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Last Updated: 11/24/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Single
Age: 30
Sign: Leo

City: NEW ORLEANS
State: Louisiana
Country: US
Signup Date: 10/3/2005

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Saturday, April 04, 2009 
ok. accepted. its time to start writing again. but, where to even begin? i can't really speak intelligently about the last three years. partly, because they were so absurd that no one would believe me and partly because i am not distanced enough. i could talk about the things that were taken away from me. that i sacrificed for what would turn out to be nothing. but, my laughs were loud and my tears were real and all of them have formed the person sitting in front of this computer. i could muse on the question of 'what's next?', but, until i know, the musing seems unnecessary. for now, i will remember that there was a hedge, a morning in the rain, a kickin' pair of horns, the hope of sunday service, a birthday lap dance with a girl named sunshine, a destroyed nametag, a slap heard round the world, an indiscretion on a balcony, a flying bottle of grand marnier, a pie inspired by me, a reenactment from american psycho, a bet I should have won, and a leopard print cowboy hat. that should be enough for now.

Friday, December 12, 2008 
there once was a girl from baltimore
who was always quiet, except when she swore.
she would scream and hit and kick your behind,
but that, of course, was all in her mind.
she would laugh and love and always run free,
but fading and mute is all that you'd see.
so instead she would watch and silently gape,
plotting and planning to find her escape.
Friday, August 01, 2008 

Current mood:  curious
a friend of mine used this phrase the other day, and we all realized that, though we knew what it meant, no one could say where it came from. well, here it is.

originally, it came from the sermon on the mount in the bible:
'Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, werewith shall it be salted?' translation: you are the salt of the earth, but if the salt loses its saltiness (or interesting flavor), how can it be made salty again.

over time, its come to mean those that are reliable and honest.

a few more words on salt:

in roman times, soldiers were paid in salt, bringing about the phrase 'worth their salt'. the allowance of salt was called a salarium, bringing about our modern word 'salary'.

salt became something of value or worth leading to 'salt a mine', meaning to add worth to something, and 'salting an account' meaning to put such a high value on something that its value actually rises.

to 'sit below the salt' is to have a low social standing. it was an old custom to put the salt cellar half way down the dining table. those seated furthest away were of the lowest rank.


please take all of this with a grain of salt!
Friday, August 01, 2008 

Current mood:  scared
yes, kind and voracious readers, you know it.

there has been a second sighting of the coral denim pants!

i'm very frightened. it may be an epidemic.
Friday, August 01, 2008 

Current mood:  vibrant
it was too good for just one day.

the word is 'whackadoo'.

in a sentence: 'she was a real whackadoo'
Thursday, July 03, 2008 

Current mood:  optimistic
yes, gentle and few readers, i have had blog bronchitis recently. too much stress and not enough time to stop and smell the roses has rendered me without voice at the moment. however, i feel a recovery in progress and will be back to my ordinary, if ornery, self in the near future.

stay tuned.
Monday, May 12, 2008 

Current mood:  calm
woke up today from a week and a half of neon nightlife to find the world at its best. the sun shining. a perfect 77 degrees. a cool breeze.

i have been completely buried recently and am glad that i got a chance to look up on a day like this.

hopefully, it will carry me through to the next time i can peer out.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008 

Current mood:  refreshed
not quite sure how i feel about this one, but it was a fun test to take.

You are exceptional and unique. Your quest in life is to identify exactly who you are and why you’re here. What’s important to you is the journey of self discovery, determining who you are today is not the same as who you’ll be tomorrow.

 

You resist being categorized and are quick to question any social standard that you sense someone imposing on you. Stereotypical gender roles always interest you and, in your mind, connect to issues that most other people would never even consider related.

 

You can "connect" with any individual person and practically read their mind, but you have a natural tendency to match your actions to the expectations you read from their mind and yearn for company that lets you truly, naturally be yourself. You struggle between letting yourself naturally match the sentiment of the group (which feels like putting on a façade) or letting your individuality shine, which may allow people to see how different you are.

 

You are particularly accepting of other people and have a special talent for seeing people’s true selves instinctively. It takes time for you to trust your gut instinct about people because even you don’t believe that someone could be so right about another person’s nature so quickly. This intuitive sense about what people are thinking (which is actually your hyper-attention to nonverbal cues) is your special talent. You may think it is available to everyone and that others just ignore it, but in truth others could never develop the skill to the level which comes naturally to you.

 

To you everything happens on a personal level. Your friends come to you for advice because they know that you’ll love them for who they are and put yourself in their shoes to look at the world. Your advice, although varied in delivery, usually boils down to "be true to yourself" and "listen to your heart." You are also an excellent confidant because things told to you never return to anyone through the grapevine. You exude this quality so strongly that even strangers will sometimes spontaneously begin confiding their deepest secrets in you.

 

Despite all of that, you are not much of a talker. In fact, words sometimes trip you up because you prefer nonverbal communication. Unfortunately, most of the world is not as attuned to nonverbal communication the way you are, so your opinion can get overshadowed if a more outspoken person is part of the decision.

 

You focus more on nurturing other’s self esteem than any other type. As a result of this naturally caring nature your close friends often turn to you for moral support.

 

You are by far the most talented of all types at reading nonverbal cues. In your admirable attempts to convey a message diplomatically, those who aren’t sensitive to inflection, tone, insinuations or body language sometimes simply do not get your message because they only receive the verbal half of what you said.

 

In the same way that you’re the best at reading nonverbal cues, you’re also the best at sending them. When you speak they miss the nonverbal half of your message, then they speak and transmit twice the message (verbal + nonverbal) which often gives away more than they intended but is sometimes carelessly inaccurate since they don’t send nonverbal cues as well as you do. When you’re tempted to assign bias based on someone’s tone or other nonverbal cues it is wise to have them restate what they said and see if ignoring the careless, unintentional nonverbal half of their message lets the true meaning through.

 

If you have children your focus is making sure that your child has a strong self-image and high self-esteem. More than other parents it is important for you to be friends with your children.

 

You are more philosophical than most and passionately think about ethics and justice more than other types. It is when ethical issues come up in conversation that you most strongly sense that you are fundamentally different from other people. You become visually emotionally focused when these issues arise, while others easily laugh them off and switch topics to something trivial. To you, it seems that everyone should be passionate about ending racism, sexism and other social ills.

 

You go by the book and are suspicious of anyone suggesting that rules or laws should be ignored. You think constantly about improving laws, and see that at a major avenue for advancing social change because you see legislation and rule creation as the consensus opinion of the group working together. For you the focus is seeing everyone working together in harmony.

 

You are a healer and probably give great massages and know what foods will make people happy again. You prefer to surround yourself with direct, honest, authentic people who let you reinvent yourself every time you meet. You want nothing more than for there to be peace and harmony in the world, and your actions clearly reflect that vision.

 

You are more strongly moved by poetry and artistic expression than any other type. You are interested in the finer points of different artistic mediums, having many complete and incomplete poems and stories in your head if not on paper.


Wednesday, March 19, 2008 

Current mood:  crunk
i have been cursed recently with some of the most boring conversations of my existence. i know that part of this is my own state of mind and has little bearing on the actual world around me. i know that another large piece is the actuality of working on bourbon and the position i’m currently in of having to pander to my customer base.

that said, for the past few weeks, i have had very few moments, more less full-on conversations of any substance or value whatsoever. i have become a bit of a hermit, in or out of the house, because i find it so exhausting to listen, moreless participate, in the same three conversations over and over again. i mused the other day about my lack of social contact with the few people i find interesting.

i know that part of this is circumstantial. when you get out of work every day at 7am, your social circle is only so big and lubricated with plenty of alcohol. its also possible that there really aren’t all that many interesting people in the world.

my blunt nature is in turmoil with my hopeful mind. part of me wants to simply get up and walk away anytime i hear the beginnings of the same old crap, while the other part stays in hopes of hearing something new or different.

i guess we’ll just have to see.


p.s. - what the hell is the mood ’crunk’? i’m using it just to figure out what the googly eyes do.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007 

Current mood:  adventurous
no. no righteous slaves will be beaten in the course of this piece.

my friend michael asked the exact hue of coral. it is a cross between orange, pink and red as shown below. its complimentary color is turquoise. the exact color of the jeans in questions was more along the coral pink side.

  • Coral Pink (Hex: F88379) (RGB: 248, 131, 121)
  • Light Coral (web color) (Hex: F08080) (RGB: 240, 128, 128)
  • CORAL (web color) (Hex: FF7F50) (RGB: 255, 127, 80)
  • Coral Red (Hex: FF4040) (RGB: 255, 64, 64)

really, though, when i think of coral, i think of my grandmother's lipstick. it was popular in her hayday and my grandmother has never had the tendency of throwing things out. it was bright and brash and when i saw her wear it later in life, for special occasions of course, i could see how well it fit her former youth. its really all i've ever associated with the color until the day, just recently, that someone decided to wear pants of a like color. i haven't seen her wear it for quite a while, but i'm willing to bet its still buried in her old makeup box to remind of spirits past.