Here I am once again

Going into the lions den

Wounded and hurt

Looking for comfort

Finding it in you

It is just to good to be true

As you hold me in your arms

And work your magical charms

I fall back in the pit

And I get lit

By your flame that burns me so

Sadly I can’t let go…

Dear love,

Don’t you get tired of your daily routine?

Get up, go to work, go home, and not be seen.

Then on weekends just sit and rest, get on computer, and stay out of range.

Maybe it’s time for a CHANGE!

Don’t let fear get in the way.

Just let it go and see how much you enjoy your day.

Love always,

      Jess

It's a new year, new start.   Time to move on and grow.  I'm tired of going backwards and tired of feeling the pain.  So I am changing for 2009.  I am cutting people lose and keeping the ones that want to be kept.  Even the ones that don't say much but I know in my heart they need me to show them the way and into the light.  To help them not be depressed and to show them TRUE LOVE!!!  Those things are one of many things I want for 2009.  I love my family and friends so I hope and pray that they get the love they truely deserve.  To mom and dad I hope you find happiness and everything be added unto you.  Last but not least to the boy who stole my heart I want you to have the greatest love of all and not to be depressed because of all the hurt you feel and also cause.  This is my NEW YEAR PRAYER for 2009.  I am going my way and if you want you may follow me and GOD! 

MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!

Lyrics | Inxs lyrics - Tiny Daggers lyrics

BTW I have not been on myspace that much so if I don't get to your emails I'm not ignoring you...  I get on about once a freaking week....

To all my Friends and Family:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.  You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.  You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.  You'll fight with your best friend.  You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.  You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.  So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back...  DON'T BE AFRAID THAT YOUR LIFE WILL END, BE AFRAID THAT IT WILL NEVER BEGIN!!!  GOD BLESS

Thanks Big Brother for showing me how to do this... *HUGS*

When I get depressed or sad I listen to The Beatles.  And one song in particular crossed my player.  It's called WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM MY FRIENDS.  I love this song and it's kinda how I feel.  With a little help from my friends my life has changed drastically for the good.  So thank you to all my friends, you know who you are even the ones who don't talk much/at all.  I love you all and if you ever need me call I will be there for you.  If you are depressed and want to just let it out u can just text me if you don't want me 2 here you cry.  NO MATTER WHAT I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR EACH OF YOU! 

So here's the song I hope you like it....

What would think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me.
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
And I'll try not to sing out of key.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends,
He gets high with a little help from his friends,
Oh I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends.

What do I do when my love is away.
(Does it worry you to be alone)
How do I feel by the end of the day
(Are you sad because you're on your own)
No, I get by with a little help from my friends,
Mmm I get high with a little help from my friends,
Mmm I'm gonna to try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody?
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.

Would you believe in a love at first sight?
Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time.
What do you see when you turn out the light?
I can't tell you, but I know it's mine.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends,
Mmm I get high with a little help from my friends,
Oh I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody?
I need someone to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love
Oh...
I get by with a little help from my friends,
I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends
I get high with a little help from my friends
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
with a little help from my friends

I keep getting text messages with this song on them over and over again.  Maybe God trying to tell me something.  But anyways I wanted to share the lyrics with you and hopefully most will know I won't give up on you no matter what you do.  I will be right here waiting for you!

Bryan Adams - I Will Be Right Here Waiting For You

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice, on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
how can we say forever

(chorus)
Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all The times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby,
You've got me going crazy

(chorus)

I wonder how we can survive, this romance
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance

Oh you can't see it baby
You've got me going crazy

(chorus)

I also got this video I really think ppl are trying to tell me things... LOL! ;p

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNHX489DSv0

Also some of u have asked what a tubular Pregnancy is and how can u tell if u have it.  So here is the information.  If any female has any of these symptoms they need 2 go to the doctor as soon as possible because it could be life threatening.  Well here it is....

 A tubular pregnancy, also known as an ectopic pregnancy, can be a traumatic experience. Often, when a woman has an tubular pregnancy, she doesn't know that anything is wrong, and begins to plan on having a baby. Then, almost without warning, an ultrasound or abdominal pain will shatter her hopes. Some studies suggest that a large percentage of miscarriages are actually due to a tubular pregnancy.

A tubular pregnancy refers to a condition in which the egg, when fertilized, implants somewhere other than the uterus. The fertilized egg develops until it is big enough to cause pain for the mother. Generally, the fertilized egg attaches to the fallopian tubes, the cervix, or in the abdomen. The fertilized egg cannot develop normally and receive nutrition in these locations. There is no procedure that can move a fertilized egg from one of these locations to the uterus.

The signs of a tubular pregnancy can include pain, vaginal spotting or bleeding, dizziness or fainting, low blood pressure, and lower back pain. Generally, a tubular pregnancy will produce a positive pregnancy test. If your hCG levels are lower than expected, however, this can indicate a tubular pregnancy.

A tubular pregnancy is treated surgically. The health care provider removes the fertilized egg from the woman's body. This can be done laparoscopically, which is much less painful and evasive than traditional surgeries. If a tubular pregnancy is detected extremely early, it can be treated with an injection which will dissolve the fertilized egg. After treatment for a tubular pregnancy, your health care provider will likely want to see you again soon to make sure that your hCG levels return to normal.

Tubular pregnancy cannot be prevented. Having your tubes tied, having endometriosis, having pelvic inflammatory disease (PID), and having previous ectopic pregnancies or other conditions that have left the fallopian tubes scarred are all factors that increase the risk of having a tubular pregnancy.

Having a tubular pregnancy does not, in general, prevent a woman from later having a successful pregnancy. However, about 30 percent of women who have had a tubular pregnancy will have at least some difficulty getting pregnant again.