There are so many things I have to say but I don't know how to, I just can't say some things when that is what I desire most. How do you say something when your afraid it will be you undoing? How do you silence the thoughts in your head? Sometimes all you want is to make things right, but you just can't help the people you love all the time and all you want is for them to be happy. Sometimes you feel so small and lost and your so confused you just don't know what to do if there even is anything to do. Sometimes you feel the need to be perfect, as if somehow that would make everything right, somehow others would grow and take joy in your success. Sometimes you just don't understand what you did to someone for them to hurt you that bad which hurts even more especially when its someone you love. Sometimes all you want is to forget, you feel to hurt and lament the fact you also hurt someone you love, you just dont know what to do or what to feel so you pray to forget. Sometimes you feel pathetic, running and avoiding your problems but they still remain unfixed. Sometimes you wish that no one expected anything from you, that you could be free in your own lack of responsibility. Sometimes you want to be better you maybe you'll actually try. Sometimes the thing you want most is for others to know how much you care, how much you love them, afraid that they won't always be there and knowing how lost you'd be without them.

people LOOOVE to fuck you over 

so unhappy so pissed off

its true beauty is really in the eye of the beholder i meen when i see myself at my best and i actually think i look beautiful no one seems to see what i see and ya i wish i knew what you see when you look at me but i dont and so fuck it if ya think ur ugly all the time then what other people see will never let you down but im not like that and ill always find at least some beauty in myself even if no one else does...just some more of my random talking its also funny that i see someone almost everyday and talk to them so much and that we know so much about eachother but were both so blind and i wish our eyes would open...i wish everyones eyes would open

Ever wonder what the point of life is? is it the strive to perfect our society's image of the barbie doll on your own selves? is it the strive to be rich and a tycon with the tropie wife? hell, is it even the will to help others that suffer so much pain while we suffer little? is it the sole demand of all living things, to stregthen our race and reproduce? to tell the truth, i really just dont have a single idea. maybe its just to keep ourselves happy or stay as long as possible. when you step back and look at it, doesnt life seem pointless? our short seemingly meeningless time spent on our slowly wasting planet. in all honesty you have to pray to God that there is more, why the hell else would waste away so miserbably i just hope i dont feel so pointless always...thes gotta be somethin better and i WISH i knew what

yea i havent had a part in like 2 months i havent seen all my party pals in just as long so that proves one thing you didnt give a SHIT you just wanted all the shit i could give/provide you like drugs, beer, cigarettes, a place to crash, a place to fuck and pick up girls so it proves that your doing nothing with your life it proves your all ssholes who are only looking for happiness in the immediate here and now all of you are gettin locked up or on probation so yea my parties died and i guess all of you are too soon cuz thats the way your going oh and it shows that none of you give a rats ass about other ppl its all about you and now no one cares SO FUCK YOU ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate school i hate it so much i just want to be here where im happy but yeah idk things are crazy right now but they're getting better slowly but still i want things to be better and they will but that takes time and i dont want to wait

people sit and wonder why
why her baby always cried
they pondered all the many things
that they turned to never see
but now shes gone
her tears anon
she took her life away
never again would she ever see
all the things that this life breeds
it hurt to much
too see the scene
of all the evils of everything
so now the question left is why
not why she just sat and cried
but why the people choose not to see
it was them
killing her baby...
yeah life is full of questions and that poem was like random but yeah like i'll never see ill never understand everyone is so consieted and they dont even know it all their words hurt so much and their actions lead to other actions so just tell me how to stop the pain and feel whole again like there was never hurt i dont even know what i want anymore i feel like i dont know anything about myself or life and all i know i hate

hidden little shadows speak not with normal words
hidden little shadows show no signs of earth
we sit around in corners
speaking whispers you cant hear
we cry our silent tears and think of what we fear
we easily do show
what the world can never know
we easily can share what the world all fears
we feel their thoughts
we feel their pain
it cuts us over and over again
but i told you once
youll never see
until you see your pains shot me