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Last Updated: 11/17/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 46
Sign: Capricorn

City: East Rochester
State: New York
Country: US
Signup Date: 8/19/2006

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November 21, 2009 - Saturday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
the room is hung low, for a tall man
lit amber in one corner
dim in the billowing sweet resin of frankincense
absorbed by fragrant silks
 
she has beckoned him, he has come
and they are sweating the sheets
rocking to the music of souls   
laboring loins and sins of the flesh
 
she has confessed all but her darkest demons
as they grind and claw their way to absolution
and in this light he finds her perfect
he worships all he believes her to be
hoping that he can be master of her heart
 
eyes search eyes but the vision bounces back
hope reaches out in a whisper
love rises to a vapor that desperate hands can never hold
 
in the end, she rolls away
tightly gripping her emotions
because she knows that two lost souls
don't always make a whole
and as he curves to her spine,
kissing her neck with soft words
her head calculates the theory and says, "so close"...........
 
 
 
copyright Tawnya K 2009
 
November 9, 2009 - Monday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
if sadness were a color, pain a hue
i would be deep blue

but you would paint clouds and hang the sun in my sky
and my blue would be a backdrop to
a perfect summer day
and we would play like young lovers

would that it were so simple
would that love never caused an aching
and that joy was our guarentee

you and i, hold no such promise
and my blue sky is pouring






copyright Tawnya K 2009
November 8, 2009 - Sunday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
predawn
be still and hear my heart beat
with your head pressed to my breast
learn my rhythm
my rise and fall that calls your name
in whipsers you can feel

some hearts beat too wildly
and speak in too many tongues
but mine is constant
and yours
 
too sharp a blow will break it
too slight a grasp
will never leave a mark

hold me, warm and deep in your heart
and let me feel your rhythm
let me hear my name
whipsered.........
 
love - - - love - - - love - - -love- - - 
 



copyright Tawnya K 2009
 

 
  
November 7, 2009 - Saturday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
i saw her face
i saw the words she wrote you
the ones that make no promise
but are just enough to keep you there
waiting in her shadow
forsaking your own right to happiness
she lets you guess
at her intentions
and you fill in the blanks
with your own hope
and you sleep alone
and she pours another drink
to forget what she's costing you
you dial my number..
but what's the point?
 
 
copyright Tawnya K 2009
November 7, 2009 - Saturday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
how many men feel entitled to trespass here
how many times can my heart be taken for granted
before it shrivels and dies
how many times can i rearrange the letters that spell the same lies
 
to say you warned me-semantics
you had the 8 ball all lined up
but called another pocket
 
you are in her locket
tied to her neck
she's never once opened it
you've never asked her to
 
i have given all i can give
while asking for nothing in return
i won't beg
 
my locket, empty
my slate, clean
from this day on,
i wait for no man
 
i am aloft in possibility
catch me if you can

 
 
copyright Tawnya K 2009
November 6, 2009 - Friday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
my lot in life
sacrifice
my happiness
for something less
you have my heart
but aren't sure you want it
i forget
not to feel
 
she is
what you can't have
the monkey on your back
your every fitfull dream
your first choice
the black queen
 
i am
love
as simple as i seem
you choose
the path of most resistance
 
i am now
wise enough to walk away
but the tears burn new holes in my heart
and i write these words
it is my lot in life
to love you and say goodbye
 
 
 
copyright Tawnya K 2009
 
 
October 17, 2009 - Saturday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
this fear is keeping me here
feet frozen, heart holding it's breath
throw the other shoe
i can't stand this pause

you didn't make my heartbreak
you didn't say the wrong thing
you only have the misfortune
of following in his footsteps

and i'm not sure how you see me
amid this field of chaos
my scattered attentions
my survival tactics, my once youthful prowess

not the first impression i'd choose
i'd have worn a dress and nicer shoes
and tried to mind my social graces
i don't know what you love

but i am grateful for any grace
i am honored by your affection
i want to say yes, to every question you might ask
but, i am frozen here, behind these boundaries
swallowing fear



copyright Tawnya K 2009
October 10, 2009 - Saturday 

Category: Writing and Poetry

5am, up
coffee steam
computer screen
think of him and how we used to start our days
shake it off
file it away
 
into the shower
warm, pulsating power
taking the edge off
think of him
and how we longed for longing in the hot mist
seeking bliss against a wall
awareness that i must stop this fall
how many times
 
look at the clock
hair dried, tossed
think of him
lost
shake myself again
mascara, lipstick
smile
see my reflection
the one the world sees
it's me, somewhere in there
but i am lost to thoughts of him
i drive to work knowing i can't win
the day will not get better
the sun will not shine brighter
but i am a fighter
 
i punch the clock
and emerse myself in habit
and wait for the day i forget
i work long and hard
follow my star
home
lay my head
heavy
and wonder if i'm one step closer to over this
eyes drift
 
5am, up
coffee steam
computer screen
think of him and how we used to start our days
shake it off
file it away
 
another day
another day

 
 
 
copyright Tawnya K 2009
October 4, 2009 - Sunday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
isn't it sad, don't you find it
the love put behind us, can't rewind it
things that burn a bridge, we've said them
nothing to do but look ahead then
that's what i tell myself
 
but then
there's the thought of you
somewhere in my memory, your voice
breathless with my name
no choice, i reminisce
and there, the kiss i lost my head to
the love that we fell into
the arms i thought i'd run to
but here i am, without you
 
isn't it sad, don't you find it
that our words now flow apart, i am reminded
of the way they once built each other up
invited a higher love, but now
it's as if we've forgotten how
 
and i will never know
how we got so caught up in this madness
in the sadness of a love that seems to have grown so cold
long before the story's had the chance of being told
or maybe the fire consumed us both
too hot to touch
can't last as such
that's what i tell myself
 
and then
there's the thought of you
somewhere in my memory, your voice
breathless with my name
no choice, i reminisce
and there, the kiss i lost my head to
the love that we fell into
the arms i always ran to
but here i am, without you
and it's sad, don't you find it

 
 
copyright Tawnya K 2009
 
 
October 3, 2009 - Saturday 

Category: Writing and Poetry
 
 
i do not cry for missing the way it felt when you held me
for the burning passion of our kiss
for the nights spent doing all but sleeping
for every dawn of you
 
nor do i cry for the laughter shared
the secrets bared
though everyday, it is to my glaring knowledge that i now feel incomplete
 
once replete with joy, hope, faith
the weight of the world at bay
it now descends like a wrath from God
and i am driven mad with sadness
 
but i do not cry for my lost heaven
for the love you showered down on me
as if everything good in life were free and flowing from your mouth
warmed by your heart
shinning in your eyes
 
i do not cry
 
everyday, i am busy
with all of life's neccessities
tending every mundane detail that i now revel in
because it keeps my mind from drifting
to the hours we once spent basking in love's glow
 
i push it away now, as much as i can
there is no blueprint or plan
to wash away the stain of you
it is the best i can do
keep breathing, sleeping, wake
 
but i hate
when i wake to a bed and a world without you
when the sadness of it overtakes me
and at 4am i can't fight, i give in
lost in a lost dream
i cry
 


copyright Tawnya K 2009