It's Sunday morning.  I have my toast and my coffee and the sun is shining through the windows....and you know what I really want???  A newspaper.  A big, floppy, 20 pages long, get your fingers dirty with black ink NEWSPAPER.  I know, I know.....  I know I can jump on the internet for any kind of news I'm looking for.   In a matter of 30 seconds, I can go from the Tennessean to USA Today to the Lawrence Journal World to the New York Times.  If that in itself wasn't handy enough, lets talk about the fact that I can do all of this without wasting a single sheet of paper!  Incredible!  I get it.  It's the age of the internet and it's just....fantastic.  So freaking super duper.

Cool, cool, cool!!!  Despite the fact that my cell phone broke and took all my numbers, email addresses and my schedule with it...I'm going to have a killer night.  I'm going to get all comfy and read my book.  

I know we are in a recession, but you'd never know it in san antonio or oklahoma city. Each night I've gone out to eat, the restaurants are all packed to the brims with happy people spending money on food. Its good to see for a change.

It was like 107 in oklahoma and now its like 95 here after the sun goes down, but very dry & not annoying. I had no idea that san antonio was one of the 7 largest cities in america. I never hear about it! Its gorgeous, though! Gorgeous.
Looking forward to seeing more of it tomorrow.

My bff, jules, lives in austin, where I'm going tomorrow afternoon & I'm super pumped to see her. Who knows what kind of shenanigans we will get into. We are a wiley pair.

I'm going to read "the shack" before bed. Ever read it? This book is so special. I'm loving it. It is making me think about my life in a different way and I love that. I love paradigm shifts! I'm gonna go lose myself.

Later!
Xo

This is just to see if this will actually post. I'm sarah buxton. I'm 5'7" & white. I like to sing & dispise politics. I love to eat & I'm hungry right now for Athen's greek diner on 8th avenue in nashville. I could throw the smack down on some pita bread with eggs over-easy right about now. I love blankets! Ok let's see if this blog posts....cross fingers...

What a killer weekend it's been.  So glad we came home for my bday.

Every thursday night, my grandpa Herbie meets all of his friends at the American Legion to have drinks and be merry.  Every thursday!  I'm so glad he has this night to be social and just have fun.  These people GET DOWN!  There's more people dancing at this shin-dig than I see at any bar full of singles on a friday night in Nashville!  And all these people are like 70 years old and older.  You see the jitterbug...the foxtrot...2 step...and you can just imagine what they looked like in the prime of their life!  So beautiful.  Anyway, Tom and I showed up and the band let me sit in on a couple of songs.  The band's leader is Clyde.  He is a 93 year old sax player who has the most incredible feel...  It was such an honor.

Shopping downtown in Lawrence beats anywhere I've ever shopped in the U.S. and I have DONE some shopping.  We hit urban outfitters and did a little bit of damage there...and then we went into the antique shops, the head shops, the shoe shops, the art shops, the tshirt shops until we ended the whole experience with a RAINBOW SHERBET ice cream cone from Penny Annies.  The parking meters kick butt, too.  You put a quarter in and you get a whole hour.

Last night, my folks took us to eat at this place called Cafe Beautiful.  It was upstairs on Mass Street, next to a place called Hookah House...they swear they're only smoking tobacco....uh huh...  Anyway, you get the whole restaurant to yourself.  They only take one reservation at a time.  It's an 8 course asian inspired meal... BYOB.  It gave us a chance to have some interesting discussions, to say the least. 

At the end of the night, Tom and I met my friend Hilary Morton and her boyfriend, Chris, at Liberty Hall for the midnight showing of Pee Wee's Big Adventure.  The whole theatre was filled with high school and college aged kids.  PACKED.  As soon as the movie started, everyone in there was laughing their a*%es off and it didn't stop until the whole movie was over.  I haven't laughed that hard in such a long time!  I was suprised at how funny it was after all these years.  SO BIZZARE.

Hey peeps,

Everybody clench your fists and squeeze you arms, shoulders and chest muscles like a body builder and GRIT your teeth. Now try and hold your body like that for a couple of weeks. That was me. Until today. Something's lifted, thank goodness. Do you guys ever feel like that???
I know I'm so blessed and lucky to be a songwriter and a performer and bla bla bla.....but sometimes I feel like I'm stressing out over needless things and I can't stop myself from doing it.

Yoga. It helps. Music. It helps. Good food. It helps. But sometimes....it only helps a little and you wanna just get outta town for a couple days and meet some new people in a small town and help them do THEIR work for a change... Sometimes...you wanna just CUT your hair off, because you don't feel like brushing it! SOMETIMES....you wanna sit and think of nothing, but you can't think of nothing, because your brain wont let you and all you can do is TRY to think of nothing, which isn't really thinking of nothing....it's thinking of EVERYTHING!!!!

So anyway, God answered my prayer for peace....or shall I call it my PLEA FOR PEACE...and the crick in my neck....the CLENCH in my jaw....just evaporated. I think it has to do with my new realization of exactly which things are in my control and which things aren't.

Here's what I came up with.

I can control:
-my overall wellbeing/health
-the music I sing/write
-who my friends are
-how I spend my money
-which route I take wherever I drive/walk

And there's tons of those little things....but that's about it.
Everything else I can't do a DERN thing about and I might as well forget about it!

So....I realized that my life is super duper WAAAAAY easier than I have been making it.
I just have to manage my expectation of how the rest of the world responds to me being me...me just doing what I can to make my life what I want it.

You see...I will control the little things that I can control. AND THEN I TRY AND CONTROL THE OUTCOME OF WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. But I can't control that and I couldn't if I tried and tried and tried. What will happen will happen and that's that.

It's what happens to us DREAMERS... We dream big. We set it all up. We make sure everything's just right. And then we let our hearts break when (after we worked and worked to get everything all freakin "PERF") the universe doesn't respond the way we'd hoped. In reality, we should be AMAZED when ANYTHING GOES RIGHT. We should be freakin AMAZED. Like that guy said on Conan O'Brien...what was that comedian? Do you know who I'm talking about? Anyway, it's called "everything's amazing and nobody's happy". It's pretty HILARIOUS---you should check it out.

My POINT and then I'll stop....is that it's good to dream. It's good to shoot for the moon, I think. But that's where the fun should be. The fun should just be in BEING YOUR SWEET, BEAUTIFUL SELF and in THE SHOOTING FOR THE MOON. Whether you hit the moon....well....there's a lot that goes into that that you don't have much to do with. I think. Just for your consideration...

MUCH LOVE AND KEeP DREAMING!! xoxoxoxo


 

It's been a great few days here in NYC and I'm sad to say I"m packing up and leaving. I could stay here another day or two....and NOT WORK....just walk around and sight-see. It's such a gigantic collage here of fashion, delicious food, and fascinating people that you can't help but have a good time.

We did a show last night at Joe's Pub. It was Bob Dipiero, Rivers Rutherford, Casey Beathard, Dave Berg and me up there on stage and I couldn't have been more honored to be on the same bill as those MONSTER songwriters. They just bust out hit after hit!! I was so surprised to see so many people that have been following my music since the last time I was here. Familiar faces are the best. I even got a Tshirt with a picture of me and two sweet girls named Taylor and Jamie on it. It was a picture they took last time and had it ironed onto a shirt and they gave it to me last night. I wanted to cry, saying goodbye to them, because of the sweet look in their eyes.

Another sweet kid named Matthew Toffler was there and i met him last time, too. He had so much to tell me and ask about my songs...."WHEN IS THE RECORD COMING OUT???" I told him I'm doing everything i can!!

We went to the Bowery Hotel bar after the show.

uh oh...I just looked at the time and I gotta go!!! Sorry for the abrupt end to this blog!!