I have been feeling pretty shitty lately. This whole move to NYC has been more difficult than I expected and sometimes I feel like I'm a failure and not really doing the best I can here.

Then I went to my sister's myspace today, just to check it out. Under her 'heroes' section it says this:

My sister, Amanda.
She inspires me to read, travel, and be the best I can.

As I cried a bit, I realized I at least accomplished something.

I love you Charlotte.

and you are the best.

as most of you know, i spent the last two weeks in spain. here are the photos!

MADRID

botanical garden

rainforest inside a trainstation

belly dancers

smoking with corey

bullfight

egyptian ruins

twinzies!

piano bar

CADIZ

getting ready to go out

out

corey and i on the beach at night

semana santa

pregnant chic smoking cigarettes in a bar

last night in cadiz

oh how i miss europe.

and this boy.

here are photos from a pirate party.

justin and i

paco and i

pirate ladies

read the hat. der.

all right, this is my week. enjoy.

first up, wedding.

this is what happens when you are single. you booze.

my little sis and me

i will not dance. (oh sporting the glasses. im so DORK)

next up, bachalor auction.

lindsay and i at the auction, most likely five minutes before i puked

oh what a vixen. that leg looks like it isnt attached

trying to be proper

next up, new york

this is at a friends surprise bday party, before i dyed my hair

i like to get in photos with people i dont know well

the outfit. i was the dyke date

all ass.

drunk hugs

the day i dyed my hair. i took this for corey in the AM

and a photo from the past....this was us girls on our way out to a 70s party. i wanted to go to a honky tonk instead so i dressed as a cowgirl. sad part, i already owned all those clothes.

this will be updated soon, i have more photos to post.

these are the photos my friend kieran took for her jewelry company crystal mafia. check it out at www.crystalmafia.com and her myspace is www.myspace.com/crystalmafia

here i am

and done.

Look how CRAZY my face looks.

if you could only see the bottom half of this photo.

i look like a blowup doll

this is before, at the parade. i look like a little boy.