You know, I realized that I posted a blog yesterday and did not say what I am thankful for.

So I decidedly will make a whole new blog devoted to my thankfulness.

I am thankful for the following:

My wonderful husband and the family I married into - for being the best of the best. Never making me think twice. Always being supportive. And for supplying the genes that will someday make me a cute little bambino.
My fantastic friends - who all continue to be awesome into their adult lives.
My family (including Keegan's) and relatives - for making our honeymoon possible through their generous donations.
Emmjay - because she makes me happy everyday.
My job - what I have learned there, and the people I've met (and the money, of course).
People like - Tim Howard, Greg, and my parents (sometimes) for helping us all when we are in need.
CONES.
Weight Watchers - for getting me to a better weight so I wouldn't look disgusting on my wedding day.
Barnes and Noble - for bringing back my love for books.
Starbucks - for being there when Dunkin Donuts fails.
Dunkin Donuts - for STILL having pumpkin ice (I won't hold my breath once the month is over).
Sponges with brillo pads on the opposite side - otherwise washing dishes would be three times as frustrating as it already is.
Wendy's - for coming out with a chocolate chip cookie dough frosty.
DJ's - for constantly taking me off my diet with the deliciousness that is their chicken cutlet sandwich.
Keegan's dental connections - got to love white(er) teeth!
Hair straighteners - because.... what would I do with this mane without you?!
Myspace - because you have become a necessity in my life. Just stop changing because it's fucking annoying.
Sarku Japan - for teaching me that I like fried cabbage, more than I ever though I would or could.
Dust busters - for making it much more enjoyable to clean up after Em.
Breathe Right strips - for the many nights I was able to sleep, either when Keegan was using them so he wasn't keeping me awake - or when I was sick and needed them to breathe. They really work!
Turkeys - for being consistently delicious throughout the years.
Ann Taylor Loft - for supplying me with a wardrobe for work (and our honeymoon) that I didn't think was possible. I suppose I should just thank Alena for telling me to go in there and browse.
Internet games - such as Chuzzle and Luxor. They keep me awake and entertained for hours when need be.

Lastly, I'd like to thank 2008 for being my bitch.
It was very cooperative.
It allowed me to diet and exercise, totalling 60 pounds of weight loss (which I have since gained some back).
It also allowed me, Keegan, Erin, Chelsea, and Ryan to quit smoking cigarattes (just passed my 9 month mark)!
I was also able to secure a good job, and get tan in time for my wedding.
Oh, and yeah - I got married too!
So, 2008... although I am sure it was rather embarassing for you, you have empowered me to go forth and do even better things next year.
For that I am the most thankful.

Happy Thanksgiving everybody!
What are YOU thankful for?

fucking thanksgiving 2008 is tomorrow.
and... did i just get married and turn 24?
what. the. fuck.
we're about to experience 2009, and we haven't fully secured a slogan yet.
i think maybe it should be "what the fuck. 2009?"
just a thought.

so - *insert really high pitched pysched tone here* hi guys!
i feel like maybe i should recap some from where i left off in my last blog.
but anyone that reads this, knows what's going on in my life already... so why waste precious time?

well let me just say this....

married though.
for real.
after ALL THAT.
it's done.
i'm just amanda keegan, and that is who i will remain.
so much stress, for something that went by in a flash.
i got to say though... it was pretty freakin awesome.

you know what was even awesomer because it lasted 11 days longer than my wedding?
that's right!
OUR HONEYMOON!
you guys don't even know.
or maybe you do.
i hope you do.
but traveling around like that and having so much time and money is unbelievably liberating in a way i wish i could explain.
it was worth it.... spending all that money that is.

we went to amsterdam 2 years ago from now.
that is another thing that i hope those of you haven't experienced, get to eventually experience (if you like weed especially).
it's just freaking amazing what has happened in the past 2 years.

think of madi.
and boy do i love to think about that adorable child.
2 years ago... she wasn't even in the womb yet.
sorry to use the word "womb" on you like that.
but fo' REAL.

i read one of my blogs from a couple years ago and i teared up with laughter.
i asked erin if she thought it was conceited of me to be so amused by my own writing.
she says no.
keegan thinks i should write a book.
i used to want to do that.
now i can't even write a good blog anymore.
am i losing it?
i certainly hope not, since it was one of the only things i ever had.

emmjay is great, she thanks you for asking.
she's having this situation where she is kind of unclear about where she should be shitting.
she seems to have taken it upon herself to just go wherever she deems fit.
it's quite unacceptable, and i am not positive what her malfunction might be.
we've discussed it, and she is just rebelling.
i personally believe that she has abandonment issues from when we went on our honeymoon.
i mean, she had a great time with erin - but how could she be sure that we were going to come back?
aside from the fact that i told her a bunch of times.
she doesn't listen.
so anyway - she probably gave us an ultimatum like "you leave me behind for any length of time in a place that is not my home, and if and when you return, i will shit on your floor for my remaining days".
we probably didn't understand - since she's a fucking rabbit.

my 24th birthday was fun.
much lower key this year.
thank you everyone.
what are we doing for new years?

i have to work on friday because i fucking work for simon.
damn the man.
simon is SO "the man" in my life.
damn him.
at least i only have to work 6 hours, and then after that - it's the weekend.
i suppose i'll suck it up.

christmas is coming.
craaazy.
what's going to happen?
it's a secret.
will keegan get his remote starter?
will i decide on getting a vaporizer?
are tara or chelsea my secret santa?
what did i end up getting my secret santa person?
good things to unfold.
stay tuned.

i got to go.
i don't have to work tomorrow.
it's not even 10:30pm.
i'm just terribly, terribly lame.

good night.

Ugh. I’m sick to my stomach.

I had my second job interview for a state job last week. They told me I’d hear "something" by either friday afternoon or monday morning. It is now 10:30 on monday morning, and I have a dozen people waiting to hear if I got this job. The worst part about it, is that they’re all convinced it was totally in the bag for me. What they don’t understand is that there were 48 people that applied for this job. 14 were interviewed the first time. I don’t know how many were interviewed the second time. My dad works in that office, so I have connections. But then I find out that someone’s wife that works in that office also wants to the job. I felt that the interviews went really well, but there’s no way of knowing. My dad talked to the dude that works in the department, and I guess he hasn’t heard anything yet either. So, that’s a good thing... It’s just that if I don’t get this job we’re totally fucked. I haven’t had a REAL job since September. My cell phone bill is over $600, and it’ll be shut off any day now. When they shut if off, they need a minimum of $326 to turn it back on. Not to mention our car insurances will both be cancelled by the end of the month if they aren’t paid. Oh, and did I mention rent was due, among other things? Yeah.... FUCKED. I have spent lots of time, including this morning, looking on capecodonline and craisglist for job postings. All of which don’t pay enough, or require some serious degree. I refuse to work in the retail, food, or cleaning business. It’s not my scene. I’m an office girl. This whole thing is just devestating, especially as I watch time pass....

The wedding plans are coming along quite well though. We’ve pretty much secured all the major aspects like the DJ, Florist, Photographer, Dresses, etc. I’ve picked out my bridesmaids gifts and the overall gifts, we’ve just got to buy them. I’ve lost 30lbs since I started dieting (weight watchers) and exercising in January. It’s a nice feeling. I can wear jeans again! My main concern is to look good in my wedding pictures, and I will not like the way I look if I have fat pouring out of my dress. heh.

To keep busy lately (since we rarely leave the house), I have taken my bunny obsession to the next level. Most of you know I got Emmjay a BunSpace (same thing as myspace, but for bunnies). I have also learned that my Flickr account allows me to join groups.... so I have joined 3. Bunny Lovers Unite, Pot Smokers Unite, and I (Heart) Amsterdam. I get to post questions, answers, and pictures in my Bunny Lovers Unite group, and it’s really fantastic. I’ve made new "contacts", and they all comment on my Emmjay pictures. She’s a big hit! Like I’m surprised...

I have been talking about how I’ve wanted to get back into blogging for so long, yet when I get here, I draw a blank. There are so many irrelevant things to talk about that are flooding my mind. However, I should be listing things and/or doing the dishes. I also have to go to Yarmouth and Hyannis at some point today. I guess I am just waiting here with my stomach in knots waiting to hear about this job before I can go on with my day. I feel like I can’t even start working until I have the news. It’s really fucking everything up.

I think I’m gonna go for now. My concentration sucks and I’m in a "mood" until I have reason not to be. Hopefully I’ll be back soon with some great news!

so... i am getting married in less than a year from now. crazy, huh? september 12, 2008. who woulda thought that the overweight, sexually frigid, perpetually stuck in the "friend zone" girl would fine her soulmate and marry by 24? not me, that's for SURE. and i know there are tons of people out there that think we are too young... and years ago, i would have agreed. you just never know the feeling until you have it i suppose. and there is no denying this feeling. i know many of you can identify. so trust me, i don't feel like i am doing myself, or keegan for that matter, an injustice by marrying next year. ya heard? so let me run down what the exact situation is for the wedding (now i am going to have to post this in myspace)...

my parents are not wealthy people. you might actually classify them as struggling at this point. so they gave me a choice - a huge cheap wedding with all my friends and a cookout or something... OR... have a elegant beautiful cape cod wedding with just family, the wedding party, and several other choice individuals. it may come as a surprise that i chose the latter since i am obsessed with my friends - but this is a wedding, not a party, and i had to come to terms with that. so, we put a deposit down at the captain linnell house in orleans for an evening wedding on a friday. the actual ceremony is going to be on skaket beach in orleans (right next to the linnell house), and all will be welcome (it will probably be a standing situation for most). however, the reception afterwards will be just fam and wedding party and whatever. BUT... the next day, my bridal party and my extended family have agreed to chip in and throw a huge casual wedding reception for all of the 100 plus people i had to cut off the list. it's gonna be a tent, dj, caterer situation that will start sometime in the late afternoon, and go into the night. it will be at the big house in west dennis, and will not require you to dress up. i figure this will be a much better arrangement for most of my friends anyway. my main concern was that none of you felt left out or unimportant. i want everyone there, obviously.

ok, so that's that.

secondly... i quit the ebay store. shocking, i know. turns out that my bosses were pulling the whole "i don't have the money to pay you today" thing, on the day i was supposed to be getting paid. it happened quite a few times. on labor day weekend it was a real issue. they expected me to go a 3 day weekend, while paying my bills, with $325. i need to deposit at least $400 a week to cover my bills alone. so i made numerous efforts to contact them so i could get the other $250 they owed me, but to no avail. finally, monday night, the day before i was supposed to go to work, my bosses send me this e-mail: 

man, it sure has been awhile. i'm sitting here alone with some time to reflect... so i thought, why not? we originally had plans to go to rhode island tonight... but those plans fell through. keegan and kelcey just went to play disc.

let me tell you something about disc. i've played before, years ago. i thought it would be a really fun activity for me to get into for weight loss purposes and whatnot. i had only ever done the burgess course. so, this year, we got ourselves some discs and headed to the college course. yeah. me in a skirt and flip flops and going up and down treacherous trails while trying to smack the bugs off - doesn't mix too well (as you can imagine, wah wah wah). not only that - i can't throw the fucking disc. i realized that it is not just the fact that i let my fingers hook around the disc flap, and hold on to it too long... but my arm does not want to throw anything in the direction it should go in. i discovered this sometime last year or the year before, when i went to play beer pong. what a sad night that was. now i will never claim to have been a undefeated beer pong champion... but i was pretty good in my heyday. now i can't even throw remotely close. it's horribly embarassing, and such a mystery to me. so anyway - that is the long winded version of the reason i didn't go with them to play. i mean, we all know i'm lazy, i'm not disagreeing with that... it's just those little things like lack of sneakers and bugs in my hair that keep me down THAT much more.

we missed the moe concert the other night. we had 4th row fucking tickets. we get to the parking lot - look at the sign - look at the tickets... and realize it was the night before. oops. we both looked at the tickets before the date of the show, and neither of us had noticed. der.

crazy shit is happening with my job. i can't really discuss it in depth because it is all too new - and not quite put together yet. i do promise that i will "blog" about that when i am in a position to elaborate further. think happy thoughts.

keegan bought me a bridal book. it's like a year countdown to the "big day" and tells you what you should be doing each month. it starts at 12 months, and that's in november - so i have some time to get into it. i def need to make more calls though. i seriously have bridal spurts where i get some shit figured out - and leave the rest for weeks (or months) later.

oh, and i also wanted to tell you guys that my boss *might* have the only photograph in the world of abraham lincoln, mary todd lincoln, and elizabeth todd edwards (wifey's sister). it's an ambrotype, and it's going to auction july 28th. you can check it out if you go to www.nesteggauctions.com/lincoln.php - it's pretty fucking wild. i got to spend some time with it. i really can't be sure if it's totally him or not. there are almost as many reasons to believe that it's him as there are to believe it is not him. if it sells for a mil, my boss will throw me 10 grand to pay off *most* of my tax debt. if it goes for less, i am gonna get a little something since i did the research on the damn thing.

i have wicked anxiety right now. i think it is because i don't know what to talk about - even though i haven't posted anything in months (nothing of substance anyway). and all these thoughts are flooding my head, but i am pushing them all away and only coming up with stupid things to say. it's either that, or i'm freaked out that the charcoal in the grill is burning and i am in charge of not forgetting to periodically check on it. scary. (i did just get up to check on it by the way).

so i guess i will talk about one of those stupid little thoughts that get through --- the band paramore is awesome. i really love their song misery business. i don't normally like a lot of chic lead singer music, haha. i get into it no matter how many times of day i listen to it. and trust me, i listen to it a lot everyday. however, it is not to the point where i would go spend a full day at warped tour waiting to see them (since that's the only place they're playing) because our warped tour line up is laaame. i've either seen all those bands, or never heard of them. plus, all ages shows suck more and more as you get older.

so some of you may have heard about nan. we keep hearing that she'll go any day now... then it's back to any week now... who knows at this point. this woman does not want to let go. i am right there with her though. i am not ready for that. i have had a shitload of time too... but you just can never be ready for it. meh.

ugh i hate being confined to the house. i really just wanna get up and get in the car and go somewhere... but the fucking grill won't die out. at least not by the time kelcey and keegan get back. i'm like a tornado of anger, swirling about! heh.

keegan, ryan, and i are leaving to go to new york city on saturday morning. we are going to get there early, enjoy the city - check into our hotel, go to the dispatch show, go to the roots down below after show, go to bed, and go back home. what a fun less than 48 hours! but you know what july 29 is?? well if you guessed jen provost's 24th birthday, jen andrews' (family) baby shower, or the silverchair show in boston... YOU ARE CORRECT! erin, kelcey, keegan, and i - the ones that went to the silverchair show in NYC in february - will be taking on the avalon in boston. fuck yes. even though silverchair's music is un-fucking-believable now. and when i say that - i mean it in a positive and negative way. positive for them, because they are all getting older and happier and all that horse shit.  but negative for me, because i don't wanna fucking hear daniel johns sing like justin fucking timberlake. don't get me wrong - i love justin timberlake, but daniel johns should NOT BY ANY MEANS be trying to hit those notes. ugh. they are on the late, late show tonight. probably playing straight lines - one of the gayest songs possible. god i love them, why did they have to do this to me? hah. actually, i really like 3 songs on their new cd. sucks compared to liking the entirety of every other one of their cd's though.

dudes, i got to go. i can't manage my thoughts anymore. i'm gonna post this, then freak out about how i should've posted about something i completely blanked about. see yas.

Once you have been tagged you must write a blog with 10 weird, random things, facts, or habits about yourself.  At the end, you choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you choose them to be tagged.  Don't forget to leave them a comment or message saying "You're It!" and to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you... So have fun!!

I've done this before... but it was a long time ago. Without looking at the other one, let's see what different answers I can come up with. Fun! Heh.

1. i am fairly certain that the smart water bottle is causing me to drink more water than usual. it's very alluring.

2. i have been paying for my gym membership since december 2005. i haven't been since march 2006.

3. i have my wedding guest list and who i am sitting everyone with. i have my colors, my dj, my songs. i have started my year long diet plan. but i have no idea where the hell i am gonna get married yet.

4. i think silverchair remains my favorite band only because of my emotional attachment. cus honestly, their new cd is really hard to love if you have been a fan for years.

5. i am truly scared to move off cape cod and start over somewhere new.

6. i never saw my life turning out this way. but i've also never been happier.

7. i am on atkins again for probably the 100th time in 4 years. go me!

8. i totally wish i was an outdoorsy person. cus i'm totally not.

9. i recently found out that those weird flower thingy's that are white and fuzzy and you blow into the wind are just dead dandelions "spreading their seed". that REALLY fucking creeps me out.

10. i worry that i am too old for a megaphone and a really loud car stereo. no seriously. am i?

I'm tagging:
1. Keegan.
2. Jen P.
3. Erin O.
4. Renee L.
5. Zoe.
6. Matty Adams.
7. Katie Chance.
8. Chelsea.
9. Erin Condon.
10. Nikki Rockwood.

***So as most of you now know, IT has happened. And by it, I mean I finally, after 12 years of obsessing... I saw Silverchair in concert. The following explains the who, what, were, why, how. Please take the time to enjoy this.***

Originally I had been sitting by the computer on the day that the tickets went on sale, and could only afford 2. I got 2 tickets to the February 12 show, which sold out almost immediately. I got Keegan and I tickets for only $20 each, plus those lame conveniency charges and shipping costs. In discussion with Kelcey and Erin, I mentioned that they should go. I knew I could scoop tickets from craigslist or ebay, so that's what I did. Kelcey ended up getting hers for $55, and Erin got hers for $82.50. Inflation's a bitch. Erin was going to be the driver since she is the most experienced in city driving. The day before we were going to go, I get a text message from her that says "limo picks us up at noon". She had rented a 2007 stretch limo to take us so there would be little to no complication, and we could all drink. Amazing. We actually had the limo pick us up at 1, went to a liquor store, stopped for gas and batteries, and headed to NYC. On the way we stopped at a McDonalds in RI that was totally all done like it was a 50s diner, which I thought was wicked cool. We also had to stop in the Bronx to go use a bathroom at a McDonalds. Yikes. Doors opened at 7:30, but I wasn't totally freaking out about being late because Army of Me was opening, and I could have missed them and been okay with it. After getting lost pretty badly, we ended up where we needed to be. Unfortunately we had to get out of a limo in front of the line of kids waiting to get into the concert... embarassing. We were at the Bowery Ballroom, one of the smallest concert venues I have been to. We got some drinks and proceeded upstairs to check out Army of Me. They played very well, but I think their stuff might be a little too soft for me. After they went off stage they band members were practically standing right next to us in a doorway. Some people went over and hugged them and got pictures. I just left them alone. When they went off stage, I got as close as I could weasle in, and got VERY impatient.

On the way there I am hell bent on trying to bet on which song they will open with. I felt very strongly about them opening with Slave (from Freak Show, their second cd). We got right up to the front right of the stage, and a dude we were standing near (whom Kelcey and Erin befriended) was almost sure they would open with Slave too. We were excited. Much to our suprise, they opened with Without You (off Diorama, their fourth cd). No big deal. Next, they come out with Emotion Sickness which sends me into an absolute frenzy. As we all know, that is one of my most favorite songs. I took a 30-second or so clip of it with my camera, which you will find in My Videos section. At this point I am so fucking pumped, expecting more Neon Ballroom, or some Freak Show, or, most importantly, Frogstomp songs. But following Emotion Sickness we got The Greatest View, World Upon Your Shoulders, and Across The Night (all off Diorama), then Young Modern Station (off their newest cd that won't be released for about a month from now). I was starting to get concerned that they weren't going to play many older songs. So as much fun as I was having... I was starting to get slightly disappointed. Ana's Song (off Neon Ballroom) came afterwards, and that reassured me that good things were to come... I think.

Now let me stop here and just say a couple things regarding the way I feel about Silverchair's new music. When I heard Straight Lines (their newest single, and also the next song on their playlist that night), I had a fucking heart attack. A literal tear dropped from my eye when I saw the video. Let me remind you that I fell deeply in love with that band at a most influential point in my life - and have never felt differently. That band was the GRUNGE band Silverchair, from 1995. My love continued through Freak Show, went with the flow into Neon Ballroom until I learned to really love it... and got really concerned at Diorama. Honestly, when Diorama came out I felt like maybe my love was diminishing, but I still maintained that they were my favorite band. I never really got into Diorama. I knew pretty much all the songs - but just couldn't relate to them or enjoy them like I had done in previous years. So let me just say that when they were done playing Straight Lines, and then played 2 more songs from Diorama (Tuna in the Brine & Luv You Life) my heart was sinking. I didn't realize that they were going to play that concert as if Diorama had just been released and they were promoting it (it was released in 2002). Finally I hear Daniel say they were going to play "an old song" and I nearly lost my shit. In the seconds before he started playing I had high hopes of what it could possibly be. It was The Door, off Freak Show (their second cd) and also happened to be the first song they played all night that was pre-1999. I had hoped for something off Frogstomp, but I decided to just keep my fingers crossed that they would bust out with it a little later, or at least for the encore. 2 new songs followed, Don't Wanna Be The One (a Midnight Oil cover) & Mind Reader. I knew the concert was coming to an end and I was getting really upset. Then FINALLY they played Freak (everyone knows this song, hopefully) and I couldn't have been more pleased. If they had not at least played that I would have freaked. And that was it, they went off stage. We all knew an encore was in order. They seemed to take forever to come back out, and when they did they played If You Keep Losing Sleep (another new song), and The Lever (off Diorama). That was it. Not one song off Frogstomp, not even Tomorrow (which is essentially the song that made them who they are today). I had so many mixed emotions when I left there. For one, I was absolutely overwhelmed and ecstatic at what I had just seen. I was also very sad that it was over, and kept thinking that I may never get the chance to experience that again. Lastly, I was super disappointed that they didn't play any real old songs. Come to find out that Daniel doesn't "relate" to those songs anymore. Bummer. I mean, I don't really relate anymore either, but I did at one point, and will always love them because of it. I honestly would not be who I am today without that cd. But oh well, about 10 years too late for the concert where they play all Freak Show and Frogstomp songs. I can say though, after the seeing them live, I have a new found love for Diorama, and will be anticipating their new cd. I have to accept that we all grow up at some point, and with musicians, it reflects majorly through their music. I need to learn to grow with them, and not be close-minded to their maturation. I seriously just love them so much. And no matter how poppy they get, they know how to fucking rock, and that is something I needed to experience to continue loving at the level that I do.

On the way home the limo driver kept having to pull over to rest his eyes. Erin was WASTED on the way home and kept telling the limo driver she loved him. We're pretty sure he loved her too though, so it was okay. We made it home at about 5:40am. Erin passed out on my couch, Kelcey went home to get a couple hours of sleep before work (but she never actually made it), me and Keegan went to bed, but he had to get up early for work in the morning (which he was late to), and I got to stroll into work about 3pm, then work from home.

All in all, the best concert ever. Nothing could top the feeling of seeing your favorite band live after a good 12 years of claiming that they are your number one. I have renewed my obsession and have been listening to Diorama for a straight week. I'm talking constantly. I wish more of you had the love I had for them. If anyone does, I would LOVE to make a "through the years" cd that has songs from all 4 cd's so you can hear the unbelievable transition.

You can find all my pictures from the concert (there are about 100) in my Yahoo Photos, the album called Silverchair, obviously. Thanks for reliving this with me.

man i need to blog. it's been over a week now i think.

it's been busy around here, what with the holidays and all.
christmas eve was tolerable. we spent some time at nan's with my mom's side of the family. the whole family - minus one uncle and one cousin. that totals 12 grandchildren alone, counting me. keegan and i drank 2 bottles of wine in like... 2 hours. i cashed in on a nice new Nine West wallet (i know what you're thinking, so not me - and you're right), $60 total to Uno's, $25 to Dunkin Donuts, and a total of $140 cash.

from nan's we went on to aunt chrissy's in mansfield.  we took lauren and her boyfriend tom up with us. at that family gathering i cashed in on a total of $160... love that my birthday was only a month ago, so i get double the dollars. our christmas eve was splendid. we opened our stockings as we always do... and i had already given him 2 presents... one the day before, and one that day. the one i gave him the day before was just the inside deep throat dvd, and i thought we'd watch it - which we still haven't done.
the present i gave him on christmas eve was, i believe, the clerks 2 dvd - because he had gotten fired from the movie theater that morning, and he was upset. long story, ask HIM about it.

we opened stockings that night after midnight... so it technically was christmas. he had also let me open one present the day before, and it was an awesome new slide with a frog on it. you can find a picture of it in the Good Times <3 folder in my Yahoo! photos. i also got a much needed bottle of 420 cleaner. if you do see the slide picture, it was already cleaned once before we took the picture. we have to clean things a lot around here.so for the first time in years... i could not sleep on christmas morning. i was up at like, 7am. i forced myself back to sleep because there was no way keegan was getting up. i managed to get back to sleep till about 9:20am, then i woke him up - dying to unwrap. i got a sick ass Canon A540 PowerShot camera with a 2GB chip, a camera bag, and a SanDisk USB thing to load the pics on the computer. would you believe i already lost the manual and everything else that i needed for the camera? i'm a winner. i also got the newest satellite radio... and another year subscription of Sirius. the satellite radio is also an mp3 player that detaches from the car and you can plug headphones in it and shit. or get a home docking station. you can also record mp3's off Sirius, and save them. it holds 50 hours of mp3's... so i may consider selling my ipod if times get tough. i ALSO got a Senseo gourmet coffee machine, blue. it is so fucking amazing. i drink more coffee now than i should - and you all know how much coffee i normally drink. it's got so much flavor and taste that you barely need sweetner... and it comes out light, rather than a dark brew (depending on what kind you get i guess) so it doesn't require too much cream either. the best part is that the coffee is done within seconds. come over and have some. seriously. he also got me a beautiful skirt, a canvas and some paints, burnable cd's that look like records... etc. so thoughtful. his christmas was kinda lame. he didn't want anything major so i ended up buying him clerks 2, inside deep throat, little miss sunshine, thank you for smoking, a cordless drill, a hand mixer, the game of life, a plain red hoodie (that he LOVES), a new Norelco shaver, the Sims 2, a back massager.. .and that sort of shit. i still managed to go way over budget. ah, well.the day after christmas we went up to sara and dan's house for an after christmas get together. she got me this awesome "coffee table book" since she knows how much i love looking at those books at her mom's house. it's the billboard music book... from like the 1940s, to now. she also got me a marble coaster set where you like paint your photos on to get them to stick. also, a skirt, believe it or not lol. brenda, keegan and sara's kind-of-aunt gave me a wallet too. her wallet was better, and so much more my style, so i ditched the velcro sublime wallet and upgraded to a more mature look. however, i AM keeping the faithful sublime.

keegan and i have been bumming around the house for days now. i worked 2 half days from home this week - he had a week off from the lab - and obviously, the movie theater. we've done a lot of nothing. he's played the sims a lot. and i have drank a lot of coffee. i cleaned some of my pieces yesterday. i play with my camera. he just went out and scored some sony reel to reel thing that some guy had  up on craigslist for free. he is hoping to get $150-250 outta that thing on ebay. he shouldn't have too much of a problem. we're thinking maybe he'll just work at the lab and sell shit on ebay. jim had him come into the store and work for 4.5 hours organizing the back room on friday. he might need him to do more shit like that here and there. it'll all work out.

law and order: svu marathon is on today. exactly how i wanna spend my new year's eve. haha. just kidding. i have already seen all of these i am pretty sure. decidedly, at least me, tara, keegan, and erin o are going to the Black Sheep Bah & Grille tonight. papa wetherbee got a permit to stay open till 2am. the only thing i worry about is the driving thing. keegan says he'll drive but maybe we'll look into taking a cab, who knows.

i am gonna start saving up for a volcano vaporizer. i don't need the huge one, i just need one in general. if i get one, i will quit smoking butts. that way, it'll be like no smoke enters my lungs. amazing. i literally just paused to look at them. the absolute cheapest you can get one on ebay for is $400 as a buy it now. i gotta do it, at some point. however tomorrow does mark day 1 of teaching myself how to manage and save my money. hah. however, i think that getting healthier should not count as an expense, you know? muah.

i can't believe 2007 is tonight. this is fucking wild. we are getting so old. i have to start planning my wedding this year. for real. holy shit.

i have gotten into reisling wine so hard lately it's kind of unbelievable. so many different kids, they all taste so different. i got an amazing kind on the way to zoe's the other night... but it turned out to be way sugary. almost made me sick after drinking the whole bottle. so i went for the other bottle... and that was much too tart. so eh, whatta ya gonna do? i don't know what i'm gonna drink tonight. i think i wanna get started kinda late, drink hard alcohol, get drunk without puking, and call it a night between 1 and 2. it's like a real adult New Year's Eve this year, woah.

alright, i am gonna get back to my SVU marathon right now. happy new year friends.

Here's the deal. Copy the bands/groups/singers under the music section in your myspace - then list the first song by that band/group/singer that pops into your mind. Do not look song names up, that's cheating. Leave it blank.

(you've got to be EXCEPTIONALLY bored for this one)

Silverchair - Suicidal Dream.
Offspring - Smash.
Blink 182 - Untitled.
Sublime - Waiting For My Ruca.
30 Seconds to Mars - From Yesterday.
Chevelle - Point #1.
Pink Floyd - Dirty Woman.
Hed PE - The Meadow.
Muse - Time Is Running Out.
10 Years - Wasteland.
A Perfect Circle - Pet.
AFI - Love Like Winter.
Adema - Giving In.
Aerosmith - Cryin'.
Alanis Moririssette - You Oughtta Know.
Alien Ant Farm - Smooth Criminal.
All American Rejects - Swing, Swing.
American HiFi - Safer on the Outside.
Andrew W.K. - Party Hard.
Ani Difranco - Little Plastic Castle.
Anti Flag - Drink Drank Punk.
Ashlee Simpson - La La.
The Ataris - Your Boyfriend Sucks.
Avril Lavigne - Complicated.
Barenaked Ladies - If I Had A Million Dollars...
Bikini Kill - Rebel Girl.
Billy Idol - Mony Mony.
Black Eyed Peas - Let's Get It Started.
Blackstreet - No Diggity.
Blind Melon - No Rain.
Blue Man Group - Up to the Roof.
Bob Marley - I Shot the Sheriff.
Boston - Amanda.
Boxcar Racer - I Feel So...
Breaking Benjamin - So Cold.
Bright Eyes - The Calendar Hanging Itself.
Bush - Mouth.
Christina Aguilera - Genie in a Bottle.
Counting Crows - Round Here.
Cranberries - Linger.
Creed - What If.
Crossfade - Cold.
The Cure - Just Like Heaven.
Custom - Hey Mister.
Cypress Hill - Hits from the Bong.
The Darkness - I Believe in a Thing Called Love.
Deep Purple - Smoke on the Water.
Destiny's Child - No, No, No.
Dispatch - Here We Go.
DMX - Party Up.
Don Maclean - American Pie.
The Doors - Hello, I Love You.
Dope - You Spin Me Round.
Dropkick Murphy's - Tessie.
Drowning Pool - Let the Bodies Hit the Floor.
The Eagles - Hotel California.
Evanescence - Bring Me to Life.
Eve 6 - Leech.
Everlast - The Ends.
Fall Out Boy - Dance, Dance.
Fiona Apple - Criminal.
Foghat - Slow Ride.
Foo Fighters - Everlong.
Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out.
Fuel - Mary Pretends.
Garbage - Why Do You Love Me?
George Michael - Faith.
Goo Goo Dolls - Name.
Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood.
Gov't Mule - Soulshine.
Grand Theft Audio - Death to the Infidels.
Grateful Dead - Shakedown Street.
Guns N Roses - November Rain.
H.I.M. - Gone with the Sin.
Hanson - MMMBop.
Harvey Danger - Flagpole Sitta.
Hawthorne Heights - Ohio is for Lovers.
Head Automatica - Brooklyn is Burning.
Hinder - Lips of an Angel.
Incubus - Anna-Molly.
Ja Rule - Smokin' and Ridin'.
Jack Off Jill - Strawberry Gashes.
Jimmy Eat World - Pain.
Joan Jett - I Love Rock n' Roll.
JT Experience - Party Like a Rockstar.
The Killers - Mr Brightside.
Korn - Got the Life.
Led Zeppelin - Black Dog.
Lifehouse - Hanging by a Moment.
Limp Bizkit - Nookie.
Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit.
Lit - Miserable.
Live - I Alone.
Local H - So Pathetic.
Lords of Acid - Young Boys.
Lustra - Scotty Doesn't Know.
Madonna - Frozen.
Marilyn Manson - The Beautiful People.
Maroon 5 - Harder to Breathe.
Massive Attack - Angel.
Metallica - Until it Sleeps.
Monica - For You I Will.
Muse - Endlessly.
My Chemical Romance - You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison.
New Radicals - You Get What You Give.
Nickelback - How You Remind Me.
NIN - Starfucker.
Nirvana - Come As You Are.
No Doubt - Tragic Kingdom.
NOFX - The Brews.
O.A.R. - Black Rock.
Oasis - Champagne Supernova.
Oleander - Shrinking the Blob.
 P.O.D. - Satellite.
Panic! At the Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies.
Papa Roach - Dead Cell.
Pat Benatar - Heartbreaker.
Pennywise - Fuck Authority.
Phish - Fee.
Pink - U + UR Hand.
Placebo - Plasticine.
The Police - Roxanne.
Puddle of Mudd - Heel Over Head.
Queen - We Are The Champions.
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Under the Bridge.
R.E.M. - Losing My Religion.
Ringside - Struggle.
Say Anything - Alive with the Glory of Love.
Seether - The Gift.
She Wants Revenge - These Things.
Shinedown - Simple Man.
Sisqo - Thong Song.
Simple Plan - Addicted.
Smashing Pumpkins - Zero.
The Sounds - Living in America.
SR-71 - Right Now.
Staind - Mud Shovel.
State Radio - Gunship Politico.
Steve Miller Band - The Joker.
Stone Sour - Bother.
Story of the Year - Until the Day I Die.
Straylight Run - Hands in the Sky (Big Shot).
Sum 41 - Crazy Amanda Bunkface.
Taking Back Sunday - A Decade Under the Influence.
Tatu - All the Things She Said.
Tenacious D - Fuck Her Gently.
The Academy Is... - Season.
The Raconteurs - Steady As She Go.
The Receiving End of Sirens - The Armistice.
Three Days Grace - Home.
Toadies - Possum Kingdom.
Tom Petty - Last Dance with Maryjane.
Tori Amos - Happy Phantom.
Tracy Bonham - Mother Mother.
Twista - Celebrity Overnight.
Unwritten Law - Teenage Suicide.
Usher - You Got It Bad.
The Vandals - Anarchy Burger.
 Velvet Revolver -  Sucker Train Blues.
Verve Pipe - Freshman.
Violent Femmes - Blister in the Sun.
Weezer - Buddy Holly.
Wheatus - Teenage Dirtbag.
White Stripes - Seven Nation Army.
Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You.
Yellowcard - Only One.
Dishwalla - Counting Blue Cars.
Eric Clapton - Layla.
Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams.
Filter - Take a Picture.
Green Day - Minority.
Jewel - Who Will Save Your Soul?
Meatloaf - I Would Do Anything For Love.
Matchbox 20 - Push.
Nada Surf - Popular.
Radiohead - Karma Police.
Saliva - Click Click Boom.
Smile Empty Soul - Bottom of a Bottle.
System of a Down - Chop Suey.
Soul Asylum - Runaway Train.
Tom Cochrane - Life is a Highway.
The Turtles - So Happy Together.
 Veruca Salt - Volcano Girls.
Daniel Johns & Paul Mac - Rain.
Roots Down Below - My Domain.
LB Shortbus - Lonely at the Top.
Zachary Walters - Happy Tank.