because i find it rather boring-some: you take people's orders, take their money, get their drinks and food and say have a nice day, about thirty times a day or more, you clean clean clean, taking other peoples orders and for 8 hours of working, the next day and the next day is the same. sure, like any other job is the same but i look into a different point of view: do i want people to die because of an early heart attack or just eat fatty foods because in a big mac, apparently, it has 50% of fat, so yeah. i decided not to eat foods like that, because it isn't real food, it is junk food and even fi their parfaits, their salads or anything, it isn't really food you can savour, its more like eating choclate bars and chips and pop and people need tomrealize that you cannot live on that otherwise you will end up getting fat and not feeling healthy. but everyone has their own food and i just thought it be nice to let people know of that thing, its not a crime i guess.

 

so what am i going to do next? possibly find a different job, it doesnt haze me that i have to go back to square one, it doesnt matter that i could of stayed but i have my own choices to make, i just wanted a change from it all,  i realized that the more i work at a job, the less time i can do other things, like take care of animals, clean house, be with friends and such. sure the weekend is there but i am usually gone with my boyfriend, i procastrinate and such so its just ridiculous to be at work most of the day and come home, eat shower and sleep and starts again. ontop of that, my place isnt fit for animals, so what i thought was best was to let them go, sure i could of send them to the pound, i should of but i did not so i kind of feel bad about that becase now they can be hungry and cold and tired and maybe on the pavement, i hope not. if they were, i just feel evil of doing so and that just makes me sad but at the same time when i was taking care of them, since we have no AC, the heat was possibly getting to them, well the one black cat especially. its either that or he ate something, like plastic or tin foil, because my apartment isnt really kept a day to day basis, more like a week or so and then it just gets messy and since the time spent on mcdonalds ate up all that time i could of done for something else. now i have that time and i want that time so i dont feel like i live a grubby life, but i dont have cats anymore, i dont want cats anymore because it would just possibly hurt them which is what i dont want. so whenever i have anyday without work for a while i can clean, i can make my house fresh and thena pply, apply apply. does that sound good or what?

alright, so what if i did work like 8 hours straight with NO break and such, it's normal sometimes but i wanted one and i have talked to one of the managers there so everything is peachy. but now, my bf wants to move to Saskamabush(Saskatoon) like within a month or so, so i can stay until he gives me the heads up so i can give my two weeks notice. like, i can go to school and possibly have a better job than Mcdonalds, sure there are plentiful jobs in s'toon! but what about my cats? well, i called the vet to get my cat Sabbath neutered but since i might be moving soon i cannot do much of anything, hmmm. but whatever, my friends can come see me anyday and call me, so i can give my goodbyes and give them my new number when i move there, yaaay! i am sooo excited! but yeah, that's all for now, have a good day!

it's like this, if it wasn't for Mcdonalds, i would still be at home moping about and possibly gaining 5 pounds everyday as i watch the tv, play whatever i can on ps2 and being so fucking bored that i want to drill myself in the head and squeeze out my eyeballs, do you want to just do soemthing if it's that to the extreme of boredom?? anyways, that said i kind of take things seriously, i dunno, i got it from my mom i guess because im sure my dad doesn't have much of seriousness other than my high strung mom. but whatever, she just needs to relax, as do i, ahahahahahah! i have to do something for my life, today i just sat there outside on my break and thought "hmmmmmm, what should i do for my life?" since i just work at the place for now and yeah its easy as cake, sure it isnt the dream job but what gives? i am actually making money and i am actually making a big difference as those who dont do anything, those who dont do anything should be doing something other than being lazy bums!!! i mean, you have to work hard on what you want right? so whatever i am good at, at poems and doing art i can become like a story teller for kids? make childrens books?> make graphic horror/erotica novels? look, at this point i am actually trying to make a life by working and i have this to think over too, i can also go back to high school to upgrade but maybe work for a year and then go back is good too! hmmmmmmmm.............. let me get back to this as to i have to think what i want in my life and have a nice day! toodles!!

i really really really really really want this cute back pack at winners, it costed like 129 i could of got it but i had five things already but seriously i want it soooo badly!!!!


it had this image on the back pack itself but not this type of bag.

so you see, i like this cute stuff like this!!!

this weekend i went to my mom and dad's house, i gave my mom a bonsai plant which my bf gave me, although i could of kept it but i wasn't sure that the plant would live in my house so yeah gave it to my mom, plus the camera. stayed there for a while, spent time with my dad, went to the river took, pics and watched my dad as i laughed my ass off as he climbed a really big tree. spent time with my mom, went for a power walk and had some lunch but i found a gross hair in my sandwhich and gave it whatever i left on the plat, like the chic just picked up the peice of hair anddropped it, dammit i should of made a scene! spent time with my brother and exchanged some cd's since i need new muci on my ipod. had like two alcohol drinks of creamsicle, which was really good and di nothing much. now im back home and im tired, my house maybe needs to be cleaned and i need a job.  but other than that, i don't have any school and need to fill my time with something else, i need a hobby...

i have an 84% average in my Math which I just completed yesterday, i signed up for classes in the fall for upgradinging like English A, Law, Psychology, and Biology, all grade 12 classes and something of writer/artist residence which i can talk and show my art and poetry to. this is pretty good and i just feel successful at what i am doing best! have a nice day!

because thowse eho are my true friends should know of important things, like me not coming here anymore and such. im deciding because i still like it here but then again you can always find me here >> www.facebook.com <<, its like myspace but different. im just getting tired of this site and sure all of you guys are too. but maybe its time for a change eh? soo whoever is my friend or about to read this, heres my emqail address >> sexy_hot_gurl85@hotmail.com << and have a good day, toodles..

yesterday, i wanted tyo do something, like apply for jobs or figure out what would be a good hobby since i do not have one. so i applied at several places, well, when i am done with this unit and the test, i do not have to go to school anymore so i can work like fulltime but at the momment i would have to work parttime. so i was talking to a friend of mine and we were taling about the natives get whatever they want and not work, we white people are becomign a minority so some work from the natives would be a help. i know nothing of the USSR or anything much of war, i enver read much of that either so i don't know some things at all, which makes me niave on my part. there's alot more things i don't know about but to read about it would be good, to experince them are good as wel but then how can you experince war or whatever happened in the USSR? who wants to anyways? yeah, i don't think i would want to die in war, even fighting would be scary, my bf wanted to join the army or navy or something, i was like nooh. sure, he can be proud of his country but that would be me staying at home for the longest time and paying for rent with the job i don't have and such. it be gay! but that never happend so it's all good. what's really super is that i can't see today, sure you might of read it in my post somewheres but my eyes just feel weird. but then i have a bonsai plant to take care of, its soo cool! my conclusion to my blog is done, i have nothing else to say.......

Cycle of Evil

There was once a king who was so cruel and unjust that his subjects yearned for his death or dethronement.
However, one day he surprised them all by announcing that he had decided to turn over a new leaf.
"No more cruelty, no more injustice," he promised, and he was as good as his word. He became known as the 'Gentle Monarch'.
Months after his transformation one of his ministers plucked up enough courage to ask him what had brought about his change of heart, and the king answered:
"As I was galloping through my forests I caught sight of a fox being chased by a hound. The fox escaped into his hole but not before the hound had bitten into its leg and lamed it for life. Later I rode into a village and saw the same hound there. It was barking at a man. Even as I watched, the man picked up a huge stone and flung it at the dog, breaking its leg. The man had not gone far when he was kicked by a horse. His knee was shattered and he fell to the ground, disabled for life. The horse began to run but it fell into a hole and broke its leg. Reflecting on all that had happened, I thought: 'Evil begets evil. If I continue in my evil ways, I will surely be overtaken by evil'. So I decided to change".
The minister went away convinced that the time was ripe to overthrow the king and seize the throne. Immersed in thought, he did not see the steps in front of him and fell, breaking his neck.

i kind of relate to this because im sure anything i do to other people reflects upon others or just reflects upon me if i were to lash out on others. i do my best to correct ahy kistakes i have done and be a better person but in order for me to do that, i would have to learn on my own or have friends tro help me push in the right direction. i would also have to realise within me to find out my true self...