"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  What does it mean?  That I am not suppose to be afraid.  Afraid of what?  Afraid of me.  Interesting way to think of things.

Ok So I am a big time fan of Oprah.  She just rocks for one but she is truly connected with her viewers and well most americans for that matter.  She is so powerfull and has such a big impact on the world.  But she seems to allways stay true to herself and not let her ego get to big.  If you are really llistening she is often saying things or little message that can be related to your life in some way shape or form.  Ok so now that i confess my admiration for Oprah LOL.  I just had to posted a phrase orquote that i heard her say and its so true. 

"Your crown in life has been bought and paid for, now all you have to do is have the courage and the confidence to put it on and wear it."  So in other wards you have been given a life for the soul purpose of living it to the fullest extent.  Its yours and you deserve it dont be afraid to give it your all.

I cant say i have ever really thought of carrying for anyone to be a bad thing.  I think for the most part I am a very carrying person.  Who knows maybe I was taught  this or maybe i was born into the world this way.  I know that carrying for someone isnt always easy.  Especially if the person doesnt really care for themselves.  I know that at times i have thought it would be so much easier in life if I didnt care so much about others.  But I dont really feel that way I think it just sounds good to say or think as a solution to avoid being hurt by caring for someone else.  If i dont care about anybody they cant hurt me right??  I think we all know that the world doesnt work like that.  So all in all i think to be a carrying person in the world is not all that bad.  But a friend brought up a very interesting point of view.   Caring for someone is a good thing as long as you are carrying with your heart and for all the right reason.  There in lies the tricky part what or who determines what are the right reason.  Well I dont have the answer for that i guess we all have to try to figure them out on our own.  But i think if you pause for a moment and really think about these things you might be more likely to make the right choices about how and who you choose to care for.  "If you find it in your heart to care for somebody else, you will have succeeded."
-- Maya Angelou.

I dont think i could put into words any better than this song does about where i am in my life right now!!!  Its about coming to terms with myself, accepting myself, loving myself, and realizing I'm alright..

My heart's jumpin'
God, I'm feelin' open
Spent a long time mopin'
Get a load of me, feelin' free
No pain no more
No blockin' up my own door
All anger out my back door
God, it's good to see

Life got

Got Kinda  hard, I faced it
Fought and cried and almost gave in
All negative forces faded
Love of me just walked right in

I'm just me, I'm enough
With myself I'm in love
I've been weak, I've been low
Made me strong, now I know
I'm just me, I'm enough
Nothin' less, nothing more
I wish everybody could just feel this kind of love

Feels good, feels fine, feels good, yeah
My mind's older
Chip's fallen off my shoulder
All need to prove is over
Good enough for me
Found willingness
Found will to be courageous
No need to feel defenseless, Peace

I'm just me, I'm in love
With myself I'm in love
I've been weak, I've been low
Made me strong, now I know
I'm just me, I'm enough
Nothin' less, nothing more
I wish everybody could just feel this kind of love

 "We are not humans having a spiritual experience, we are spiritual beings having a human experience" ..

Where is all the depth in the world.

Here I am so many thoughts I just dont know were to go to get a piece of silence.  Voices, Speaking, Claws scratching, Its like people scratching at the walls to get out.  So much depth living in a world of shallowness.   This world doesnt seem deep enough to accomidate the depths I am willing, eager and capable of reaching.  Why do I feel so alone.  I dont realy believe that the world is as it seems from my point of view.  I just dont feel like I have figured out the combination or secret to success when it comes to obtaining the world I so desire to live in.