I just was thinking as I was sitting in the kitchen waiting for my Bros to come back, this random flash back hit me. I remember along time ago that one day I woke up planning a romantic lunch for an Ex Boyfriend of mine. He worked rather close to me so I figured I'd meet up and surprise him. I ran around buying crap, ordering food and I even got him a rose. I met up with him with a huge smile, just could not wait to see him, then he looks at me funny. He did not seem so happy, he questioned me as to why I did all of it. I gave him the rose and he gave it back to me, he looked at me and just got angry that I planned out something like that. He told me to just go home, he walked away leaving me crying with a ton of stuff and extra food. I swear it broke my heart and yet after that we stayed together for a few more months. The whole time together he broke me in two. I don't know why but that was so random to just pop up into my head and I know I am going through a lot of stress right now. But the fact that memory came to mind now just makes me feel worse. My intentions were to be sweet and romantic, I was completely walked away from. Man, the thought of that brings back other memories I don't want to think about. My Bros are back so I am gonna go and see if they can help me keep my mind off things. Shocks me just how random that was.

I'd give anything right now to have a full room full of people's unwanted crap so I can just take bat to everything and bash the damn hell out of all of it. There was a suggestion I'd video tape it, so if I come across an opportunity to do so I am so gearing up to film it. Yes, this way I can look like a total jerk on the interwebz.

Now how can I be so happy and yet so miserable, what an odd balance? I'm an odd person therefore it works for me, I want to smile and frolic through flowers and yet I have so much built up anger I want to destroy EVERYTHING. Yeah if you are reading this and you know me well enough, then you already know how I am

You all just laugh at me anyway, if I knew a person such a myself I'd laugh to. But, sadly (or maybe not sadly) I don't. Maybe it's a good thing there is not another me running around?

Anyway I'm going to go knock myself out now, not literally. I just mean I am heading to bed, this is really so damn early for me. Damn it life!

Rainbows, Unicorns, Flowers and a twelve gage shotgun. Oh how very typical I sadly am.

The picture was painted and why I ever added on to it makes me feel like such a huge idiot. I hate to be perceived in any negative way, but the fact that I kind of encouraged it makes me feel a lot worse. I could ruin a lot of good things that way. Damn it, why do I have to be so stupid? I hate the thought of being looked at in a misunderstood view, one that I am to blame for. I can also point a huge finger on the person that painted that damn picture leading to it all, but really it's still my fault. It sucks when another person can make you seem one way and another person can view you the way they want due to it and yet engaging in only making it worse for yourself to them is just a really sad feeling. This never really happens to me so I am not use to it, so my mistake is a lesson well learned. SORRY :(

So yeah my time line is up and down right now, but I am a very busy chick. I am so thankful right now for everything that has come to me, I hope it expands into more and finally I'll be happy, always troubles and worries but I hope much more less of them. I feel like I am opening up a new chapter upon an old one that was once a wreck to my entire life. Reaching a new feels good, I hope to rid myself of all the bad and negatives to procure a more positive intriguing life.

I have been getting some great advice oddly from strangers and people that hardly know me, but seem to want to look out for me. I find it really rather sweet and a more then wonderful gesture that I do appreciate.

And to those I love that have backed me through so much the past few years I more then thank you. It's really hard doing it all on my own, so the pure fact that I really do have incredible people around me to pick me up and keep me going is a huge gratefulness upon me.

I always feel like the unlucky pile of crap that people want to use and/or throw to the side and I am sure it's going to continue to keep happening, but as of right now that's not a problem for me. I just never want to be hurt by anyone ever again, but I know it's an inevitable issue as my life will unfold I could only wish it prevails. Sadly people don't always work in a cruel free manner, nor in an understanding state of mind, this will cause great down falls and severed ties that of all which I dread deeply. I would like to think that all that happens to me is for a reason, given the fact that there is a true reason for reasons and a higher level of belief.

By now I am sure everyone knows life is more then just a good time, though it never hurts to do so, priority is a statement of a level of importance of everything we need to do that in which will make us functional on every base existing in the world. My top main goals to having a somewhat less stressful and more complete life are always things I am working on, may it seem so or not. I live therefore I improve, I don't care what anyone else thinks, I've grown a lot, I learn something new everyday. Though it may not seem like I can always carry my own weight, I know what I am personally capable of.

I take my time, everyone rushes me, but do they know in order to do better they need to embrace the time they have and put it to good use one step at a time? I admit I have had so many down falls that it's caused me to start life a bit later then I was wanting, but I'm working on it now and that's what obviously matters.

One thing I'd like to do soon that seems kind of unimportant would be to get rid of all my back entries to this "blog." There are things I don't need to look back on, nor anyone else for that fact. They are irrelevant and no longer have a reason to haunt my life. Between the people and the personal value, none of it is anything that represents me anymore, though I have been affected by a lot of it and my views on so much has changed, I feel I am my own reflection which people seem to like. My only means of confidence is the person that I keep within and I am proud of it and happy that people see me as a good person due to it all. I don't work hard for it, it's natural and I'd like to thank all the messed up, ridiculous bullshit I've been through that keeps me grounded and humble. I may be a party girl and I do have my crazy side, but I am pretty damn level headed down to Earth person aside from it, which is not much I can say for a lot of people and why yes I am being cocky about it.

I'm open minded, I don't slap a label on people I don't like to judge. Yes, I take part in the hatred of certain people that I don't know very well, but I know enough of them to know they are not worth the time of day, I'll also take part in bashing them if given the chance, especially when they have done certain things to me and yet once again as I mentioned they hardly know me. Not a hypocrite, just a free thinker and a harsh opinion giver, along with a tad bit of having the habit of pointing out the worst in people that have come across me the wrong way. But can anyone really blame me? I mean, I'm only fucking Human!

Recently I noticed I could be a bit of a softie and I don't mean this in a good way, I mean I can't say no to things. persistence plays a huge roll in it, I like to avoid conflict and hurting people's feelings, in order for me to do that I have to give in to their irritating behavior, bite my tongue and bear it. Now that I have made great mistakes, it's about time to put my foot down. I am keeping my word on this one, I am sick giving in to anyone. I'm sick of a lot of things and so much has to and will change, a new stronger me needs to finally come through and damn it I am going to fight my ass off for it. Also every single person that has done anything to make me feel less of myself before can all go seriously fuck yourselves. I am going to try my hardest, also know that I am no longer letting harsh words or insults get to me anymore. I hurt to much and I have to teach myself that they are only being said due to others stupidities and misunderstandings, not mine. I have to say I am lucky that I have hardly gotten into any real dramatic issues that would lead into any of that, but "hey shit happens" as the saying goes. Just know I'm not really there yet, but I am gearing to get ready for it, you will only make me stronger, that does not mean I encourage anyone to test me, if you have a problem take it some place else.

I'm heading to bed now, it's late and I don't know if I am working early or anything tomorrow, so I do indeed need to be ready for that phone call, so understand what I'm trying to say and have a goodnight. ~Rosie

Aug 29th 2009 Cartoon GlamTrashKitten Before the tatts.






She looks just like me now, but without the ink on my left arm, that's harder to do. Created with MyWebFace.com





I also made Tommy a.k.a verge, but he's not done yet.

As I had posted before FaceBook had taken away my old profile, they said I was accused of harassment, which is something I swear I seriously did not do. They wont even take in the thought that I could have even have been hacked into, I take it so personally since I have never had a problem with any site I use and I never go after anyone. I mean I was making such great progress with my work fields and it's all gone, about 3,000 people gone! I am trying to do it again but they wont confirm my new account and I have sent them serveral messages about it through three of their e-mail addresses, they get back to my Boyfriend and my other friends quickly with a reply telling them I have to contact them about the case. But, I am getting so angry because when I do so they don't reply back to me at all. It's been weeks and I connot get on my new profile, yet it's still working and people can contact me but I can't even view my wall. If you send them and e-mail for me telling them to help me confirm my new account or to give me my old one back because they are not helping me any and they reply back to you quickly telling you what they tell others that have tried to help me. Send them a reply back telling them " how come you can't reply back to her about it the way you just have to me?"

I am going to try and get their direct number, I know they are being taken to court, sadly the case is not really a winner. But at least people are trying to get back at this site.

To help me contact one or all of the e-mail addresses

appeals+d1ypa5y@facebook.com

confirm+AZ2xhbXRyYXNoa2l0dGVuQGFvbC5jb20@facebookmail.com

disabled@facebook.com

Use the subject title: Help GlamTrashKitten@aol.com

Ask them to help me confirm my e-mail so that I can go back to making good use of the site, which there are connections I seriously need on there that are not on MySpace. They are for work use and so much more and I can't even contact them. Or you can try to ask them to bring back my old profile under the e-mail DarlingGhoulDoll@aol.com, as I said before if you know me well enough then you'd know I am not like what I was accused of whatsoever. I am sick of these FaceBook computer assholes that I bet live life through a computer and have no idea what it's like to live in the real world. Who the fuck are they to tell me what type of person I am? This is why I am so angry and they ignore my pleas for help ALL THE TIME. I don't know what else to do and if I bother to make another profile the same thing will happen. Funny thing is I confirmed my account with my cell phone and they text messaged me with a code, it worked and they ended up telling me to confirm my e-mail, the code they sent me for that does not work and the option to have it resent or changed wont even go through. I am so damn pissed, please help me out here everyone. Thank you so much! ~Rosie

She looks like me and dresses like me especially back when I had blonde hair and was in my teens.

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This is the other Horse I made Autumn Moon Light


This is my version of Harley Quinn if she was a Horse.

I am so pissed off at Britney Spears, I hated her before and I hate her even more now. Both she and her fucked up fans can suck my imaginary dick! I had to do promo work for the bitches after party and the stupid whore did not even show up, her fucking bitchy fans are so snotty they can all fucking die for all I care. People like all of them should not exist and "Brit Brit" should not even be famous. She has no talent, a fucking monkey can do a better job on stage then her white trashy ass. I am sooooooo happy I did not get stuck in the show doing promo work, I'd have killed myself! Thank goodness for the free drinks and good pay, seriously!

On a better note, while doing that crap I ended up getting a bunch of free stuff, I got tickets for free to go see the Heaven and Hell show, I got all the band members autographs. I got a cute hand made bracelet from an awesome DJ that is actually going to be at Conjunction at Rebel Saturday(where I work now). It's says "Hugs" and has cute little yellow teddy bears on it with pink, purple and blue beeds and tons upon tons of other stuff *smiles*

I should make a video blog about it! I did take some silly photos with the other promo people so I will post those soon. I am at Tommy's house right now and he's playing the new Batman Arkham Asylum game. The seriously funny thing is the way they made Harley look now, because she looks like me! It's pretty fucking rad, I googled some photos from the game and I saw her new look and I am watching him play and she'll pop up, she has a kick ass outfit that looks like something I actually have. I miss the old outfit, but it's still an awesome change and since she looks like me that should be cool to all of you, hahaha!

So I am also heading off to Chicago next week on Thursday to go see Imperative Reaction and go to the after party at Neo to hangout with Ted and the guys. This is going to be one hell of a kick ass time, I can't wait! Then we shall arrive to NYC and go see them again and go to the VF store for some more fun with them and the wonderful VampireFreaks crew.

I had so many photos taken of me, I wonder if I am going to get any of them back, such nice people loved how I looked and wanted to take photos with me, that happens all the time, I am so use to it :) Not to sound like a cocky bitch though.

I am not sure about my fashion show tomorrow, I am however willing to showcase my work, I spoke to my boss about having a fashion show for my line at Rebel. There was one last night during the bitche's ( Britney) after party and it kicked ass, I loved the clothes and it was just a great place to do it. Seeing it happen made it so solid for me to want it there. So we shall see. I made a hott top but I need to finish it though it's good as is. I still feel it needs a touch more, I need to work on more designs and that's going to take time, especially the men's clothes. I am in the mix right now with James Immordino and Cliff Strobe, James is who I will be working for on the designs for TattooGirlPromotions. So cheer me on and wish me luck!

James gave me a shirt for TGP and I am going to alter it and rock it out in a photo shoot to promote it. I have some really cute ideas for it, oh yeah!

Also FaceBook is still fucking me over and wont confirm my E-mail address for my new account, so I sent them yet another message telling them how sadly messed up they really are and I hope they listen this time because I am sick of their shit and the fact that they got rid of my old account with a good 3,000 people I made network with in three months. The odd thing is I had that thing up for months before I used it and I made friends and connections that vastly after full sue of it. I could work quick if these assholes that work for the site would actually fucking help me. But if they keep it up I will go further. That's all I have to say for that. So here is the run down, I am looking for models, Alternative models, skinny or curvy, short or tall. I'd say waist size about 24, B to C cup, hips 30 to 34-5ish. Must have modeled before and I am only looking for females right now.

I will be at Conjuction at Rebel on Saturday with my Boy Tommy.

Then Tues and Weds I am doing promo work for the Pet Shop Boys and I think also going to the show.



Thursday Tommy and I are off to Chicago to see IR, so anyone in the area going to the show and will be at Neo after I'll see you there.

Then I come back I think Monday and I start office work at Rebel.

I should make a video update from now on if these things are going to be this long. But, it's over for now.

Cheers!
~Rosie

FaceBook disabled me as I was accused of harassment, but I did nothing wrong, help me by sending them a complaint to disabled@facebook.com about DarlingGhoulDoll@aol.com. You would help me a lot by getting me my account back, I was making great progress on there for so much I want to do and someone ruined it for me. Please help me, the only thing that can be thought of right now is a silly little comment I left a friend of mine on there and a mentally disturbed girl that is fixated on him reported me, now facebook is taking this to ridiculously. I mean seriously if I were bothering anyone I'd be kicked off here and so many other places, I have had this account for years and have many more accounts where I have not had a single problem with anyone. I don't understand why networking and adding people is also that big of a deal to them, but accusing me of using the site to harass someone when I would not put myself in that type of jeopardy is going to far. If you know me well enough or belive I am not the type of person to be that cruel to specifically target anyone, please send them a report to the given e-mail above. Thank you guys, I hope this will help me and I appreciate those of you that will take your time to do this for me. *hugs* ~Rosie

Hell everyone, I know it's been awhile since I made a post on here. I'm so sorry, I was networking on Facebook but somehow it got disabled and I am trying to get it back because it's very important right now. I am working with a lovely man named Cliff Strobe, a man who was the keyboard player for Prince, no not to work on music, but to work on fashion. He gave me a good chance to make a start in something I love, since I have experience in modeling, styling, design, music, makeup arts.... I am going to join them all together and finally rise up and get my life to where I need it to be and I feel I deserve it. I don't mean to sound cocky, so sorry. I just had been through a lot and I feel this is something for me FINALLY.
Anyway, I am getting my look book together and looking for models this coming Tuesday, must be a size 5 to an 8 or seven (waist line about 24 to 27 ideal and bust about 32 B to about 34 or 36 C), slim and/or curvy. This will be for a fashion show held for Thursday, small place but a good start. I will put up an official casting call soon.
I hope people can attend.
Since this is not facebook I feel a bit more distant asking here. I must say facebook gave me better results and I made more friends there then I have here in three months of getting my new account on there up. Casting call at the Highline Cafe in New York City Manhattan 360 30th st and 31st and 9th ave, take the train to Penn station.Hope to see pretty faces. I am working on male styling after this project.

Also I have a job with Rebel NYC thanks to Brian, I should also thank my Boyfriend and Shane for this one too. So thank you guys so much. I am doing a promo gig for Britney Spears' after party at Rebel and I need three more girls for the next coming week (not this coming) on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. It is fast easy money. I did this for Depeche Mode and it was very easy and you get the money up front. You don't have to enjoy Britney Spears (as I don't) so don't worry about that. That following week I will be doing the same for The Pet Shop Boys, then after that I just have normal work at Rebel. So please if interested let me know, you can stay for any of the after parties for free, other details will come as I hear from Brian.
Now let's see how music will go from here after this good news *smiles*

Watch this and the rest of my stupidity on my YouTube Channel. So this is me talking about my new hair style. Which needs some pink in it I'd say. Oh and sorry if it looks like I am on a major sugar rush, but lack of sleep does that to you.

I have not been on in a long time so here is a quick video of my wonderful Kitty, who also shows her S&M side, hahaha! Go to my Youtube station at GlamTrashKittenVids, I'll add more stuff and silly video blogs and projects....

This makes me laugh, you'll see "Chibi" grab Sara up and Sara looks totally dazed at the fact and tries to touch her. Shit is funny, I wonder how drunk Sara was Hahahaha. I know I was wasted! I just seriously happened to find this out of nowhere, it's great. The Birthday Massacre "Blue" New York