So I guess I should honestly admit that I have yet to step into a theater to see this movie. I have a great deal of regret about that... I've been at opening day of every Trek film since Generations. But this time my stomach has been acting up so much its very difficult to sit for more than a few minutes without having to run to the bathroom. That would pretty much ruin any chance at enjoying such a costly form of entertainment.

Of course this is me we're talking about... I have in fact seen the movie three times at this point, and I'm totally stoked for the day it comes out on DVD. And the fact that it made enough money for Paramount to announce a sequel really makes me excited.

I guess I should start with the plot, as its the Trekker's plight to pick apart every movie or episodes plot. My first overall observation is the enormous respect Abrams paid to the continuity of the original series... In fact that there were things in there I'd never even thought of. From Scotty's love of food to Uhura's first name... The attention to detail was so remarkable, I don't believe I can think of a previous film that even paid that kind of respect. And yet, do we call this a remake or a reboot? Essentially the plot is that in the post-Voyager era (a time I have to admit I miss) Romulas is threatened by an impending supernova; Spock promises he can stop it with "red matter" (It's 2009 and its Star Trek, we just discovered dark matter in real life, they've got to come up with something) except the plan goes ary, Romulas is destroyed and Spock's ship is attacked by a Romulan miner named Nero. Spock detonates the red matter in order to stop the super nova, which somehow creates a black hole that sends Nero and Spock back in time, with a 25 year gap respectively. Nero emerges pre-TOS, as the USS Kelvin, with Kirk's mom (who is in the process of giving birth to Jim Kirk) and his father George (who I guess is first officer) encounter them. Nero demands the captain of the Kelvin come aboard for questioning (essentially the first Middle Eastern captain portrayed on Star Trek, though I would challange people to watch Star Trek 4 closely and question that). The captain goes aboard, making George Kirk captain. Nero attacks the Kelvin, Kirk's dad orders an evacuation as the ships auto control systems are knocked out. He orders his wife's shuttle to leave and listens over a communicator she's holding as she gives birth and he attacks Nero's ship. Nero knocks out the Kelvin's weapons and George Kirk sets a collision course with Nero's ship. He has just enough time to hear his son and tell his wife to name him after her dad before the Kelvin is destroyed. (and if you haven't guessed, it's Jim)

At this point the timeline has now changed. Kirk now grows up fatherless, rebellious and directionless. It takes an encounter with captain Pike, first captain of the Enterprise, to convince Kirk to join Starfleet. A scene that is in pretty much every trailer, so I'm not spoiling anything.

So essentially, from that point on, Abrams has preserved Trek history and yet written it anew with a new timeline, an alternate universe. And I'll just come out and say it, he pretty much punches it in the junk by destroying Vulcan and killing off Spock's mother. (And while concerned because she did have a somewhat important role in Star Trek 4, I was extremely pleased... The fact is, Wynona Ryder needs to die. I was very happy with that scene)

I did have two nitpicks with the plot. And not really the plot but things mentioned or shown in the whole thing. The first was the design of the Federation ships. While I definately like the direction they're going, Abrams really can't explain the deviation between these designs and the actual original series designs by the attack on the Kelvin point of time change, as the design of the Kelvin shared too many engine similarities with the Enterprise and none with the TOS Enterprise or the Enterprise from Star Trek: Enterprise, or even the Phoenix from First Contact. I can forgive this one though as anything from TOS would likely have to be sexed up for the big screen, and using Gabe Koerner's(an uber-famous Trek fan from Trekkies 1 and 2) concept design for a re-imagined Enterprise was a very nice courtesy to the fans I thought. Plus Gabe's right, they really needed to do something about the center of gravity on that thing.

The second qualm I have is when Spock (Zack Quinto) steps onto Spock's (Leonard Nemoy) ship and asks the computer to identify its manufacturing origin, and it says it was built on "Stardate 2387 by the Vulcan Science Academy." As all Trekkies know, the complexities of TOS Stardates are pretty much this... They are untrackable. Once the movies came around though, they roughly happened around Stardate 8000 something. And then with the inception of Star Trek The Next Generation, the production team firmly established a 5 digit number starting with four beginning in the first season of TNG and moving into 5 in following series, followed by the season number based on TNG... For example, Voyager ended on Stardate 54973.4, roughly 7 years after TNG ended. (which in reality I believe it did, it came out the next year right?) The calender year of the ending of Voyager was technically 2377. So if I were to assume that Spocks ship where actually built in 2387, technically something like eight years after Star Trek Nemesis, then the actual Stardate would have been 64376.71... A number that based on TOS numbers would likely have meant nothing to Spock. Therefore the use the word "Stardate" was a bit of a mistake. But I've searched the net, and so far I'm the only nerd that's noticed. *lol*

Anyway. Performances.

Jim Kirk- Chris Pine- Never heard of the guy till someone pointed out he was the dude from Princess Diaries 2... I won't forget him now. That said I don't think its possible to dublicate the pompous arrogance of William Shatner. But as far as Kirk the character goes, seeing this from the beginning perspective, Pine's performance is perfect.

Spock- Zack Quinto- I loved Zack as Sylar from Heroes all ready, seeing him as Spock really blows your mind. What Abrams wrote for his character was brilliant enough, but the way Zack pulls it off, absolutely brilliant.

Spock Prime - Leonard Nimoy- I was actually thrown a bit by his performance, but given Nimoy hasn't played the character in 18 years I'm not all that surprised. And if you take into account the last we knew of Spock was his attempts at reunification with the Romulans, Spock's overly emotional nature it seems, well it pretty much made sense. That aside when you look at his face this looks a lot more like a homecoming for Nimoy than actually pulling off his own character. But as Spock would say, it is acceptable.

Uhura- Like I said, the whole first name thing I'd never thought of. But the apparent romance between her and Spock... I didn't see that one coming.

Sulu- John Cho- People have been bitching about Cho being a Korean American and George Takai being Japanese American, which is just stupid. As George said, Sulu was meant to embody an Asian, not a Japanese character. And besides that it was firmly established Sulu was born in San Fransisco (IRONY he says as gay as possible). All that aside it was interesting and hard at the same time... He's bumbling at the helm yet confident fighting with a folding sword (?!). Not that Sulu was the confident man in the original series that he was in Star Trek 6, but even so, Cho just threw me.

Chekov- Anton Yelchin- I was very curious how Charlie Bartlet was going to pull off a Walter Koenig style performance as Chekov, and boy was I surprised. I didn't think it possible to out Chekov Chekov. Freakin' bravo.

Scotty- Simon Pegg- Huge Simon Pegg fan for years, when I heard he was playing Scotty I think any bias I might have had if he'd have been unknown pretty much went out the window. And actually seeing him on screen, performing Scotty taking over as chief engineer for the first time... Brilliant. Everything went right. And on the technical side, there is a scene where the Enterprise is almost sucked into a black hole, and Scotty suggests ejecting the warp core and riding the wave from the detonation to get away (which has been used a number of times on Star Trek) I especially appreciated that it wasn't just one core they ejected but several... In the original series the Enterprise had a number of dilithium chambers and no specific "warp core," we really didn't see one until the first motion picture.

Pike- Bruce Greenwood- LOVED the performance. Even though Pike was only in the unaired pilot (rebroadcast as "The Menagerie") I think he captured the character. And they even managed to duplucate Pike's fate without the beeping box. And I really want to say thank you to JJ Abrams for not duplicating the slug scene from Star Trek II and going for the mouth... I saw Nero pull that thing out and eyes shut till Lonna said it was ok. Horror I tell you.

So ultimately if its not obvious all ready I'm exceptionally happy with the movie. Granted I actually liked Nemesis and apparently everyone else hated it, so I dunno. But Lonna seemed to enjoy it too so it must have something for everyone. As I said, I can't wait for it to come out on DVD. Even though we've got this whole new universe thing, its really nice to have Star Trek back. And even nicer that it doesn't suck.

Well I think this is directed mostly at those of you who listen to the podcast, but for the rest of you who haven't heard from me in forever... Here you go...

As many of you know I suffer from bipolar disorder and while it hasn't been my explicit pleasure to share the intimate details of my life with people I don't even know, when you run into moments like attempting suicide that pretty much impact your life on such a profound level and effects everything in your life on every level, revelation of such things becomes inevitable. (and no, this is not me saying I did that again... if anything its the exact opposite)

As far as the podcast goes, there was a technical glitch with the website that wasn't necessarily preventing me from posting a show but causing enough trouble to eat enough of my time. Add my job laying off nearly half the salary staff which had the odd effect of increasing my actual hours worked back to near full time, I've had next to no personal time to work on the show.

And I'd like to say I'm grateful for the extra hours, but to be honest I'm just getting very, very tired of this job. The work is tedious and the people left working there, I can't help but think they chose the people who make the least and in doing so left two of the biggest backstabbers in the whole company. And since we've had to downsize so small, there really only is one team left. So we may be a building apart but my stress level has been so bad there are days I've had to call my doctor or optometrist because I've literally gone blind from the stress.

Thats another piece of good news... I got new glasses. These are copper colored. But I went to a different optometrist, convinced my last had screwed me over, and he confirmed it... The perscription was too powerful for my eyes and it partially damaged and severely irritated them. This new prescription is nice, I can wear low top sneakers again without falling over at all. But I can't really look side to side because I guess the optometrist had to limit my peripheral vision in order to try and repair the damage the last doctor caused.

So ultimately thats a few things that are just messing with my normal schedule.

But you probably sensed when you started reading this that I had more to say. If so, give yourself a dollar.

The truth is I'm going through some really deep stuff right now, personally, spiritually, maritally... I mean things between Lonna and I, I think I can say they've never been better. But the truth is, as listeners, as my old friends, what I've personally been going through, it would be very difficult for me to put into words that would help you understand just what on earth has happened.

I guess just to throw it out there, you know I don't think I've ever not admitted to being a Christian, but theres a big difference between just saying "Yeah I'm a Christian," and actually attending a church and practicing Christianity. And I know a few of you at this point are going "Huh? Dubshack is going Fundy?" Well thats pretty far from the truth, but by the same token my wife and I have finally taken the initiative to start attending a church and beginning next week will take our first steps in becomming members of that church.

The church in question is called Valley Real Life and is like on the other side of the Spokane Valley, if there is a distance that weekly challenges my anxiety disorder this is it. But the pastor is a family friend and was an ex-drug addict... I bring this up because I happen to believe people like this actually "get" what the Bible has to say. And Matt is by far one of the funniest and yet most intense people I have ever met, two traits I think are essential to the leader of a church.

That said in Christianity once you chose your church and path the next step is essentially to humble yourself to it... Its never about you, and maybe thats just one of the things people get wrong. When I was a witness the thing I couldn't stand was people always talking about you behind your back. Now I'm in a position that I just can't care about that sort of thing.

I don't know how to talk to you guys about some of the more deeply spiritual things that have happened to me. All I can think to say as plainly and sanely as possible is that a number of people including Matt and Stuart, our Mens ministry and Recovery pastor, and things that I believe God has pushed into my attention have led me down a path that I believe is a healing path. One of the stranger ones has been the slow receding of my wheat allergy, which has been both wonderful and very odd. But thats a very selfish thing... There have been other changes, wonderful changes and I only hope and pray that they continue.

So one thing this has led to, and this might surprise some of you, is that I entered the recovery ministry. I'm not going to tell you why because honestly I'm not sure I'm ready to tell it. But it is a two part program, one is something similar to something you might have seen out of the second season of Dexter, and the second is a straight up 12 step program. (and if your wondering, no, I'm not an alcoholic)

So what does this mean, does this mean we've found "the softer side of Dubshack?" Well my ability to write comedy has always been questionable and my comitment to deliver that I don't intend to change... Though like I said, life has picked up and getting back in my groove is frankly going to be tough. But the "softer side..." I can only hope that at some point you guys will get that what I do on that show is an act, its not and never has been the real me. Who I am and how I feel about people and things, I've always cared a lot about "my crew" so to speak, those people around me that bother trying to be my friends and I try to return in kind. My hope is that those relationships are only strengthened.

As for my beliefs, they are undoubtedly going to become more defined. A couple of you are probably wondering if I've gone "Red." Politically I've always defined myself as a civil liberatarian, which technically is part of the Democratic Party, and so I am likely to vote that way. That said, and I've always said this, you gotta have both parties because there is good and bad on both sides, and if you get rid of one your just as likely to adopt all the bad of one party instead of the good. As far as things like abortion and gay rights... I'll put it this way. I've never been pro choice, pro abortion, but I've always been against the government regulating that. (though I do agree Roe V Wade ought to be repealed, only because the court has no authority to create legislation and made a law that was far too vague, I think Roe V Wade should be replaced with sensible legislation that unfortunately has to be passed by Congress... thats the legal way to do it... And yeah I agree no one wants abortion, there is only one case I see it as valid, and thats in the case where the mother is under medical danger) As for gay rights, yes the Bible says homosexuality is a sin... But it doesn't say its THE sin, Adultery is a sin, premarital sex is a sin. I'm not defending homosexuality biblically but secularly as an American I find no basis to penalize any one group over any one set of attributes. And I find it odd that so many christians go for homosexuals... There are lots of polyamorists out there and I don't see any "GOD HATES ORGIES" signs out there. (though that would be amusing I have to admit) I mean they treat homosexuals as if they were pedophiles and yet the Bible actually doesn't actually say anything about pedophiles. But we KNOW that behavior is wrong, so we can persecute them right?

I don't think anyone deserves to be persecuted. Except by God maybe and I'll leave that to him since he paid the ultimate price to do so. But what goes on between me and God is between me and God, how he wants me to treat others... I kind of follow that scripture where Jesus says "He who is without sin cast the first stone." We don't have the right to take the place of Jesus, who is the judge, and we're told he's a fair judge.

As for gay marriage I've long said Christians don't have the copyright on the word "Marriage." Marriage in truth is an Earthly institution, and yes I believe created by God but now enforced by the State. Its all ready been taken out of the hands of the believers. And the believers should take a look at Mark 12:18-27. My question is if Jesus is going to abolish the institution of marriage at the resurrection anyway and we can all assume that at that point he's not answering to any particular state authority, then what the heck does it matter? Why are these guys protesting about something being corrupted that if you actually do the right thing and follow Jesus isn't going to exist anymore anyway?

I don't pretend to have all the answers. I only know that there are Salvation issues and non-Salvation issues, and some of the non-Salvation issues are pretty important like tithing, but they are still non-Salvation issues. The Salvation issue, and I say issue because I think its the one and only most important one and has been taught in more than one church to be so, and is supported by mounds of scripture, and that is that Jesus said "I am the way, the Truth and the Light, and no one reaches the Father but through Me." In other words Oprah is wrong. But I personally think there might just be another Salvation issue. In Mathiew 23:34-40, Jesus is questioned as to what the Greatest Commandment is. Jesus replied (depending on your translation... VRL uses NLTs, how I ended up with 3 NYTs is a story) "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

Of course this leads into the Parable of the Good Samaritan, which I'll let you read for yourself. But I think it strikes at the very heart of what Christianity should be all about, and I know I'm not alone. All these other things will soon pass away... And whether I'm wrong about what I think, I understand that Jesus judges by our hearts, and I'm told by scripture that entry into Heaven is dictated by ones declaration of ones belief of Jesus as Christ and the son of God. I think theres probably a little more to it than that, and I suspect as I live my life now I'm not headed there.

But what I've come to discover is the inescapable conclusion that God wants us to be closer to him. He calls to us. We don't hear him because there is so much in this world that so easily distracts us. I was recently introduced to a beautiful play/dance set to the music of Everything by Lifehouse (in fact check it out on Youtube, search "Everything Lifehouse Skit" and watch the one with the guy who looks like the PC guy only wearing a purple sash... I'm telling you, thats some powerfull stuff). The truth is if we slow down long enough with open hearts we can hear him. And sometimes even the most stubborn of us can be brought to our knees by God's will. But for me it was a series of things, things I'm not going to get into tonight because they are deeply personal, and also because I have a wife waiting for me in bed.

So ultimately what have we learned from this huge essay? I'm still me, I haven't changed. I would just argue that I'm becoming MORE me as every day passes. And I'm glad for that, and even if you don't understand I hope at least you can share in that too.

I've published my novel Dark Ascendance through Lulu.com. You can search Dark Ascendance or Michael Wright or even Dubshack and get to it. Or you can click on this link.

I just finished the last of my work vacations last week... Which kind of sucks, I didn't really accomplish all that much. I was planning ..ing my second book "Bound," that didn't happen. I worked towards bringing back the Farpoint Recap, other than fixing the feed and updating the website I didn't accomplish a lot. But I did manange to get another read of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. That was a two day fest of no food or drink which bored my wife and left me with a headache.

Now I'm trying to balance not having work and ending up overworked while sorting out this whole going back to school thing. I'm actually entertaining the idea of a private school, like Gonzaga or Whitworth. I dunno about that yet though. Lots of dough. I probably can't even go to Gonzaga without going back to community and getting all my science credits... I'm just entertaining the idea because its like almost literally across the street from work.

We'll see. Anyway. Thought I'd update the blog... People have asked how to find the book... There's the link. I dropped the price too... And if you're family and reading this, chances are you aren't getting a copy for Christmas, we ended up actually shopping for you. Maybe next year.

I said I wouldn't do it till I finished the other two... But circumstances have kind of left me with not a lot of choice. Unless my insurance company comes around and approves Lyrica for me or we just say screw it and buy it from Canada its not real likely that I'll be podcasting the book or completing the other two... I just don't have the energy.

Luckily there's Lulu.com. I decided I would release a "rough draft" version for sale if people would like to purchase it, and you can find that link here: http://www.lulu.com/content/3985038

It's $21.50, which occurs to me to be a ridiculous price for a book but given its my only venue of getting it out there at this point... All I can say is I apologize. I'll try to get those other two written so I can get a big house to publish it and you can find it on the book shelves for $7.50 or whatever. Of course the way the prices are going up it might end up being that way anyway. At any rate, it has a nice cover. I hope. I ordered a copy and haven't gotten it yet, so I dunno how well it came out.

But there it is. If you hold any interest in reading it all, its now available. I also made a digital copy available for significantly less. I don't know how you go about purchasing that but be aware its available, if you're into that.

Anyway, as for the Fibro... Its been kicking my but. I had three great days with the Lyrica, it was like saying "what pain?" but I came down with pink-eye and after a discussion with my doctor we decided to play the insurance companies game. They wanted me to try Neurontin and Flexeril first. As far as I was concerned I'd jump through any hoops to get back to Lyrica. Well after five days the Neurontin was giving me nightmares and halucinations of hanging myself, so I stopped taking that. Flexeril is like living every moment feeling drugged. But I'm on that just to keep the pain down until Dr. Schmitd can work his appeal mojo.

So yeah, thats where I'm at. Drugged for the most part, waiting for the one that will kill the pain and exhaustion without making me even more tired.

So yeah. Make me feel better, buy my book. *lol*

Well it's been quite a long while since I last wrote here. Not a whole lot thats happened to mention... I quit podcasting obviously. It was one of those things where trying to gather the energy to do it was in itself such an overwhelming chore that in the end didn't really seem worth it. I was missing out on life it seemed, and the things I used to enjoy just as well, writing especially. In fact the day I decided to quit podcasting my brain was inundated by ideas for a prequel short story series to Dark Ascendance. I started writing and.... Well something weird happened. I was having a hard time concentrating on writing the way I used to. I would be going along with a scene and suddenly have an idea for something I'd need to research... I'd get distracted. And in the limited amount of time I had between work and whatever you would call downtime, my writing time basically disolved without my even noticing.

In the mean time at work I got pulled back and forth between projects, even though we're running low on work, I got involved in this project where I had to take all survey data collected on a particular project over the course of 13 years and put them together into one survey. It was intense, frustrating, and it took me a good month of not moving from my station, with the exception of my frequent bathroom breaks... Sometime during this time my chair broke, apparently most chairs have a 250 pound limit. I was able to order parts to fix it but I spent a good week sitting in a chair that I had to keep perfectly still in or I'd either fall on my face or flat on my back.

I guess the reason I'm bringing this up is that at some point last week I took a breath and realized, holy crap I feel like shit. And I don't mean like I've got the flu or something, Lonna was on anti-biotics for strep throat but we're not talking throat or ear pain here, we're talking my legs were on fire, my feet felt like they were breaking in two, my hands hurt, I couldn't lift my left arm above my shoulder without serious pain... Basically I hurt everywhere. And it occured to me that this wasn't the first time I'd experienced this. I saw the doctor about it when he found my scholiosis. But the more I thought about it, the farther back I went the more I could remember this same pain, only those times I wrote it off because I was under sever stress. In this case the most stress I'd gone through was not getting out of my chair for a good month. That made no sense to me. So on a whim I pulled up Google and just searched "hurts all over." It gave me page after page about a condition called Fibromyalgia, something I'd never heard of. But when I looked at the symptoms list, I was in for quite a surprise. Irritable bowel syndrome, restless leg syndrome, having symptoms of hypoglycemia while testing negative for diabetes, painful over-reactions to seemingly normal stimulii, and "hot spots" where the slightest touch causes pain... I had to contain myself, it was like learning of the Big Bang theory of the last three years of medical treatment I've gone through. But you know how it is, you find these things on the internet, they sound like you have them but you're not a doctor, you can't say you've got it.

Well I've got it. A couple people at work had talked me into going to a barbeque out on Lake Coeur d'Alene last Friday and I figured the doctor was on the way, if I could slip in... They had an open slot right before the BBQ so I went and told Dr. Schmidt what was going on, and how I suspected Fibromyalgia... Showed him the rash on my feet that mysteriously showed up almost a year ago and is one of the hallmarks of the disorder... He did the physical test for it and it turns out absolutely yes, I have Fibromyalgia.

I actually felt better after the appointment. Dr Schmidt recommended a treatment of a drug called Lyrica, as we'd talked about the various treatments and how this one would be best. Essentially I'd be taking two pills at night to avoid the "brain fog" the drug is known to cause in the initial month of taking it.

But then I got home and I checked the formulary for our insurance company and they don't cover Lyrica, they cover the drug Dr. Schmidt told me would likely cause the same type of brain drain and behavioral problems Zyprexa did to me back in 2005. The funny thing is, this drug is not even approved by the FDA for treatment of Fibromyalgia, the only two are Lyrica and Cymbalta (which is an anti-depressant, which I've not had luck with). Neither of which are covered by my insurance.

But the insurance aside, I started looking into the Fibromyalgia community to see what the outlook was for any of these treatments. I get the impression that Neurotin (the drug my insurance company would rather me take because its cheaper) is the worse one, helping people less and in worst cases causing psychosis, but I don't know any details... It does seem to help some people. Lyrica on the other hand is so new, the few people that tried it, it seems to be 50/50, either they hated it and quit after a few weeks or it helped a good deal better than Neurotin. But in Neurotin's case, Pfiser, the drug manufacterer was sued in multiple states not only for abuse due to off-label advertising but that it caused numerous people to commit suicide. But then I found a recent alert by the FDA saying that 11 drugs, including both Neurotin AND Lyrica were found to double thoughts of suicide in patients taking them.

So it's kind of like... Well, I have a diagnosis. I can finally say what it is thats wrong with me, and it isn't degenerative, it isn't going to kill me or anything. But treating it... Man at this point I just don't have a fucking clue. Its almost as if I'd be better off not treating it at all.

So yeah, if you haven't figured it out by now, that whole thing about me being replaced on the recap was a joke.

What really threw me was the concern you guys threw out there, the emails you sent me and Brian over at Farpoint, and the fact that for the three days I played this out, NOBODY downloaded the show. Now thats loyalty people.

I promise I won't make that kind of joke again. *lol*

Anyway. About the falling down the stairs comment... It was early this morning, I was tired and not paying attention I guess... I'm ok, no broken bones (lucky I have plenty of padding I guess) but I think I jerked a muscle, bending my left leg has hurt quite a bit. Plus I sliced open my finger afterwards, so today just hasn't been my day.

Other than that, things are good. Brain Bleach Radio looks to be on the ball for recording next month. The release date still hasn't been decided and likely won't till August, but just judging by the test runs we've done, I'm guessing you guys are really going to enjoy this. If you thought Eliza was off the hook in Wingin' it, just wait. *lol*

Not much to tell I guess... Everyone knows I haven't been feeling great about FPR's numbers, and been getting a lot more excited about the Brain Bleach Radio podcast we've been working on... So I approached Brian about the possibility of podfading the Recap, and surprise surprise... As it turns out, ever since my hiatus announcement they've had a guy waiting in the wings to take over for me. He all ready had a show ready to go in fact.

So I've decided to post it on my page in good faith, and I hope you guys give the guy a chance. I've heard a bit of his show and well... We'll have to see.

And for those of you who've all ready heard the show... be quiet. Till Wednesday anyway. *lol*

Almost a week after the stupid thing airs, I'm finally breaking my vow of eternal silence.

Wingin' It 3d is dead.

I'm actually kind of relieved. It was like beating a dead horse for a while there. Half the time the topics were pissing me off, and the other half I had nothing to work with. Turns out Mike and Brian felt the same way.

Oh well.

The Farpoint Recap is kind of falling under the same fate... Loosing listeners incredibly fast. I can think of a million reasons why, I just don't know which one(s). And if its gonna be like this I dunno if its worth it.

There's another project I'm working on with some peoples that could be cool. Kind of a way of starting fresh, but still doing podcasting.

Anyway... When we got our stimulus check we used most of it to get cars running, though the Chevy sounds like a lost cause. Lonna is driving the Samurai, and I think I've found the part thats broken thats causing the RPMs to be too high, but I don't know how to fix it. Plus its missing and a tuneup didn't do anything.

Well I thought I had a point going there.. Oh yeah, I'm trying to learn guitar again. It's wierd, I've got some of the basic chords down, and I can strum in kind of a pathetic lame dog like fashion... But I can't believe the first song to practice in this book is Kumbaya. Why can't it be something cool like... I dunno... Give Myself To You by Train. (I dunno... totally random off my playlist)

And I decided that I'd take a departure from Orson Scott Card and try out Richard Matheson. I figured he'd be good since I've seen every movie adaptation of his books out there (Stir of Echoes, Somewhere in Time, I am Legend, What Dreams My Come) and they're all cool... But I got three of the books and two out of the three are written in first person perspective. So it's a good thing Matheson is dead because I'd love to rip his nipples out with a pair of knitting needles.

Anyway. This weekend we did some major spring cleaning... Got the studio nice and purdy and Lonna turned the guest room into a study/guitar room for me to practice in, which was pretty nice. Now I have motivation. I could use more of that, in other areas. Like loosing some weight. Which I've all ready started to an extent, it's called my friends and family. Which is another story I don't have the wherewithall to tell.

Frankly I've just had enough drama for... well at least a good five or six months. Maybe a good year.

Thank God for golf. BTW- New Maroon 5 CD is da AWESOME.

And Lonna, if you don't stop with the pink headphones I swear I'm going to put my head through the television.