My life is a blizzard of emotions.....literally, growing up in chaos..raised by two different men i call "DAD"......and never really knowing what that meant...one gave me life, the other raised me.....and in my blended family...I grew up...grew closer to my siblings....the only people that I feel really gets me in my web of destruction.....Merry Christmas....one year after another...this year..many changes...turning points and life lessons...thinking that 2 people that I loved could maybe....let things go...hell fucking christmas.....but "NO"!!  I can not force anything....my bomb that exploded in my own face...due to me trying to patch things up...but its their issues......so I just have to let it be-

As I breath a heavy sigh.......it is what it is....I know that I don't really know what a dad is except the idea of one.......maybe thats why my wall goes up and thats that.......DONE DEAL, but some people either very traditional or not will never really change...I went to go spend X-mas dinner w/my father and realized.....I can't change him...I can only change myself-

If you've read VanNess's blog on alivenotdead then y'all know that SONY music big-wigs.......SUCK (translation) since we don't own your ass anymore....lets see you either sink or swim sucka.....but the truth of ones artistic soul expressed fully will set you FREE!!!  Thats called "talent".......but to them you were just there property-

I'm proud of him.....posting his own MV, his own music,sharing himself......a VanNess Wu that is stripped down...not fabricated by the "MAN" anymore-

 BULLSHIT............don't hate just cause he hasn't done anything for your ASS lately, ha-ha

He has the complete support of all those who love him....loneliness lies in trying to do too much, fulfillment comes when you embrace change...got mad L-O-V-E for the man my brother has become!!!!!

Happy Mothers Day.......to ME and all those baby mama's out there :)  My heart broke a little a few days ago....why is it as Makeup Artists our skills are lesser then others?? There fucking NOT!!  Why do you not understand that we create inside, outside, sideways.......of what we see, feel, and touch, a silly hottie said to the gaysian.....I'm ready to "MM", ha-ha...........LOVE IT!!!