• Thirst for adventure
• Willingness to disreguard laws of trespassing (consider possible arrest)
• Intelligent and intuitive nature
• Willingness to reasearch the overall art of urban exploration, saftey factors, and specific details relevant to the destination in mind
• A slender/athletic build is preferred, due to the possibility of narrow tunnels passageways or corridors
• Physical endurance, specific requirements will vary on destination, but I eventually intend to end up exploring vast systems such as those found under NYC and even the 200 miles of tunnels under Paris (expected time underground of 2 days or more)
• Experience in some form of survival in natural environments (mountian climbing, extended hiking, remote camping, homelessness, something...)
• Military or law enforcement training a definate plus
• Ability to preform well under highly stressful situations (lengthy small corridors, homeless people, emergency situations, possibly getting lost or disoriented)
• You should not be claustrophobic, afraid of the dark (periods of rest or sleep may be in pitch black), or possibly afraid of heights (situation depending)
• A friendly attitude

Puffs of white mist float gently in the breeze. It is late in the year but it looks like the snow has finally come to stay. "Breath" comes a single thought in the darkness. One deep breath to fill the lungs. One exhale, and then a half a breath to hold for the next minute. "Peeewwwwww" the 22 shot pierces the solitary quiet of the country, echoing off into the distance. "Tick" comes the wispered reply after a second or so. At 140 paces the empty detergent bottle shakes gently with each hit sending back it's reply.

Fire, Fire, Fire, Fire,
Breath and hold.
Refocus
and then I wait...
Fire, Fire, Fire, Fire,

Every 19 shots I stop to reload and begin again. Thoughts go unusually quiet with such simplistic focus, the world falls away to something simple, elegant, and peaceful. The dance is organized, it makes sense. When you fall short you fall short and when you hit your target you hit your target. Everything determined by how you dance to the beat of silence. I could sit for hours in this world. Perhaps even days if night weren't there to slowly blanket my eden into a new reality, be it heaven, hell, or some other purgatory.

Fire, Fire, Fire, Fire,
Breath and hold.
Refocus
and then I wait...
I wait until the world feels still. As still as death and all my own.
Fire, Fire, Fire, Fire,

Though I aim with my right eye so intense is my concentration the left has fallen open a little only to remain disregarded and blind. My jaw relaxes and I can taste the cool air on my tongue.

Fire, Fire, Fire, Fire..

The bottle falls to the ground, the limb that held it up severed from the bullets. And then I wake.

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So I was introduced to Sam Harris the other night. This man is amazing with his rational of society and religion. If you have even had any questions of faith, religion or belief you should at least listen to what he has to say. This is not a man advocating a religion, instead he promotes Atheism by examining our own society, history and by asking some very hard questions about religion and the bible. I'm currently looking for the video I watched which I'm sure you will all find as captivating as I did, when I get it Ill post it. Untill then check out this conference for a small sample. The most complete referance is in the book The End of Faith written by the same man. It's only about 9 bucks, a small price for a copy of a book that's making waves worldwide.	The End of Faith: Religion, Terror, and the Future of Reason..

Well with the suggestion of the FTP Jordyn offered to upload 80 gigs of albums. I guess Ill begin work on setting up the server and embedding a playlist into the site. This way Ill also be able to embed videos from my hard drive rather than only what is on the net. I've also been giving some heavy thought to developing a shoutcast tv station, maybe do some video blogs on hot topics, who knows. For those of you know don't know about shoutcast tv it's a video broadcast sent through winamp. Just look at your "media library" from the "view" pulldown menu. You should see a listing for shoutcast tv. Just click on it and a list of streams will come up from around the world. People are permitted to broadcast on a wide variety of themes so you should be able to find something worthwhile. Some other things I'm considering are a private chat room or possibly even a irc server. Hope you guys are enjoying the updates; I've been getting terrific response. As always feel free to send me suggestions, comments, hate mail, whatever.

Hello once again and happy holidays! Things have been in a constant state of change for me lately. It seems like my previous job in sales was just starting to take off when life threw me a curve ball. I guess I should be thankful that adapting comes so naturally to me. I've come to my mom's house to give her some support when no one else could swing it. I took a leave of absence from my job, picked up a few things from my place, and rode out into the country.

Currently I'm staying in Waterport NY. Though the thought of returning to this type of setting was rather depressing for a couple days, I quickly changed hobbies to target practice, 4 wheeling, and helping my mom integrate into the technological world by beginning her first e-trade. Yesterday I pulled her old 6mm carbine rifle out and popped 2 rounds off. At 50 yards I nailed a jug of water which flew high into the air and came down in tatters. At 200 yards I nailed a hubcap with pinpoint accuracy and that too took flight. My ear is still a little deafened and ringing from it and I can't wait to take it out again. I talked to John Z for a while and he should be coming up by the end of the week for anyone looking to get together. We usually have a good time when he's up because we rarely get the chance any more. So I guess everything is on the up and up. I need to figure out some form of income out here and have been testing the local job market looking for something decent.

It's been good to catch up with those of you I've had the chance to hang out with or speak to. It seems like much has changed and yet so little at the same time. For those I haven't caught up with yet I'll be around for a little bit so I'm sure we'll run into each other soon enough. Checkout the links on the main page and see if you can find something that interests you, there's a lot of good stuff hidden there.

I was watching the news late last night while they were interviewing the candidates from some important election. I noticed the speaker backtracking on words and using others at a couple of points and remember thinking that he wasn't the best at memorizing his speech. As I continued to watch I became aware of how he shifted the questions back to an angle where he could use one of his prepared speeches. I can only guess that he wanted to stick to only saying exactly what he thought people most wanted to hear.

We all know that politicians are just rehearsed public versions of what they'd like to make themselves appear as. I don't see any problem in being prepared, however I think the electing body is falsely under the impression we're electing individuals to positions for how that individual feel about society's issues. We assume that the individual we elect is writing they're own speech and saying their own thoughts. At the same time we know everything they say and do is guided by their specialists. They are told what is required to say to gain the votes they need to win the elections and I wonder if there is actually relation at all between what the politicians say and what they themselves feel. They're all worried too much about how it will affect their votes. It's no surprise that once they obtain office they follow through on little of what they say.

Looking at it this way our government seems built on deception. The people are not doing the electing, the politicians are electing themselves biased on their ability to manipulate and deceive us. This is how you win, its how you play the game, succeed, and are granted power and respect.

I suppose it's been that way since the dawn of time. Maybe it's what's required to run this nation, but I still wish it wasn't.

Blizzard is calling to me folks... there hasn't yet been a time when I've checked the job postings at blizzard.com and not found at least two jobs that I would love to work simultaneously. Network administrator by day / game tester by night. It's soooo hard not to go! I was born in Pasadena California and I probably have more family in and around Irvine (blizzard's location) than in all of New York state. I have to hold off though, I want my degree first, and I'm having sooo much fun in college these days I can't justify leaving yet. One more winter (it always seems like there's one more).  People wait all their lives to find the perfect job in the perfect place and never get what they're looking for, where as I've found it and have to wait! I've always wanted to go back to Cali, I think New York has what is probably one of the best climates during the summer but the winters here kill me. One more winter and I can make so many dreams come true. Untill then I can work on producing larger goals than the ones mentioned up to this point, there will be much bigger steps after this. My secret (shhhhh) aspiration in life is to have a place in history and be remembered for making a positive difference in the world (as silly as it may sound). Everyone dies and I think the best a man could hope for is to be remembered, and to leave the world a better place than he found it. The personal satisfaction of being successful in life will simply be a good step in enabling me to achieve greater goals.

'But if you will listen to me, and believe that the soul is immortal and able to endure all evil and all good, we shal always hold to the upper road, and in every way follow justice and wisdom. So we shall be friends to ourselves and to the gods, both while we remain here and when, like victorious athletes who go about adding to their prizes, we receive the rewards of our justice; and here, and in the journey of a thousand years which I have described to you, we shall fare well.'
-Plato (The Republic)

Roadrunner will be here in the 20th so I'll be updating this profile in a week or two... I'll be in touch with those of you who've tried contacting me in my absence ;) Taking a fresh look at this profile I realize how much it sucks so I'm going to scrap most of it and make something new (suggestions?). My camera is still not out on the market but I hope to be posting videos soon. I hate waiting (does anyone else want a xbox 360 yet?).

A lot has change in the last few months for me. I quit my job and I'm back in school full time. Still have the Caddy and the Pontiac, I still have Nala but Simba is gone. Grandma and Grandpa are gone as well and that still seems strange. R.I.P. I have one addition but he doesn't have his name yet (does grey kitten sound good?). I'll post a pic when I can... I'm in school all day tuesdays and thursdays so look for me if you're there. Anyways I guess I'm basically getting unemployment checks, good grades, and a lot of beer (quit smoking for school).

I'm starting to look at land and consider building but I also sometimes think of going to work for Blizzard in Cali... who knows what next summer will bring but for now life is good as a student and not working at the same time for once, woohoo!