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Elizabeth



Last Updated: 7/6/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 41
Sign: Capricorn

State: South Carolina
Country: US

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June 30, 2009 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  adventurous
I have put in my notice at work, my last day is August 5th.  Logan has informed her father.  Collan, Logan and Myself are moving to Oklahoma to start a new life.  Holly, Michael and Emma want us to be with them, share in their every day lives, to watch my grand daughter grow, and miss nothing. 

We wipe the slate clean and we break away and start fresh, from scratch.  We all have decided we want our family back.  We miss each other so very much it hurts our hearts.  No more waiting for major Holidays to spend a week together and try to get as much family time in as we can before we have to go back to life with out each other.  I get my children and my grand children around me.  They make me who I am and I am not complete without them. 

I died October 11th 2007, and I was reborn a new person.  August 8th shall be MY Independence Day.  I'll finally be free. I promise, no looking back.
Currently listening:
Martina McBride - Greatest Hits
By Martina McBride
Release date: 2001-09-18
November 8, 2008 - Saturday 

This morning I absent mindedly picked up the phone and dialed my mom's phone number and it began to ring before I realized she wasn't there anymore.  For a moment I felt a pang of sorrow.  I wasn't angry, I didn't cry.  It was one of those little moments in life to remind me of where I am, and again to count my many blessings.

Two days after my mom passed away I recieved a small box in the mail from The Bradford Exchange.  It was an Italian charm bracelet mom had ordered over a month prior, it was to be part of my Christmas gift.  The bracelet reads:

  My Daughter, when You're sad, I wish you joy.   When You're lonely, I wish you Love.  When You're Discouraged, I wish You Hope.  When Your Spirit is low, I wish you Beauty, When you're Troubled, I wish you Peace.

Life changes in the blink of an eye, and all we can do is make the decision to embrace the change or resist it.  I'm glad my mom taught me this past year to embrace change.  She prepared me for so many things, things that I'm just beginning to see.  I am so very lucky that when my Ex hurt the children and I so badly last year, she was there to help me pick up the pieces, wipe my tears, listen to me vent when I was frustrated, hurt, angry and depressed.  She helped me make the difficult transition I had to make.  In a way, she was absent mindedly preparing me for what was to come, just as absent mindedly as I picked up the phone to call her this morning. 

We do what we do because of who we love, how we are raised, and we do it without a second thought.  It's uncontious, unconditional love.   I miss her, and I love her  so very much.

May 30, 2008 - Friday 

Current mood:  happy
Emma Lillian is 9 months old!  Nana's lil' flower.

 
Almost 7 months old, Emma visits St. Nick December 2008

 
Five months old.  Shhhh  we need a nap before an afternoon at the park.

 
9/28/08  She is growing so fast!



 
09/05/08  (Mommy and Me picture) Both of them are beauties.

 
07/27/08 (12 weeks old!!)

06/26/08 (Army Life)
The Marienes may be looking for a few good Men, but I know a branch who has a few good Women.  She's back to work full time active duty.  She is also a full time mom and a wife.  SHE is my hero.  I love you Holly.

06/21/08 (getting dressed is exhausting work)

06/16/08 (6 weeks already??)

 
06/08/08 (Look at who loves me!)

06/07/08 This weeks picture (chillin')

 
 
05/30/08 Picture of the week (Nap Time)
ok..all together now... "Awwwww"

 
05/24/08
He he he She's a doll.  This is my picture of the week.

 
04/18/08
I awoke to a picture message on my cell phone.  The caption to the message read:  "Good Morning Grandma, I just wanted to share my breakfast with you".  I wanna go back to Texas LOL!!!!  I left somthing there I hafta have!

 
05/14/08
Holly or Michael send me a picture every day of Lilly.  Even if it's just a quick picture taken with the cell phone and sent.  It keeps me there with them sort of.  Helps me stay a part of their family, and watching that beautiful little girl growing, and getting stronger every day. 

 
 
 
 
05/05/08
Emma Lillian was born at 8:50 am on Sunday May 4th.  She weighed 6lbs, 14oz.  She is 20 inches long, she has blue eyes and smooth lilly white skin just like her mommy.  Mom and baby are both doing fine.  As soon as I get back to the house I will upload an ASS LOAD of pictures.  Next few days I'm spending as much time with them as I can.  This grandma thing ain't half bad!
 
January 24, 2008 - Thursday 

Current mood:  confident
Category: Life

 

I have; since I can remember been a caretaker of someone, somthing. Not that I am complaining, my children are my heros and everything I have ever done for them, or with them I would do again and again until the end of time.  

Recently I find myself in a new place, one where I am caretaker of me first.  It was a very unfortunate turn of events that has landed me in this place, however I have come to believe after the pain and heartache and lessons I have learned over the past 16 years (some good, some very very bad) that now it's my turn.  I am learning to be who I want to be. 

I used to joke about people who would say "I'm searching for myself" my thought was.. "buddy?  if you don't know who, or where you are....they make medications for that".  Now I understand what that means.  I am learning who I am how I want to live for me, make my own choices without the guilt of not doing for others first and putting me on hold.  I like it.  I can say no.  I can say back off.  I can remove myself from any situation I want because now I have MY choices.  I took them for granted for so long.

So here is to new beginnings, new places, new friends, new lovers, and  brand new me...LOOK OUT WORLD HERE I FINALLY COME!

Currently listening:
Whitesnake’s Greatest Hits
By Whitesnake
Release date: 19 July, 1994