So, as most of you may have heard, I'M PREGNANT!!! Yes it's true, and it was quite a surprise I may add. We weren't planning on this quite yet in our lives, but it just happened! The lord has his plan and we must follow! I am currently 8 weeks along, not too far, but far enough to tell where the baby is on a sonogram. I had a doc's appt. the other day and things are going just fine. As for me, i've been ok, a little sick, but not too bad. Things are going really well so far! I just thought I would give you all a quick update on things.

I AM SOOO FUCKING PISSED OFF!!!!! AAAHHH!!!! Will someone please explain to me why people have such awful stereotypes of Army Wives?? This is what happened. I was already in a kinda bad mood. I am missing my husband, being depressed cause he aint here and was just in a down mood today. It was one of those days and you other army girls know what I'm talking about! Well a customer came in tonight looking for a DVD of the show WEEDS. He had picked up the wrong one and wanted to know if we had the first disc to season 3. We didn't it was checked out. He decided to re-rent a game he had. He came to my register this was the conversation:

Customer: Have you ever seen WEEDS? It's such a funny show me and my wife love it.

Me:No, I haven't seen it. I like the show Army Wives.

Customer: Army Wives? I've never heard of it.

Customers Wife: It's the show that comes on Lifetime honey.

Customer: Oh yeah, so it's about women who cheat on their husbands in the army.

Me: No its not.

Customer: So it's about Lesbian Army Wives?

Me: No its not. It shows the life women who's husbands are in the military and what they go through everyday.

Customer: Yeah they cheat on their husbands.

Me: That's a bad stereotype. No, that's just wrong. I'm an Army Wife. No, that's just not right.

Customer: Well I was in the Army and I know that wives cheat.

Me: (I holler for Kim, the other girl that was working with me) Kim, can you please come take this customer, I can't do it.

Then I run out back and start crying. I mean I was bawling my eyes out! How can someone be so insensitive  and so cruel as to judge me when he doesn't know me or any other Army Wife out there! I know plenty of Army Wives who are faithful and loyal to their husbands! People need to understand that we have a hard time here being an Army Wife! No civilian understands what we have to go through! Especially during a deployment! It's hard people! It's really hard trying to be a rock here at home when the one you love is a million miles away from you and you have no idea when he's coming home or when you'll talk to him next! We have to keep the home front running! We have a hard job!!! Its' not easy! Then people come along like the customer I had tonight and just make it worse! I don't know what do say to people like that! I was to mad my brain was boiling water! Phew, I just had to vent and get that out! I'm so proud of my husband and what he is doing for our country! Some people, like that customer, don't deserve our military men's protection! Ugh! It just tick me off soo much!!! AAHH!!!

I fight back tears
And tell him to "stay tough"
He says he'll be back soon
We both know its not soon enough
Its time to go
I stand to watch him leave
My heart beats faster
As I remind myself to breath
Tears run down my face
A million thoughts in my head
Replaying every memory
All the words we said
It takes more than a man
To put that uniform on
It takes more than a woman
To love him when he is gone
He chose his career
I gave him my heart
To have when he's here
And when were apart
I fall second to the army
That's the way it has to be
His devotion is to our country
But his heart beats for me
I pray again
A night much like the last
To help keep me busy
And make the time go fast
To give me greatness of heart
And the sight to see
The difference in his job
And his love for me
More than anything lord
When danger is in the field
Please protect my soldier
Please be his shield

Well, it’s official! Eugene has left! I had to take him back Saturday. He’s supposed to fly out sometime within the next 2 weeks but noone knows when. He won’t be home until July or August for a 2 week pass and then hopfully he’ll be home for good for Christmas. I miss him. I’m proud of him! That’s the update on him, if you have any more questions, just ask me, I’ll do the best I can to answer them! Thanks for you’re support!!

Ok, this is the deal....I'm SO EXCITED about Eugene comin' home for his 4 day pass! My heart swells with joy! I get to hold him and kiss him! YAY FOR ME!! But....I'm also dreading it. I hate that he's coming home, ya wanna know why? It means that he is going overseas and who knows when I'll get to see him again! Who knows when he'll come home. I'm gonna be so worried, is he ok, is he alive, is he still loving me? If he wasn't coming home on his 4 day then that would mean he is still in the states and he is safe, but no, I'm gonna see him and he is really leaving! I miss sharing life with him! It's so surreal...it's hard to explain to someone who doesn't understand the situation. I'm so happy to see him but I'm so depressed at the same time. I'm just gonna have to suck it up and wait my turn. America, you may have him for now, but he's always mine!!!! Does that make sense? UGH! I miss him.......

I miss my husband. What more can I say? I haven't heard from him in a few days. UGH! I hate not hearing from him...I miss his voice. I miss everything about him! I love him alot so I know that I have to be strong for him. It's so hard.