In all honesty I am still chasing my dream job. My Mom and Dad always hoped I would become a doctor, lawyer, or some other high paying job. I decided on becoming a firefighter after becoming a volunteer at a local fire department. Being a firefighter has good pay depending on where you work. It was all I really needed to hear because I enjoyed the idea and aspect of the job itself. It was challenging and rewarding in the kind of way I needed a job to be so it would not be boring.

Until then I had been attending college to become an X-Ray Technician and honestly I did not like the principle or goal of the job. It was boring work without any reward as far as I saw it.. C'mon the day I see a patient come up and say "Thanks for taking that X-Ray." I will gladly start accepting prescriptions from a shrink for schizophrenia. Do not get me wrong. I respect all fields of health care. I am just a weird guy. I am very nervous and afraid of a lot but I find it a great reward when I face what scares me and overcome it. If you had asked me at age 18 if I would have wanted to become a firefighter. I would have said no although the idea would have interested me. I lacked commitment and would not have made it even if I attempted it.

See, your friend Manhattan was a wanna-be gangster who enjoyed peddling drugs so he could feel important. I eventually decided I didn't want to go to prison and I eventually put that past behind me and moved forward into a more prosperous future. Of course leaving that kind of life wasn't as easy as I made it sound. I suffered many relapses and I held a lot of guilt for not being the kind of son my mother needed while she suffered from cancer. I love my Mom don't me wrong. I just didn't have my head in the right place when everything was happening when I was younger. In fact, my Mom is the main cause and reason of me becoming a better person. I believe I did it all for her more than I did it for myself.

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To keep it short and simple. - - This profile is my own psychological experiment. You will likely never know who I really am and it is not important anyway. This blog is my escape and way of saying whatever I want however I want without any consequences.

See I just want to write freely and like many hide behind the anonymous mask that is the internet.. So again, welcome and you as a reader are free to share your opinions..