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Erin Mariah {Ham-Ham™}

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Last Updated: 11/30/2009

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Status: Married
Age: 21
Sign: Aquarius

State: Texas
Country: US
Signup Date: 9/24/2005

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Friday, February 20, 2009 

Current mood:  moody
Category: Life
I just ate a quarter of my $8 chocolate fudge cake from Walmart.




I'm menstrual.


I hate it.



I'm watching Holes with Dustin

He's supposed to be getting me one of those nice little pizzas from Subway.

They're so cute.
And filling.


Currently watching:
Holes (Full Screen Edition)
Release date: 2003-09-23
1:04 AM 
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009 

Current mood:  sick
Category: Life
Dustin thinks I'm pregnant again. Not to say I have been pregnant before, but he is in that mindset again. He always thinks I'm pregnant.
 
This morning he came home from PT and layed his whole body on top of me because I was warm! And he said "I got a call from the hospital today. You're pregnant." and he continued to kiss my belly and talk to it. "Hey little guy, grow up big and strong; or little girl, grow up nice and pretty"
But you know how he is, saying silly things that aren't true.
 
Some signs point to yes but I refuse to believe I'm pregnant until either the hospital says so or 2 different home pee tests come up positive.
Currently watching:
Delta Farce (Widescreen Edition)
Release date: 2007-09-04
9:20 AM 
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008 

Current mood:lonely and scared
Category: Life

I wish.

I wish I was done with my anxiety attacks.

I wish I was done with my panic attacks.

I wish I was done with Depression.

I wish I was done with debt.

I wish I had a friend.

I wish I had winter shoes.

 

My wish hand is gonna fill up loads faster than my hand full of things I have.

My wallet will be empty for longer than my stomach.

My heart will ache worse than my head or stomach.

My scars will never heal. I will never be okay.

And when I leave this world, who will miss me?

Maybe a few of you will for a little while, maybe for a few years even, but you'll all move on and forget me. Maybe some of you will be glad that I won't be whining anymore or asking for help anymore.

5:25 PM 
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Wednesday, October 08, 2008 

Current mood:  intense
Category: Writing and Poetry
I'm so sick
of hating
of being hated
of being scared
and on my own
with no one to tell me
its ok.

I'm done with this.
I'm leaving it behind me.

Oh if only I could.

...

(its not a poem, you cunt, its prose!)
Currently reading:
Angus, Thongs and Full-frontal Snogging
By Louise Rennison
10:28 AM 
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008 

Current mood:  crushed
Category: Life
It's kinda late Tuesday night but more officially very early Wednesday morning(1am)

I just cried harder than I have in years. And for the 3rd time tonight. The first two were just "I miss him so much I can hardly stand it" tears. And now I'm at it again. Making bigger, saltier puddles than a puppy.
It started out as just a headache because my stupid hamster makes loads of noise at night and I can't stop him because they don't make shock collars for rodents.
Then add a toothache into the mix because I ate some bread. Go figure.
I decided I was exhausted and tried to go to bed at 12:30, 3 hours ahead of normal schedule. I thought I was gonna be able to sleep but couldn't stop worrying about money. Then I started wondering if my credit card payment was late so I rushed into the family room and got on my laptop. The credit line was fine but the checking account was nearing empty and I couldn't understand the several hundred dollars being spent at Fort Hood. I guess I'll talk to Dustin about it later.
So thinking I was good to go back to bed I literally stumbled back to bed. With the light off and me not wearing my glasses I wrongly estimated the safe ducking height for getting into the bottom bunk. I hit my head on the side, under the top bunk. It didn't hurt too badly but it triggered my "God, help me!" uncontrollable, all-is-lost, heavy sobbing cries.
Once I gained control I decide now is as good of time as any to blog. I've been wanting to for a while anyway.
And of course what's an anxiety attack without chocolate, right?
So I'm sitting here blogging and practically inhaling Hershey's Kisses.
Have I stopped loving myself or have I simply stopped caring? I'm gonna turn into a fat lard and I don't think I'm bothered by that enough to put down the chocolates. The biggest downside is that next time I play cowgirl with Dustin I will crush his poor body under my weight and I will be a widow.

That reminds me.
Karlee, I need my shirts and toys back. But I can't take the kittens until September.
STILL
NOT
MOVING.

People have been complete asses to me lately. Especially on the interwebs. So freaking mean that it ruins my whole day.
I think they just like to feel powerful. Well it's easy to be powerful when you're hiding behind a computer screen. I still make an effort to be nice to people. And if I don't have anything nice or fair to say then I just ignore them.
Currently listening:
Ocean Avenue
By Yellowcard
Release date: 2003-07-22
2:13 PM 
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008 

Current mood:  sleepy
Category: Life
So Dustin is most likely graduating from AIT(advanced individual training) on June 12th. Better late than never, I guess. This whole thing has been a pain. *angst*
And that's as much as I care to divulge at this time. Email me for more info if you need to. Really, it's okay.

I have just spent several hours on icanhascheezburger.com and laughed out loud. A lot. Refer to my LOLcats album for tribute to funny felines... and the occassional other animal as well.
I've said it once, twice, a million times: LOLcats iz rawting mai brayn. But I dohnt mynd. Jus kahl meh happycat.
Erin iz slepee so gunno go 2 bed nao k? gdnite :)
5:59 AM 
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Wednesday, March 05, 2008 

Current mood:  anxious
Category: Life
Dustin called this morning and told me that he failed his PT(physical training) test. They want him to start over his training so that he has another 10 weeks!
That's not fair because since he broke his jaw doing field exercises he hasn't been able to train and he hasn't been able to get a medical waver. If he can't graduate on March 20th then the next best thing would be 2 weeks late. That's a possibility but we still don't know anything for sure.

If you are a religous person please keep us in your prayers. If not then just keep talking to me and try to make me feel better.
1:30 AM 
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Saturday, March 01, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.25.08
When I got out of bed this morning I found a cute note on the kitchen table from Kimberly.
"Erin,
Good morning. I have to work today 12-5. Ryan will walk home & has the garage remote. He'll be here around 3:30. If you need anything call my cell 505-***-2206. Have a great day
Love your sis,
Kimberly"
She's so good to me. And the word "good" had dots in the o's and a smile under, making it a smiley face in the word. Which brings me to the next part of my day. Sorta. After a bit of t.v. Anthony and Ryan got home around the same time and we went to the Hallmark store to find gifts for Kimberly's birthday(which is tomorrow). She'll be 32 and she thinks she's old.
Every year Anthony gets her a "painted pony". It's some sort of Native American art. They sell them at this Hallmark store here.
Ryan got her some musical card(which I begged him not to) and some dog charm pin or something.
I think mine was the best. There is a gift line called "Angel Wings" and I got her a steel statuette($15) which came with one free set of wings and I bought a second set of wings($4). They attach magnetically to the back of the angel statue and have a special meaning. The "birthday" wings are lavender colored with a silver glitter lining and the poem with them says "This birthday angel was sent To shine her happiness on you As you celebrate your special day Today and all year through." and I got "thank you" wings which were also lavender and had a gold glitter lining and the poem with those was "Thank you for always being The first to show you care You're an angel with kindness You're always ready to share". I picked up a small gift bag that was displayed with this stuff and was the perfect size for it all. It also had the brand name printed on it.
When we got home I watched more t.v. and vegged out in LaVaun's room. When Kimberly got home we went to Walmart to pick up some dye for her hair. She had lots of little blond streaks and her roots were showing about 2 or 3 inches so she picked out a color close to her natural shade.
When we got back from Walmart it was almost 7pm and I got excited for American Idol but when we turned it on to the Fox network it was The Moment of Truth. The controversial episode that ruined the contestant's marriage. We had dinner while we watched that. Meatloaf. Kimberly made me promise to try it. It was from a frozen type dinner thing that you just had to microwave so it didn't taste like real meatloaf. That's why I was able to eat it. 2 small loaves. They were really small. It's not like I was pigging out.
I pretty much just watched t.v. the rest of the night and maxed out my cell phone battery on the internet. I really dreadfully miss the full version of the internet. And I hope people miss me. I'll be terribly sad if no one does.
I'm finishing my night with X-Files. That leaves me going to bed at 1am if I turn off the t.v. after this episode. Out for now!
8:51 AM 
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Saturday, March 01, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.24.08
I got up around 1pm today and Anthony was already gone to work.
Kimberly was asleep on the couch and Ryan was on the other couch watching something on t.v. I went back into the kitchen and chopped up a banana and sprinkled it with sugar for breakfast. Also had some Doritos.
I just watched t.v. with Ryan until I felt like getting my Wheels & Cheese for lunch. I ate every single noodle which is probably a first for me. I topped it off with the last two Twinkies.
While watching t.v. I finished another letter to Dustin which will get sent tomorrow morning. During that time that I was writing it he called me and we got to talk to for almost 3 minutes at best. He says that his mom might come out for graduation along with his brother Craig.
I guess I'll have to talk to everyone and see what we're going to do.
It's not that I don't like Myrna and Craig, it's just that I don't want to be stuck with them from Orem to Fort Benning and for the whole time we're there plus going home.
I talked to Karlee briefly about it and she doesn't seem fond of the idea either. I wrote in my letter to Dustin that I would talk to everyone and figure something out. By the time I get home and have internet access again I'll have exactly 3 weeks to get everything planned.
After tonight I'll have almost 3 full days left here.
Earlier I was saying that I'm afraid to go home but now I am eager. Somehow I feel like I'm wearing out my welcome, ya know?
Eric says that the upstairs at home is looking very clean(finally) but the downstairs is a disaster! Yikes. The more stress I have at home the more I wish I could get an apartment a.s.a.p. But I'm making myself wait until Dustin gets home because he definitely should have a say in where we live. It's gonna be a rough 8 weeks.

Something I've been thinking about is those birth control pills. Like whether I should start taking them whenever I can so that Dustin doesn't have to deal with any side effects or wait until he can help me choose one, which also is another way of proving my fidelity for him. If I start before he comes home then he might think that I'm doing something I shouldn't be.
Also, Dustin swears he sterile. Like the only way that I could possibly get pregnant is by getting worked over by another man. :/
That won't happen.
I'm kindof glad that we can have sex whenever we want and not worry about other forms of protection but there would be something so sexy about him being able to get me pregnant.

My mom told me to keep in touch while out here but she hasn't called even once! On Wednesday morning I need to call and see who is picking me up from the airport.

Well, it should be easy for me to be asleep by 1am today. I've got a stomach ache right now. I guess I've been eating too well. And I'm dreadfully tired.

When I married Dustin I didn't even consider the cons of being an Army wife. I figured I'm not really making a huge sacrifice; that it's Dustin doing this great thing and not me. I was always kindof confused when people told me how good it is that I'm doing this and I didn't understand until after he left how huge of a sacrifice I really had to make.

Okay, I'll go to bed at 1:30am... I'm watching a show on G4 called Wired For Sex. Each episode highlights advances in sexuality. It's all I can (innocently) do to settle down my sexual desires. Dustin will take care of me when he gets home. =]
Goodnight for now.
8:23 AM 
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Saturday, March 01, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.23.08
Today was my dad's birthday but I forgot to call! He turned 59, so I guess he's had enough chances to celebrate aging.
I woke up at 10:30am and got up for breakfast! Had some scrambled eggs and part of a very fat pancake. Kimberly promises there wasn't any milk in the pancake but I got sick after eating. Maybe it was just because I'm not used to eating so soon after waking up. It's hard for me to eat breakfast.

We drove about 20 minutes to the Cottonwood Mall or something like that and walked around in there for what seemed like forever. When we got out of there we were all very hungry so we went to Long John Silver's restarant for lunch. I made sure that we went there sometime before I had to go home because there is only one Long John Silver's in Utah and that's a high-traffic hour-long drive from my house. It's mostly seafood and highly amazing. I ate almost everything that I got with my combo(7 btw). Drank almost all of my Dr. Pepper, ate my fish and chicken and a lot of the fries and gave my hush puppies to Anthony because I never eat those. Stuffed myself silly =]
When we finally got home Ryan sacked out on the recliner and played one of his Gamecube games and LaVaun and I rescued a Monopoly game from his closet. It was a mess, there were no instructions and no $500 bills. I didn't know how much money to start us out with so I refused to play. I helped her clean up then snatched a Battleship game from Ryan's closet. She didn't know how to play but I taught her and we only got to sink 2 of each other's ships before she had to go to her friend's birthday party. Ryan left about the same time to go to a nickel arcade with his friend Jessica and offered to bring me along but I opted out since they were only being polite.
Anthony, Kimberly and I each made our own dinners and watched t.v. Ryan wanted us to wait until he was back to watch The Messengers but he was taking too long so we started it anyway.
It was a thriller type movie and Kimberly is such a scaredy-cat. About halfway through we heard the doorbell and she screamed and jumped off the couch which made me scream and I think Anthony yelled. It turns out that it was Ryan and Jessica back from the game place. They made us start over our movie and when it was over Kimberly and Anthony went to bed. Ry and Jess convinced me to stay with them and watch another scary movie called Boogeyman. While we were watching that we snacked like crazy and were being a bit too loud for Anthony so he used Kimberly's cell phone to call mine and told us to quiet down and grouched about how he had to work tomorrow and we were keeping him awake. We shut up and finished the movie. It was freaky.

I'm kinda thinking that Anthony is tired of having me around. I've been behaving myself quite nicely and been really polite to him. I'll be out of his hair in a few days though.

Jess seemed like an ultra cool girl. I might ask Kimberly to get her email address for me or something. She said that she's lactose-intolerant too and that taking enzymes(like pills) make it much easier to digest dairy.

While I was sitting in the front room today waiting for everyone to get ready to go to the mall I checked my bank account using my cell phone's internet and I saw some things in the history that disturbed me. Transactions from Georgia. I won't bother going into detail because it doesn't do well for one to dwell on these things.
I'm afraid to mention these things to him when he calls and when I write to him because technically it's his money and he should be able to do what he wants with it but it just bothers me how much money he takes out to use there and he has no way of knowing what I need of that for bills and necessites. It's driving me crazy. For all I know he could catch me up on everything when he calls on Monday. That's when I expect to hear from him.
I'm trying to write him another letter before I go home but it's just getting so hard. Only 8 weeks left until he gets to come home.

It's 2am now, I really need to wrap this up and get some sleep.
8:19 AM 
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Saturday, March 01, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.22.08
A little while after I woke up today Kimberly and I went grocery shopping and since it took so long we had to pick up Ryan from his school on the way home. It took forever getting away from the school because of parent traffic. I was soo hungry by that time because I didn't get to eat before we had left the house. I snacked on a few Pringles and a banana sprinkled with sugar! For dinner Anthony barbecued pork chops, steak, and chicken. I had a lot of chicken and pork chops. They tasted so good! We rented The Game Plan and Messengers from the Redbox in Smith's and watched the former of the two movies while we ate.
After the movie it was just LaVaun and I watching t.v. and she let me surf through the channels. I landed on Scrubs and Kimberly agrees it's an awesome show but Anthony walked in when "Dr. Cox" made a sex joke and got mad that LaVaun was watching that kind of show. Mad at me, not LaVaun. So I changed it to a really stupid Disney show.
A bit later LaVaun had fallen asleep and Anthony came in to check on us. I was watching Futurama and neither of us knew that she was sleeping. Thank goodness too because if she wasn't I'm sure that I'd have been in more trouble.
I eventually left her to sleep on the couch and took all of my stuff back into her room. This was pre-arranged by Kimberly, that Lavaun would sleep in the front room and I would take her room.
I've been snacking like a monster! A few Doritos here and there, a bunch of angel food cake and more Pringles... I'm such a fatty lardo. I don't know if I should starve myself at home to lose more weight before I see Dustin or not even worry about it. I want to be gorgeous for him. Best case scenario when he sees me again for the first time in 11 weeks is that I cause him an instant boner. That would be the ideal confidence boost for me. Ha ha!
Well if I'm going to make it to bed by 2am I need to get this wrapped up.
8:14 AM 
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Thursday, February 28, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.21.08
I didn't get up today until around 2:30pm, probably because I kept getting woken up either by a stupid parrot or by everyone getting up for work/school. Kimberly slept in almost as late as me because she didn't have to go on call for work until 5pm and she called in sick because she was supposed to go in to meet some high bosses for lunch.
She prodded me to go shower, which I did, then after we were dressed and ready she took me to see a few of the local sights. First was the Albuquerque LDS temple. She didn't know that we could walk on the grounds so I had her stop the car in the parking lot and we got out(in the freezing wind) to walk around and I took pictures.
After the temple she took me on a drive where we passed a huge Native American casino. And we went home.
Anthony made spaghetti and meatballs for dinner and we watched the elimination episode of American Idol where 2 boys and 2 girls from the top 24 got booted. They kicked off 2 boys that I really adored. After American Idol we watched a special episode of Don't Forget The Lyrics where an old boy band called Boyz II Men were the contestants. They cleared all the stages/categories of songs but didn't risk the million-dollar song.
Anthony ran to the gas station to get cigarettes and got candy for Kimberly and I. The kids were already in bed by then. I had a hard time deciding what I wanted but went with Rollos and Kimberly got Reese's peanut butter cups.
I struggled to eat at home and had been losing lots of weight but being out here I've eaten pretty well and I'm sure I've gained back all that weight plus some. I'm almost afraid to go home. I don't want to be miserable again.
I need to write to Dustin again but I have so little to say and anything that I do want to say to him would be much better in person, like when I go to see him for Family Day/Graduation.
I'm going to get my couch ready for sleeping on and read some Harry Potter before sleeping for 12 hours.
4:40 AM 
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Thursday, February 28, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.20.08
I went to bed the same time last night and woke up the same time this morning as yesterday. Anthony was gone to pick up LaVaun and last night he got me a footlong sandwich when I only asked for a 6-inch so I could have my leftovers for breakfast. And I did.
I had a hard time with the t.v. remote when I tried changing the channels so I had to scoot up to the t.v. to turn it manually. Kimberly had to go into work today and wouldn't be home until after 5pm; she got home just in time for dinner. Anthony made up some Mexican rice, beans and two different ground beef mixes. One for tacos and one for burritos. He had an assembly line of tortillas, hard shell tacos, shredded lettuce and shredded cheeses. One taco stuffed me XP
Ryan had some homework about Greek/Roman gods that I was able to help him with to some degree and after that we watched the season finale of Ghost Hunters International.
Apparently Kimberly's mom(our dad's ex-wife) is in the hospital with like kidney stones or something so after dinner she went to visit her.
4:26 AM 
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Thursday, February 28, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.19.08
I was able to go to sleep by 1am last night and got up around 12:30pm. I slept so well. When I got up I put a Michelina's into the microwave and went to the bathroom while it cooked.
It was Wheels & Cheese and while I was eating I was begging my mind to not realize that it might make me sick. After eating about half of it I trashed the rest and went into the living room to see what was on t.v.

Around 2 or so I got dressed and brushed my hair. I wore my light colored jeans and a nice purple top. The only non-black clothes I packed! Well, aside from the green prairie skirt and brown shirt I wore on the plane...
When Kimberly got home from work at 2:30 I pulled on my shoes and we left for her doctor appointment.
We had a long wait when we got there, almost an hour. And being in the exam room was kinda weird.
The doc took out a special paper tape measurer and measured from her pelvic bone to her belly button. Some pregnant bellies are cute but when the woman is chunkers before it's just not.
Doc also listened to the baby's heartbeat. It sounded kinda weird. I did pick up some modern birth control pill pamplets, though. Information on different birth control pills that give you fewer and shorter periods. That would totally rock.
I think the one thing that I'll miss about home is getting letters from Dustin. But he pretty much gets to call once every week now which makes me so happy.
I can hear the passion in his voice that he really loves me and he says that I'm his inspiration to keep doing everything that he has to.
I'm starting to think that I don't deserve someone as great as him but I'm sure that when he comes home or even as early as Family Day/Graduation he'll make me feel like a beautiful princess that he has to protect and take care of. I love when he tries to pamper me but I rarely let him.

Anthony just went on a dinner run for Subway and we 3 watched American Idol and The Biggest Loser together. Ryan fell asleep in his room before dinner and took his sandwich to his room.
The dogs love me. Chica, their chihuahua, will just cozy up into my lap and let me pet her for hours. Aussie is their biggest dog, not sure what breed, and he just puts his front paws up on my lap begging for me to love him. Oreo is their medium sized dog and likes me but won't bug me for attention like the others. He prefers to bug Kimberly.

Yesterday when we were going back to their house, Kimberly and Anthony discussed whether I was old enough to visit a casino in town. Or whether I would gamble if I was old enough.

LaVaun in coming back here for tomorrow and Thursday, possibly Friday, I'm not sure. So while she's back I can only hang out in the Living room and that's where I get to sleep.
4:23 AM 
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Thursday, February 28, 2008 

Category: Travel and Places
2.18.08
Waiting to board was anxious and awful. We got to the airport 3 hours early! And checking in and getting through security only took about 20 minutes. I had to take my shoes off and I didn't like that.
When I got to my terminal was the worst part, aside from sitting next to this adorable family. It was a younger couple and their baby trying to get to Kansas City but they had to wait around until there was a flight with enough free(available) seats. I kinda feel bad for them but I couldn't really do anything. Their baby was fussy tried to grab at my Doritos so I broke off small pieces to give her. It was cute and her mother called her "silly sugar".

Once I boarded the plane I become a wreck. I was getting so nervous as the stewart was reviewing safety stuff and by the time the plane was moving I was crying ever so silently. As we took off into the air I started getting really light-headed, which kinda sucks.
Ascending was cool as we just floated above the snowy mountains. I tried to take a picture but the batteries in my camera were dead and my extras are in my suitcase. If we were allowed to have our cell phones on I woulda used mine to take pictures.

I'm still anxious and feel funny but that's just because we're officially 33,000 feet high. I imagine crashing at this height would be painful, if not entirely deadly.

When I got to the airport, and after my parents left me, I wanted so badly to just call Dustin and talk to him to make me feel better but then I realized a very good reason that I couldn't--he's at freaking Basic Training!
He asked me to postpone my trip to Albuquerque, something about funds. I'm thinkin' "I pay our freaking bills. I know what we can and cannot afford."
He graduates in roughly one month and I can't wait to see him again.

Back to the flight, it should only be about an hour and 13 minutes, according to the pilot. And it's been about a half hour, at least. This shouldn't be so bad. I just have to worry about losing my insides when we land. x_____x

Tomorrow Kimberly is going to see her midwife and is taking me along. She thinks that I'm gonna not want to go but I am actually quite excited. It might help get me ready to have a baby with Dustin some day. Kimberly is due sometime in June. The rest of my family is going to see her in the fall.

Let me tell you about the stewart. He's delightfully fruity, if you know what I mean. He's really nice. And black, I believe.
Oh, and the pilot just announced that we'll be landing in about 23 minutes. That should give me time to wrap this up for now and save it.

I'm so exhausted, I haven't been sleeping lately. And not eating well either. I'm hoping that my stay with Kimberly and her family will do me some good. She is married for the second time, has a son from her first marriage and her husband Anthony shares custody of his daughter from his previous marriage.
And judging by the baby clothes my mom sent out with me, she's having a baby girl.
We're currently over a desert area of New Mexico and it's really nice. Almost no snow.
Man I have to pee! They serve us these complimentary drinks(I got apple juice) and then give us these "rules" of when we can and cannot stand up to go to the bathroom. Plus this plane is tiny! About 20 rows of 3 seats each. They way it worked out, I got the aisle seat and the window seat. Since there's only one seat on this side of the aisle. ^^

I feel kinda vulnerable traveling alone but I've just gotta keep me wits about me.
Pilot just descended a bit then leveled out again. Messed up my head real bad. I wish he'd stop doing that.
GOTTA GO! DESCENDING ALL THE WAY!

-Later-
I got in a lot earlier than Kimberly expected me, and she didn't see me in the airport because she didn't know my hair would be black. Laughable.

Back to now. I'm staying in LaVaun's bedroom because her mother has her tonight. She's her daddy's little princess. Her walls are already covered in posters. They're all Disney Channel stars. Hannah Montana/Miley Cyrus, Ashley Tisdale, Emily Osment, Miranda Cosgrove, Vanessa Ann Hudgens...
I would've thought 10-12 years old if I just looked at her stuff, but she's turning 9 this year.
I just turned on her lamp, the lightbulb is pink. And I'm watching her t.v.--she's got cable.

I'm trying to make a playlist for a mixed CD for Dustin.
Oh oh, he called while Kimberly was showing me her ultrasound pictures and we talked about coming to see him in March! He says only 3 and a half more weeks... but I think he's getting ahead of himself...
I just checked and there are 4 and a half weeks until Family Day! I'm glad it's getting so close. I'm dying as it is and after that only 5 weeks of Advanced Individual Training at Fort Sam, Texas.
He wants me to come out on a trip with Karlee because apparently it would be a 45 minute cab ride from the airport to Fort Benning and he doesn't want me to have to do that. It would be so much more of a hassle though to ride down with Kar. And cost more. I say Karlee and I fly down and rent a car to drive the rest of the way. We'll see what we can afford at the time.
It'll be so nice to be in his arms again. Really, that's all I want.
I need to get a letter out to him. Yes. I. Do. I tried to while I was waiting earlier but just couldn't do it. I had a million thoughts flying around in me head and nothing was getting on paper. I'll try again tomorrow... Ya know, since I'm not going to have the internet until I get home.
I found 3 wireless networks in Kimberly's neighborhood but 2 of them were password-protected and the insecure network wasn't a strong enough connection to let me log into MSN or open my browsers or anything. Got meh mad! Oh well, it'll help me concentrate more on my amazing family that I'm visiting.
Remember, tomorrow I get to go with Kimberly to her doctor to see the babeh!

Well I'm watching Mythbusters right now in pink lamplight. Catcha later.
4:20 AM 
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