAND denominations of Christianity in the United States alone. Almost every single split took place because of a disagreement over the meaning of a particular Bible verse. When it comes to believing in God, loving people, getting along and living in forgiveness, you can visit any kindergarten class in America and kidsfind the absolute truth. How is it that a child of three can know spiritual answers, yet grown adults need to search a concordance and find a verse before they can come to truth?
I once posted an article where I wrote about how a husband should give his entire heart to his wife and love her unconditionally, and someone left a comment saying, “It would be nice if you would have used Scripture to back this up.” I thought, “ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME???? Is this what it’s come down to in this generation? I honestly believe that this dead-heartedness is the direct result of Bible worship. Christians have been taught to think in verses. They walk around not even making a bit of sense because their entire language has been taken over by their obsessive quotations of Scripture. 
Someone once asked me why I don’t use Scripture to back up the things I write, and I said, “I prefer to do things the Scriptural way. Jesus didn’t do that. Paul didn’t do that. Peter, John, and Jude didn’t do that either.” I’m not minimizing the sanctity of Scripture and I’m certainly not attempting to diminish its value or suggest that it’s useless. I’m confronting a mind-set that refuses to look at our hearts and recognize truth when we see it. I’m confronting an entire generation who for some reason doesn’t know truth when they see it, and that thought terrifies me. Jesus said, “My sheep will know my voice.” I fear that if Jesus came today, no one would recognize His voice unless he backed it up withverse Scripture.
Ironically, the people who are the biggest sticklers for back-up-verses are usually people who are involved in a system of church that is almost entirely unscriptural. I find this to be a common side effect in folks who have stopped listening to their hearts. The Bible verses they do actually read, mean only what someone else has told them it means. If they can’t be trusted to find the truth in their own hearts, they certainly can’t be trusted to interpret Scripture. Sadly, their interpretations are amazingly distorted by a series of twisted teachings they heard from someone they trusted. In some cases, I’ve seen people actually see words that are not on the page when they read a Bible verse, because someone else told them the words were there. 
I once posted an article where I challenged the popular view that the Bible is the main way God speaks to us today. Before I finished the article I visited several Bible answer sites and asked them where the Bible said that this is how God speaks to us today. Almost every single “Bible expert” came back with 2 Timothy 3:16 
“All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.”
Do you see something missing in this passage? 
Amazingly after I posted the article I probably had no less than twenty people send me rebuking emails with that verse attached to them as proof that the Bible is the main wayblindGod speaks to us today. They, along with thousands of others have literally been duped into seeing things that aren’t there because of what they’ve been taught. Another example of this is when I confront people with their theology of “binding demons.” They proudly quote Matthew 16:19
“I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven." 
Though this verse says absolutely nothing about demons, people see only what they’ve been taught. This is the result of a person’s willful abandonment of their heart. Because we have quit looking at our heart to find truth we have become naked and susceptible to pretty much anything we’re told. I don’t believe that it’s the lack of Scriptural references here that is at fault. I honestly think this comes about because of our trained dependency on Scriptural references.eyes
In fact, I started to break free from this robotic mind set when I began to look at what was in my heart and compare it to what I’ve been told the Bible says. That was the exact point where my eyes began to open for the first time in almost twenty years. I have found that when I live from the heart and stop meticulously following Scripture; Scripture starts following me. This is the place I believe that we are supposed to be in, in New Testament times. God is ready and waiting to write the book of Darin, and that cannot happen until Darin lives from his heart and knows truth from within because that’s where the kingdom of heaven exists.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009 
In the last five years since I left my position as a pastor and began the Free Believer path, I have noticed a mentality in regards to the subject of bitterness that I believe has become more a sign of spiritual paralysis then godliness.
Most of us Christians have been raised in some form of the traditional church. I have found that most of us have endured peer pressure and religious manipulation that has disallowed us to think and move from our hearts. I have written about this in other posts, so I won’t go into too much detail, other than to say that because of fear of trusting our hearts and expressing our feelings, we have become a generation of spiritually paralyzed and numb-hearted people. For the most part, I don’t think it’s our fault. I truly believe this is a resultcompass of constant pressure to intentionally restrict certain human emotions from surfacing.
I think the results of this suffocating mentality are beginning to manifest in the hearts and actions of people everywhere today. I am honestly concerned with what I see. I feel like American Christians have lost their heart compass. They get angry when they should be sad. They get joyful when they should be broken-hearted. They feel excited when they should be troubled, and they become anxious when they should be feeling peace. In many respects, it’s as though someone has snatched their hearts and souls out of their bodies and replaced them with a virus-filled computer. 
If you stop and think about the teachings we grew up with, it’s no wonder we’ve become facessocially illiterate. We’re taught that when we’re suffering, we should be rejoicing - when we’re poor, we are supposed to say we’re rich. If we’re sick, we’re not supposed to admit it. If we get angry, we’re immature. A check in our spirit is called rebellion. Declaring something to be wrong is called criticism. Liking yourself is considered arrogant and sinful, and asking questions is faithlessness. 
When I watch modern day Christians, I am stricken by their lack of emotional normalcy. It’s as though something has caused their emotional compass to go haywire within them. There is a major problem when a Christian, without any emotion whatsoever, tells you that a person in Iran who has never heard of Jesus Christ, will go straight to hell when he dies because he’s not a Christian. The level of heartlessness to that statement is off the charts, yet I hear Christians spew it out as calmly as if they were saying their own name. 
I had the usual and predictable accusation posted in the comment section of one of my blog posts the other day. It basically accused me of being bitter. I’ve written about this several times trying to explain to people what my real heart is concerning the institution of Church. I fully understand that Christians have been programed to immediately shut down the moment they think they detect bitterness. Even Free Believers still think this way in many respects. I watch them almost compete with each other at how un-bitter they canmaskmake themselves look and sound when they present the message of freedom. For some strange reason, everyone seems to think that being bitter is wrong all the time, no matter what the reason. People talk about it as though it’s the Aids virus of spirituality. Even the mere assumption that we might have it is terrifying to us. 
I want to make a final statement on whether or not I am bitter concerning the institution of Church. I’ve visited several forums and I’ve read conversations where some were accusing me of being bitter and others (who love me) were sticking up for me and explaining my heart. I have watched this particular conversation take place no less then twenty times over the last year. Today I want to put the entire argument to rest. 
I AM BITTER!!!!!!!!!!
I am angry. I’m full of resentment. I’m furious, enraged, incensed and downright mad.
For years I’ve tried hiding it because I know the way Christians are programed. I know they quit listening to me the moment they detect this truth about me. Unfortunately, I can’t hide it another day. Today, I’m coming out of the closet and announcing to the world that, “I AM BITTER.” Many people have suspected this for years, but were afraid to say anything. bitterMany others said it quite openly, and now are reading this thinking to themselves, “I knew it. I was right.” 
Yes. I am bitter!
I’m not sure what angers me more. I’m angry at how the institution has put people under fear and bondage for years. I’m angry at how they have made people feel that their God might abandon them, or that He doesn’t love them. I’m angry that they’ve made God out to look like an alcoholic father who abuses His children. I’m angry that the institution has made people think they have to give money and do works of service to gain God’s favor, and I’m angry that people are downright fearful and unsure about where they stand with God. 
More than anything at all, do you want to know what I’m the most bitter about? 
I am bitter over the fact that Christians aren’t bitter over this fact. 
In the last ten years I have been more than a little bitter at the lack of human emotion Ilack see coming from Christian people in the midst of such obvious abuse and slavery. I sometimes feel like the ambassador from Rwanda trying to convince Americans to take notice and give a damn about the genocide taking place in my country. I find myself wanting to scream at the top of my lungs, “What the hell is wrong with you people?” 
If you’re NOT angry about these things, there is something desperately wrong with you. There is absolutely no way you can be a lover of people and not be enraged over what the institution is doing to them. EVEN THE WORLD IS BITTER ABOUT THAT! Even people who are unbelievers have the decency to be angry over the abuse and control of innocent people at the hands of religious con artists. What has happened to Christians to make them so socially illiterate? It’s as though our hearts and souls have been snatched away, and we think like dead rocks. How in the world are we not moved at what’s happening right under our nose? 
williamThere is a principle in revolution that holds true to this day. You can’t change something until you HATE it. I believe that the institution launched an anti-bitter campaign many years ago for this very purpose. As long as Christians are fearful of becoming bitter, NOTHING will change. We will continue to sit emotionally unmoved at the spiritual torture of our brothers and sisters until we decide to break free from this ridiculous lie. 
Moses murdered an Egyptian, he was so angry. Samson took the jaw bone of an ass and killed thousands with it because his people were being abused and bound. When David heard the boastful words of Goliath against His God and people, he killed him and decapitated him. When Saul heard of how the Ammonites wanted to gouge out the eyes of his people, he “burned with anger” and slaughtered two oxen and sentkingthem all throughout Israel, telling the people to come together and fight. Over and over, history has proven that until someone gets angry, the wheels of change remain locked.
I had a man write me an email the other day and ask me to look into my heart to see if I’m not bitter at the institution. I looked, and he was right; I was angry. Now I would like to ask each Christian to look into their hearts and ask themselves why they aren’t angry over what’s happening. I honestly think that this is the question of the hour. 
There is a difference between being bitter at the harm the institution caused me, and being bitter at the institution because of the harm they have caused you. I can heal from any wrong that was done to me. My bitterness is NOT on my behalf; it’s on behalf of all the millions of people who are being spiritually abused week after week. My anger is on behalf of God, whose Name is being defiled and lied about throughout the world. These things infuriate me because I love both people and God. If Christians aren’t angered over what it taking place today there is one reason; they don’t love people.
Monday, September 07, 2009 
One of the last Churches my wife and I visited was about four years ago. At this point we were looking for just about anything that would give us a reason to give the system another chance. We wanted to make sure that our decision to live in the wild wasn't made churchin haste or without warrant. Like the scientists who scanned the surface of Mars; we were eagerly looking for even the most minute signs of life. Anything that would tell us that it was worth it to stick around and raise a family.
The worship was the same as most other churches. It was the normal contemporary "I'm a hippie and lose myself in the moment" flare that I'd seen in the other churches around town. The sermon was actually pretty good. It was packed full of stuff we'd all learned in the second grade, but at least they weren't making God out to look like a jerk. Anything was better than that. Even the offering was done in a clever and less embarrassing way then what we were used too. At the very least, it was appearing tolerable. Nothing stuck out as either good or bad, it just was what it was.
As we were exiting the sanctuary like a herd of hungry cattle, our children came joyfully skipping towards us with Tootsie Pops in their mouths and sticky hands holding gobs of Sunday school memorabilia. This was the the final test. In reality it was the only test. How did the kids like it? The looks on their faces told us that they loved it. They were buzzing about everything they did in their classes. The little one informed us that, "They gave us lollies" about seventy times in a row until we steadied her trembling sugar-filled body, established eye contact and said, "I can see that." She handed me her coloring page she had scribbled on and I noticed it had a picture of a few men standing around Jesus. On the top of the page were the words, "Built To Obey God."
Without a single word from my mouth, my wife looked at me shaking her head and said, "I know, I know."
Out of the many troubling things I hear from hurting people who have been steeped in religious thinking, I do not believe there is anything quite as troubling as the modern day teachings and beliefs on the subject of "obedience." I think the average person honestlymilitary believes that obedience is at the top of God's list of things He desires from His people. The very subject, when mentioned, almost immediately causes me to imagine a dog in "obedience school." There is something almost inhumane or degrading in the air when that word is spoken in Christian circles. I halfway expect God to be standing over me with a choke-chain and a rolled up newspaper ready to pop me if I don't respond to His commands. I get a picture of a military sergeant barking orders at a line of terrified cadets.
dogOddly enough, a surprising number of Christians claim to be comfortable with these twisted descriptions of obedience. It's not uncommon to hear people use animal training metaphors when describing the kind of relationship they believe God is pushing them towards. The "breaking of one's spirit" as if they were a horse or a dog seems to elicit an eerie string of tranquilized moans and amens from just about any Christian audience. It's as though people have found some freaky comfort in having acknowledged their rightful "place" in God's twisted universe. Whoever delights in it the most, is considered "spiritual."
If obedience is truly as important to God as we've all been taught, I for one am not interested in Him. It's not that I have a problem with obedience as much as I am generally turned off by people who need to BE obeyed. There is a, "do it or else...." feeling in the air with people like this.
Obedience is for people who live apart from God. It's a huge focus in the Old Testament because no one had the Spirit of God living inside them. They were soldiers awaiting orders. Today however, the focus is not on obedience, but on a heart connection with the One who indwells us. Once that is established; obedience is never an issue. It is my belief the "obedience theology" separates us from that wonderful truth. It puts the spotlight on the symptoms of love, rather than the heart of love.
A focus on obedience is only necessary if someone's connection has malfunctioned or hasplanenever been established in the first place. If a Christian is "in the dark," they have to resort to obedience. Kind of like a flight attendant having to land a plane by following step by step orders from the tower. There is no "feel" for the cockpit. It's just dials, buttons and knobs. When the Pilot lives in your heart; flying is in your very soul. You go wherever you want. You take off and land from wherever you decide. The sky belongs to you.
Obedience theology causes people to focus on the knobs, buttons and dials rather than the horizon of life. They spend more time listening and worrying than they do flying and living.
You don't have to tell a squirrel to collect nuts for the winter. He does it because he has a squirrel's heart. The same is true for children of Yahweh. We have his Spirit living inside of us. Obedience theology hinges upon people NOT living IN Christ. It's custom made for the wearer of WWJD bracelets and the scripture quoters who have never witnessed what they quote. 

New creations do not think in terms of obedience. They don't need too. They naturally do the things that are on God's heart. This is so because they are one with Him. It is not obedience that God desires from you; it's a heart connection.
 
Monday, September 07, 2009 
Living in the wild is about the only way I know for a person to authentically connect with God on a “one-on-one” level. Christianity has become a crutch for many people with it’sfaithmany laws, traditions and doctrines. Often times, we find that the things we “hold to” actually end up taking the place of real relationship. They not only get in the way, but they make it impossible because people are encouraged to hang their faith on these things rather than on God Himself.
Before long we end up saying things like, “Do you believe in the bible?” or “Do you believe in the church, the trinity, or the virgin birth?” In a desperate attempt to link ourselves to God, we build a chain with all these beliefs to hold us up. The problem is that our beliefs aren’t in God Himself, they are in things. The moment one of these things are called into question, we lose our faith completely. This is why so many people fall away from their faith when theirthings pastor has an affair or if they happen to see a movie like “The Davinci Code” and the things they’ve “held to” are shaken.
The church knows that people’s faith is not based on God, but on stuff. This is why they go nuts when movies that contradict their doctrine come out. They fear that many will fall away on account of that movie, and they’re right. That’s exactly what happens because people don’t know God anymore; they know stuff. People’s entire faith rests on the stuff they’ve been taught. Mess with the stuff and you mess with their faith in God Himself. Take the stuff away and you take God away.
The problem is that Christianity has become a religion. It’s become a system of beliefs that a group of people hold to. It was never meant to be this. Christianity was meant to be a personal experience between an individual and God. Religion demands that everyone stuffbelieve “stuff” in unison. It focuses on the stuff and calls it holy and infallible. It lifts the stuff up and obsessively talks about it as though eternal life comes through the stuff. In the midst of all this stuff-worship, no one ever connects with God. They can’t as long as their faith is in the “stuff.”
Faith is given to each of us for one purpose. It’s our personal line to God. We are to put our portion of faith in nothing other than God. Because faith was created for this reason, it naturally makes anything it is put into, its god. Unfortunately, religion holds up stuff and encourages us to put our faith in it. Once we do, we lose. Faith wasn’t for stuff, it’s for God. When we chose to put faith in stuff ABOUT God rather than in God Himself, we end up in a spiritual state of limbo where our stuff is our god. We become like a fan-club of a famous movie star sitting around comparing notes and collecting trinkets, thinking that we know this person because we study stuff about them and possess something of theirs.
We also end up making God into a vending machine because stuff-worship disallows our hearts to embrace a personality. Stuff-worship demands consistency and predictability. trinityOnly a machine behaves this way. Faith makes whatever it is put into, its god. Because of the state of American Christianity, god has been presented to the world as a heartless machine or a big book that is void of personality.
Eventually stuff-worshipers begin to describe their god (stuff) as having the same attributes as God Himself. They start saying things like, “The bible is infallible andbible perfect,” “It is to be called the Word (which is Jesus Christ)”, “You have to believe in the bible in order to go to heaven” and “The bible is holy and reading it is the equivalent to hearing from God.” They encourage one another to meditate on the bible and put it in their heart. They’ll even start “Bible churches” and spend hours in those churches studying the bible. They’ll support missionaries who go to other countries where people don’t know about God and they’ll smuggle bibles to them thinking that they actually brought God there.
Many people see their church as being infallible and holy. They’ll consider the sacraments to be equal to God. Even communion goes from remembering Christ to becoming Christ. Their forgiveness of sins come from the church and their salvation is in the hands of the church. They're told that when they give money to the church, it's the same as giving to God Himeslf. The words of their pastor or priest combecome the words of God. Every attribute of God is attributed to the stuff people have put their faith in.
I get emails daily from people frantically defending their stuff to me. They’ll read an article I wrote that encourages folks to retract their faith in stuff and put it in God, and they’ll immediately see it as an attack on their god. In reality, it is. It’s an attack on what their faith has made its god. If their stuff or their god is shaken at all, they become terrified. They’ll say stuff like, “If I can’t believe that the entire bible is infallible, then I can’t believe any of it and all is lost”, or “If I can’t believe in this promise, I can’t believe in any promise,” or “If this one thing isn’t true, then none of it is true.”
I think we do this because as human beings in a physical world, it is our carnal nature to be drawn towards things that are tangible. We want something we can see with our eyes and hear with our ears. The idea of knowing an invisible God within our heart seems impossible. If we can’t touch Him, hear Him, or see Him, we don’t believe we could ever know Him. This mentality is perpetuated and magnified as we put our faith in tangible stuff. Eventually, It becomes even more difficult and impossible to connect with God in our hearts because we’ve fed ourselves a steady diet of physical things. The extremely raw truth of living this way is that we are really a bunch of atheists, who like to practice rituals.
Most Christians would be furious to read those words, but I honestly believe it's true. I think our entire religious system is set up the way it is because deep in the hearts of thepeople hierarchy they are atheists. They don’t trust that anyone can hear from God apart from their input. They take it upon themselves to disciple people rather than trust Christ to do the job. They decide when the “Holy Spirit” falls in a meeting by dimming the lights and playing slow emotional music at just the right time. They insist on leading worship, serving communion, leading prayer, teaching our children, and deciding where we give and how much we give. Leaving these things up to the individual and God is not an option because when push comes to shove, they don’t believe there is a God.
I think that all of this comes through putting faith in stuff rather than in God. I’ve found that while living in the wild, I no longer have the stuff in my face like I did in the institution. There is nothing in my face in the wild. It’s a sink or swim situation and I’ve come to believe that this is what millions of people need in order to know God personally. Remove the stuff and believe.

Monday, September 07, 2009 
The fear of sinning must be taken away if we are to succeed in life.
fearI once saw an episode of “Fear Factor” where these people were told to walk across an iron beam that was supported by two chains and hoisted almost a hundred and fifty feet in the air. The beam was about 6 inches wide and ten feet long. All they had to do was make it to the other side without falling. 
What I found interesting is that while the host was explaining the task, the beam was lowered right next to the people about a foot off the ground. This girl walked over to it, jumped up on it and skipped across the beam with almost no effort whatsoever. She even jumped in the air and made a 180 degree turn, then landed on her feet and skipping back to the other side. She was letting the other contestants know that she was a former gymnast who had excellent balance and she felt confident that she would dominate this competition. 
Skipping across a beam that’s a foot off the ground in one thing, but once that same bean is raised to a hundred and fifty feet in the air, it becomes a whole different ball game. If the girl had fallen off when the beam was only inches from the ground, she would havehighjumped back on and assessed what it was that made her fall. Perhaps she leaned too much to the right or the left. Maybe she stopped too quickly or jumped too high. Her mind would easily focus on the walk and nothing else. However, when the beam is raised high in the air, she would no longer focus on the walk; she would focus on the consequence of falling. When the consequence outweighs the cause - blindness sets in and people become spiritually crippled. Falling a hundred and fifty feet is a devastating consequence that is sure to dominate the thoughts of anyone walking that beam. That is exactly what happened to this young woman when her beam was raised. She didn’t even walk one foot on the beam. This former gymnast with impeccable balance and skill, held on to the chain for dear life until they lowered it again. 
The reason we focus on the consequence of sin instead of the cause, is because our religion has completely denied the fact that Christ destroyed the power of consequence through septhecross. We foolishly still say that, “Sin separates us from God.” That statement alone is a long way to fall for any human being. Even godless Cain who murdered his brother, told the Lord that being without His presence would be more than he could bear. When we continuously tell people that their sin separates them from God, we are denying the cross and lifting the bar over a hundred and fifty feet in the air. The result is that rather than assessing the cause of a sin, people now only focus on the consequence because it’s more then they can bear. They become blind and crippled in their walk, and instead of skipping to the other side, they hold on to the chain for dear life. 
The moment a person understands that NOTHING will separate them from God, and He willgod never leave them or forsake them, the bar of life is lowered to inches off the ground. They can do cartwheels and back hand-springs across the beam because they aren’t terrified of falling anymore. The fear of sinning MUST be taken away if we are to succeed in life! 
When we see the gymnasts in the Olympics do back flips and twists on the balance beam it makes our heart stop. We can’t imagine how they learned to do something like that. The answer is simple. They learned by taking away the consequence of falling. They started with nothing more than a line drawn on a mat on the floor. They practiced staying on the line while doing walk-overs and cartwheels. When they got a little better, they graduated to a beam only inches from the ground. Over time, when they felt more comfortable and they had perfected their routine, linethey raised the bar to standard height. This is how all gymnastic exercises are learned. Someone “spots” them while they try new things, eliminating the consequence of falling. Once that’s taken away, people will try anything and discover that they are capable of things they never imagined. 
When people hear the grace message they immediately detect a lowered spiritual consequence to sin and It makes them nervous because they think people will intentionally jump off the beam. This is simply not so. When we receive God’s Spirit we are naturally inclined to walk the beam without falling. More than that, we are inclined to do flips,flipscartwheels, and hand springs across the beam. To a Spirit-filled person, the beam has new meaning. It’s an exciting place to be. Christ came so that we would have our full potential discovered on the beam of life. 
When you fall (sin), don’t worry for even a moment that you are separated from God. Nothing will every separate you from Him. There are certainly consequences to any sin, but losing God is not one of them. Hell is also not one of them anymore. You belong to God. He will never let you go. Nothing in all the universe can separate you from the love of God. Nothing!