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.............when love gets stomped who comes in to clean up the mess left behind????? who even bothers to piece back together a shattered heart? i am in the dark but i am not afraid, i am isolated so cold but i do not shiver, giving satisfaction to the goosebumps running across my skin. an uncontrolled tear to cascade down my cheek. love has made me so strong, its absence..so weak. i will fight, keeping my head high, whoever plans to fall this far in love to only watch it from a distance? who do you trust when even your friends turns their backs on you and love deals you yet another backhanded blow?
7/11/08 S.E.H.

i shall not move, no i shall hold back theses tears, oh heart. why do you clench? oh these lips why must you tremble?
love is the fine sand that slips through my outcast fingers to drift away, like the hourglass sneering at my loss. who's cruel joke? what irony that i never planned to fall so deeply in love that once i found peace in my heart, that i should be so rudely awakened?
oh sweet tears that course down my cheeks in silence, hush, hush. no one need to know your suffering. look at what has happened, love has made you so strong, but alas, its absence leaves you so weak.

S.E.H. 7/10/08

always pain is hidden where everyone can read it but never really know the depth of it, hours, days weeks past and you still feel numb with the grief, with the utter lost of someone so precious. what backhanded blow life deals us when we feel the most secure? what crueility lurks around the very next corner to stomp us further into the dirt? its painful longing for your touch, lingering kiss and soft eyes, trying so hard to comfort  me, telling me ill be ok. it wont be ok. not without you when i have given up everything to be with you. i would do it all over again just to be with you, hear your laughter, and be able to run my fingers through your hair. i love you so much, this is for real., just as sincere as the hot tears that course down my cheeks when you said goodbye. dont forget me, i always loved you, always have and always will. xoxo david only you.

when you realize that everything u believed in falls around your ears, how do u pass that pain of realization that thinbgs went as stable as u asummed they were? i am so hurt for what just happened. never did i see that coming. which little voice on my shoulder should i listen to? my heart. ignore the lil fuckers and listen to my heart. evertyone gettibng a word in but me.

doesnt it sometimes seem to harsh to you when people move on and you feel almost forgotten? like you exist but thats it, u get a smile, a hello but something still feels like its  missing? a hollow sensation of being loanly when your surrounded by friends and family. is it depression? or is it somthing more? mabey im scared to grow up, if i could i wouldive kept my childhood a bit longer, when i was dying to be grown up now its just painful wishing to go back. its pointless, im getting older and time passes and i am exopected to acomplish more efficantly. understandeble but not the best idea to hold so tightly onto what is lost for sure.i miss so many people that i get choked up when i think about it. my sister ment a lot to me and even though shes still around and having a blast in college i miss her horribly sometimes. i want to see her.

Honestly who really gets into these? blogs go on forever! they dont say anything worthwhile do they? i mean even right now as your skiming over this you either have a facination with them or just a whole lot of time right? ya im right and you know it. point made im outta here peace~*