As i live my life, full of observations,  wondering why people do have routines, everything so normal, meet socialize gimiks, love problems, do your thing, modelling , why there is such thing as horoscopes, chinese astro. Studying and researching more beyond what the eye can see. I still feel so different, that this feeling is so weird, I know there is God, I know there is also someone out there like me. Seeing everyone around you is like a program, remembering the movie "the matrix", no wonder why the story writer ended up such  great work. he may be experiencing the same thing as i am right now. I wonder why I am so observant why can i just go with the flow that everyone do. why am i still asking myself should is do that or this. Why am I asking myself and putting limit on what i do as if i already know the feeling of what excites me. '

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I learned that, I am a soul in search for that light,  even if some people are aware and have gifts, to the other dimension in life, Most of them still choose to live the physical part of their being, I am now spiritually contented and in search for proper guidance.

Thank you for reading my blog

So many questions. so many research done, they say its in the genes, environmental influence etch,. :)) hahaha just wanna share what i think.

Why there are gay people? In my own theory, It's quite weird but if you think and be more open-minded, we cannot just live in ignorance that Our religion wants us to be informed

If you happen to read  my previous blog "our true self". it talks about soul and more in reincarnation.

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Our body is not our self it's our soul. The real consciousness that controls and occupies our body is our spiritual soul. Our brain only carries Signal to operate our body and to play the part as a HUMAN beings. Now, if you happen to die in sickness and illness, you'll get another body as long as your purpose here is not yet achieved, based on KARMA if you die with great sinful activities done you'll be reincarnated in a lower kind of species like animals,
          (so why animals do have souls? simple..:you eat, drink, have sex,reproduce/emotions etch. same as with the animals.)

If you plan to suicide, you will not be given another body. it's either your stuck as a soul (Ghost) or just nothing. that's why there are Lost souls for those who are killed or suicidal, because they don't deserve to be out of their body so early.

As a soul, you have no gender, its just you. that why Angel Gabriel have no gender because he is a Spirit soul from God.

Now if God gave you a body to occupy after death. it doesn't matter now if you going to get a male or female anatomy. That's why, some of the young boys/girls are gay, when you noticed them in their early age. that means the soul have a strong personality that the last body they have was opposite  on what they have now.

There are still too many questions… but all of the religions gave their last testaments/rules/laws/ or order or whatever they call it, to put silence of what is unknown for our souls is.

If you have question or violent reactions feel free  comment and share your thoughts.

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Have you watch the movie "Matrix?" There are questions there like, why do we exist? Why are we here? What's our purpose?..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

Yes, everyone will say its all about God, I agree with that. because I'm a believer.

People now a days are all the usual, ordinary like me. We tend to be attached in  Material aspect of life. contented in simple things and at a glance it's all about physical beauty.

I've read a book entitled "The Science of Self Realization." I learned that humans and animals do have soul, and our souls are immortal. 

Our Soul is our true self not the material body that God gave us to occupy. The book tackles about Reincarnation, if we die, our soul will leave the body. The soul will be given another body which is inside the womb of the mother that bears a child, and once you plan to get an abortion, it's like killing or rejecting a Soul that is supposed to live.  The book said, "Once they knew about the process of spiritual souls will be free from birth and death." that's because we transmigrate to another and another till our purpose in life will be achieved.

 Those souls who have great body great features, who are very vain, their soul are materially attached to the physical beauty. They will suffer from aging, frustrations, diseases etc.

Important:

Our soul is from God.

Good souls are good people.

We all have past life. That's why some of us will feel. That their soul mates etc.

Physical beauty will not last but your true self /your soul will always remain forever. The process of reincarnation will only be stop once the soul is done with its purpose in life and will go the place called Heaven.

I am a Christian but I'm still broadening my mind in other philosophies in life.

i just wanna comment about my generations and old generations.

my generation now are very lucky, when it comes to technology, gadgets and communication.

last night i attended a dinner meeting with some older peeps, . we ate and drink some wine, I was the only 21 yo in the group the youngest, we were like 6 in the table. all of them are very professionals in their career except me!. when they saw me.  their tellin me, I am so younge, "lucky you, enjoy your youth kid" yes i will!. They were asking me, how do i meet new people socializing and enjoying group of networks and friends,

told them its in the technology like the internet, its easy now to communicate and to find special love ones! hehehe.

well for me i told them. there are some advantages and disadvantages for the OLD and NEW generations on different styles of finding group of friends( specially to those who are homosexuals )   

New generations, are very much aware of technologies in communicating each other, and as time passes, younger and younger people are exposed in practice of unprotected sex,  and as you grow older  your world become smaller.

While the old generations now, are enjoying meeting people in parties, and social gathering. which is for me it is more exciting and decent and much more reserved LIKE ME! hehehe. kidding.

 so for those people who are in their 30s 40s 50s 60s. nothing to worry, you should not be insecure of your age. you have enjoyed to the fullest of your life and still you are,now we should now take good care of our health,  30s are young, 40s are (dalaga, binata! ) hhehe 50s are (ladies and gentlemen) 60s up  are(respect top them) hehehe.

for those people who are in ther teens and 20s like me, we're still babies! hehehe. lets continue to grow like a plant that bares flowers . in the future. and lets respect older peeps. one day we will be like them. and all go to heaven! hehe peac

thats all i got to say for now, and i might add some points to this blog soon. i am still observing those people who are afraid to get old, 

like me. awww

lolz thank GOD im still young!

Okay as all you know. i love to take pictures of myself, and that is so F*ckin vain! GAYNESS EWWW!  hahahaha

One time, i always put the camera somewhere and set it on timer mode, ( i always do that..?

Remember the "Yeaah burnin some calories!" in my photos, i did took it, what i did was i , place the camera somewhere on the bycle w/o support. and it didnt fall ( i am such a camwhore)

This time, in our house, i was looking for a location where to place the camera, and saw our punching bag. i place it on top of it, then gabe saw me, he said"oh mahulgo ang camera!" and i did not listen. welll  in my 2nd shot... the camera....

actually fell on the ground so hard!. the lens was damage!  

Oh my golly! why didnt i listen! ... though it was just a Canon pwershot a40, it still cost a lot of money to buy another one or to repair, and i hope my sister would'nt read this blog. because only me and Gabe knows that the camera was broken!

paksyet! bawas nanaman sa allowance ko! KAKAENES! amphness .