well... to update things on here...I had my 21st Birthday. Yay!  I've changed my hairstyle and color. again. I went to my first SCA event ( Fall Crown Tourney)--which was fun. I've met new people and ran into some old friends. There's also been an abundance of new music added to the ever growing collection.( 4+ GB). The remodel at my place of work is finally done(today. thank god)...and I'm sure there's more to add...but for now...this is it.

So this is basically an update/rant sessionFor those of you who don't know, I recently(within the past 1.5months) switched to 3rd shift at my current(same) place of work. That being said, I also changed my job position as well. I now work on 3rd as a softlines processor. The job itself isn't bad, it's a good bit of physical labor. We (the processors) retrieve the skids of clothing from the recieving bay. Take them to our work area, and proceed to unpack the frieght and sort it by department(girls, infants, boys, mens, ladies, women, seasonal(coats & swimsuits), socks, underwear, bras, sleepwear, and accessories)  and place it appropriately whether it gets put on a roll bar, placed in a break pack, or binned. my jobs also entails getting a bit of frieght out on the floor. All in all, it's definently fast paced and stressful in making sure everything gets done. Sometimes it's enough to make me scream and want to pull my hair out.There's more to it than that, but it's all I feel I needed to explain.
Aside from the new job, there's also a remodel going on at the place where I work, which only adds to the stress factor. So anyhow, this new job has made having a life harder(I went from part time to full time), I seem to sleep all the time(I used to sleep 4-5 hours a night and be okay) I'm overall just frustrated with my job. I like the people that I work with, but they don't always seem to like me.-case in point-- I recently(friday sept.5) dyed my hair blonde(cover roots) and took some red hair dye(candy apple red--according to the bottle) and did some "red" around my face and the under layers of my hair. And it turned hot pink-I'm talking flamigo pink-neon pink. Now, I happen to think it looks alright. a little off, but I'm cool with it. well, I was in the breakroom last night at work(sat. night/sun. morning) for lunch and I had a blonde moment when I was attempting to figure out the microwave/pizza oven to heat my food up before most of 3rd shift came in. well, my co-worker decided it would be funny to bring that up when everyone else came into the break room. so you know, I laugh along with them--it was a bit funny. And then they started in on the pink hair, well, I got tired of it, so I put my headphones in and was listening to my iPod-loudly- I hate hearing voices mingled with my music(via headphones) and then I notice the pointing and laughing-at me. my 2nd gen. iPod nano matches the color of the pink in my hair, as a fellow associate pointed out. Mind you, they're also laughing cause they can hear my music.whatever. That was bad. there was a joke about voting on my next hair color and how i should shave it into a mowhawk. ugh.
Enter management. at which point I took my headphones out and this person asked if the pink was a temporary color--so I once again, explained what happened.*sigh*
I go back to work-continuing to do my job, when I get called into the office. And am told my hair color does not fit dress code. management basically said if your hair isn't a solid natural hair color, it's not allowed. so I have a week to get my hair back to one color(to help prevent frying/over processing(I was almost half tempted to ask if people were allowed to have extreme highlights(example: person has medium/dark brown hair with thick platinum highlights-why is that allowed then? it's not natural for hair to look like that.) Then I was told I wasn't doing my job efficiently and not meeting productivity standards and that maybe I should consider being a 3rd shift cashier(I was a cashier on days before I switched to 3rd-so you can imagine I was steamed about that) Of Course they said this to benefit me to prevent harsher consequences later.
On top of all this, I had a near death experience earlier in the week(thursday) on the way back from dayton. my car spun in almost a full circle on 49 outside of greenville, but that's a different story.
This past week has been some sort of hell. It's no wonder that if I died, I might be happy. all of this has lead me to believe that I should save up some cash and just move. get out of this small-ass podunk town and start all over. I've just felt that I'm not me lately. working all the time I live in jeans, blue shirts, and tennis shoes. I feel like every ounce of stuff that makes me who i am has been squished out-blotted away like grease from a hamburger. can't wear this, can't do that, your hair can't be that color. it's driving me insane. I understand I can't be a crazy haired freak with piercings everywhere if I don't want to be a broke-ass bitch. but what little of my "normal" that I had feels like it's gone, like I'm supposed to give up my identity for my job. I like who I am outside of all my 10pm-7am 5 out of 7 days of the week "uniform". I miss dressing in my black clothes with chains and stompy boots and crazy make-up and fishnets. I miss having a life outside of work. If I didn't like the paycheck, I'm pretty sure I would have quit my job already.bottom line: I feel fed up, fucked over, and there's not an option I like at this point in time.

So...Allow me to take you back to Tuesday of this past week and take you through one hell of a bad fucking week.

Tuesday I was feeling a little adventurous and took a 3.5hour roadtrip. To Lexington, KY. Keep in mind I also took along 2 other friends... Driving that far alone, I’d go nuts. Anyhow, that was the last good thing that’s happened...After the trip was over, the week was hell...

Over the course of the next couple days I’d get a paycheck that was joke, Get bitched at by the parents-for no reason. I’d fall in a grassy area(after a lot of rain) and cover my favorite jeans in mudd on the way to pick up my paycheck. Which left me to change into my tripp pants (thank god I always have a change of clothes in my car) Only to have them develope a very large mysterious slash from the bottom of the waistband down past my ass with no possible explanation. Meanwhile, I’m wishing that I could quit my job because I’m realizing that I hate it that much. Then I stopped by a friends house to pick up some very tasty watermelon flavored beverages there, only to discover that my friend had drank them all St. Patty’s weekend. Which only fueled my anger. Then, then, of all things, I was told that I was pretty much a lesbian because apparently I hit on a female customer who came through my line. And then I finally found out what this friend of mine thought about me. And let me tell you, It was a big slap in the face. Honestly, though, I guess I should have expected it. I’m not always the nice, cute, ribbons and lace kind of girl. I swear, I drink, I bite, scratch(now that I have nails :) and don’t always play nice. I like the color black, I like chains and safety pins on my clothes, I <3 my Tripp pants, and black cargo shorts and goth boots. Furthermore,  I’m tired of trying to please someone by being something that I’m not always. I like my music loud. And sometimes I can’t stand classical music. I like having a captive ring in my nose piercing instead of some cute girly stud. I don’t mind being short. It just means that I can wear a pair of heels and not be insanely tall. And really, I like me just how I am. And for anyone who doesn’t, well, then tough luck. Either like me as I am or Fuck Off. Because whether or not you like me isn’t my problem.

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The different, actually amusing pointless survey...OF DEATH!!!!
Have you ever been abducted by aliens?:	no
Have you ever seen the effect whales have on unsuspecting pleasure boats?:	no
Do you like to be naked?:	sometimes
Would you like to be naked right now?:	I will be when I get in the shower.
When you were growing up, did you ever catch your parents doing "it"?:	no.
What is your favorite planet and why?:	jupiter...just because.
Do you believe in life after death...on MARS?:	um..no
What is your favorite band?:	right now, Korn
What celebrity are you a bit partial to?:	Amy Lee or Johnny Depp
If you were a spider, where would you lay your eggs and why?:	embedded in my arch foe's scalp.
Have you learned anything lately?:	yes.
What feelings does the Paper Mache Craine conjour up inside of you?:	nothing...
Where are your pets? If you have any...:	none.
Paper or Plastic?:	depends on what I buy.
Mayonaise or Mustard?:	mayonaise.
Do you believe in Global Warming?:	not sure. science says it's happening...but since when is it safe to believe the media.
Do you believe that Mr.Bush has in mind our countries best interests?:	no comment.
Do you get rashes easily and without warning?:	nope.
Do you like Star Wars a little or hella?:	just a little.
Have you ever prevented a  forest fire?:	not really.
Have you ever started a forest fire?:	no.
Do you secretly enjoy American Idol?:	nope...I hate that show.
If a zombie was chasing you...how would you kill it?:	bash it's non existent brains in....maybe shoot it...
If you were a zombie with rational thought, where would you work?:	slaughter house.
Are you a pothead?:	nope.
Do you respet any serial killer? If so, who and why?:	no.
The Backstreet Boys or N'Sync?:	ick. neither.
Crosby, Stills and Nash or Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young?:	what are you talking about?
Have you ever been to Seaworld?:	once.
What do you think you were in your past life?:	probably a spoiled brat...so naturally...a princess...of the elves.
When do you think the "End of the world" will take place?:	not in my lifetime...
Who is your most beloved friend?:	Ashley B.
Who is your most hated individual on the planet?:	if you actually know me, then you know who it is...
Do you actually remember what happend in the movie "Bambi"?:	not really...haven't seen it since I was a kid.
Would you wear spandex for any reason?:	um, no...
Dan Akroyd or Chevy Chase?:	Chevy Chase...only because I don't know who Dan Akroyd is.
Do you actually think new Saturday Night Live episodes are funny?:	nah...not really.
Name the title of your autobiography...:	The Story You'll Never Read.
Forest Hump or Asian Anal Cuties?:	neither.
Width or Girth?:	it's not size that matters...it's what you do with it.
Tight or Floppy?:	tight.
What's your favorite food?:	pasta.
Do you enjoy the splendor that is...Pandas?:	they're cute.
What is your favorite type of soup?:	Bennigan's Baked Potato Soup.
Do you like sports?:	not really.
Do you tell a lot of "Your Momma" jokes?:	no.
If your momma was so fat, why would that be funny?:	it wouldn't be.
If you had a unicorn, what would you do with it?:	send it back where it came from...after making it bleed to see if it's blood is anything like they show in the Harry Potter Movies...lol.
Do you believe that time travel is possible in your lifetime?:	atm, no.
What will you blow your tax return on this year my friend?:	paying expenses and buying some clothes.
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