I haven't really updated any one since Gavin was born and with so much going on I thought I would take a minute and do just that.

GAVIN -
Ok, gavin is the youngest and the easiest to update you on. He's 2 1/2 months old now. He HATES to be lying down and wants to be sitting up if he is awake.  We put him in the jumper that hangs from the doorway, but we have to becareful. The other boys think the jumper is a swing like at the park and want to swing and spin Gavin. Other than that they are GREAT big borthers and always want to help.  He had his 2-month appointment this past week. He has doubled his birth weight and is doing great on the growth chart.

JONATHON JR. -
J.J. is my shy and timid one. He doesn''t like to be without mom for very long at a time, even if dad is around. He has been very watchful of all that Aiden does.  Aiden will learn something new and the next day J.J. will have it figured out, too. Brushing his teeth by himself and getting on Aiden's nerves are his favorite things to do.

AIDEN -
Aiden is my curious instructor. LoL.  He will find ANYTHING to get into and then turn around and teach J.J. how to get into it too.  He also loves to brush his teeth.  His favorite passtime is to sit and watch Jaurassic Park...I think I know the words by heart to all three.  He wants to do everything we do and is learning not only to repeat our actions but our words too.

All in all I have three wonderful boys and a pretty good man. Jonathon is doing good. He is doing his best to take care of us and all though we are both still learning the ropes of parenting, he is a WONDERFUL father.

Carrie

When you have boys you come to expect ---
Most Importantly - Hot wheels in EVERY room of the house, even the bathroom and kitchen.  Scrapes, Scratches, & Bruises in places you forget exist (on you and the boys). A clean shirt (on you or them) only lasts five minutes - if you are lucky. Kites, rockets, and bubbles are essential for outdoor fun.  Don't forget the varieties of balls - baseball, football, golf ball, soccor ball - all of wich get thrown indoors and out if you are not careful. And flowers are picked for mommy - out of her garden of course, which is also where the mud for the mud pies come from. Despite all of this there are hugs, smiles, kisses and teases. There quiet moments and loud laughter. I am blessed to have three boys in my life. (Just Lord help me when the broken bones begin...LoL)
CVT 5/8/2009

Announcing the arrival of:

Gavin Ray Joseph

(Middle names are after his uncles)



Born 20 Feb 2009 at 9:13 a.m.

weighing 7 lbs 9 oz

length of 20 inches


Pictures posted soon!

Carrie Tuck

As always, it seems that the last few weeks of my pregnancy are just slowly dragging by.  The baby is just as active as ever and enjoys late nights, early mornings, and afternoon fiestas. LoL. Usually all times when I am able to take naps or sleep.

We had our finial ultrasound yesterday.  Once again, I was told the baby was a boy, so I have given in to technology and accepted the fact that I will be greatly outnumbered at home.  I've also decided that the child will be a year old before he is named as we have yet to settle even on a few different names.  Part of the ultrasound was in the new 3-D technology so we were actually able to see what the baby will look like.  He has chubby cheeks and tuffs of hair. 

He is all ready 6 pounds so weight is not going to be an issue like I was scared it might be.  I have only gained just over 10 pounds with this pregnancy but I have been ill a lot (with flu and the such) also.

Both of the little guys were present for the ultra sound. I think J.J. just wasn't sure what that lady was doing to his mama, but Aiden was amazed.  He kept looking at the screen and sometimes would give us his three cents on the subject (oh if we only knew what they were saying sometimes).  I still worry about the response the boys are going to have when the new baby does come.  Aiden has been coming up to me, patting my tummy and saying Baby ("AWWWWE"). We also have the baby glider set up with a baby blanket curled up in it.  On occasion I see Aiden go over, pat the blanket and with his little finger to his mounth, he will go "shhh".  J.J. has a little more concerned.  He is no doubt a momma's boy and is not going to like sharing with the new baby.  But I think if we "share" the new baby with him, then, just maybe, he might share mommy with the new baby.

I'll probably try to scan a few of the ultrasound pictures in the next few days so look for a few new pics soon.  Hope everyone is staying warm and dry.

Carrie

I knew loosing my grandfather would be hard when my grandmother died 4 years ago.  But I had no clue, no idea what I was in store for.

My grandfather died last Friday (12/19) which also happen to be my son's second birthday.  His funeral was today (12/23) which happens to be the 6 year anniversary of when I found out the child I was carrying (my first child) had died.

I saw lots of family that I hadn't seen in quite a while.  I gave lots of hugs and got even more in return. I saw old pictures and listened to beautiful music and I watched and I waited.  But know matter how much I wished or how hard I prayed, my grandfather was not waking up.  There would be no mericle.  He was and is gone.

Yes, I know he is in a better place and yes I know he's not going to suffer anymore.  But just because I know these things doesn't mean I don't miss him and feel an empty void in my heart.

That body that lays in the coffin is just an empty shell, an empty shell just like the home I visited some many times over so many years.  After my grandmother passed, it was a hard home to visit, but I always knew that my grandfather was there waiting to see my smiling face.  Now there is no one.

There have been two people in my entire life that NOT once did I question their love for me.  NOT once did I wonder if they would be there for me, because they always were.  There were 6 am phone calls from Germany and mid night calls to 911 because of a panic attack after I lost my son.  There is an endless list of
things these people did for me and now they are both gone.  My soul reason to remain in Missouri when things got rough and My soul reason to return here time after time when I did live far away...they are gone.

I know I have my children to live for now, but it's just not the same.  My children turn to me to kiss their boo boos and to hug them tight.  Who am I left to turn to?  who will be there to mend my hurts and hug me tight.  I feel so alone, so lost, so empty.....Like an empty shell.

IT'S GOING TO BE A BOY!
The ultra sound confirmed today that a new baby BOY Ebling will be born. Due date is set for 27 Feb 2009 and a name had not been discussed. Carrie is feeling better after being treated for a parasite (waterborne) which did NOT effect the baby.  Aiden and J.J. are both doing fine and growing fast.  Aiden's vocabulary grows everyday. Jonathon is doing well and keeping busy at work. This will be the last edition to our family (unless God sees otherwise). 

The picture of the boys (below) was taken just yesterday (30 Sep 2008).

We hope that this e-mail finds you and your family well.
 
Jonathon, Carrie, Aiden, and J.J.

<*> Ex Roommates <*>
It's funny how the expression of "Time heals all wounds" holds some actual truth to it. A little over two years ago, you would hve found Jon and I moving into our own place.  We were leaving behind stressful situations and roommates we no longer wanted in our life.  About a year ago, I ran into the g/f of one of these roommates.  And to my shock, I was offered an apology of the way I had been treated by her.  And then, loe and behold, just this past week I received yet another apology from one of the roommates.  It was quite a shock to read the words.  But those words brought with them peace and the return of a freindship.  Yes, that friendship will have to be slowly rebuilt, but it is one we are glad to have back in our lives.  So to these two people, I say thank you, I'm glad that we are moving past and moving on.  To those who have offered apologies, I want you to know they have been accepted.  Thank you!

<*> Aiden<*>
Aiden is almost 17 months old.  He has been a blessing to us.  He is learning new things everyday and always knows how to bring a smile  to your face (even when he is in trouble).  He is enjoying the life of an older brother with few problems, the biggest one is being a bottle theif.  We were able to break him of a bottle at 9 months (all though he was on formula a few more months).  He also began walking at 9 months and has kept us on our toes ever since.  He enjoys his hot wheels and anything that can be considered a ball.  We are also beginning to potty train. He is very independent and headstrong.  He has no problem telling you how it is, even if you can't understand him. LoL.  He is a our sweet surgar bear.

<*> J.J. <*>
J.J. just turned eight months old this week.  He has been crawling for 2 months now as well as standing up.  For about a month he has been walking while holding on to things and just this past week he has shown us how well he can stand without holding on to anything at all.  He also is very stubborn as he wants to do everything his big brother is doing.  If you look for Aiden you won't find J.J. very far behind.  His main word is mama with an occassional dada and yesterday he demonstrated the correct way to wave and say bye bye.  Everyone loves his precious smile.  He shares it with everyone, even when acting like he is shy.  He is our Lil' Sunshine.

<*> Us <*>
I recently heard a quote on a movie that really makes a lot of since. "It's not about how hard you can hit, but how hard you can get hit and still stand back up."  Life has thrown us alot of hard punches.  Slowly we are learning how to avoid the punches, but more importantly how to surrive and get back up from the ones that catch us.  Life is about learning and growing and that is exactly what we are doing.

<*> Home <*>
We moved into a new home a few months ago.  It is in Camdenton, MO.  it a beautiful (big) house.  If you were to go out onto the front part of our deck you would find yourself not only looking at the lake but also the remains of the Ha Ha Tonka Castle on the hill.  We are happy to be in our new home.  There is plenty of room for the boys to have fun both inside and out.  Hopefully I will have pictures for you to see soon.

<*> Family <*>
Well, I am sad to say that not all news is good news.  After years of making excuses and putting up with the drinking, the excuses, and the pity I have decided that my life is best without the presence of my birth mother.  I thought I was finially getting close to her and tried to confide in her, only for her to stab me in the back.  Yes, my own mother did that to me.  I should have known better.  We had Thanksgiving together as a family but because of the stress she caused, my siblings and I celebrated Christmas together without letting her know we were getting together.  She has continually put  herself a head of her own children, even in times where safety of a child was concerned.  I can no longer have her holding me back from the life I want for my family.

<*> School <*>
I was hoping to graduate in December with my Bachelors degree, from Drury University.  It looks like that is going to be put off for one semester however as I do not want to overload my self.  I still want to leave time for my family.  I have found a graduate school, Capella, where I will be obtaining my Masters degree.  I am excited about the doors these degrees will open up for my in my life.

WoW!  I can't beleive that it has been this long since my profile has been updated.  Well, as you can see, I've gave my page a facelift and started to update it.  Hopefully with in the next couple of days I will get it completely done, including new and recent pics of my boys.

For now, Jonathon and  I have been together for 2 1/2 years now.  I am wearing a ring but a date has not been set.  Aiden is now 16 1/2 months old while J.J. is almost 8 months old.  Both are growing like weeds and both are Angels in mommy's eyes. Aiden loves to get into everything and J.J. gets upset when he can't do what Aiden is doing.  J.J. has been crawling for a while and we look for him to be walking on his own very soon.

I think that will work for now.  I'll write more later this week.  Have a great week and God bless.
Carrie

Well, things have been pretty hectic around here.  First there was the arrival of Aiden into our home.  It's been exciting and we seem to be adapting pretty well.

At first I thought Jonathon was spoiling Aiden by letting him sleep on his chest while he slept as well, but then I discovered it is the other way around.  Jon sleeps even better with the baby there next to him.  That's how they are both sleeping now in fact. 

About 4 weeks ago I called Jonathon up and delivered some news. After 3 postive tests, I told him I was pregnant.  I saw the doctor the next week who determined my due date to be September 4th.  So I am now almost 10 weeks along. I have my second appointment next week and there will be another ultrasound done.  Jon and his mom are both going to the appointment with me.  Jonathon is excited about the new baby.  I keep telling everyone it's going to be a girl...my luck it's gonna be another boy, but oh well, I'll love him just the same.  Jon's mom thinks that if I keep dressing in pink, it will be a girl for sure.  With the loss of two previous children, Jon thought it best to wait a few weeks before releasing the news.  Things seems to be going pretty good, so, I'm not waiting any longer!  LoL!

School and work are going good.  I had enrolled in an 8 wk class right at the start of sememster, but with Aiden and I both having the flu thi past weekend, I found that I am still not adjusted for the time requirements an 8 week class requires.  I dropped the class and picked up a 12 week class instead.

That's about it for now.  Hopefully I'll be able to post an ultrasound picture next week. I hope you are doing good too!

Well, Aiden is now three weeks old.  I can all ready tell that he is growing sooo much.  There have been a few rough moments but all in all, I am enjoying every minute of this experience.  There have been a couple of nights where I got very little sleep, but I haven't complained yet.  Jon is becoming more and more active with Aiden.  I had left him with Aiden for about 30 minutes one day.  When I got home I found Aiden curled up in Jon's arms and both fast asleep on the couch.  It was adorable and I was able to snap a quick photo before he woke up. 

One of the most difficult things going on is my job change.  I was offered a job at the bowling alley and started immediately.  It has been interesting transitioning from tips everyday to none. But in the end I think we will be able to save more money and not worry so much about finances.  Another plus is that it is tax time.  We are planning on buying a car and maybe even moving into a different home.  We have been in this one for almost a year and all though we do like it, the stairs make life difficult with having Aiden.  I feel like if I am going to be upstairs then he needs to be up there to.  The propane bill is ridiculous also.

Well, if anyone wants to read more about Aiden, he has his on MySpace with lots of pictures.  The page is:
http://myspace.com/aidenchristoffer

I hope everyone is have a great new year!  Happy 2007!

For those of you who do not all ready know, I have become the mother of a beautiful boy.  Aiden Christoffer Lee was born at 2:33 pm on 19 December. He was 8 pounds 13 ounces and 21  1/2 inches long.  I brought him home on Decemeber 21.  Life will never be the same.  This was the best blessing and the most wonderful Christmas Gift I could ever ask for.  For those of you who wonder...YES, God does answer prayers!