Do you ever feel like everything in the world - your world, the world that surrounds your existence and perspective, that is - is all upside down? BUT AT THE SAME TIME... SOMEHOW... things just keep going along?
Time passes. You go to work, the bills get paid, you take the trash out. Grandparents keep growing older, and your friends keep getting married and having babies.
You take pictures of yourself at fun places, you try to make more money at work and you try to do it in less time... and then you go to another wedding. People get fired and new people get hired - if they stick around long enough, you pick up their name.
You go to buy yourself new bed sheets and you start to realize your mom is going to be in your life a lot longer than you ever imagined. you start to accept the fact that your cat probably will be too. so you change his litter box and take the trash out.
You know people who might go to jail, you know people in jail, your co-worker goes to jail...you pick up their shift
the smiley face is the most expression that some of my friends see of me... i sure hope i don't go to jail.
You start recycling all of your trash only to find that it's all being sucked back into some vortex in the middle of the Pacific ocean!
And SOMEHOW everything still is really fine...But it's all so much, so fast, and so ALL THE TIME that things are always passing by you without you really being able to appreciate them fully - in the moment.
It's hard for me to recall the last time i was in the moment. Those moments seem so far a part from each other. and yet i spent so much of my time in college (my second one) working so hard to learn exactly how to - BE IN THE MOMENT. you think i might be getting all sappy here, but all i'm trying to say is HOW THE HELL is someone supposed to be IN THE MOMENT, when it turns out that adult life, thus far, has presented itself as some digitally enchanced day-in/day-out real-life FunHouse revolving tunnel?!
I just wanted to send a shout out to all of my friends...and any of my foes for that matter (i'm not skerd!) and say that if this is what life is??
Then i say "Look folks, we should just be proud that we make it through MOST days without falling FLAT ON OUR FACES in the tunnel.
'Cause lets face it, there are still too many of those days where we not only trip and fall, BUT can't get our feet up and under us fast enough - and then before you know it, there you go getting rolled up onto the side of the damn kalidoscope tunnel...watching other people passin' ya by with those bluetooth thingy coming out of their ears).
Let cut the bull, if anyone's going to expect me to be having real, sincere and genuine IN THE MOMENT fun doing it?! I think you're gonna have ask me again in 5-6 years and will see if I've gotten a better hang of it!
At least I can get to sleep better at night feeling like I've GOTTA be doin better than poor Britney Spears or Owen Wilson. SCHADENFREUDE - for sure.