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Krystel Tien


Last Updated: 3/21/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Married
Age: 23
Sign: Virgo

City: Ocean Beach
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 11/24/2004

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Tuesday, June 02, 2009 
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Thursday, July 31, 2008 

Current mood:  rejuvenated
In two days I will be Mrs. Joel Tien! I can't believe that the day is finally here.
I really don't feel old enough to be getting married. I still feel like a little girl inside, that can't believe she is really allowed to live with her best friend and the love of her life.
I really have been so blessed...
A little beach house, made for two.
A wonderful new family
All of my family coming to be with me in this special time
All of my friends supporting me
Knowing that God really conducted every part of this.. our meeting, our engagement, our marriage.

Tonight a lot happened that made me want to write...
I went over to the hotel room where the Tiens are staying, and I love their family. Liz, Abbie and Jesse! I finally will have brothers and sisters, ones who love me and whom I truly care about. And as we got ready to leave Rusty (Joels Dad) asked if the whole family could stand around and have a prayer time and just a time when we could all be together. Cousins, Uncles, Aunts, brothers, sisters, mom, dad- Most of the Tien crew. Some gave speeches welcoming me into the family, others prayed for us. Some just talked to Joel about how amazing they were that God had always been working in his life. There was just so much love and beauty in that room. I saw Abbies eyes twinkle and I knew.... this was it! This was my new wonderful family! My wonderful family who loved Jesus! This is all new to me, but I am really enjoying it.

Then tonight I got home and talked to a friend I haven't talked to in a while, the only one that I didn't have things cleared up with... the only thing that has been bothering me for the past 2 years. And tonight we talked... we let it all out. We told each other the truth of both sides. She told me the things I never knew. I told her what had been happening with me, and she told me what I have wanted to know, what I have spent sleepless nights wondering and what I had cried many tears over and lost my closest friends for. The reason behind everything... God knew I needed to hear it before I got married. Isn't it funny how when His timing is right, things just fall into place.
Things I wasn't suppost to know until tonight for some reason. 2 nights before my wedding. When I should be sleeping or writing my vows, God has other plans... He used tonight to teach me.

As I go into my new marriage, I know that I have been through a lot to get here. I have dated many men- had my heart broken many times, and all along God knew. Joel was waiting for me. The boy from Michigan, the boy who loved sports and would love me ever more... lol... unconditionally. Someone I could be myself with, open up to, and see God in. I can see God more in Joel Tien than anyone else I know, just though the love he has for me...I see how Christ loved the Church. I see Gods heart through Joels servanthood, goodness and honesty. We had some bumps along the way... some trials, but as with everything else they made us stronger.

As I enter into my marriage, I am not nervous at all.... I am just ready, ready to be married to the man of my dreams and live happily ever after... its not ever after yet though. There is still so much I want to do, so many adventures I want to go on. I will now just get to share it all with him... my best friend, the love of my life.... JOEL DAVID TIEN!

I cant believe it! TWO DAYS!

To all of my friends who have been there for me... thank you- I have needed you now more than ever, and even though I have been really busy and may not have been able to spend time with each of you... I have been thinking about you, praying for you... I have been so grateful for you.
I really really really have been blessed!
Love you all, especially you Joel... Thank you for teaching me about Who God is, how much He loves me, and how much you love me.... and for showing me- in so many ways!
Love in Christ, Forever and Always,

Krystel Stacey (almost Tien)
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Sunday, June 08, 2008 

So tonight I went out with old friends, we just sat at starbucks and talked about all of our old memories together. Wow there is so much that we forget even over a short 4 or 5 years. The things we thought were so important that really mattered to us, things that others remember faintly or not at all. And think about all of the memories that only you have. No matter how much you try to tell someone about them, if they weren't there in that moment with you- it really doesnt mean much to them. There are so many memories that I have, that only I will really ever know about, or me and one other person, or me and 10 other people. But no one else will understand those memories. I guess thats the beauty of life.

The secrets that you never told anyone then, but that come out now- the crushes, the fights, the laughter, the tears. How many memories I have at my wonderful summers at working out at Indian Hills camp and going to camp at Forest Home. hmmmm.... My biggest problem then was that I hugged people "too much" and that was bad. lol I just wanted to love on people. Then I was hurt when others were offended by it, now I can just laugh.

All of the secret feelings that were only shared between you and another person that no one else knew about... some how those are the memories that make up our lives. Our closest friends, our best moments and our worst moments all revolve around relationships. So many things came out tonight just in two hours of talking with old friends- old camp staff who worked together, sweat together, loved together and just were together. Indian Hills Camp taught me about life, about living and about what to live for. Forest Home Camp taught me about boys and where I stood and how to fit in with other girls. Both camps taught me about adventure and that life really is a journey. The only one who can remember every moment of my life better than me- is God. He is the only one who has been there through it all, the only one who really really understands EVERYMOMENT- EVERY FEELING. Everything I did, I did for a reason and He knows them all. I know this may seem very common to all of you, but for me tonight I learned it all over again.

The memories I have of summers past... summers that would last forever... they were wonderful and sorrowful, and I will never forget them. I dont want to. But I am also so excited to live in these new summers, with new friends, new places... with my almost husband. I can't believe that I am almost married. CRAZY.... and tonight I really looked back and saw how crazy it was- how much I went through to find the right guy, and how much I will always cherish the old.

These summers to come are going to be AMAZING.. I just know they won't last as long. Time seems to move so much faster as I get older. Days seem like hours and hours like minutes. Years from now, I wonder how fast my life will be spinning, or is it a cycle and at some point it will slow down again? I really dont know...

Anyway... This blog is to all the wonderful summers spent at camps and on missions trips and with people that I loved, and the many more to come. If you ended up reading this.. please take some time to share a special moment with me- something that only you and I would remember, something that I might have forgotten about, it feels so good to remember... Remind me of a time that we had. A special time... A SUMMER TIME!  -message me, leave a comment, text me... I dont care- lets just share memories!

Well Goodnight all!

Sweet Dreams!

Love in Christ,

Krystel Sayles

P.S. Thanks Reanna, Sara, Britt, and Kyle. LOVE YOU!

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Friday, May 02, 2008 
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Monday, December 24, 2007 

Current mood:  awake
Category: Life
THIS IS IT! THIS IS LIFE!
Tonight I realized that I haven't been living as much as I should. We only get one chance. One time around in this life.
So why are we so cautious,
why dont we tell others what we really think,
why do we care about what other think,
why dont we do what we love,
why do we work at a place we hate,
why do we continue to do the same thing, day after day,
why dont we try something new,
why does anyone ever fight, life is too short,
why dont we love more,
why dont we forgive and forget,
why dont we hold on tight and JUMP,
why dont we get over ourselves and start living life as it is meant to be lived,
FREE,
Unbound,
contagious,
boldly,
why dont we push back our fear and press forward,
Little by little, I am getting rid of the things that hold me back,
I hope that in reading this,
you too decide to let go,
and LIVE like there is no tomorrow,
why are we so sure that there will be a tomorrow,
thats one thing we dont have control over,
thats why we should live in today!
Just some thoughts I had tonight...
Merry Christmas!
Love,
Stella
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Sunday, December 02, 2007 

Current mood:  thoughtful

Hey friends this is going to be a long entry but one worth reading... .please let me know what you think about all of this. Then I will post one more within the next week or so on other teachings of Dr. McKinney.

Over this past semester Dr. McKinney has taught me so much! I have learned more from him in my World Literature class, then I ever have in all of my Bible classes here at Point Loma. He has made me think about life... truely consider the hard questions ...things I have never thought about, and ideals that I have thought too much about.

I would like to share the wisdom he has shared with me with all of you- Just some things to think about....

1. So many times I have wondered why there is so much pain in this life. Why people are starving, tortured, and hurt by so many things of this world.there is cancer, why  Why children die, why people die in freak accidents, why?  Why would GOD let that happen if He is LOVE? Why does he says he will take care of us like He takes care of the sparrow. And yet the sparrow ends up dead on my doorstep after my cat has gone out for its morning breakfast. Yeah, it really looks like God took care of it. How can all of this be true?

Answer- A little girl wants to ride her bike outside, but as a father- you want to be there with her and make sure she has her training wheels on, but all she wants is for you to take them off and let her be free. She want to do it on her own. We all do. And the selfish side of the father says- I should keep the training wheels on forever, but the pure love side says- I have to let her go sometime, it really is whats best for her. That is what she wants.

We choose the life of RISK!

Until we fall...

and then we want to take it back, but its too late. Yes we will fall and yes it will hurt, but thats the way we want it.

WE WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY.

we would be so upset at him for keeping us from trying.

Just like highschool football players- they want to play with all of their heart. They know they have a risk of getting hurt- but they still choose to play. When they get hurt- yeah it hurts really bad and they want to take back their choice to play in that moment, but the next time they have a chance to play- they will again.

ITS FREEDOM

Freedom that GOd has given to us comes with a great opportunity for Joy and a great opportunity for pain.

The greater the love, the greater the pain- and we continue to affirm life.

2. Dr. McKinney spoke of Change and how hard it is at times. How at his sons last football game- he didnt want to leave the stands. He couldnt believe it was over, his sons highschool life was over. This meant letting go. And as he looked out onto the football field after everyone had left the stands, there were still two players out on the field. Two senior boys- one was laying on the ground face down, and the other was hugging the goal post.

This is when he saw that as hard as it may be- the boy had to let go of the goalpost to ever move on in life. Its the same with every memory, every time period in our lives.

The hardest thing to do is to let go, move on, and still remember. Its the balance of life. To let go of the goalpost and move on to the next but not get rid of the good memory. I am sure you know many people who havent let go of the goalpost- of their highschool lives, or of their last relationship, or of their last great accomplishment. But the truth is, until we let go- we can never move on to the next great thing in our lives.

This life is about collecting memories of all kinds, not just lingering on one. This was a very hard lesson for me to learn- I dont like change.

I am going to share a personal letter between Dr. Mckinney and I because maybe it will help you better understand these first 2 concepts. I have at least one more but I will leave it at this for now. Enjoy my letter to him and his response. I know its long, but I know its worth it.

From: Krystel S Sayles
Sent: Tuesday, November 06, 2007 11:52 PM
To: Michael McKinney
Subject: Class today and what I need to make up...

Hey Dr. McKinney,
Your class really hit me hard today, I have a really hard time with change (ok so I hate it). And its good to hear that everyone goes through it with something, but that moving on is what we must do. I have to tell you your class has made me struggle with many questions and former opinions I had, and I seem to bring up your teachings quite often now in conversation. I have cried over many of the things we have discussed in class-( I know emotional girl) but still, "the sparrow" and so many times since then people have said, "Well God will take care of you"... and I think to myself but the sparrow ends up dead and so will all of us someday. Or yesterday my fiancé was over and we were discussing life and he said well, "God wont give us more than we can bear", but as of my recent medical mishap. It has hit me hard that many are given more than they can bear- some are ready to deal with death, but many aren't- and they still die. Sounds so cynical and I am such a loving and happy person, that at first I had a hard time with these ideas, but I am also a thinker and in thinking- I have seen that this is Hard truth, but its Truth and its good truth. So struggling with these thoughts and clinging to God at the same time has become an interesting paradox. I know that God is there, I know He is Love and that He will be with me in whatever I am going through, but I will go through rough times- and we all have learned this as we grow throughout the years, but in your class things have really hit me. Anyway today I don't know if you noticed but I got a little emotional and I think it was just a collision of everything, what you were talking about had been such a struggle in my life and it was good to know that it was ok to struggle with change, but that we have to move on. And I think that I have been dealing with that better lately and then today in my Bible class he was talking about Death and I brought up a few points and while I was in the hospital I thought about death a lot, and about the pain of so many. And today in class I got a topsy-turby feeling in my stomach ( on top of the pain inside of my stomach, because I forgot to take my pain pills before I came to class) and after class I had hoped to talk to you about the week I had missed, but I found myself walking back to my room- struggling with more thoughts from your class, taking my pain pills and then laying down in bed hoping to organize everything in my head. I still don't have it all figured out and I know I never will and I shouldn't, but it was a good afternoon of thinking to say the least and a little bit of healing- physically and spiritually. Thanks so much!
Love in Christ,
Krystel Sayles
P.S. Sorry my grammar isn't very good in this, its more just a string of thought and now its too much of a grammar mess for me to fix it. lol... hope its fine.

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Krystel,
 
Thank you so much for pouring out your soul. 
 
You are obviously a profound thinker and will not settle for euphemistic platitudes to extremely difficult questions.  I know we say "God will not give us more than we take," but that implies that God is the "giver" (cause) of so much pain, suffering, and even evil and that "he" kind of lets off when we get close to our breaking point.  That is a very strange concept of a loving God; certainly God does not plan the rape, or the murder of people (or the violation of a child) just to test our endurance.  Furthermore, I must admit, there is much that I personally could not endure, i.e., the death of my child, or even my grandchild.  I had a dear friend (female), deeply committed to Christ and marvelous Christian, who lost her son and she put up a great face for several years.  The pain was too great, however, and she ultimately took her life, for she just could not endure the daily pain that went with that loss -- and all because she loved so greatly. 
 
Surely I would "survive" such tragedy -- but how?  And yet we, as Job, do continue to affirm life and to love, and despite the pain (which can be overwhelming), we nevertheless continue to love -- which to me is the greatest affirmation of an active God.  Moreover, we also empathize with the pain of others, which again is an express demonstration of love. 
 
I fear the ambiguities and vagaries of life will continue as you grow older and wiser and you may never figure it out, as I certainly have not, nor, as we have learned of late, did Mother Teresa.  But you will continue to grow and excel, you will continue to cherish your relationships with your family, your fiancé, and one day, most likely, your own children.  And you will suffer immensely as a mother, and at the same time you will experience unspeakable joys.  And I suppose that is the meaning (or essence) of life: unspeakable joys and sometimes unbearable pain.    The joys make it all worthwhile, however,  -- at least I trust it does.  Easy for me to say at the moment, for others might have a different outlook, depending on how life is hitting them at the moment.
 
I so greatly appreciate you sharing your thoughts.  As for the quizzes, they are all excused.  And finally, I really have to tell you that you are also an incredible writer.  Few students (or people in general) are able to write well, and you most certainly do, both in substance and in style.  So keep up your writing, however you are able.
 
We'll chat again,
 
Dr. McKinney
 
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Monday, October 01, 2007 

Current mood:  productive
Hey everyone!
I am in this class called Life of Holiness and our professor asked to give up something that causes noise in our life or takes away from time that could be better spent somewhere else. I started thinking about what took up a lot of my time- why I didnt have as much time to write in my journal or get into the Word of God, and other than homework- myspace & facebook was the answer. I think this is going to be good for me, but very hard at the same time. Taking a break for seven weeks will hopefully help me make better use of my time. If you need me for anything or if you are having a party or just want to chat- send me an email- Ksayles100@ptloma.edu - or call me! Enjoy the next seven weeks- I will be back on THANKSGIVING! I hope to have lots of wonderful messages! LOVE YOU ALL!
Love in Christ,
Krystel Sayles
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Saturday, April 28, 2007 

I want to build a sand castle,
I want to lay in grass,
and make a bouquet of wild flowers,
and run through the forest,
play hide and go seek,
sing until my voice is gone,
laugh until it hurts,
spend whole day, just me and Jesus,
Sit in the country and stare at the stars- saying up all night talking.... about anything... and everything.... - A Walk to Remember style,
stand on the pier by the jetty and dance with my love,
Run and run until I cant take another step,
Fly in my dreams,
JUMP and fall and fall and fall only to be caught in a white cloud,
I want to gather sea shells- whole ones on a far away beach,
I want to take a nap in a hammic,
Dance in the rain, and if I am lucky kiss in the rain,
Stand in the sun- arms straight out- gazing at the sky- then lay down in a field next to a lake and soak up the sunshine- so I will glow for a few days....

I think I will do these things this summer... These are my summer goals! I am excited... its almost here!
Love in Christ,
Krystel Sayles

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Friday, April 27, 2007 

Current mood:  optimistic

For those of you who have read things that are similar to this before, this is a somewhat differnt sitution, inner turmoil that I have to get out... I have been hanging on to for too long...

WHen others treat you terribly ...
why do we hold on?
When others have nothing to say to us... but we still care- why do we try so hard?
When friends turn their backs why do we try so hard to turn them around....
I guess sometimes you just gotta let go...
I know I seem to write about it alot, but I was say its my biggest trial...
Letting people go... friends go... I dont see why they have to go, but I have to let them.
They push me away until I cant stand it any longer and then I break- I struggle to have them in my life and maybe it would just all be easier if I just went with the flow and let go the moment they started to walk away....
Yet something inside me says you cant give up that easily on someone... SO I try-
Is it worth it?
I donno- they still go... it still hurts... they still dont care...
but I had to make a effort.
I did... I tried... I have to let go now...
I have say bye and turn around to the beautiful people who are waiting with arms wide open....
To people who do care...
Who love me more than life itself...
TO my God who will always be there for me...
To my family and my boyfriend and my roommate and my best friends.... who still remain- I LOVE YOU! Thank you for being a strong hold in my life!
LIFE IS GOOD-
GOD IS GOOD-
and I gotta be happy with that...
NO-
I AM HAPPY WITH THAT...
NO...
I'm JOYFUL!
Love in Christ,
Krystel Sayles

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Friday, March 02, 2007 
This is the way I see it...
Life isnt what we expect...
its not always what we want...
No matter how old you are- life surprises you...
Things don't work out they way we want them to...
Yet they do work out.. I am not saying this goes for EVERYTHING... but for most things that I have seen in my life and the lives of those around me...
God knows best and He has a bigger plan or a better plan that what we had for ourselves...
We have to trust in this even though we dont see it at the time...

When I was held back in third grade, I had to do it all over again, I had to meet all new people and I was made fun of, but now I see that if I wasnt in the class that I had to be in, my life would probably be completey different because the choices I would have made with the people in the first class might not have been the best ones. Also I would have fallen behind in my class, and I definately didnt end up being the smartest kid, but I did end up being the president of my highschool. God knew where I should be.

I grew up with an alcoholic father, as so many kids do these days. At the time when I couldnt tell anyone, because I was afraid people wouldnt want to be my friend. I also thought that if I had a perfect father my life would be more wonderful. But I think having the amazing dad I did- made me into the person I am today. I can sypmathize with many children as well as being able to make better choices because I have learned from the life my dad has lead. I am so grateful now that I went through those hard times when I was so young and even today- because he is an amazing man caught up in something so constraining. Many college kids decide to live it up with drinking and I have never seen anything good come out of it. I am glad I dont have to try it for myself because it has been modeled in my life. Thank you GOD!

My closest friends decided not to talk to me anymore... I made new ones- Got out of the rut and moved on with life. Even though at the time, I thought it was the end of the world.

I have had 4 really hard break ups- I thought I was going to marry that man and for one reason or another it didnt work out. If it was up to me, it would have, but I am not in control- God has now blessed me with the love of my life, a man who loves me unconditionally and who cares for me like I have never seen another man do- Happy 7 months to us baby! Even though at the end of each of those relationships my heart was broken and each one pierced me deeply, I see now that God had a plan all along.

My friend had a baby, unmarried and at the age of 19- That was the end of her of her world or maybe it was just the end of the world being about her... but the begining of something so much bigger. This baby is the biggest and best blessing in her life.

One of my best friends who I lived with, packed up her stuff and left, not just my room, but for the most part my life as well... its been hard for me to grasp and as of last semester I thought it was the end of the world, but this only helped me to see the friends who will stick by me through thick and thin, the friends that really do love me. She always knew it was going to be good for her, but I had such a hard time with it and now I see the real blessing it was. It also helped me to see that there were other ways to live... my new roomie is pretty stinkin amazing. Thank you GOD!

The summer my mom wouldnt let me go to Africa, I thought it was the end of the world- I couldnt do what I wanted to- I had to go to on a different trip. Australia and New Zeland ended up working out... and that was definately one of the best trips of my life and one summer later God and my mom allowed me to go to AFRICA- I was able to experience both, which when my mom said no, I didnt see the blessing in, but now I understand that God had an amazing plan for me to go at the time that I did and bond with the people I did.

When Brandon Hill and his secratery said I couldnt get into Flex because I hadn't been to enough chapels, and I am the chaplain of the sophomore class, I thought thats it... what am I going to do. And now I am starting to see that Goodwin will help me to meet more people and get the best of both worlds, with friends living in flex and meeting all the people I will in Goodwin.

NOt knowing what I am going to this summer... AFRICA, being a Princess at Disney Land, working at a camp, staying home, I just dont know yet... and at first I was having a hard time with it- Everyone is getting their stuff together- I NEED A PLAN. And now I see that the door of opportunity is open, there is so much that I could do- I am glad I havent been nailed down to anything yet.

Midterm week- hmmm I still dont see the blessing in it... haha, but its almost over and thats a blessing.

Anyway- I have had some bad days, some bad situations, some hard times and now I see that they were blessings... Things dont work out the way I want them to, but thats only because God has a different plan, a better plan- that we just cant see right now. As I talk with many of my friends, they are going through some rough times right now, and even though you cant see it right now my friends- this too shall pass and there is a reason for it. Its ok to hurt, to cry, and to ask God WHY? But just know that everything will be ok... it will!

This is just some encouragement after a long week of hard work and a long life of many dissappointments, but remember there is blessing in each of these.

ROMANS 3:5-5... Look it up- it will get you in the word and it will give you HOPE!


I am always here for anyone... not just to encourage.. but just to listen, just to be with you, or to cry with you, or to laugh and smile with you... doesnt matter- just know I am here!

Love in Christ,
Krystel Sayles
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