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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 31
Sign: Libra

City: Limpopo Province
Country: ZA
Signup Date: 4/3/2005

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Saturday, October 06, 2007 
Hi everyone!
So my friend Wanda and I made into town to celebrate my birthday weekend (my Slingshot calendar even has a cupcake picture on my birthday... coincidence? I think not!)... she bought me a really good veggie sandwich and a pot of English Breakfast tea and Erin got me a piece of cheesecake.... it was nice.. and has been a good day all around... a nice respite from all the happenin's and crazy thoughts of the week.  I'm exhausted.  Really, truly, beaten down exhausted... and honestly, having a hard time.  It's true that this whole experience is an extreme emotional roller coaster, but, wow, I never thought I'd face so many challenges on top of the obvious (living in a totally new place, trying to speak a new language, the racial tensions, representing a whole country for some people, etc.).  I'm doing the best that I can, but there are moments where I actually wonder how I can even possibly take on anything else... absorb one more new thing... live in my host mother's house for one more day... eat one more peanut butter sandwich....eat one more candy bar... and then I do.  I handle even more (not necessarily wih grace or style) and I make it... until the next day when I wake up facing the same feelings.
I'm stressed.   I'm missing the hell out of all kinds of people. I'm conflicted about all that I'm experiencing.  I woke up this morning after getting about 3 good hours of sleep and just felt like gettin' out of dodge.  So I did.  I left the clothes I washed yesterday hanging on the line in the pouring rain. I left my host father who came in for the weekend.  I walked the half hour to the koombi.  I met up with my friends. And things turned around.. I discussed travel plans for Christmas and New Years (the beach in Durban anyone?) and drank tea... it made the world of difference.  I've never been so conflicted... never been so assertive, angry, emotional (really!), overwhelmed, lost, sad, content, numb, more up for a challenge, and willing to keep trying in my life.... but it's HEAVY.  I'm carrying around such a load and I feel like maybe soon I might break... I'm just not sure what my breaking point is.  Maybe that's one of the things I'm here to find out.
Whoa this is getting kind of heavy... sad... sorry I'm just so all over the place and stunned.  THings are ok though.. I'm ok. There are good things... lots of good things.. I just have to dig sometimes to find them.. and when I do... wow... I almost tear up the're THAT good.  Like when my supervisor brought her little girl into the office yesterday and explained that I was her "sesi" or sister... the little girl kept shaking her head... how could that be true?  I mean we look nothing alike and I could see why it would be so confusing for a 5 year old... but her mom explained that we were family.  Or when I was walking in the rain this morning with my raincoat on, totally soaked, and the neighbor woman I greet everyday on my way to work and every evening on my way back from work... told me to wait that she had something for me... and brought me her umbrella to use for the day.  Or when I got in the taxi and the driver was so nice an accomodating and asked me all kinds of questions about ME.  Or when I open my mailbox and see mail... and birthday packages galore!... and think that people in the states still think about me... and just cause I'm all the way across the world... I'm not forgotten.  That's when it's good.
SO the rollercoaster is definitely happening... 
I'm hoping to work on a blog entry tonight and actually post sometime early next week... I'll send out the address when it gets up and running.
THanks again for all the emails (i have an internet phone now... I know.... RIDICULOUS... but it keeps me connected and keeps me sane... so keep the emails coming... I still need all your support. A lot.)
I'm off to catch a koombi and head back into village life.  I hope all is well with all you guys.....
Love,
Megan
Tuesday, September 18, 2007 
Because I don't have much time here... I'm posting my latest mass email... hopefully when things start to settle down and I get to my site I can get everyone's email in my address book... and here's my email and new address!
Hey everyone!
I'm in Zeerust again.... maybe for the last time ever... and it feels kind of weird.  It's funny how you can get used to somewhere and find comforts away from home..
First things first and then I'll type up the email I wrote last night before I went to sleep. 
* I sent out my new address the other day and forgot to include "South Africa" at the bottom... I think this is pretty important considering Moetladimo is a pretty small area in international thinking.
Megan Owen
PO Box 325
Moetladimo
0891
South Africa
cell number: 011 27 79 089 1154
*I hope you guys know that I appreciate any mail or email contact.. and if you're busy... believe me I understand.... right now, it's really ok that I haven't heard from you.... I mean it is a two way street... a lot of people haven't heard from me.  Just remember I'm going to be over here for a long time... so mail will be appreciated at ANY time.  Wahoo!
So on to my email... hopefully I won't have to use internet cafe's very often (transport to and from and the actual time are pretty expensive) because today we're all going to look at internet phones!  I'm going to get one that can connect to the internet and to my computer... I didn't think I was going to go this route living in Africa and roughing it and all, but I think for sanity and safety's sake.... I'm going to splurge and get this comfort.
The email:
I'm settled in for the night..... it's a nice 80 degrees in my room (according to my clock), the bugs are starting to show their little faces in different corners, there's a breeze coming through the window (that my host mother insisted I open), and I'm all packed and ready to start leaving Gopane.... Spring is here1 It's the changing of the seasons and the changing of locations for all the PCT's (Peace Corps Trainees) in Borakalalo, Motswedi (where all the Education people have been staying), and Gopane.  Two weeks ago, at this same time, we were about to board a bus for Polokwane in Limpopo for our site visits, getting to know our NGO's and new living situations, one week ago we were all asleep by 7 pm- exhausted and recovering from our trips- ready to get back into some of the normalcy we have in Gopnae (now that we've been here for weeks and weeks), this week we each have a backpack and have put the rest of our things in the hands of Peace Corps- this is the week we're sworn in as actual volunteers and our two year commitment really begins.  Monday was spent with the country director going over policies... Today is spent getting coffee, internet, hanging out, and having some time on our own, Wednesday we leave Gopane, say goodbye to our host families, and head to a 5 star hotel for celebrating and congratulating ourselves on makng it through training!, Thursday we're sworn in (Peace Corps has now been in South Africa for 10 years!) and driven to site by our new supervisors.  It has been a crazy couple of weeks to say the least.... I wish I could break it all down into smaller chunks and give details, but I have limited time so I'm just going to hit on key points....
*sorry about the vague and slightly emotional email from last week... my head was in 50 different places all at once... and as usual I was on auto-pilot (as I am a lot of the time here).  My site visit went really well as far as my NGO's concerned.  I clicked with one of my coworkers, Synette, the 23 yr old financial manager.  I didn't spend a whole lot of time with my new supervisor, but she seems really nice and flexible- open to allowing me to choose what I want to do and would like to work on.   So far my tentative weekly schedule has me in the office on Mondays and Fridays, with Tuesday- Thursday going around to the different villages they serve (6 in all) checking out their OVC (orphans and vulnerable children0 drop-in centres and going along with some social workers and carers (volunteers) who do home visits to people who need primary health care.  On the other hand, my housing situation was pretty difficult...and in all honesty...awful.  I won't go into too much detail because I'm trying to look forward, but my NGO is responsible for finding me housing...and put me up in a room in the house owned by a woman on the board of director's.  She is crazy.  Her house is really nice (not that that really matters) and has all sorts of amenities...TV, a nice stereo system, fridge, etc.... but there was no food and she talked nonstop (her record was two hours straight), she woke me up every morning by yelling my name and walking in my room at 5:30, asked me for money, and a few other things that made me uncomfortable.  I have to say that was the first time I really, seriously, thought about leaving Peace Corps.  I'm working on finding new housing, now... cross your fingers!
* As respite time and because we needed to head back to Gopane... the night some of us spent in Pretoria last weekend was amazing.  I was a wreck.  Emotionally drained, exhausted, and so so relieved to see people I knew and who understand just what the whole 4 days had been like (people had similiar stories).
* Back in Gopane... we had another volunteer leave (we're up to 8 now0 and we all were having a hard time adjusting (when debreifing on Tuesday.. I burst into tears in front of 60 other people because I was still recovering from my site visit...awesome.) South Africa is really country of extremes.  We spent 5 days weaving in and out of different worlds- the land where we blend in, a city that looks like somewhere in the states or Europe, BMW dealers, chai's, pizza, English speakers, other people who are white...to the land of walking, slow pace, pap and chicken every night, being of celebrity status (we look different and we're from AMERICA!), poverty, goats and donkeys.  This country is very much still reeling from the end of Apartheid.  RIch vs Poverty (most people), Racism (White, Coloured, African, Afrikaner, Indian, etc. are the big groupings and people are definitelygrouped), citu vs. rural.
* I gave my host family a photo album full of pictures I had taken throughout my time here and the scarves I crocheted each of them.  THey LOVED everything and Mma Mable said that her true gift came on a plane from America and that I have become more South African... I have grown... that when I first came I was a mere baby.  I have grown.  I know I have.  I feel it everyday.  How I handle things, how I push to learn more. 
Ok that's it for my notes....
Thank you thank you thank you again for all you support... I really can't even begin to tell you what it all means to me.  I'm lucky, I love you guys more that you know, I'm learning a lot, and I can't wait to be in more regular contact with all of you.
KNow that there is always someone in South Africa thinking about you.....
You are AWESOME!
Much Love,
Saturday, September 01, 2007 

AH, I'm here!  I can't type long because I'm paying for my internet time...but I wanted to make sure I asked people on MySpace for their email addresses... I will, eventually have a blog, but for now I'm sending updates through email.  SO send me a Myspace message if you would like to be included in the mass email!  I hope everyone is doing ok... thank you thank you thank you for the emails, messages, and letters... i have the best friends in the world!

love love love

megan

Friday, July 13, 2007 

Current mood:  anxious
Category: Travel and Places
Wahoo! Here's to my first blog on MySpace... my first and my last for a little while. At about this time Monday morning I'll be on a plane heading to Philly to start orientation and then next Friday at this time I'll be living it up in Frankfurt, Germany making the most of my layover, before we fly on to Johannesburg. Time has flown by. These last few weeks have been awesome.... going away parties, visiting my family in Louisiana, having my family come here, seeing good friends from high school and how well they're doing now, meeting pen pals and knowing that they really are some of my best friends, getting hugs from so many people I hold so dear, questioning what I'm doing and then realizing that what I'm doing is exactly what I need to be doing, driving down South Congress soaking in the neighborhood, taking in the smells of familiar houses, foods, and people, making mental videos to take with me...Brian DJing and dancing with the fancy footwork and all, Harmoni's facial expressions, Rose's laugh, sitting with Dominique on a Sunday at SpiderHouse, watching Avi do stand up, making Skot! do the muppet face as many times as possible, remembering Omar's mom's house, watching Sarah dance, Amber and Gretchen laughing and buying me tacos and hugging me, seeing how well Erin is doing in Chicago, sitting at a coffee shop with Julie and Angela talking about Doug's House, watching Little House on the Prairie reruns with my dad, having Kevin tell me how glad he is that we know each other, making funny faces with my sister and realizing we really are a lot alike, my mom sitting in the living room reading the paper and drinking coffee, my whole family together, telling stories, watching home movies, and laughing hysterically at everything...knowing that I would choose to be friends with them and am lucky enough to be related to them, seeing my Social Work people... and knowing that even though we never see each other, we're forever friends, getting postcards and letters filled with excitement and little trinkets from davewoody, Ryan, Michael, Darren, Caryn, Jim, John, Elliot, and Becky, Dart Bowl with Ted and his hat, hanging out with all my AmeriCorps friends in Montana and making more lifelong friends in the process, the roadtrip of 2005, seeing the mountains, canyons, arches, tall trees, ocean with jbg... there are so, so many more...
I'm lucky, so very lucky, to have all of this. To have all these good memories, good people, and the opportunity to embark on such a great adventure. I know I am loved and it is the best feeling in the world... it gives me hope and it helps to give me strength to go out and do some tough things. Leaving, saying "see you soon" to Austin and all I know here, is going to be hard as hell, but I'm up for the challenge. I really wish I had the time to write so many people and let them know what they mean to me, how they've helped me along the way, but right now I have to finish up the packing, the banking, the calling, the canceling, and the shopping... I hope to have time soon to thank people personally.
My new address through the Peace Corps:
Megan Owen, PCV
U.S. Peace Corps
P.O. Box 9536
Pretoria 0001
SOUTH AFRICA
Write, Write, Write!!!! I would love mail and to hear what people are up to.