Niki had what I believe to be her first tea party with new friends today. I have mixed emotions about this. She's never really had a friend outside of school and family. I wrote about it over here if you're interested. 

Between all the laundry, dishes, poopy butt washes, cooking, working, etc., I've been having a blast. So much has been going on and as the days go on, I feel even more happy, loved and free. I can't even begin to blog about it all.. but you can get a good taste of it from the videos I've posted here as well as on my flickr stream. Also, there are a bunch of videos to go along with the stories.

From family time to me time, I've been having so much fun. And loving it.

My girls also have blogs: Niki's here and maeby's here

Enjoy. I sure have.

Last year this month Amber and I went to our first show together. We bonded in the pits of Social Distortion and Smashing Pumpkins.



This year, almost like an anniversary to last year, we went to another show together. This time bonding in the pit of Bad Religion.



bonding = enjoying the music. linking arms so we don't lose each other. getting smashed by all the other bodies. sweating together. holding hands. jumping up and down. laughing. screaming. having the time of our lives.

Just in case anyone thought bonding meant anything else. ;)

I wish I could hate you with every inch of my soul
But I once held you near and dear to my heart
I wish I could hate you more than an ache in my spine
But you once were my family, my friend, or my lover

I wish I could hate you with every inch of my being
But I once felt I could confide in you my secrets
I wish I could hate you more than slitting my wrists
But you made me love you before you walked away

I wish I could hate you with every inch of my mind
But I once thought you would always be here
I wish I could hate you more than my aching heart
But you embedded yourself in my thoughts forever

Yet no matter how hard I try... I can't.


* Many people have come into my life, settled in, made me love them, then picked up and left. They left me with a bad feeling in my heart and soul because I know they don't care how much I hurt. These people may not think so, but I will always care about them and wish them the best no matter how badly they've treated me or what they think of me. I think they know who they are, I sure do. If you are one of them, believe me when I say:

I'm sorry for not being everything you've wanted and a whole lot of what you hated. I don't mean to be imperfect.

I wear my heart on my sleeve and I wish you would tread lightly.

First TWO Baeby Teeth!!!