On this 11th day of September we must all take the time to stop and remember all the people who lost their lives and whose families were ripped apart by the atrocious events on this date. As a dad, a husband, and a marine I know the future is uncertain but we have time to prepare for the day that bad news may come. The people on that date did not. This world has taught us that around the world there is so much love and kindness that we must all unite to save this world from losing sight of that fact. Now I witnessed 9/11. I witnessed the terrorism first hand and it was horrible. It is amazing what others believe must be done to get their point across; now I understand we are all entitled to our beliefs, but as Americans these terrorists believed that we wouldn't do anything about his and they would win.  They have not won and will not win. We stand tall and proud by our flag to support our country that has prevailed through the pain and suffering; as we always will.  These terrorists we still do fight to stop. If you know me I do not approve of the war in Iraq, nor will I ever. But I do understand that sometimes communication does not work and force needs to be used in times of need and struggle. The troops in Iraq need to be brought home and new troops in the outlaying states and countries. It is pretty much no longer the Iraqis but the people surrounding them. Now this is nothing but my own opinion.  But this is 9/11 the day these terrorists killed thousands; millions of Americans, millions of OUR PEOPLE! This is the day we need to stop and think of how they died and fought to live.  This day we need to take a vow of silence to remember all those we lost. We may not need silence to show we remember…but it shows others WE WILL NEVER FORGET!!

The wind is blowing,
the rain is falling.
The leaves are moving,
my heart is breaking.

Days like these,
remind me of us.
What we used to be,
and how i miss you so much.

The tears are falling,
like the rain outside.
My thoughts are stalling,
and my feelings i hide.

The world can't understand,
what i am wanting.
I miss holding her hand,
and this is haunting.

Please come back to me,
dont leave me here.
I am scared,
and i have a great fear.

Somewhere on this Earth,
Closer than you think,
Are words made of flowers
Arranged in rows of blue and pink.
They say, "I promise, my love is here to stay."
Those flowers stand tall & bright.
Every last one of their petals,
Is shimmering with light.
They'll remain there all year round.
With their leaves standing tall,
Their stems planted firmly in the ground.
Who planted them and why,
Nobody has a clue.
Today they still remain there.
Everyone is still confused.
In case you didn't know,
Those words were meant for you. This is no lie,
It really is true.
Those flowers are a promise
from me to you.
The last time I lost my hope,
My happiness was gone.
I never could smile,
And everything went incredibly wrong.
I don't want the same happening to you.
You gave me my hope back,
And I feel like a heavy burden that was on me is now gone.
If you're ever sad,
Please know you're not alone.
I'll always be here for you; All you have to do is pick up the phone.


Know that I'll never let you drown.
I'll make sure you're always happy,
So you never have to frown.
I'll always stand up for you,
So nobody will ever put you down.
If you ever get sick,
Then every day I'll pray.
I'll come and visit you,
And I'll ask my god to let you be okay.
I would tell you I love you,
And that I don't want you to go away.
If you want to know how much I care,
Know that if you ask,
I will do what you say.
Remember my promise;
That my love is here to stay.
I'll always love you no matter what.
Remember this each day,
And I can assure you you'll be happy,
And that I'll always be here for you.
I promise.

Suicide roars in my ears
Soothes my hurt
calms my fears
Cutting now it makes me feel
Something to hang on to
Something I can call real
Darkness runs through my head
Never ending
Tempting me instead
Thoughts of hatred, anger and hurt
Tempt me even more
All cause of you you made it worse
Now I cry
But still can't feel
I'm completely numb
I scar but never heal
Scars run rapid and sear like fire
I want to block it out but rage runs higher
Shits gonna hit the fan
I gotta put this fire out
There it goes... damn I'm out..:

How would you feel
if when you fall
you didn't want to get back up
what would you do
when you have yourself convinced
nothing could get worse
now what happens
when something does
would you hold onto hope
or would you freefall
constantly going down
would you ever stop
or should you have just
held on from the start
now with all of these thoughts
think, and think hard
wipe the tear from your face
sit and think again
clear your head a bit
before you can't turn back
so look in the mirror
and set the gun down
and see the reflection
for it is I..:

Pain can give you something
That life itself can't even show, dribbling
In each dream, slittling open each promise.
I'll live this terrible tremendous moment
Crying in their arms, searching their hopes -
Maybe revealing where mine once existed
Hold on to a time, just never let go
Remembering it could be shattered
Or even lost....
I'll strain so state those final words
Looking up to that sky, hoping each tear
Will last forever...
Just like the eternal promise
That shattered before my eyes....
Maybe my dream broke before it existed..

Defeat

            Many say that being defeated is dying. Others say that it is simply losing. But defeat is nothing but education, nothing but the first step to do something better. If no one ever got defeated than everyone would be so self-assured. Defeat comes everyday in many different ways. Most think that being defeated is the worst thing that could happen, but actually there are some defeats more triumphant than victories. Being defeated is not always a failure but when it might be it's not even close to the worst of them. Not to have even tried is the worst one. But we do not become a failure until we start blaming everyone else around us except ourselves. You miss 100% of the shots you never take. If you don't do something right you might get defeated in that one little thing but you tried. It doesn't matter. YOU CAN KEEP TRYING!! But then again if you never even tried you will just be hiding from the truth and there is no point or actual truth in that. We all just have to remember: It is better to have tried and failed than to have never tried at all.

Fear

Our biggest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our biggest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us; in everyone. And as we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates them. Fear is a wonderful thing. It is the most powerful force in the human world. Not love, not hate. Fear. We are defined by the things we fear. It confounds us, suffuses us with mortal dread. But fear is in the mind. Like pain it can be controlled. If we can face our fear it cannot master us.