-fear of peanutbutter sticking to the top of your mouth.

Sadly, it is one of my minor fears. I say this because im getting a lot of people ask me what i fear. I keep telling you im not anyone special, i fear reality. I fear:

~Ataxophobia

~Athazagoraphobia

~Automatonophobia!!!!!- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.

~Homilophobia

~Illyngophobia

okay im tired of having to list these things, so i wil wrap it up by saying i am terrified of witnessing or hearing bones break; especially the femur. Did you know you could totally die just from the shock of breaking that bone since its the biggest in your body?? and then i fear fear itself. and a world without music or sugar. a fear of being incapable to obtain knowledge and wisdom. uhh small bugs too? haha look at these:

Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia - fear of long words

Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia - fear of the number 666

Just a stupid little glass. Who cares if its half full or half empty? Why? So you can take a second to contemplate over your lacking outlook on life? Either way, it puzzles me to think what crazed philosopher stared at a glass of milk asking his loyal apprentice 'what do you see?' And no matter what your answer, followed by reasonable belief, someone can always say differently. In my opinion, i let myself see it as 'oh hey! a glass! cool!' ...not caring if its half anything.

I guess i all thought about this because of my ex. Years ago i saw him as lame. And now we run into each other at Walmart(go figure) and he is so amazing to me now. i realized yet again that there really are three sides to everything in my eyes: a pro, a con, and the truth.

It was just another day at school when he slipped me a note:

Adrian:     When the dove is taken by a jet black raven

and the sky turns a deep crimson

can I stand assured that you'll

be there with me?

And so, after some deep thinking, I came up with a reply:

Danni:     Whether the dove takes the raven,

Or the raven takes the dove,

To me, it does not matter

If the act is that of love.

And though skies may turn grey,

Or any other color,

The best way to get through,

Is to stick with each other.

So to answer your question;

Will I be by your side?

Forever and always

We can be each other's guide.

Amazing how this is how we communicate in our notes lately. Even more amazing...we understand each other. =]

So we only have one more day until our Thanksgiving break starts? YAY! A whole week to be lazy and eat turkey til i get bloated! Woooh! lmao. Hmm...but what exactly might those plans be? I have no clue. Though I do know we are going to the church this sunday and next sunday, and well, every sunday, despite how much i hate going. Hello! Agnostic much?? Yeah -.-

I keep getting comments about how i have changed a lot in my pictures and am acting differently. Im not sure if that is a compliment or not, so im just gonna keep shut about that. I would like to say that i am going to get back into blogging everyday like i used to, but im not really sure.

Hehe, my boyfriend, Adrian is so sweet. He got me flowers and candy today. Just because. ^^ I totally spaced out today in the car from school and was thinking to myself...am i happy? Like, not at the moment, but in general. then this little version of me popped into my head and said just have fun and dont compare my good times to those of others or bad times. i thought this quite strange seeing how i was about 10 and i was acting of the same maturity i am right now. then i just smiled and was like 'wow'. maybe its just pms that is making me feel weird. so its times like these that i try to ignore my feelings since i know its not entirely what i would normally feel. =P stupid pms.

Cool wind rushed passed my sleepy face as I drove to school early this morning. With the iPod on shuffle, my mind unleashed its ocean of thoughts...almost forgetting to take off on green along the way. My eyes closed at the corner before the light and what I felt in that moment...for the first time, I can't describe that feeling. It was more than happy, but subtle and calm. And there was a little numb effect, but overthrown by feelings of relief and anxiety. It was more like a blink, really, but the moment an image of a certain waterfall came into view,...time suddenly slowed and I never wanted it to end...not just my mind, but within every fiber of my being, i wanted to reverse the clock to that night...oh, the weather a little unbearable for the both of us...but well worth it for that one perfect kiss...so perfect, it faught off the cold and warmed me to the soul...

...you know the one im talking about. the one that makes you forget what day it is and who you are. the kiss that makes you depressed knowing the date will be over when you have to be home in an hour...

yeah...the amazing feeling totally went down the drain the minute the impatient asshole behind me started honking from his freakin' VW. but within that moment, i realized something...

but it may be too early to say. so, for now, i will leave it at: i am happy and i miss him every moment im not near him. hehe i thought butterflies were supposed to stay in the air, so then why are they in my stomach..? i think this has something to do with you Adrian <=3

So it's been a while since i last blogged anything...ive gotten into the habit of writing it all down on paper though, so no thoughts lost =] i never thought this day would ever come, but as of a week ago, i believe i have completely gotten over him. i mean, i still love him as a friend, but as a distant friend. my heart will always have a place for him, but right now...i feel like he's just another guy out there. then again, ever since Von, ive pretty much stopped putting all my hopes into a person being 'the one'. i just take what i can get and make the best of it.

lately, ive had this whole inspirational thought of not hesitating to do what i want. 'don't let the moment pass you by' and 'in order to get things you've never had, be willing to do things you've never done'

...yeah. im now with this pretty amazing guy named Adrian. he's a junior and hopes to be a producer and create video games. he loves rock and anime and im pretty grateful that i am 'the first person' that he has 'never lied to'. =]

Our first date was last night, November 15, 2008. We saw Madagascar 2 at the Rivercenter mall:

and afterward we went to McD's and laughed over the movie and random stuff to make us smile. it wasnt long after that we kissed right on top of here:

^-^ he gives me butterflies...

And it;s been over three months that i have been with my larrykitty. =]] school is okay: PAP Pre-Calc., ART3, comp Apps, English 3, Biology, World History, and FRENCh. Not much to say other than i love the way things are going right now. I love my friends, I love my school, I love my boyfriend and right now i am eating at my cousin's house(one of my all time favorite places to be).

Not quite sure what i want to do with myself just yet, but I'm just enjoying the many choices that i have. Well....we'll just see what happens in the next few months. I love you all. Call me =]]

Okay, so let's say you went to the doc and they say you need meds. Or you watch a new commercial advertising a new medication. I really find it funny how when you watch these commercials, they don't just describe what it is used for, but they tell all about the symptoms of what you may have. And of course, they ALWAYS list more than one sypmtom, so everyone is bound to think they need drugs to live a better life. "OMG MY EYES BURN!! I NEED SIMILASAN!!"

...well of fucking course your eyes are gonna hurt if you're a PMSing teenager crying over some dumbass that left you for a skank.

Heh, sorry. I love to rant. And if you are going to spit my words back at me, I guess I'll have to start choosing my "Preferred Listings". lmao.

But seriously, they always do this. And then the other thing I hate is when yo FINALLY find a med right for you and it COMPLETELY solves the problem...but of course it's going to get rid of the problem if the freakin side effects are worse than your actual problem...Tch..

Goshh, I better get off here. I'm gonna start something, I know I am. lmao.

I just don't get it at all. What is it a diet of exactly? It still has a 40mg of sodium, and 46.5mg of caffeine along with caramel, aspartame, phosporic acid, and citris acid....Not really much of a diet. And then wtf is up with the newest pop: "Diet Cherry Chocolate Dr Pepper"? As long as it says diet on the can, people actually believe it. But I bet if I put a "diet" sign on top of a really cherry chocolate cake, people wouldn't believe it. It's all about the shiny silver can...it hides the truth, while distracting you with it's shiny new artificial freshness. Ugh, just thinking about a Diet Chery Chocolate Dr Pepper makes me sick....But the thing that really gets me is how stupid people can be..."Yeah, I'd like a double cheeseburger....and....a diet coke..." ??? Wtf. Yeah, you may laugh, but I have ACTUALLY heard people say this many times. OMG! I have to have that diet coke...Uhhm hello! That one diet coke ain't gonna make that fat cow in your bun go away. Tch.....