As I promised, here's why I'm no longer a part of the so called Food 4 Less family.  TRUE STORY:They basically fucked me over I was havin a bad day and I just felt like everybody just turned their back on me and started fuckin with me for no reason at all. I once thought everybody was cool with me, but working for Food/Fool 4 Less was a complete mistake. Had I known this was gonna happen, I wouldn't have came here in the first place. I had a shitty day this past Sunday and really wasn't tryin to be anybody's friend. Just wanted to mind my own business, but "low self-esteem" Kathy and "Bitchy" Tracy (don't know what Mike sees in her to this day) decided to continue to fuck with me. I tried talkin to the managers in the store bout the situation, but nobody wasn't really takin any action. So I flipped Kathy off, told her to fuck off/leave me alone and went on about my business. I'm not against white people in any shape or form, but I just felt like the managers took Tracy's and Kathy's word over mine. I tried to tell Tammy that I was sorry for giving her hell even though I felt like she was against me too, but she wouldn't accept it. That hurt me that management wouldn't do anything about the situation that I quit 3 times and ran outside and cried my eyes out. Dave, (my lil white brotha) asked me what happened. I told him only part of it and he couldn't believe that I turned in my badge. Nobody could believe it, not even Jennifer (my lil white sista), even she wanted me to stay. I'm sorry that I let everybody down, but I had to follow and listen to my heart, y'all. 2 all my people who were down with me from day 1: I'll always have much love for y'all cause y'all held me down and kept me sane lol til this point.

 Devan-I'll never forget how u made me laugh about ur crazy situations that u get urself into. I'm blessed to have u in my life as a friend, road dogg. Don't change for anybody whatsoever. Thanks for acceptin me for me, being there for me when times were good and not so good due to recent events in my life and supportin me no matter what. Whip them tricks if they even bring my name up in that store lol. Do u work Friday? cause if u do, let me know what time.

Dave aka Porchmonkey-I'll never forget about ur damn brokeback mountain jokes lol. That got to me at first, but I got over it in my own way. U always had me laughin when u tried to be and even worst, tried to sound black lol. Just like I told Devan, DON'T change for anybody either cause that's what they want u to do. And DON'T forget where u came from cause they WILL try to take ur social and family life from u. *Give Kevin my cell number so I stay in touch with his crazy ass & if he got myspace (tell him to get it if he don't), give him my myspace name. Btw, Do u work Friday, Dave? cause if u do, what time do u work?

Jennifer (my lil white sista)- I wouldn't trade u for anything in the world cause ur 1 in a million. I'm so glad that we became friends cause ur cool and not stuck up like them other tricks up there. Make me Godfather if u and ur man decide to make a baby lol. U'll always be in my heart whenever I look @ my name badge (I may have turned in 1, but I still got the other one lol). Don't change for them, girl cause that's what they wanna see. Thanks for acceptin me for me, being there for me, being my friend, and all that other good shit.

Kevin- I'll admit it that me and u didn't exactly get along cause i thought u were an asshole form the words getgo, but u made me realize that the real u: cool as hell, down to earth and honest. Thanks for makin me laugh, callin my names so u can keep me on my toes and just lettin me be me all the time. U'll be in my heart forever. Stay ya lil ass outta trouble lol.

 I'll be makin 1 final appreance this Friday to get my final paycheck from them bitches! If u know anybody that's hiring, let a brotha know so he can get his money makin on til he gets outta school! lol Leave ur suggestions, comments and concerns here after u read this cause I know y'all will!

I WILL NOT be makin a return to Fool 4 Less after the way they treated me cause the pain will still be there forever and old wounds will just open up all over again. I put my health on the line every single time I walked through those doors and all I got was bullshit. The REAL reason of why I didn't get what i deserved was cause I was still in school. That's the trick y'all, if u want a promotion, U CAN'T BE IN SCHOOL period. I put Glen on blast about that last Sunday b4 I quit for the 3rd time. Amaru didn't want me to leave (or did he?), he just kept askin me if this is what I really wanted to do. I just had bad vibes about the situation and bout some certain people in it. That's why I left. They can get on their hands and knees and beg me to come back, my big ass wouldn't go back if they had a man waitin for me by the exit doors lol. Even though I won't be there in body, I'll always be there in spirit.

That's right, I'm single again. Since my so called boyfriend who "loves and cares about me so much" doesn't have the balls to call me back, I need 2 move on with my life, ain't got tyme 2 wait on any guy. I felt like I was being used and lied to since he won't tell me what else he be doin, other than working. It's his lost, not mine cause I tried to make it workout with me, but he just won't meet me halfway nor will me call me back.

Here's what I'm lookin 4 so take notes: What I want is a real man who'll be totally honest with me at all times, a guy who'll come see me and spend time with me whenever he has some freetime, a guy who'll love me and accept me for me no matter what, and a guy who'll support me through the good and bad times. If u fit all of these categories, hit me up on Yahoo IM-ghettoman20032002. And btw, please be serious and try to be close cause I don't think I'll be tryin long distance relationships anymore after this 1 blewup in my face.

 AFTER U READ THIS, PROMISE NOT TO TELL ANYBODY ABOUT THIS. LET ME SINCE IT'S MY STORY.

 It's a damn shame of how people can fuck u over. For example, this year alone, I've faced many challenges than anyone I know. Here's the reason of why I'm no longer @ PSC aka  harvard on halsted. Somebody/people  told Dean Robinson that I was going to "burndown/torch" PSC, which is so untrue. But like some people, she believed them over me. And to put the icing on the nasty ass cake, she even threatned me in her office in front of one of the officers, Ms. Word, and Mr. Harrt.Yet nobody did anything about that, now did they? I have a right to speak my mind. How come nobody came forward and kick the EIC of the Student Review out of school when she called me a "crazy ass faggot" 2 months ago? Maybe if PSC would have some backbone and some REAL authority figures in there, maybe the school and it's open door policy wouldn't be so out of control right now. I'm like this if u have beef with somebody, let them know right then and there cause I know good and well that some people who had beef with me in there, are now happier than a mother fucker that I got kicked out of there FOREVER. This chapter is closed in my life, FOREVER  and a new one begins very soon.

 

What's the big deal about Valentines Day anyway? I just wanna know cause I don't see any meaning of it at all. Not sayin that cause I never have a Valentine during that time, but cause it's not a legal holiday. I'll admit that I get a lil jealous and sad 2 see people run around wit their flowers, candy and all that other good shit, but damn, don't make such a big fuckin deal out of it like it's Christmas or Thanksgiving. I just wish I had a Valentine to spend it with, instead of me sittin in the cafeteria by myself,  cryin to and feelin sorry for myself while listenin 2 my jams.

I'm over the fact that I'm not a part of the "Student Review" paper at PSC anymore. I know that I pissed the entire staff off during last weeks meeting and I'm sorry for callin everybody bastards and shit like that, but DAMN why in the fuck can anybody on there say anything to me while I'm at school? I sense that people got somewhat of a grudge against me. That's cool though, just don't expect my talented ass to support anything that y'all do cause whether if the same mistake happens twice in the next issue, it ain't gonna matter cause I've seen SR's true colors. I'm not one to start shit/beef, but life is too short for any bullshit. Don't expect me to support any of y'all's events cause it'll be a while b4 this is resolved, if ever resolved. It's a damn shame that the whole school knows about this beef. And don't worry cause I'm not gonna drop my PE class on the count of a certain EIC. Once again, I'm ova it. It's y'alls lost, NOT mine cause y'all r gonna need me than I'm gonna need u. Remember that! Helen told me that y'all didn't want me to leave nor quit the paper, yet nobody had the nerve to bring it up. My voice will be heard on way or another, believe that!

I thought I was over the whole "mistake" about what happened, but something telling me that there is more to the story than what I'm hearing from the horse's mouth herself. I really didn't want it to come down to this. I mean I tried to be the bigger person and accept it and went on about my business, but couldn't cause this is gonna take me a while to get over, if I ever get over this. I know I pissed everybody off with my outbrust during the last meeting, but I just had to get it off of my chest. Here's my thing: I'll wait til the next issue comes out to see if this "mistake" or "mix-up" happens for the 2nd time in a row cause if it does ,then I'll admit that I was wrong. But if it doesn't, i'll know the SRs true colors once and for all. Shit when u think about it, something doesn't sound right to me cause if somebody turns in their articles in late, shouldn't the paper itself come out late? That's what I'm asking myself cause I don't believe the whole " I messed up" or the "ur articles can be published in the next issue. I'm not one to hold grudges, just makin my voice heard loud and clear enough for everybody to hear me. And the voice will be heard from this day forward rather people like it or not and wanna hear it or not. Trust me on that!

If ur a new writer for the Student Review, be careful cause if ur not, most likely u'll get fucked over without anybody tellin u (don't say dat i didn't warn u). Don't know what I'm talkin about, let me break it down for u real quick: Sam made me Entertainment Editor this semester, which I was cool with in the first place. I submitted 4 articles, thinking that my articles were gonna get published in this weeks issue. Boy was I so wrong cause my name (even though my last name was mispelled) said Entertainment Editor, but my articles were not in it. How fucked up is that? I went in the SR office to see what the hell happened. When I walked into the office, the first thing that I noticed was that some unknown guy named "Jeremy" was on the erasable board and I also noticed that some other unknown guy named "Andy" whatever his last name is had about 4 articles in it. That lead me to think 2 things: If this is a favortism issue or something else in general. As a result of that, I decided to quit the newspaper all together cause 1) why should I continue to write if my work isn't gonna be printed and 2) why would u have my name printed as a Entertainment Editor if somebody else's articles are gonna be where my articles supposed to be? If my articles weren't gonna be in the issue, u could've at least said something so I wouldn't have wasted my time writing something that wasn't gonna be publised in the first place. Now that hurt me so bad that words can't describe the disappointment, confusion and lil bit of anger that I feel. It'll take me a while to get over this cause I didn't see this comin my way at all. But my voice will be heard one way or another u can be sure of that. A real editor in chief would've had the balls to say something up front on whether somebody's articles was gonna get published or not.  Had I known this was gonna happen, I would've thought twice before I started typing.  I tried to do the Entertainment features in a new, different way, but guess that wasn't good enough for u. When I broke the news to Helen, she didn't want me to quit. Just like M & O, u tried to screw me. That was the last thing that I was expecting. Nuff said. Feel free to comment on this blog cause I know u want to.

i know some people r gonna think that i have low self-esteem or think as if this is my farewell note. well, it isn't and to the people who think that i'm a crazy asshole with low self-esteem, then they can just fuck themselves with the biggest branch they can find! anyways, i had a fight with my good best friend online last night. i was pissed off about the shit that was goin on in my life and took it out on him, which i didn't mean to btw. i just hope he can forgives me for last night and i hope that we can start over as friends cause he's like one of few people who doesn't judge me, who can relate to me on many levels and who takes out the time to hangout with me when nobody else will. after last night, i cried myself to sleep thinking that i basically fucked up the friendship that i have with him. he's almost like a brother to me cause i never had an honest, truthful friend like him. i just hope we can start over and forget this happened in the first place. and for the record, i do trust u cause there's not that many people who u can trust these days. like i said, i hope we can continue being friends and i know that we're gonna have to work on this cause i know in ur heart that u don't wanna lose me as one of ur boys and i don't wanna lose u as one of mine. just hit me up when u feel comfortable tonight so we can talk and work it out. i thought my grandma was right about one thing though: u don't need friends. i realized that wasn't true cause if u even have one good friend, that's all u need.

It's ya boy again with the first blog entry of the new year. My holiday break was alright, could've been better. I had got the stomach flu the same week that I was supposed to train for my new job. It went away for a few days, but it then returned on last saturday. I had went to the movies with my friend Alex, his gf, his friend, and gf. We had fun and everything. I got very emotional during Christmas cause I made everybody's Christmas by giving them gifts and I knew the 3 young women who died in the Homewood car crashes, may them rest in peace. And then I started to consider not returning to PSC so I could get my mind cleared, but my family and friends convinced me to stay for the spring semester. Then I made some new friends while I was on myspace. I started hanging out with them, whom are cool, understanding, and can totally relate to me. I'm gonna remix it for 2006, in other words I'm gonna make ish happen this year. If PSC thought I was wild and unpredictable last year, they haven't saw nor heard anything yet!

It's me again, everybody. Let me just say that this year has been one that I won't soon forget anytime soon cause of all of the unexpected deaths that caught me off guard. Hopefully next year will be a better one for me. I'm just glad that I'm on my 4 week break off so I can get myself together in time for the new spring semester. My peers, friends and family wishes the same thing for me. Until next time, see u in 2006!