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So I went. I knew I had to see it. The girls were back together and I knew that the clothes would be fabulous. Sex and the City is of course what I am referring to. I watch them in syndication catching ones I missed and reminiscing over ones I have seen countless times. But the whole idea of being 40 and still struggling to find love and be in love and enjoy love is a little sad to me. I know first we must love ourselves because if not how can anyone else truly love you. It must come from the inside first. Another's love can not sustain you. Knowing that I ask the question do we... do I love myself enough?

Yesterday I was looking at a deck of tarot cards. I shuffled and pulled one card. It was Card 15 the Devil. Not one that was to exciting. The card says that you are operating out of and are driven by fear. Relationship wise it said that you are in a relationship with a substance abuser and stay there... merely because of the chemistry. Though I was not intimately involved with a substance abuser I did maintain a close relationship with one. Really close. To close. But pulling that card made me realize that the relationship was not one that was healthy or progressing me forward in anyway. In fact it was raping me and my spirit. I didn't continue with things that had become regular for me because I wanted to be around this person who ultimately robbed me literally and figuratively. A person who was full of antecdotes, progressive thinking, books on wisdom, poetry and knowledge was more full of shit than anything else. The worse part about it was the feeling of betrayal and being duped.

The other day someone told me that you can't get time back and people do not value the time they have. Those days I spent thinking about another persons welfare and rushing to spend time with him I can't get back. Love... did I not love myself in those moments? Honestly, I don't think that I did. I didn't give time to even thinkin about myself. I remember a blog that I wrote a little while ago. I said that I forgot about love... took it forgranted. I want to continue to recognize the love in my life. At 40 I don't want to repeat the stupid things that I did now at 32.  My goal is to love me HARD!

The Devil card told me the real deal... seriously. I belive it because it was true. It was wear I was. I am now making and affirming that I am casting fear and negative energy out because there is no room for it. Fear takes up so much space. Love takes space too but you get more for the space that it consumes. I choose Love and Happiness over all!

I love you! ...doesn't that just bring a smile to your face? I love you!

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People can be real idiots! If I say... "The store is closing on the 31st." What did I say? Did I say that the store is relocating no... I said closing. Someone please tell me how the two can be confused. I have worked in the field of customer service/ retail for (to damn long) a while and realize that people pay less and less attention to detail. OK so this all stemmed from the fact that I KNOW that I would qualify for this one job that (...oh yeah I am looking for a job) I saw posted with this creative temp company but I just received an EMAIL stating that

"currently we do not have a position matching the experience indicated on your resume."

So Why am I vexed? I can not call anyone to say anything about it. I am in a cyber-pool of applicants and have no way to swim to the analogue side. Customer service has been packaged on a server. I have been applying for jobs and have accumulated so many damn usernames and passwords I can't even begin to count. We have moved beyond snail mail and fax and are in cybermail. I am one of those people lost if I can not access my email DAILY!!! But sometimes interpersonal communications is necessary DAMN IT!

Brazen is a word that comes to mind. I will have more to say about this soon. I gotta run right now though. U Street needs me??? WTF?

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i realized that i have taken love forgranted. there are so many things in life to juggle, work, play, family, friends, home and personal life, small businesses, health and more. with so many balls in the air i had left one ball on the chair in the corner behind the desk in front of the bookshelf. i left love in a dusty corner all by her lonesome. what ever was i thinking?

there are things that i unfortunately don't think about everyday and love had become one of those things. i am in the process of polishing her up and bringing her into this amazing life. i am thankful that she has been patient and just cleared her throat to make me recognize instead of knocking me over with a mack truck. i am creating a permanent homage to love in my bed room. i am so excited about it. it makes me feel good to realize the love that i have within and around me.

mind you this has been brewing way before the day they call valentine's day. but isn't it appropos that i blog about it today. i have received many happy v day texts today. i am appreciative of them all especially one i received from my friend in TX! she reminded me of how long i have loved her! and the love continues with her newborn baby girl! ahhh... Love!

You who have received so much love, show your love by protecting the sacredness of life. The sacredness of life is the greatest gifts that God has given us.           ~Mother Theresa

i don't big myself up enough. i am 32 years old i own my own home and i have a multiplicity of skills but who knows. i really don't go through life in an i, i, i, me, me, me matter, that is just not my way. but i think that not doing that to a certain extent has allowed people to put me in a category and leave me there. my history is not relevant? but to deny my history is to deny or over look my experience. i am not an expert in everything under the sun but experience has been a good teacher. 

Hello and welcome to a sondai expressions' moment hosted by Namaste Sondai! Thanks Namaste!

With the New Year fast upon us SE has deemed these moments necessary. After all was it not Gandhi that said "Be the change you want to see in the world." So I am putting my foot where my mouth is Walking my Talk so to speak so here it is.

For all of the artist that I love and admire this is for you!
GET YO STUFF TOGETHER!!!
As an artist that creates for a lot of other artists (promo material, image shots) a lot of times my job is made much harder than it has to be. There is a role and task for everyone in business. Even as a creator and creative being there is always a business side to things. Far to many times have I heard he/she is a great artist (musician, writer, photographer) but not about his/her business. (I am sure the same could have been said about me at one time. But lessons are learned daily) So you talented writer, musician, painter, vocalist you... get a team DO NOT DO IT ALL YOURSELF! Like I said there is a job/task/talent that everyone has; there are accountants, graphic designers, photographers, managers, engineers the whole nine yards. Hell many of which are at your local colleges and even right here on myspace. Though I appreciate all the talent that dwells within and do not believe a person is limited to doing just one thing, you do need to have your business together.

This includes but is not limited to:
Press Photos
Press Releases
Logos
Past performances
Honors
Collaborations
Contracts and Agreements
Schedules
Rates
and much, much more!

There are people to help you get organized and take you to the next level... whatever that maybe be for you! Get focused, Get a team that is supportive and loves, appreciated and respects what you do!

This moment from Sondai Expressions was inspired by a lack of press photos from various bands for an upcoming show. For more from Sondai Expressions please check out www.myspace.com/sondaiexpressions

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i realized i am stewing in my own juices here. bitter that this was a quite unusual holiday for me. no build up no climax. nada. and i have to be at work were chipper bamas that have off today keep asking "did you have a good holiday?" i am tempted to say no and see their response. and i would actually prefer if no one asks me how my holiday was at all. but in the mist of the unusual-ness of it all i realize that I am truly loved and blessed and I am THANKFUL FOR THAT!

I begin fasting tonight at 7pm and will end on 7pm January 1st. Earlier today I was like why the hell did I agree to this. now I am honestly happy to start. Especially since a just ate some terrible, terrible McDonald's... now this is where I should be like "why the hell did I agree to this". I think sometimes I need a reminder of why it just ain't good for me. ARGH!

So I think for the next few days I will take to writing on paper instead of typing blogs. I mean i don'thave to cook or be in the kitchen so... I can just use that time to write and reflect.

Up until 2001 I was a very material girl. Seriously, it was like I was in the mall daily or shopping daily! I can not say that I am not "in like" with having nice things but the passing of my grandfather was a life changing event for me. I had a wake up call and financially it was important that I grow up.

Now I am not going to run down each pivotal life changing event I have had thus far. But in recent life history (in observing situations... cause that is what I do) I have observed some experiences that I would deem life changing that have occurred yet the lives they have occurred in are still the same. I KNOW... who am I to say that? BUT you would figure if the same thing happens in different forms frequently then you would switch some shit up... i am just sayin.