ITS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT TWO YEARS HAVE PASSED SINCE I LEFT THIS WORLD...

AMAZING IS HOW EVERYONE GOES ON BUT NEVER FORGETS...

AS I WATCH OVER EVERYONE THERE ARE TINGS GOING ON THAT MAKE ME HAPPY AND OTHERS NOT SO MUCH...

ASHLEY IS IN COLLEGE (THOUGHT THAT DAY WOULD NEVER COME LMAO) AND ABOUT TO TURN 25 IN A FEW MONTHS, DREW JUST TURNED 4 AND IS ONRY AS THE DAY IS LONG, JT IS IN GIFTED AND TALENTED CLASSES (HES A READER LIKE HIS YAYA HEHE) GOING ON 10, LISA IS DOING OK HITTING A ROUGH PATCH OR TWO BUT SHE IS A STUBBORN FIGHTER LIKE HER FATHER I KNOW SHELL BE OK THOUGH SHE IS ABOUT TO BE 30 (NOW WHO IS OLD LOL), JAY IS STILL OFF KILLING BUGS BUT SCARED OF SNAKES ALSO PUSHING 30 LOL.... MY GIRLS AND LIL MEN MISS ME... I KNOW BECAUSE THEY THINK OF ME AND TOM (THE GIRLS FATHER THE BOYS POP) EVERYDAY... IT WAS FUNNY GROWING UP MY GIRLS WOULD FIGHT LIKE CATS AND DOGS THEY STILL DO BUT NOW THEY MANAGE TO POOL THEIR RESOURCES AND HAVE EACH OTHERS BACKS... THEY HAVE GROWN SO MUCH... I WISH I WAS AROUND TO TELL THEM HOW PROUD I AM... I ALSO THINK THAT IT IS HYSTERICAL THAT DREW AND JT FIGHT LIKE LISA AND ASHLEY DID WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG... THEY GET A DOSE OF WHAT THEY USED TO PUT ME THROUGH LOL....

BUT WITH THE GOOD THAT I HAVE WATCHED OVER THE LAST 2 YEARS THERE ARE THINGS THAT I AM NOT SO PROUD OF.... FAMILY FEUDS, BICKERING, ARGUING, TAKING SIDES, NOT BEING AROUND WHEN YOU ARE NEEDED THE MOST.... THERE ARE NO NAMES TO BE MENTIONED...IF YOU FEEL A TWINGE OF GUILT YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, WHAT YOUR ACTIONS WERE, AND HOW TO FIX THEM.... I AM NOT GOING TO TELL ANYONE HOW TO RUN THEIR LIFE, HOWEVER... I WILL SAY THIS, LEARN FROM THE PASSING OF TOM AND MYSELF, YOUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED NO ONE KNOWS WHEN IT IS THEIR TIME UNTIL THE HOUR IS UPON THEM....
WHEN YOU GO YOU CANT TAKE YOUR MATERIAL POSSESIONS, MONEY, OR SUCH...THE ONLY THING THAT YOU CAN TAKE WITH YOU ARE YOUR MEMORIES MADE ON EARTH... SO CUT THE DUMBNESS AND GET TO MAKING THE GOOD MEMORIES, DONT WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY, DO, OR HAVE.... WORRY ABOUT YOU AND WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.

I LOVE YOU ALL AND I WILL SEE YOU LATER
LOVE, YOUR GARDIAN ANGEL,
TERRY

PS WHEN THE CLOUDS ARE ROCKIN DONT COME A KNOCKING... NOW YOU KNOW WHAT THUNDER REALLY IS LOL JUST KIDDING I THOUGHT YOU COULD USE A LITTLE HUMOR...

BUT WHEN IT RAINS ITS NOT BECAUSE I AM SAD, IT IS BECAUSE I SEE YOU AND THERE ARE TEARS JOY, OR I CRY WITH YOU SO THAT YOU KNOW I AM THERE AND THAT YOU DONT HAVE TO CRY ALONE I HEAR YOU I SEE YOU I FEEL YOU I AM WITH YOU...

I KNOW I HAVENT HAD THE CHANCE TO UPDATE IN A WHILE AND I WANTED TO TAKE THIS TIME TO SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE AND MISS ALL OF YOU. I CANT BELIEVE IT HAS BEEN A YEAR AND A HALF SINCE I LEFT THIS WORLD.

I SPEND MY DAYS WATCHING OVER ALL OF YOU WHICH IS SOMETIMES VERY HARD TO DO! I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TAKE AWAY THE PAIN AND TEARS OF THOSE I LOVE AND I AM SORRY THAT I CANT.

MY GRANDSON JT JUST HAD TO HAVE HIS APPENDIX OUT AND ALTHOUGH I WAS THERE TO HELP HIM THROUGH I COULDNT TAKE HIS PAIN. I WISH I WAS THERE TO HOLD HIM IN MY ARMS AND PERSONALLY TELL HIM THAT EVERYTHING WAS GOING TO BE OK.

THE DAY WILL COME WHEN YOU SHALL BE WITH ME AGAIN, THOUGH IT IS WONDERFUL HERE TAKE YOU TIME ENJOY LIFE TO THE FULLEST, AND I WILL CYA WHEN I CYA.

LOVE ALWAYS
YOUR GARDIAN ANGEL,
TERRY

OH AND THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY MOTHERS DAY AND A HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WHETHER YOU WENT TO MY GRAVE SITE OR JUST WHISPERED IT INTO THE AIR, IT MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL TO KNOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE.

IT`S NEVER GOODBYE I CAN TELL YOU THAT. IT HAS BEEN 2 MONTHS SINCE I PASSED AND I KNOW EVERYONE MISSES ME BUT PLEASE KNOW THAT I AM NOW AND FOREVER WILL BE IN YOUR HEARTS.

I HAVEN`T HAD A CHANCE TO DO THIS SO HERE GOES. YOU ALL KNOW ME AND HOW FULL OF LIFE I WAS. SO LAID BACK BUT A MAGNET FOR LOVE AND COMPASSION. ON DECEMBER 31ST 2006. THE HEART THAT WAS SO BIG AND FULL OF LOVE QUIT BEATING INSIDE MY CHEST. THOUGH THE MEDICAL CARE PROVIDERS TRIED FOR HOURS TO BRING ME BACK THERE WAS JUST NO RETURNING. I WAS GONE.

OFF TO GET MY WINGS I WENT. FLYING HIGH OVER MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND BACK TO MEET WITH MY PASSED OVER FAMILY AND MY EX-HUSBAND TO WHOM I STILL LOVED. YOU NEVER LOVE ANYONE LIKE THE FATHER OF YOUR CHILDREN. AND IF YOU KNEW ME WELL YOU WOULD HAVE SEEN THROUGH EVERYTHING I STILL LOVED HIM. AND MORE IMPORTANTLY I LOVED MY GIRLS (LISA AND ASHLEY) AND MY LITTLE MEN ( MY GRANDSONS J.T. AND ANDREW).

THINGS IN LIFE DON`T ALWAYS TURN OUT LIKE THEY SHOULD I WANTED MORE TIME ON EARTH ONE LAST EVERYTHING BUT WE OBVIOUSLY DON`T GET TO CHOSE WHEN WE GO. I WAS HELPING MY DAUGHTERS AND LITTLE MEN GET THROUGH THE LOSS OF THERE FATHER/POP POP WHEN MY NUMBER WAS CALLED.

I HAD TO GO BUT LIKE I SAID IN THE BEGINING OF THIS BLOG.......IT`S NEVER GOODBYE..... I WATCH OVER YOU FOR NOW AND LORD WILLING I WILL SEE YOU LATER.

LOVE ALWAYS YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL,
TERRY

P.S. FOR J.T. I LOVE YOU TO INFINITY AND BEYOND

ok someone took a whole year lol

i just had another birthday sneek up on me.

update my two grandsons are growing so big and are so sweet. they have me wrapped around their little fingers.

as for free time dont have much left at all i am now working two full time jobs.

 

just wanted to say that monday i add another year to my age.

i hope to really enjoy this year.. now that i am divorced i can enjoy my free time.

i am looking forward to meeting lots of new friends.

terry